Why Me?
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee
Blaine and Kurt Anderson were sitting in their living room cuddling as baby Liza Marie was sleeping in Kurt's arms. When they heard a truck full of rowdy guys driving by yelling and laughing, as Blaine got up to look out the window, he saw a naked man being thrown out of the back of the truck. As soon as Blaine comes outside to look at the man, he realizes immediately who the man is and yells to Kurt to call 911.
As Noah Puckerman wakes up to find himself in the I.C.U., he is not sure what happened to him. He first thought he had just gotten too drunk and passed out after a bar fight. But that didn't explain why his ass was so sore. Then, after S.V.U. officers came to see him, the realization that he had been raped hit him like a ton of bricks.
Soon, Noah was moved to a hospital room and found out that his mom didn't want to see him. His sister Sara, who was in college clear across the country, called his hospital room daily. Kurt and Blaine visited, but no one talked about why he was there. One day, Kurt comes by alone and sees Noah looking out the window, crying. When Noah turns to see Kurt, he breaks down and says, "Why me?" Kurt just holds him and says, "I don't know, Puck."
Then Kurt hears Noah say something he couldn't believe: "Maybe this was God's way of telling me I will always be a loser and a failure." "Bullshit!" Kurt says as he uses his hand to raise Noah's head to look at him. "Noah, I may not believe in God, but I believe you don't deserve this and you are not a loser!" Kurt says as he strokes Noah's face. After they stare at each other for a few minutes, a nurse comes in, and Kurt leaves saying nothing.
The next day, Blaine comes by without Kurt and says, "Kurt told me about the little moment you two had." Noah said nothing, so Blaine continues, "Look, I was going to tell Kurt this, that night you got dumped onto our front lawn, but I think you should know too, since you'll be living with us for a while. I have cancer and its stage 4 brain cancer."
Once again, Noah asks, "Why me?" This makes Blaine chuckle before saying, "I have asked myself that for days, just before you got dumped on our front lawn. I was asking God to send Kurt someone to help him after I died. You know, I was the one that found you first, and I thought this whole thing was a weird joke from God. I mean, the one person who had to be the straightest man I know is God's pick to replace me! "
On the day they released Noah, Blaine picked him up alone. Let me guess, you picked me up alone to think things through, and you're worried I'll freak out afterward. Well, let me tell you, after not hearing from Quinn, who was told by Sara that someone raped me, I am done with women."
Blaine opens his mouth to say something, but Noah cuts him off, saying, "I know, I know, 'Just because Quinn doesn't want me yet again doesn't mean I should give up on women. Well, here is a news flash. I was a male prostitute growing up, and I never had a pool cleaning business. I was selling my body to make money. This was one reason I felt like a "Lima Loser" and used the rumors going around to my advantage and I asked, "Why me?" when Kurt came to see me. He thought I was just talking about the rape, and I didn't have the heart to tell him."
"Why me?" Blaine asks as he keeps his eyes on the road. "Bas called before you came to pick me up and told me why he had one-nighters before he got together with Karofsky. He got raped in France before moving to Lima." Noah says as he tries not to think of his rapes. As soon as Blaine and Noah pull up, Kurt comes out to greet them.
Noah was grateful that he didn't remember being left on their front lawn, and as he followed Blaine inside the house, Liza Marie cries, and Kurt tries to calm her down but can't. "Give her to me." Noah says this after putting his belongings from his barracks in the guest room and sings "Waiting For A Girl Like You," a song he used to sing to Beth years ago.
So long... I've been looking too hard. I've been waiting too long.
Sometimes I don't know what I will find. I only know it's a matter of time.
When you love someone, when you love someone
It feels so right, so warm and true. I need to know if you feel it too.
Maybe I'm wrong... Won't you tell me if I'm coming on too strong?
This heart of mine has been hurt before, this time, I wanna be sure.
I've been waiting for a girl like you to come into my life.
I've been waiting for a girl like you, a love that will survive.
I've been waiting for someone new to make me feel alive.
