A/N: This is a continuation of my friend, The Writing Pupil's oneshot fanfiction, "Learning to Love Himself". I've gotten permission from him, so no need to worry about it. In fact, it was request from the lad to continue it – and I never aim to disappoint! Now, without further ado, let's get on with it lads!
Warning: Selfcest, yandere, a tiny bit of knife-play, and smut below, if those things aren't your cup of tea – run the hell away, soldier!
Understanding Your Love
After sharing their not-so-hidden kiss across the table, the two partners went ahead and ordered themselves some food. Of course, they both ordered the same thing, with the same train of thought on just why they wanted it.
"Burgers-!" Both of them exclaimed in unison, laughing at the fact that they had synchronized so well.
"Man, it's still unbelievable that they've got stuff like burgers on the menu in a medieval cafe, isn't it? Everything else is super low-tech, but just enough knowledge to make burgers, huh? I thought I wanted the pie this place was famous for, but when I saw that, I just had to go for it!"
Natsumi chuckled at her husband's seemingly mundane complaint, a smile coming to her, since she shared much of the same thoughts.
"I thought the same thing. Not to mention, they don't even carry mayonnaise on them! It's an outrage, isn't it? The heck's a burger without mayonnaise?!"
The two shared a solemn nod, looking seriously into one-another's eyes...then promptly sharing yet another bout of laughter.
Many of their days were just like this. They understood each other so well that their jokes, what they wanted to eat, what they wanted to do...there was practically almost never any conflict in them.
However, Subaru would learn there were a few differences, in some places. For one, Natsumi was extremely overprotective and could easily become aggressive, while he was far more laid-back. She never called herself one, but it was obvious she had become an example of the classic 'yandere' trope.
'And I'm the guy who fell for the crazy yandere…' Subaru let out a sigh within his mind, thinking back to how easily she had seduced him, filled his heart with her love...her lips on his, her soft, smooth skin pressing against his lap as she sat on him...he remembered every detail of that day, that was already 5 years in the past.
His brown eyes stared ahead at the girl, looking at her bright, beautiful smile that reached her eyes. Her bountiful chest, that seemed to slightly rise with each bout of laughter that came from her, the lovely, fair skin that showed amply thanks to the somewhat revealing dress she was wearing…
'Even now, I sometimes wonder if she's really me. I get that it's an alternate version, but she looks way too pretty to be anything like me...it's like looking at a supermodel!'
Lost in his thoughts, Subaru didn't even notice the ever-attentive Natsumi's gaze on him. She tilted her head to the side, a small frown on her face.
"What's going on in that head of yours? I don't like that frown on your face, Baru. You know I can tell when something's wrong with you, right? So don't bother lying."
"A-Alright, you got me, Nat…guess I can really never hide anything from you." The boy held up his hands in defense, deciding to simply spill the beans. His wife could get pretty scary when she felt he was holding any secrets from her, after all. "So, you came from an alternate universe, right? We never talked about it too much, but...are you really me? It seems really unbelievable!"
She stared at him blankly for a while...before eventually laughing. "So that's what you were so worried about?! Honestly, even if I know what's coming, it really is adorable how worried you can get, darling."
The girl reached out a hand, gently stroking Subaru's cheek, which made him blush. She was always so casual with her touching, because, as she would always put it, 'It would be nothing that neither of them hadn't seen before.'
"I guess it's about time that I really tell you about everything, huh? After finally making you mine, it would be troublesome if I lost all that trust I worked so hard to build…after I finally managed to come and get you..."
Natsumi's voice dropped somewhat low, as her hand slid down his cheek, to return to her side of the table. Subaru gave her a worried glance, the redness fading from his face. He almost recoiled at the look in her eyes.
Of course, both of their eyes held a certain scariness to it, but...Natsumi's eyes looked entirely dead. It was like he was looking at the wide-open eyes of a corpse...someone who was irrevocably gone from this world.
Looking into her eyes was like looking into his, when he thought about the deaths he had suffered to get here. It had been five years since he last died, so the feeling of death had become completely foreign to him – yet this one gaze from his wife brought all of those memories rushing back, like a torrential wave.
"You know...about what we share, don't you?"
The fact that she was speaking broke him from his delusion. That's right, Natsumi wasn't dead. His beautiful wife was right in front of him...yet, her words only instilled yet another deep dread in him.
