Trigger warning* *This story contains Self Harm and mentions of suicide* *this story is based off my experience with self harm and please don't be afraid to reach out to me if you are going through a rough time if I didn't have someone when it happened for me I probably wouldn't be here today*

Jay was staining at Hailey while she was sleeping and she looked so miserable and it looks like she hasn't eaten in a while but now Jay knows what's wrong now but he is sure if he's mad or disappointed.

As soon as Hailey jerked up awake she saw Jay standing by the door and she knows he knows about Roy.As Jay watches her process that he know he see's her breathing pick up and tears flowing down her face "Hailey?" Jay asked Hailey looked up with tears running down her face "Yes Jay I killed Roy ok I don't want to talk about it anymore it's eating me alive" Hailey says running to the bathroom and locking the door.

Hailey knows she messed up and Jay knows he knows now and she knows what's gonna happen next and she doesn't want to say goodbye to the love of her life.

Everything good in Haileys life always gets taken away from her "why does this always happen to me?" She whispers with tears in her eyes she knows what Jay is gonna do.

Jay knocks on the door " Hailey please open I'm not mad at you" he says.Hailey takes a razor blade and thinks to herself "I don't want to feel like this anymore" Hailey takes the blade and rolls her pants up high to we're her thigh is exposed and cuts three deep lines in her leg.

She doesn't feel it but there is blood everywhere and she hears Jay trying to unlock the door so she quickly grabs gauze and wraps it around her leg and pulls her pants back down and unlocks the door. "Hailey are you ok?" Jay asked "Yea I'm fine" Hailey says with tears in her eyes not looking at Jay.

Jay notices blood soaking through her pants " Hailey your bleeding a lot what happened?" He asked "I cut myself while shaving it's fine" Hailey says as she goes to lay down and closes her eyes.

Jay brushes it off and believes her so he lays down facing away from Hailey. "We are gonna be ok" Jay says in his head and drifts off into sleep.