Yeah, waiting for a girl like you to come into my life
Noah stops before finishing as the memories of singing to Beth flood his mind and make him feel like crying, too. This also had him asking, "Why me?" as he runs to his new room after giving Liza Marie to Blaine. Kurt tries to go after him, but Blaine stops him and says, "We need to talk. Sit down." Noah didn't hear what all they said, but he did hear Kurt yell. "No!" over and over before Kurt walked outside after slamming the door.
As Noah returns to the living room, he sees Blaine holding Liza Marie crying. Then he looks out the window and sees Kurt sitting on the front porch swing. "Are you okay?" Noah asks as he sits next to Kurt. Shouldn't I be asking you that? Kurt asks with a chuckle as he wipes his tears away. Kurt then says, "Why me?" as Noah holds him. Then, he says, "This is not your fault, Kurt. Things like this are nobody's fault."
A month later, Kurt was up at 3 a.m., helping Blaine with the aftereffects of chemo, while Noah was helping out with Liza Marie. After Blaine and Liza Marie went to sleep an hour later, Noah asked Kurt about his first time with Blaine. "Are you sure you want to know?" Kurt asked, knowing that Noah's first experience was not something Kurt would've wished on anyone.
Noah thinks for a minute and says, "Yes, I mean, I know. I never wanted to know that shit when we were in high school. But I do now because, despite what happened to me, Kurt. I want to give this a chance. " Noah then puts his hand on Kurt's and squeezes it before leaning in for a kiss and stroking Kurt's cheek. It surprised Kurt to kiss Noah back and just how different his lips felt from Blaine's as they broke from their kiss. Then they hear Blaine coughing, and this time Noah helps. As he helps Blaine, he says, "I know he's going to think of his parents, and I told Carole about my prayers." She thought if Kurt's mom had been the one that pushed them together, she still would have married Burt."
Noah interrupts, saying, "Blaine, I hate to get all sappy and shit. While you are puking here, this reminds me a little of the movie Step Mom. Anyway, I was wondering if you wanted to make a bunch of tapes for Liza Marie. So she will have a way of knowing you. I mean, I wish I did that for Beth, and I know she will wonder where she gets her looks someday."
Then Noah helps Blaine back to bed before Blaine says, "I think the tapes of our time in Glee will be good enough. Besides, I am sure you don't want her to hear about what our friends think about your past." "Fair enough, but if I was you, I would worry about the shit that might be said about your past," Noah says as he goes back to his room, where Kurt is waiting for him. "I think if we keep Santana away from her, your past and Blaine's past will be kept quiet," Kurt says as he kisses Noah. This time, after they kiss, they shed their clothes, and Noah gets nervous before Kurt promises to take things slowly.
As soon as they lie down, they kiss again, and then Kurt asks, "Top or bottom?" as they kiss. To which Noah said, "Bottom only please!" as tears streamed down his face. Kurt then asks, "Do you want to be in me first or me to be in you first?" "You in me first. I want you to help me forget my past, Kurt! " Noah says as he raises his legs for Kurt and does just that. As he carefully prepares Noah's entrance, he takes his time and slowly stretches Noah. Before putting a condom on and slowly inserting his hard cock into Noah, kissing him at the moment, his balls hit Noah's ass. As Kurt pounds his cock into Noah, they both begin to orgasm and come at the same time. Yet neither man says anything as they come down, but both of them want to.
Soon the silence was interrupted by Blaine coughing and saying, "Kurt, tell Puck you love him, or so help me God, I will haunt you till you die, and no buts about it." I may be your husband now, but I am also your best friend, and I want to see you happy before I die. " Kurt blushes and fights back tears before saying, "I love you, Noah!" After that, Noah and Kurt helped Blaine, who was coughing harder this time. Just before Blaine stops coughing, he says, "Why me?"
While living with Kurt and Blaine, Noah started training to become a home care nurse, and thanks to his being in the military, Noah could get through the courses faster. So by the time, Blaine's cancer got worse, Noah could help take care of Blaine and Liza Marie if need be. While Kurt went to work at a local magazine as a fashion critic, if it weren't for Noah or his boss being very understanding about Blaine, Kurt would have been too worried to do his job. Noah even helped with all the meals and cleaned the house without being asked.