"Yeah...that ability."
On the few occasions they spoke about Return by Death, both were extremely careful to never directly call on it. Natsumi may be him, in some form, but at their core, their souls were different. No two people anywhere shared the exact same soul, after all.
In other words, they was unsure if either of them would be affected by the vicious taboo still imposed them by the Witch of Envy.
"That's right…you see, Baru...I lied a little bit about our realities not being that different." Natsumi let out a heavy sigh, her shoulders lowering. The usually brightness from her face had entirely faded. "I've seen your journey. I know what you've been through, Baru...but for me...it was even worse. For me...this entire world ended."
Subaru's eyes widened as the black-haired girl continued to speak. She had her hands around herself, shivering incessantly, as if she were outside in a cold winter.
"I...I...I don't even know how to explain it...in a flash, it was like everything was gone. All of the camps were wiped out...every kingdom was destroyed...the entire continent got ravaged...and every time, the checkpoint kept updating, to the point where I couldn't stop anything. I survived everything, but I was never fast enough to stop everyone from dying. They even killed Reinhard – that invincible cheat, what the hell was I supposed to do?! Some weak girl who only had half-decent looks?!"
Every word his lovely wife spoke was like a dagger that twisted into his heart. For Subaru, he at least had the option to choose...but for Natsumi, it seemed that her checkpoints were far more...forceful, far more unforgiving.
She didn't even have the choice to give up, before she'd already lost everything in front of her. He realized, that just as he had once held a facade of happiness and cheerfulness to hide his friends and to distract himself, she must have been acting even more so...just to keep him from being worried.
"I felt so useless, Baru...I mean, you already know that we don't have the greatest self-confidence, right? But, knowing that I had all the power to save them, but was forced to be the only one to get away, running like a coward every time because I knew it wouldn't matter if I saved them-!"
Her voice hitched slightly, though thankfully, they were in a quiet part of the establishment, so Natsumi's pained cries were heard only by her counterpart – her loving husband.
"And soon...it was just me around. I don't even know where the guys who did it went. It was just like some wave of destruction swooped over the entire world...and then everything was just gone. Then, it was just me. Me, and Satella. The Satella who had kept making those checkpoints, only selfishly caring about my life...I hated her. I hated her with every fiber of my being. Because she had forced me to confirm everything about myself."
Tears fell from her eyes, staining her rosy cheeks. She was holding back half-choked sobs, the shaking her body was going through seemed to only get worse.
Subaru was completely shocked by her words. The Satella he knew was surely a Witch, but she seemed to actually care about him. She wanted him to love himself, and to love her, more than anything. Her checkpoints were hard to understand, but they were usually almost always at places where he could fix everything if he tried his absolute hardest.
The Witch of Envy Natsumi seemed to have been blessed, no, cursed with seemed much more single-mindedly selfish, much more uncaring about anything other than Natsumi's single-handed survival.
"I was weak. I was useless. I was a disappointment. I was too slow to do anything, too cowardly to save anyone. And I would be alone...forever."
Her voice trailed off, and for the first time in the five years they had been together, Subaru heard the true loneliness inside of her. And more than ever, he understood how they were truly one in the same, yet incredibly different.
"Nat…" Subaru murmured. He had no idea what to say to the absolute hell she had experienced.
She shook her head at his words, wiping the tears from her eyes. It was an indication that she wasn't fully done speaking, yet.
"Yeah, it was hell...I spent day after lifeless day, trudging around the wasteland of a world that was left behind. Satella was constantly hovering over my shoulder, spouting her disgusting lines about love...it was definitely hell, yeah…"
She took in a deep breath, the tears seeming to cease, as a ghost of a smile began to worm its' way onto her face.
"But that's when I started seeing you, Baru. I don't know if it was because of a last-ditch attempt by Satella to stop me from going crazy, or just some chance miracle...but I started seeing you. In, like...these weird visions, and dreams…"
The smile on her face got a little bit wider, her eyes filling with a bit of light.
"At first, I found it weird and disturbing. But eventually, it became the highlight of my day. I wanted to go to sleep, and see what you had gone through. Seeing your struggles, your victories, your losses, your laughs and cries...it was the only thing that I could say was 'mine' within that dead world."
