James was running through the white corridors, his heart pounding, just a couple of hours ago he had made a resolution to make things right with Severus and now it turned out that the boy was in St. Mungo's after a beating at the hands of his horrible father.
He just hoped it wasn't too late and that Severus was all right. Lily had sounded hysterical as she had told him what had happened when she had suddenly turned up at his house, she herself didn't have many details she had only found out what had happened after she had gone to get the boy from his house and his father had told her between insults and curses that one of the school freaks had taken his useless son away after he had given him a little discipline the bastard said Severus had deserved.
Lily had run to find a remote place to ask for the knight bus and had gone straight to his home knowing that he and Severus were a couple, apparently the girl hadn't heard about their fight at the end of the year. James arrived at the emergency reception and threw himself against the counter asking for his ex-lover who would hopefully be his lover again.
"Please, I need to know how Severus Snape is!" the bespectacled boy almost shouted, the lady on the other side looked at him reproachfully but just the same pulled out a large book with many names written in it and began to search through them.
"He is in room 122 in the west wing I ask you to go quietly, the patient is stable but still needs to be calm just like everyone else, if I see you running or raising your voice I will ask for you to be taken out." Replied the lady in a curt tone, James didn't want to risk upsetting her so he started walking towards where the girl had indicated looking at the numbers on the doors.
If Severus was on this side of the hospital and not in the emergency rooms that meant he was fine, didn't it?
Maybe it had just been a precaution, he didn't underestimate the damage that man had done to his black hair boyfriend in the past but he was trying to calm himself down so he could talk to Severus and fix everything. Guilt had flooded him after he had heard that he was hospitalized since after all he was the one who had stupidly sent Severus back to that dangerous and awful place knowing what could happen to him and even more with the situation he was in and all because he had been a coward.
He finally found the room and stood outside it for a moment remembering the conversation he'd had with his two best friends, he still didn't believe that it had been Sirius between the two of them who had opened his eyes to what an idiot he'd been and what a terrible mistake he'd made. He was just thinking about what to say to the Slytherin to apologise when the redhead had arrived with the news. He took a deep breath to calm his nerves and slowly opened the door.
There in front of him was the most important person in his life and for a moment everything seemed to return to normal, a smile appeared on his face as he thought about what the future held for them, the beautiful family they would form and everything they would do together from that moment on, but that could wait now the important thing was to apologise to Severus and hope that he would accept his apology although even if he didn't at first he wouldn't give up, now he was sure of what he wanted and nothing would stop him or at least that's what he thought.
The black eyed boy was facing towards the window, he was in white hospital clothes and James could see some bandages on his neck and head as well as his right arm in a cast, the boy didn't seem to have noticed his presence as he hadn't moved, for a moment he thought he was asleep but as he got closer he could see that he had his eyes open and was staring at the sky. He cleared his throat with some discomfort but when he saw that it hadn't affected the other he decided to start with his apology.
"Sev, I'm so sorry I was such an idiot I should never have let you go back to that place let alone say those horrible things to you...I... I was scared, okay? I know it was stupid and it's not a justification for the way I treated you but I swear I am sorry... I love you very much and... I want to have the baby with you, I know I said the opposite but now I am sure that we are going to be able to pull it off, my parents will be more than happy to receive the both of you and I promise you that I will help you, the three of us will be fine and the baby is going to-"
James couldn't finish the sentence because Severus in the coldest and emptiest voice he had ever heard said, "It's dead."
The bespectacled wizard froze at what the other said, all the colour drained from his face leaving him pale and the smile he had minutes before was gone leaving a grimace of fear and disbelief.
James Potter felt a sharp pain in his heart and a lump in his throat. Suddenly all the scenarios he had imagined hours ago began to replay in his mind but now flooded with pain instead of illusion, those images of him and his black-haired lover holding their small baby lovingly, the dream of them running playfully after the little child, his dream of a home where the three of them sat reading together in front of the fireplace and Severus with his eyes full of love and happiness looking at them both.
"W-what?" was all James' confused mind allowed him to say.
"It's dead." Severus repeated. "You have nothing to worry about anymore, the problem is over."
"N-No. That...that's not possible...there must be some mistake...that can't be..." He muttered through glasses with tears sliding down his cheeks.
"Leave, I don't want to see you." Said the Slytherin in the same cold voice. "It's too late."
"S-Sev please...no-" The black eyed wizard finally turned around, his face bruised and wounded, his eyes filled with tears. The boy glared at him with hatred and shouted "GET AWAY!" He threw a cushion at the bespectacled one and shouted again "GET OUT OF HERE, I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU, YOUR APOLOGIES ARE OF NO USE TO ME, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ANYTHING FROM YOU!"
James didn't know what to do and without being able to say more he decided to run away from the place leaving the shattered black-haired boy, the last thing he heard was a heartbreaking scream of pain full of suffering coming from Severus.