Chapter 5

Ana stood there with her jaw dropped, "That older woman thinks I'm your submissive. Christian, are you fucking kidding me?" Ana waited for a response while Christian stood there confused. "Answer me Christian!" Christian liked her fire and the way she stood up for herself.

Christian walked towards her, "How do you know about stuff like this? You're a virgin." Christian closed his eyes, he let it slip and he knew he made a big mistake.

Ana hugged her body and turned around. "How do you know that?" Christian sighed. "Answer me!" Christian explained that Kate came to see him and although she didn't say Ana was a virgin he got the hint. "She had no right to do that. She's supposed to be my best friend. Why would she say that to you? You're practically a stranger…"

Christian stopped her, "Because she loves you. He watched Ana smile, love didn't come easy for her. "She didn't exactly say those words, but I understood. You don't want to know what she said she would do if I hurt you." Ana smiled wider, because she had a pretty good idea already. She looked around the room. She read a lot of books about love and sex and about BDSM and although it was exciting reading about it she didn't exactly think she could live it.

She walked over and touched a leather belt. "This is what you want? This is what you want with me?" She shook her head at his silence and walked around the room. She walked to the dresser and looked inside.

He didn't know what he wanted anymore. Things had changed months ago and Ana turned his life upside down at first sight. He smiled at her bold curiosity. "See anything you like?" She rolled her eyes at him and picked up these things that looked like earrings. She knew they weren't earrings. "Those are nipple clamps. I don't think you would like them." Ana put the end on her finger and when it squeezed tight she thought he was right.

She closed the drawer and walked to a large glass cabinet. It had long poles with cuffs on the end. She knew it was a spreader bar to keep your lover's legs open and restrained, but she played with him. "What's this?"

Christian flew to her side as she pulled it out, "Ok show and tell is over. That's enough." His voice was stern. He searched her eyes for fear and saw nothing. Christian didn't think this with Ana felt the same.

Ana watched him put it back and close the cabinet. "Are you going to answer my question? Is this what you want with me? Are you going to explain what happened downstairs or at least who Mrs. Robinson is? Christian didn't expect Ana's reaction and laughed mocking the name Mrs. Robinson. Ana shrugged. What else would a woman be, at that age worried about Christian's women.

Christian looked up, "This is all I know and I can try to explain it, but not here okay?" They went downstairs and Christian poured wine in both glasses. He sighed loudly. "Her name is Elena Lincoln and she's my mom's best friend."

Ana hadn't really reacted until that statement. "Christian, what the hell. You're fucking your mom's best friend?"

Christian shook his head, "No and I never have, but she finds me women to be with me." Christian explained with his title he needed girls who would not talk. Elena had women in their twenties start sleeping with Christian as a teenager. He also explained no one in his family knew the truth.

Ana took a big sip. "Your mom would flip. How did this start?" She needed to hear more, because this wasn't right.

Christian knew he had to explain. "When I was 15 I got in trouble a lot. You already know about my biological mother and I guess looking back I didn't appreciate that my mom and dad gave me everything that she didn't. It made me mad so I acted out. Elena told my parents I needed discipline, and I was sent to do yard work daily. For two weeks I did just that. I cut grass, trimmed stuff, I hated it. I didn't do one thing wrong at my new school and I figured two weeks of that was enough. I asked her when I was done and she slapped me in my face and told me don't ever question her."

Ana listened to him tell his story. He explained that the slaps came more and more, harder every time. She hit him once and her ring cut his eye and he had to lie to his parents that a branch hit him. He picked up her finger and ran it across his eyebrow. She could feel the scar. "She stopped hitting me in the face, but she started beating me with a belt, which turned into her finding other ways to punish me."

Ana twisted her face as he explained all of them. The worst was torturing him with ice. "I never had sex with her, but she would make me punish young women and force me to have sex with them. I guess you're wondering why I didn't tell on her." Ana looked up with the saddest blue eyes. "Truthfully, I was embarrassed and I acted up so much, I didn't think they would believe me. Elena beat it in me that no one would. It became what I was used to and I thought I needed it. She made me need her. She made me need it. They always had brown hair and light eyes like my mother."

Ana watched him drop his face and she tilted it back up. "Christian that's abuse. She abused you physically and mentally. I get it, you may have been scared and embarrassed, but you're not a kid anymore. This is unacceptable and if I'm really your friend, I can't lie to you about that. If you like the kink, fine be honest, but you're lying to your family. You know that's wrong. You need to grow the hell up!"

He had been seeing Flynn but when Ana was honest with him it hit him hard. "I know." He told Ana things weren't the same since Leila. He also told her about Elena's hidden side business. "I knew it was wrong, but it's who I became. I was never like Elliot or Mia. I was always a problem. No matter how much they loved me I messed it up. Ana, I messed it all up focusing on the things I lost."

Ana grabbed his hand, "Christian, she brainwashed you. She was wrong, but you have the chance to make it right." They talked, cried, and laughed until midnight. "Christian, you're smart, funny, and very brave. Thank you for trusting me with all of this."

Christian looked at her, "I know we are in the friend zone and I can do that, but do I have a chance to ever come out. Even with all of my mess?" Christian was nervous to hear her answer. This confession was a lot and he couldn't expect her to want to be a part of it.

Ana sat back and giggled, not knowing what it did to Christian's body. "Well, I've definitely come up in the last few days. Since I met you, my luck has changed. My car is running smoothly, I have an interview for the last company that would match my major, and The Christian Grey wants more. You have a chance, but I am a virgin and we would need to talk about this BDSM stuff. Can you take that?" Christian nodded.

Ana jumped looking at the time. Their conversations were so easy. "It's after midnight and I graduate tomorrow and you have a big speech. I should get home and rest."

Christian frowned, "Will you stay with me tonight?" Ana laughed thinking he didn't understand the friend zone. "Not for that, it's just late and I have a guest room." He gave her a big shirt and some shorts, then showed her the room. She took a shower and looked at the big bed. She tiptoed out of the room and knocked on his door. He opened the door, "Are you ok?"

Ana shrugged, "Can I sleep in here, but just sleep?" Christian frowned, he didn't sleep with anyone and it wasn't about sex, it was about his nightmares. She turned away, "It's ok Christian. He held her hand, took her to the bed, and tucked her in. He climbed on the other side. "Christian, can you handle this?" She wasn't sure, he was so experienced, but she did trust him.

Christian smiled, "Definitely, this is a first though. No one sleeps in my bed but me. Ana, my past is scary and I have nightmares." Ana had a thought and was a little scared to ask. "Ana, what's on your mind? I can tell because you bite your lip."

Ana released it quickly and looked at him, "I feel different with you. I have never had this with anyone. I feel like this is a dream and I'm scared to wake up." Christian pulled her close and cradled her, rubbing her back. Ana's eyes got heavy and she felt herself falling into a deep sleep, but not before she thought she heard, "It's okay. I'll be here. Dream of me."