She looked into his eyes, and Subaru could see it deep within her – the extremely strong love she held for him, the care and passion that never seemed to fade.
"And after a while, you became my sole reason for living. When I wanted nothing more than to die, than to give up, than to raze everything that was still left in the world just to get some semblance of anything, you were what kept pushing me forward, Baru."
The woman chuckled, gently reaching her hands forward, to grab both of his in hers, from across the table. Their hands perfectly fit together, fingers intertwining. Subaru could feel the warmth slowly transferring between the two of them.
"I could even hear you sometimes in my head...pushing me on, telling me not to give up, because you were still here, doing your best...trying for the both of us...and that's when I knew that I had to come and see you, Baru. I had to come and get you. I needed you, more than anything. I needed to be by your side, and I needed you by mine."
She let out a small sigh, giving an annoyed glance to the side, to look outside of the cafe. "It was hard, but I managed to convince that Witch to let me go. It was simple...the details of that deal are a secret, though!"
"Oh come on, you're gonna hide that part of the story? This is totally a 'secret plan' trope thing going on!" Subaru groaned, drawn out of the tale by his wife's ever-mischievous nature. She snickered lightly.
"There, there, Baru, you should know how much we love our tropes!" Natsumi's ever-present smile eased back onto her face. "But, that's why you mean so much to me, Baru. It's not really just because we're counterparts, or because we're so compatible together...but because it's you. You're...my reason for living."
Her sweet words filled Subaru with an indescribable sensation. An electrifying feeling that coursed through his entire body...and then he realized it.
All of this time...the reason why he felt so drawn to Natsumi wasn't anything he could've thought of. Sure, she was attractive, and she had a personality almost as beautiful as she was.
However, hearing her tale...he realized that part of it was just that he couldn't leave her alone. Her self-hatred, her loneliness, the hell she had once experienced...he must've subconsciously felt it coming from her on some level.
That was why he could never separate from her. Because they completed each other. Natsumi lived for him, and he lived to return the extreme love she showered upon him. Neither of them implicitly asked for anything from one another, but they kept each other moving.
Natsumi's love threw away the useless pity parties he would always have, her ever-attentive eye, mature disposition, and honest words meant that she could help him in ways that nobody he ever known could.
Meanwhile, Subaru had been supporting Natsumi's mind from the start. Slowly healing her, closing up the large wounds in her mind and spirit that had been torn open by what she had experienced. He kept her happy, restoring feelings in her that she had long thought faded.
In the end, it didn't even have to do anything with them being the same person.
'Ahhh...I guess it really doesn't matter if she's me or not, does it? I love Natsumi, and she loves me. I guess that's all that matters, isn't it? Isn't that all that matters in love, in the first place?'
"You know, Nat...I promise to never leave you alone. No matter what happens, no matter how things turn out...I'll make sure that you never have to experience something like that ever again."
Subaru's words were resolute, his eyes holding a sharpness that had long-since faded from Natsumi's. Even though Natsumi was already aware of just how determined her lover could be when it came to those who mattered to him – it made her even more happy than she already was.
Seeing those strong eyes, looking at her...that handsome face, knowing how well built he was under his clothing…
Natsumi squirmed in her seat, suddenly overcome by the emotions brought on by the young man in front of her.
"A-Ahhh...~! This is why I just can't get enough of you, Baru..."
She let out a sound halfway between a moan and an excited whimper, her body shaking, though for an entirely different reason this time. Subaru looked at her with his determined eyes slowly filling over with worry again.
"U-Uh, Nat? Y-You okay ove-WHOA!"
The raven-haired boy couldn't even get the words out of his mouth before he was practically yanked out of his chair, pulled by the suddenly insanely strong grip of his wife. She had a crazed look in her eyes, one that he'd learned to spot all too well.
'Oh boy…'
Subaru could already tell that his energy wasn't going to survive the rest of this day...
"I can't hold it in anymore, I need you, now!"
Natsumi yelled shamelessly, running to get out of the restaurant, and to the nearest inn. Subaru didn't even resist, just making sure to leave some coins on the table they were sitting at, enough to pay for their food.
Moments later, the waiter would arrive, looking around cluelessly. Everyone in the place seemed either as confused as him, or were flushed with embarrassment.
