EVEN IF IT KILLS ME


Paul's POV

I'm fucking ecstatic! Knowing she was pregnant with my pup was one thing. Smelling her sweet scent knowing I was the reason, was completely different. My wolf was preening. I wanted to practically jump her right there, but I needed to wait till she was on board as well.

I stayed back after her appointment and sat waiting in Sue's office. I did promise to tell her everything when her test came back positive. So here I am. Sue walked in carrying a file she was reading and took a seat. I cleared my throat to get her attention. She stared a bit grasping her chest, I smirked at her reaction.

"Spirits! Paul don't do that," she hissed.

I chuckled at her words, "sorry. Just thought you wanted to know everything since I promised."

"Of course. So tell me why Bella," she asked.

"My wolf recognizes her as our mate. Has ever since she slapped me. Even when I imprinted on Rachel he wanted Bella. I tried to forget about her but I can't. The night she told Jacob and Leah about wanting a baby, seemed like the perfect opportunity," I replied to her first question.

"So what do you want to do with Bella if her vampire accepts her and your child," she asked.

"I already know he won't. She smells like pack. Didn't you see how Leah reacted. She was protective of her," I replied with a smirk. Fuck yeah she was protective. Growling low when someone walked behind her to leave or enter.

"Then what do you do now," she looked dazed.

"I offered her the guest room and nursery at my house. Leah should be trying to talk her into accepting my offer as we speak," I stood and began to pace.

"Okay. Who all knows," she wondered.

"You, Sam and Leah. Emily is a given because she is Sam's imprint. I wouldn't doubt that Matt doesn't know. Leah wouldn't hide anything from him," I replied concentrating.

"So, when her vampire rejects her, what then?"

"Easy. She'll move in with me and then I take care of her. Then I try to get her to forget all about that leech. I'm hoping she will want me back before she delivers our child. I just don't know when would be a good time to tell her everything. I was thinking about getting her to fall in love with me first," I was pretty sure I have handed over my man card. I would do it again if it meant having her.

"Do you have any backup plans," she asked.

"Yep. Embry," I smiled.

"Embry?"

"I know he doesn't want to imprint but if he doesn't I might have him seduce her. As long as the leech doesn't raise my pup I'm good," the thought of another man raising my pup at all made me mad as hell.

"Well Paul, I've done my part. I hope everything works out for you after this," she stood and pulled me into a hug.

"Thanks Sue," I kissed her cheek.

"Don't mention it," she smiled.

I left Sue's office and made my way to Sam's. Leah was already there pacing back and forth. She looked feral but I wasn't afraid of her.

"She smells like pack Paul. Actually I can smell you on her. Those herbs aren't working unless she ran out," Leah started.

Shit! Thank you Spirits that the three stooges were not here. I sighed looking up at Sam.

"I can volunteer to get an overnight bag for Billy and check it out. Then have Sue make another gift basket," Sam said.

"I'll call Billy and Joy now," Emily chimed making her way inside.

She nodded at Sam when she returned and he nodded back. "I'll be back," he said curtly.

We didn't have to wait as long as I thought when we saw Sam walking back up the drive. He looked like he was deep in thought. Leah being impatient jumped up and made her way towards him. He held up his hand to stop her from coming any closer. She froze midstep and went back to sitting in her seat.

"So," I prompted.

"She smells like pack and you Paul. I even checked to see if she is out of her herbs. She is, so hopefully Sue has some before tomorrow morning," he said shaking his head.

"The herbs are to only mask my scent. Not make it disappear," I gritted.

Fuck! I could not let Seth find out or he'd blab to Jake or worse his new bff leech. And I sure as hell know Bella isn't planning on telling him over the phone.

"Leah, you head over to let Sue know Bella needs her supplies," Sam said.

"On it," she replied. She was all to eager to get out of here.

"She's already protective of her," I told Sam.

"That's good. I have a bad feeling about how this might end. Paul I know it's hard for you, but try to keep it in your pants. At least till we know the leech will be deterred," he said letting out a sigh.

Yeah right!

"Absolutely Sam," I smirked.

I didn't wait for his response as I headed towards my car. Remembering Bella practically drooling over it made me chuckle as I slid behind the wheel.

I was pulling up to the clinic as Sue was heading out towards her car, carrying a basket of what I hope was Bella's supplies. I jumped out and jogged to her side.

