Ahsoka was distant. She was remote. She was secluded. She was seeking help from her masters that were alive in the past; the people whom she loved, the people who supported her.
She pleaded for forgiveness. Why had she left the Jedi Council? Was it her fault that Anakin had turned shady?
Memories.
Memories of Anakin and her slipped through her mind, nothing going unnoticed.
Everything flashed by in a blur of colors and laughter. She knew she'd never feel the same way she felt as a young, exuberant Togruta when the Jedi Order was sustained.
She'd never feel Anakin's warmth again. She'd never, ever see his good side again.
Guilt seemed to eat away her good thoughts. It survived there in her mind, where it wasn't supposed to, where for her, it was forbidden to.
Had she done this to herself? Had she made this pain come to herself through her gruesome actions?
Her visions were clouded of the future- all she could see were black blurs, falling into a large, circular pit- was that… Anakin… falling into a hole? Was that him meeting his end?
Tears welled up in Ahsoka's eyes. She shut them tightly and concentrated on her breath- just the way Yoda taught her when she was young.
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Barriss.
The Jedi youngling who'd betrayed her. Who'd backstabbed her, and made her be accused of unnecessary treason? She was pained to think about her; all those years, how Barriss had always been by her side, and now she had just suddenly turned? Turned her back on Ahsoka?
She collapsed in the dry, white snow- as pale as her life.
She shivered in the cold- her fingertips turned blue- frost spread over her montrals, but she didn't care. All she wanted was to have those old golden days back- where peace was restored- the Jedi Council was intact, and her sentiments were too.
But it seemed hopeless.
It seemed like those days would never, ever come back to her.
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Darth Vader.
His loud voice ripped through the command room as Stormtroopers ran to carry out orders.
"I want not a single one to be alive on this frozen planet. It will be our base." Darth Vader said, his helmet glimmering in the light.
"Yes, Lord Vader," answered a Stormtrooper, pressing a series of buttons.
Darth Vader froze in his steps. He pressed his metallic forehead like he was pushing against a headache. "The force is strong on this planet. If any Jedi is found, eliminate the Jedi immediately."
"Yes, Lord Vader," the Stormtrooper answered.
They marched into the icy snow, their blasters facing upwards.
"No people in sight, sir," the Stormtrooper declared.
Silence.
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The sound of a lightsaber hummed across the crowd. One by one, the stormtroopers fell, a large cut in the middle of their white platinum armor.
Darth Vader turned around, caught by surprise- a white blade sliced through one section, the other blade looking hungry to attack the other.
Darth Vader pulled his glimmering red blade out. He advanced to the crowd.
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"I know you believe in me, Anakin, and I'm grateful for that. But this isn't about you. I can't stay here any longer, not now."
"The Jedi order is your life. You can't throw it away like this! Ahsoka, you're making a mistake."
Pictures of Anakin on Mustafar flashed through her mind. She winced in pain. A blur of Obi-Wan stood on a platform, shaking his head and screaming. Then a large shout, Anakin vaulted himself into the air and landed in the lava, his arms cut off. Blood dripped from the sides, fire engulfing his body.
"Anakin," Ahsoka whispered quietly. She squeezed her own hand until it turned white. "Please come back. I need you." she wrapped a coat around her cold body, pleading for help.
She was dying.
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