"You know what…" The waiter shook his head, grabbing the coins from the table and heading right back towards the kitchen. "I'm not even going to bother asking."
It was all an extreme blur to Subaru – his wife, clearly in a lust-induced craze, dragged them to some random inn, threw money down on the counter, and just as equally quickly brought the both of them to the room.
The door slammed shut behind them, with Natsumi making sure to lock it.
"There. I made sure to get us the most expensive room, with the best accommodations...and the best soundproofing. I was really surprised they even had that! Although, I really wouldn't have minded letting everyone hear me shout my love for you, Baru." Natsumi murmured seductively, running her hands up the middle of the tracksuit that her husband loved to wear so much.
Subaru let out a little chuckle, wrapping his arms around his wife. "I will admit, it was pretty dang surprising when you just grabbed me and started running out of there...but I should've known, with how excitable you can get."
"Oh, please, you do remember who you married, don't you?" Natsumi's hands slowly reached further, and further down...before she reached into her pocket, taking out a rather ornate-looking bejeweled-knife. It was something she always made sure to carry around, and it almost always came out when Natsumi got...excited.
The young man let out a short huff at the knife, clearly unphased as she brought it out. Death was a fear for him, but an object of killing like a knife always seemed more like a toy than an actual weapon in the hands of the woman he loved. "Yeah, I do...although I didn't think any version of me would end up getting into knifeplay."
The young man murmured these words directly into his dark-haired wife's ears, making her shudder pleasantly at the warm breath from his lips.
"It comes with the 'yandere' territory, doesn't it?" She gently trailed it along Subaru's chest, chuckling to herself. Natsumi, being from just like Subaru, was obviously aware of the way she was acting – and didn't give two shits about it. "I almost want to cut you out of this tracksuit just to get to what I really want, Baru...but I do know how important it is for both of us, so I won't."
Natsumi had owned a similar tracksuit, herself, but she had lost it long ago in her struggle to stay alive in her version of this world. So seeing Subaru have one on him...it reminded her of the innocence, the humanity she had lost to that place. It...made her happy. She couldn't cut it so carelessly.
The girl giggled, her eyes scanning over his chest. At that moment, her scary brown eyes, reflective of his, seemed more lustful than anything else. "...Strip for me, Baru." Her voice was calm, but authoritative. This was yet another difference between him and Natsumi. She was far more commanding, far more upfront with what she wanted...and Subaru was all too eager to oblige.
"Alright, alright, my princess. At your command." Subaru replied jokingly, slowly stepping away from the woman. Despite his tone, he began to slowly slide the tracksuit off of his body, revealing his thin black undershirt that laid beneath it. With each movement, Subaru could see Natsumi's breath getting heavier, her hands slowly reaching to caress between her thighs.
The boy couldn't help but feel a small surge of confidence at this. He remembered, a long time ago, Natsumi mentioning something about only being into 'hot guys', he supposed, a mirror of the way he only liked cute girls. Yet, even then, she'd still come to like someone like himself who he considered entirely average-looking.
It made him feel just a little bit better about himself every time they teased each other like this. Knowing he drove her wild just as much as she drove him wild…
With the jacket off, he then moved to his undershirt, sliding it up and over his head, to reveal his toned body underneath. In the five years since they had met, Subaru's muscles became even more defined. He wasn't a bodybuilder by any means, but he had the lean, smooth muscles reminiscent of a trained athlete.
Muscles that made Natsumi's eyes glimmer. Subaru swore he could almost see her drooling, out of the corner of his eyes.
"You're so amazing, Baru…" She murmured, slowly stepping up to him. Her delicate fingers ran over the bare surface of his chest, taking in and appreciating every contour and detail on him. "I should've expected that I would be this handsome. I still can't get enough of this sight, no matter how many times we do this."
"O-Oh, c'mon, Nat, you know I'm just aver-"
As if to interrupt him, Natsumi reached up and locked lips with the young man, silencing his words halfway through. Subaru was surprised at first, but eventually leaned into the kiss, wrapping his arms around his sexy wife's slender waist. Her soft lips pressed perfectly to his, their tongues locking in a back-and forth wrestle to gain control.
