Severus knew it was too late, there was no going back for what he had done. It pained him deeply to see their horrified faces, however, there was no way to turn back the clock and frankly it would all be over soon, it was for the best. ~I'm sorry brother... ~thought the black-haired man as he watched a tear run down the cheek of the usually cold and stoic blond.
The noise distorted little by little around him, he knew that someone was shouting his name, however, now everything seemed so far away and the darkness began to consume him, he felt pain but at the same time an enormous peace invaded him. ~I'm so sorry... ~he thought as he watched the frantic movements of his red-haired friend trying unsuccessfully to find a way to stop it.
He felt a bit of satisfaction as he saw the faces of the marauders with terrified and guilt-filled expressions as they knew they had had a hand in what was happening at the moment. His eyes were fixed more specifically on the one with the glasses, knowing how devastated he must be feeling, after all he was the one who had given him that last push...
Can you feel my heart? ~Maybe now he would understand that it was never a "simple drama". None of them had known him, they hadn't given him the chance and had made his life even more miserable than it already was. His life had always been a contradiction, he hated being around people yet he also feared loneliness, he had simply never known how to relate to others.
Forgive me father, I could never be good enough. ~Many times he had knelt on his knees asking for an answer or a miracle to somehow come to him, something that would make Tobias proud or improve his relationship with him, but it never happened. Time only worsened the man's temper and his violence, Severus hated him but also wanted him to love him so bad it always broke him.
At the same time he didn't blame him, deep down he knew he was guilty, how could he not be when everywhere he went he was always the same? People hated and mistreated him so it was obvious that he was the problem. He knew there must be something very wrong with him, maybe his demons were too big and he just couldn't deal with them anymore.
I love you mother... ~Now at last her life would be all right without Severus ruining her relationship with his father, now she would be all right. It had been selfish of him to believe that he could exist if he only caused pain to everyone around, starting with his mother. He let out one last breath and knew that was it. Now there was only silence, now all was darkness and he had finally stopped suffering.