AN: Hey Babes! I recently watched The Twilight Saga again and I want a redo! I noticed that there would be many things that I would do differently. I am going to start at the END of Twilight and work my way through the books. There will be a major difference in this story. If you're a Jacob fan… look away now. I'm just kidding. Jacob is going to be the friend that he is supposed to be. No Renesmee. This story will be for the adults. Beware: foul language, lemons, and violence. My Bella speaks her mind and my Edward is not so virtuous ;). Without further ado… I Want You.
Chapter 1: Prom Night
BPOV
I have no idea why I let Alice talk me into going to prom. I have a boot on my foot for Christ's sake. I am standing on Edward's feet while he twirls me around. I don't feel sexy, just foolish. Something has been bothering me since we left Phoneix and I want to talk to him alone.
"Edward, can we leave? I want to go to our meadow," I say to him once the song ends.
He pulls back from me and looks down at me. I see he's about to argue, so I cut him off.
"Please," I beg. He gives a soft nod and I see his lips tremble. I know he's telling his siblings we are leaving.
After a short car ride, Edward throws me on his back and begins to run. I lean down and kiss his head and I hear him hum. We reach the meadow in no time and Edward gently lowers me to the ground. Holding his hand around my waist to steady me.
"Bella, baby, please tell me what's on your mind. It's been driving me crazy," he says wrapping his arms around my waist. I take a deep breath before I begin.
"I want to be changed. Not right now, because it will be too suspicious, but right after we graduate. I don't want to go to college. I don't want kids. I know what you're going to say. I haven't thought this through, but I have. I never wanted kids. I raised my parents and if by some miracle I did get pregnant imagine what that baby would do to me. My human body wouldn't be able to take it and you would go mad with worry. I have lived my life for everyone else. It's time for Bella to live for Bella. I don't want to be without you, ever. I am telling you this now so that you can have time to wrap your head around it. I want you to change me. I want your venom flowing through me. I want to be your equal in every way," I say while turning to look him in the eyes.
We have been standing here in silence for a few minutes. I think I have rendered him speechless.
"You've given me a lot to think about. What if I say no? What if I want to save your soul? You can't give me an ultimatum like this and expect me to just say yes Bella," he says quietly. I think he's trying to keep calm and not yell at me.
"It's not yours to save Edward. I am not giving you an ultimatum. I am telling you what I want to do. I am made for this life. Why can't you see that? There has never been anything normal about me. The second day I am in Forks, I fall in love with a vampire and he loves me back. My best friend is also a vampire and a family friend that I have known for years is a werewolf. How is my life normal? It's not," I say softly. I am trying to plead to him to see my side of things.
"I do love you my beautiful Bella. With everything I am. I am not saying no, but I am also not saying yes right now. Give me some time, please," he says while moving closer towards me.
"Of course. I knew you weren't going to make a decision tonight. I knew I wasn't going to be that lucky," I say smirking at him. He gives me his signature smirk in return and starts walking closer to me. It's a clear night and the meadow is only lit by moonlight.
My heart starts to beat faster the closer he gets to me and I see his smirk turn into a full-blown smile. He's so gorgeous. Once he reaches me, he pulls me into him tightly.
"Make no mistake Bella. I want you. All of you. I see us running side by side. I see us hunting together. I see us getting married and pretending to be a young newlywed couple for a few decades as we move around. I want it so fucking bad that I can taste it, my sweet girl. It tastes almost as sweet as your blood. But I am also scared. Scared that you will regret something, somewhere through this very long existence and I couldn't bear it if you began to hate me for turning you," He lowers his head and starts to run his nose along my neck while he's talking to me. "You just have to keep reminding me that I do deserve this, you. I deserve to live this very long life with you by my side as my equal," he says leaning in to kiss me. This kiss set my skin on fire. I know I am brighter than a ripe tomato. After a few minutes, he breaks the kiss to let me breathe and I am grateful and sad at the same time.