After a few seconds of this passionate kissing, Natsumi stepped back, giving her love a demure smile. "I don't want to hear any of that, Baru. I know it can be hard for the both of us to be, well, positive all of the time...but with me being here for you, and you being here for me, we should never let either of us keep putting ourselves down like that, right?"
"...Right." He agreed, with a short chuckle.
"Now...I want to put this to use…I'm not a vampire or anything, but..." Natsumi murmured, holding up her hand which still had the knife in it. Subaru could feel the cold metal against his skin, considering that she had it in her hand while she was caressing his abs. "I want to truly become one with you, Baru...more than we have any other time…"
She reached the knife up to her left index finger, and...cut it. The girl didn't wince once, owing to the incredible pain tolerance both she and him shared. Slowly, she raised the finger which was slightly dripping blood to Subaru's lips, with a smile on her. "Take it, Subaru...please?"
"Well, if it's an offer from my incredibly beautiful Nat…" He leaned forward, gently taking the girl's delicate finger into his mouth. Natsumi let out a tiny whimper at this sensation, as Subaru slowly began to suck on the self-inflicted cut.
Honestly, not so long ago, Subaru would have never approved of this behavior. Watching his wife cut herself like this, it never made him happy – but for some reason, all of her wounds seemed to close up extremely quickly. They never hurt her, and never left scars or even the smallest of marks. She never explained why…
Not to mention, he would be the next one cut if he got her angry, so it was best to just play along.
"Mmmh...just like that, Subaru...and give me that hand of yours…" She gently grabbed one of his hands by the wrist, bringing it down to slide below her black dress, right in-between her legs. Subaru felt a finger run over the middle of her crotch, sliding right over her entrance, through her laced black panties. "Ahhh~!"
Natsumi let out a beautiful moan as she felt Subaru's fingers trace over her lower lips. She was practically shuddering on her feet, as Subaru continued to move his fingers along the edges of her panties. His fingers knew every spot she liked by now, and not to mention…
"M-mmm~!" She let out another unrestrained moan as his thumb pressed and circled right around where he knew her clit was. The girl had a rather sensitive clit, so for Subaru, it was always a go-to-spot to get her moaning and ready, quick. "I can feel you everywhere, Baru, ahh...you know just how to touch me, don't you? You know just how to please...mh...me!"
A few more minutes passed like that, with Subaru bringing her past the edge, over and over again, while keeping his tongue on the small cut she had inflicted on herself. Natsumi just kept giving lovely, loud moans the entire time, her body almost flinching away from her counterpart's fingers with how much pleasure he was giving her.
"A-Alright, that's enough!" With one sudden movement, Natsumi pushed Subaru away. He fell back, with a sound of surprise.
"W-Woah-!" Thankfully, he landed right back on his butt, now forcefully seated at the very edge of the bed. "G-Geez, warn me next time you're gonna do something like that, Nat! I almost fell right on my ass!"
Natsumi looked away in embarrassment, squeezing her legs together. "I just didn't want to end up letting you draw victory from me so soon...your fingers are too good at it, it's almost unfair!"
Subaru snickered at her complaints, holding up his fingers, which now had her juices on them, juices which had been continually seeping down her soft, plump thighs, onto his hands. He wiggled them almost teasingly in front of her face. "You shoulda' expected that! If you think I'm gonna let you stay in control all the time, you got reeeeal overconfident, Nat!"
To them, their time in the bedroom was almost something of a game. Since both of them were pretty equally matched, it was more about who could strike first in pleasuring the other more – a competition that Natsumi usually had an edge on, considering her more confident and aggressive nature...but she seemed surprisingly meek that day.
Of course, that all promptly changed at Subaru's mischievous words.
"Alright, mister tough Baru!" Natsumi huffed, bringing her knife upwards to her chest. She cut a small circular hole in her dress right below her breasts without seemingly caring, throwing the knife to the side after she did so. "Let's see how tough you can be after I'm done with you…"
She made a slow, seductive walk towards him, her large breasts bouncing ever-so-slightly with every step. Subaru gulped, unsure of just what she had in store for him. As she finally reached the boy, she knelt down, bringing her breasts to rest right on his legs, both of her hands moving forward to open his zipper.
"First of all, let's see that beautiful dick…" She murmured in a husky voice, reaching past his underwear to slowly draw his shaft out. Unsurprisingly, he was already fully hard, though Natsumi still stroked him slowly, as if confirming that he really still had a full erection.