All of Noah's actions just made Kurt fall deeper in love with him, but Kurt wasn't sure if Noah loved him back, and he wanted to know. What Kurt didn't know was that Blaine and Noah had a surprise for him when he got home. As soon as Kurt gets home, he sees Liza Marie walking and saying, "No-no." Liza Marie had been saying Dada and Papa for a while, but had yet to walk. Kurt also sees Sara Puckerman sitting on the couch filming Liza Marie with her phone and hears her say, "Oh my God, Noah, I think Liza Marie said 'No-No'!"
Kurt then heard Noah say, "Uh, that great Sar-bear! Blaine wants to know if Kurt is home yet." Before Sara can reply, Kurt says, "I am here. I just walked in. How long has Liza Marie been walking, and why wasn't I told about this? " "She started this morning! Oh, and Sara is on a break from college, and my mom went back to rehab again! Can she stay here for a while? " Noah says as he wheels Blaine into the living room. Sorry, but he wanted to hold Liza Marie, and he didn't want to be in bed. Plus, I have to change his sheets again."
Before he kisses Kurt on the lips, Noah says, "I love you, and I know I haven't said it, but I do, and I know Blaine was asking me to let him see us kiss." Noah then walks back to Blaine to grab his hand. Which was the only part of Blaine that didn't hurt, but he still wanted to hold Liza Marie. Yet, as soon as Noah put Liza Marie in Blaine's lap, she cried, and Blaine winced in pain. Noah took Blaine back to his bed, and he moaned in pain because he could no longer speak. Noah gave Blaine his pain medicines again, but he refused them again for the third time that day.
This worries Noah, so badly that he finally tells Kurt. Blaine, please take your meds, please! " Kurt cries as he holds Blaine's hand. Noah had come in with a bottle of morphine, which Blaine had only refused once. Then Blaine looks at Noah with a pleading look on his face, but Kurt takes the needle from Noah and says, "You're not doing that!" "Why not?" Noah asks. "Because he is my husband and I want to give him the last dose." Kurt says before doing just that, while thinking, "Why me? Why didn't I just let Puck do this?"
After that, the next few weeks were a blur, and Noah was by Kurt's side through it all. Noah even told everyone about Blaine's last wish when their friends started questioning Kurt about him moving on too soon. He also told them the truth about his past, but only Quinn and Santana believed him. Of course, when Santana had his and Kurt's back, no one bothered them about Noah's past or their relationship again.
Then one night, Noah and Kurt made love for the first time as a couple. Even though they had sex a month after Noah's rape, this was different. This time they were putting their whole hearts into it and they didn't have to worry about anyone interrupting them. Because Liza Marie was sleeping peacefully in her crib, this was also the first time Noah had entered Kurt's ass. Noah was bigger than Blaine, so he started by lubing up his fingers and stretching Kurt's entrance with two fingers using scissor motions. Before slowly inserting the infamous Puckzilla and giving himself completely to Kurt, and after they make love, Kurt asks Noah, "If you faced your rapists, what would you say?" Noah responds by standing up and singing a familiar song while putting on his boxers.
Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But there's just something so strong
Somewhere inside me
And I am down but I'll get up again
Don't count me out just yet
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me
They can say that
I won't stay around
But I'm gonna stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me
You don't know me
You don't know who I am
Don't count me out so fast
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
There will be no fade out
This is not the end
I'm down now
But I'll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of
I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
No no
I'm not going nowhere
I'm staying right here
Oh no
You won't see me begging
I'm not taking my bow
Can't stop me
It's not the end
You haven't seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me
When Noah finished, Kurt got up and held him in his arms. Then Kurt says, "You know, Noah, if it wasn't for you, I still wouldn't believe in God or miracles. " To which Noah asked, "Why me?" With a wink and a smirk before taking Kurt back to bed and making love to him once more before they fell asleep in each other's arms.
The End