"I thought you couldn't be this close to me," I say while still gasping for air.
"Bella, I don't feel any bloodlust for you anymore. I thought I lost you, Love. I had your blood when I didn't want it, just to save your life. It was the sweetest blood I have ever had, but I no longer want it. I just want you," he says while running his nose from my ear to the base of my neck.
"Don't be scared, Edward. I could never regret anything that gave me you forever. We are meant to walk this Earth together as equals. Side by side. Don't be scared of that," I say while pulling his head up so he can look into my eyes and know I mean every word.
"Come on let's get you home before Charlie tries to shoot me and realizes something is off about me," he says with a chuckle. I give a light chuckle as I start to climb on his back and he takes off into the night.
I never imagined I could get Edward to agree to think about changing me. I thought I would have to fight this fight for years. As we drive back to Charlie's house, I can't seem to wrap my head around some of the things that happened tonight.
"Will you come back tonight," I ask quietly standing on Charlie's porch. We saw Charlie in the blinds when we pulled up.
"Yes. Let me go drop my car off and change and pack a change of clothes for tomorrow. Then I will be back," he says while leaning down to kiss me. After a few seconds, Charlie starts to flicker the lights. We pull away chuckling.
"Goodnight Cheif Swan," Edward says while backing away slowly and smirking.
"Night, Edward" Charlie says opening the door.
I hear Edward drive off once I am in the house with the door closed and locked.
"Dad? That was embarrassing," I say while walking up the stairs to go take a shower before Edward gets back.
"My duty, Bells," he says while going towards the living room. I just shake my head.
After my shower, I rush back to my room because I know Edward is waiting for me. I hear Charlie's snores coming from downstairs as I make my way towards my room. Once I got to my room, I was frozen in shock. Edward was in black fuzzy sleeping pants and a grey slouchy t-shirt.
"I thought that it would be weird for me to keep wearing jeans and a t-shirt every night while lying in your bed, so I decided to buy pajamas. I hope that's okay," Edward looks at me sheepishly. I can see he is taking in my sleepwear as well. I have on one of Charlie's Forks PD t-shirts and Victoria's Secret satin sleep shorts. The shorts came from Alice, of course.
"Of course, let me braid my hair back and I will join you in the bed," I say going to sit at my vanity. After quickly braiding my hair to the back, I climb in beside him turning on my side to face him. He pulls me close and begins to kiss me. After a few minutes, he breaks away.
"Bella, I want to let down some of my barriers with you. I want to let you know a side of me that no one has ever seen before. We are going to have to take it slow. I used to associate sex with marriage, and I still do to a certain extent, but we have to adapt to the times. Can we take it slow, Baby?" he questions while looking at me
"We can move at a speed that is comfortable for the both of us. I am in no rush, Edward. As long as I get you in the end, I am fine with everything else," I say while snuggling into his firm body. I let out a but yawn and he chuckles.
"Let's get you some sleep love. I'll be here when you wake in the morning. If it's alright with you, I want to take you to the house tomorrow to talk with the rest of the family. This involves them all as well," he says while tucking me in.
"Of course. We can go first thing," I say while drifting off. I feel so much lighter and happier since our talk in the meadow.
VPOV
I've been watching them since they came back to Forks after murdering my James. I could easily go into that pitiful human's house and end them both for what they did to my James, but I know I have to bide my time. I have a plan in place to wipe them all out. My time will come to avenge my James. I told him that she wasn't worth it, but the way that clan stuck up for her made the game too exciting for him. I told him I couldn't help him when I'm not around, but he didn't care. Either I will be successful, or I will join my James. I can't lose. I need to make my way to Seattle to begin my plan to end the Cullens.
AN: Okay Babes! How are we liking it so far? This is obviously the new ending to book 1. I am going to start Eclipse tomorrow and have it finished before the end of the week. Review and let me know your thoughts! Until Next Time!
