Letting out yet another heavy sigh, Remus unlocked the door to his apartment. Dumbledore had called The Order to a meeting early that morning to tell them all the news. His best friends, James and Lily and Peter, were dead and it was Sirius' fault. But was it? Everyone said he was the secret keeper so he must be if Lily and James are dead and then he did go after Peter and kill him and twelve muggles…

Remus shook his head and his brown wavy hair fell into his eyes as he took his jacket off. His brain was empty but his head was racing. Going on autopilot, he started the kettle for some tea, enough for five of course.

When he hit his toe on a box of Sirius' stuff from him moving in, he was knocked out of his daze. Crouching down to flip through everything, he could feel the semi-familiar feeling of tears welling up. He had cried so much already today thanks to Sirius, what's one more time?

After the boring things like some clothes and toiletries, something caught his eye. It was a little colored piece of parchment. He remembered Lily calling them Post-it notes. It read:

Make sure to play Moony THE SONG

DONT BE A PRAT AND FORGET

And apologize for the tree thing:(

Remus dug around in the box for an album. There was only one in there and it was one from one of Sirius' favorite groups. He had seen this record a few times when he spent the night at the Potter's while at Hogwarts. There was nothing on the Post-it saying where in the album the song was so he would have to listen to the whole thing again. He found his record player and took off the ABBA album he had on there and replaced it with the Queen one. He got it started and continued going through the box, humming along to the familiar songs.

Not too long after flipping the album, maybe just one song, it hit him. This was the song. Remus knew exactly why Sirius chose this song. After the Whomping Willow "prank" back in Hogwarts that almost killed Snape, he was furious with Sirius and James. He hung out exclusively with the girls for the rest of the year and ignored the other three boys. He got apologies, but in a "I'm sorry you almost got expelled. Please hang out with us again we need you" desperation type. No genuine ones.

The lyrics were hitting him hard today though, he had the same feelings as Freddie Mercury about Sirius right now. And, he now realizes, Sirius back then when he left the group after the "prank". The tears finally came rolling down his cheeks and he grabbed the leather jacket Sirius left at Remus' on the 30th and hugged it tightly. He buried his face into the cold, expensive fabric and took a deep inhale through his nose. It still smelled like his cologne and the muggle restaurant they ate at. He let out a sad wet laugh at the memory.

The album moved onto the next song and Remus got up, took the needle off the vinyl, and watched it slowly stop spinning. Now his head was full of his way to short relationship with Sirius. Unwilling to look through anything else, he made his way back to his bedroom and picked up a frame of him and Sirius on the way so he could zone out and stare at the smiling, happy boys in the memory.