"Please tell me that's what I think it is," I said pointing to the basket.

"This is for Bella. I've added a few extra things just incase," she smiled warmly.

"I'll take it to her if you want," I wanted to smell her again before she didn't smell like me so much anymore.

"Okay Paul. I'll have to stop by in the morning before her luncheon with the female leeches," she replied handing me the basket.

"Wait what," I almost snarled.

No way was she going without protection. She was carrying my pup for fucks sake.

"Don't worry I'm already ahead of you on that. Leah will be attending. She called Bella and left a voicemail for her. She's going to be at Billy's early anyway," she replied.

I breathed a sigh of relief. At least one pack member would be there.

"Also I wanted to let you know Embry didn't imprint at Hoh Reservation. I know the Makah Reservation is their last stop so there's still time," she smiled sympathetically at me.

"You think he'll imprint on the Makah Reservation? Why?" I asked.

"He's half Makah. I think it'll help spread the wolf gene within their tribe," she replied thoughtfully.

Huh. What do you know. Maybe he will imprint. If he does, hopefully he'll be willing to help if shit falls through.

"How many reservations are they going to," I asked her.

"Just two others. Quinault and I think Hoquiam," she smiled. "They're still at the Hoh Reservation. Will be for a couple of days or so," she replied.

"How long will they be gone for in total," I wanted to know.

"About a month. Kelly and Claire will be joining them in about a day. They might be gone longer if Embry imprints," her smile was sad at that.

"Why's everyone want him to imprint so fucking badly," I thought outloud.

"Language Paul. And it's because he deserves to be happy," she said unlocking her car door.

"I guess. I've got an errand to run then I'll drop this off at Billy's for Bella. I offered her the bedrooms upstairs if it doesn't work out. We'll see," I sighed.

"Sounds good Paul. I'll see you later okay. Take care," she hugged me before getting into her car.

I jumped in my own car and headed home. I was expecting a few packages. I was pulling up as the FedEx guy was struggling to get the large box out of the truck. I ordered a new bed for the empty room upstairs. I hope she likes it but I would rather her share my bed if I was being honest.

"Let me help you with that," I hollered, as I ran over.

It wasn't too bad actually. The size of the box made it a little awkward trying to carry.

"Thanks man. I take it you're Paul Lahoot," he said.

"It's pronounced Lahote actually," I chuckled sitting the box on the pavement.

"Ah! My apologies. If I can just have you sign here," he handed me a digital device to sign that I received it.

"Thanks," I replied quietly, handing his device back.

I hauled the box upstairs and set up the bed. I already had the frame and box spring ready, now I had the mattress and could make the bed. It took me about forty five minutes to finish everything. I broke the box down in the dumpster and headed back to my car. I made my way to Billy's as quickly as possible. When I knocked on the door there was no answer. I tried it again and nothing. I reached under the mat and grabbed the spare key and let myself in. I listened for any sign of life. I could hear Bella's heart beating and her breathing even. She's asleep.

I walked into the guest room quietly and set the basket down on the dresser. I turned to look at her. She's so fucking beautiful. I carefully sat on the edge, and reached over to remove the strand of hair from her face. I couldn't help it, I leaned in and gently kissed her lips. They were so soft, and holy shit she tasted heavenly. I pulled back to look at her again. Her neck was practically calling for me. I leaned in again and kissed her neck. Right on the spot I wanted to mark. She let out a moan, and I about nutted in my jeans. I looked at her one last time.

"You're going to be mine little Swan. Even if it kills me," I whispered.

She mumbled something incoherent before she sighed "Paul". That was my que, I needed to leave now.

I drove home and quickly jumped in the shower. Shit! I almost blew it. Of course my brain wouldn't let me forget what happened. I felt my cock harden as the memory of her scent and hearing her moan and then sighing my name assaulted my thoughts. I began stroking myself replaying everything in my head and fantasizing my own fantasies. Fuck yeah! Imagining what she would feel like riding me. Her moaning in pleasure as I fucked her senseless. It was remembering what she tasted like that had me come undone. I needed to get laid. But I refuse to have sex with anyone but Bella. I wanted her and no one else.

I finished up quick before heading to my room. I didn't bother putting anything on as I fell into my bed. She was the last thing I thought about before I finally passed out.