"G-Gh…" Of course, Natsumi's fingers were far smoother and skilled than Subaru's, drawing an unwanted groan past his lips. The girl gave a pleased smile at this reaction. "A-And you were the one complaining about my fingers feeling unfair?"
"Hehe, this is my revenge! But, you know, I'm always happy to get my hands on your thick cock, Baru...I guess if everything went to my breasts, everything for you went down here, huh?" She joked lightly, leaning forward slightly to place a chaste kiss on the tip of his shaft. While Subaru had by no means an incredibly long dick, he more than made up for it with the thickness of his shaft. "It's perfect..."
Just looking at it made Natsumi's thoughts run wild, almost like an excited fangirl. She could imagine him stretching her out, pushing deep into her, with this length that looked like it was made for her, that felt like it perfectly fit in her palm.
She wanted it inside of her. She wanted Subaru, she wanted him, she needed him, she needed to have him – but she had to force herself to be patient. Natsumi was sure that if she had the ability to do so, her eyes would be hearts right now…
'Maybe I really am crazy for Subaru...but that doesn't matter. I don't care how crazy I go, as long as he's the one who stays here for me...as long as we're here for each other. Nobody could ever understand me like him...nobody. Him, and his body, are all mine...and I'm all his, too.'
"Now then…" She turned her gaze downwards, her mouth opening, ever so slightly. Subaru blinked, wondering what she was doing. A trail of sticky saliva began to drip from her mouth, falling directly down her neck, and then sliding into her breasts. Natsumi fondled her chest with her free hand, pressing her breasts together, and mixing the saliva into the middle more and more, until she was beginning to hear light squishing sounds coming from between her chest.
"Y-You're not gonna-"
"Good rewards come to good knights who can please their lady, Baru…" She replied simply, bringing her chest upwards. Using her other hand to gently guide him inbetween the hole she had cut in her dress, Natsumi then suddenly brought her chest down, with Subaru's dick now firmly held in-between.
"A-Ah, man-!" Subaru, not ready for the sudden stimulation it provided, let out a sudden cry, as Natsumi's chest surrounded his shaft from both sides. The pressure was amazing – the fact that she was doing this while her breasts were held perfectly together by her clothing only made it even better. Subaru's dick was fully enveloped by her chest, a fact which Natsumi loved.
"Mmmh...I can feel you deep in my chest, Baru...do you like it? Do you like being surrounded by your lady's large boobs?" Natsumi asked, though the boy's pleasured moans was all the answer that she needed. "Now, move those hips."
The boy groaned, narrowing his eyes at Natsumi. She was incredibly stubborn at times like this just to be in control – Subaru wondered if he was like that sometimes...but regardless, he followed her orders, bucking his hips up into her chest. Each movement from his hips brought him immense pleasure. It didn't feel loose at all – thankfully due to the fact that she was doing it clothed, and the fact that her breasts were this large.
"These...feel...way t-too good for breasts…!" He grunted out, finding a bit of resistance each and every time his dick moved up and down inbetween her soft chest. Rather than fucking her breasts, it felt like he was pounding into some mystery hole…
Every thrust that drove her deeper into her breasts, more and more of the spit she had slathered into them began to spread, making him slide through even easier. Of course, that lubrication just made the entire experience even more pleasurable for him. The shape of her chest, the smoothness of her skin, the slight firmness of her breasts, it was a near-perfect feeling for Subaru.
"God, Natsumi...why the hell do you have to feel so good everywhere?!"
If there was one benefit to the fact they were pretty much the same person, it was this – the fact that their bodies suited one another so unnaturally well.
"I'm so happy that my body can make you feel so good, Baru...this body, your body…" She practically purred, suddenly bringing her knife up from her side again. Subaru gulped nervously as he saw the blade come towards the tip of her boobs. Natsumi expertly cut a hole in the top, humming at her handiwork. He had nowhere near the amount of guts to keep moving while she was carrying out such a delicate maneuver, his hips stopping in place.
Natsumi blinked upon noticing he had stopped, turning to look at him with a small frown. "You stopped, Baru? Even after your lady told you to keep going? What a bad knight you are, I suppose I will have to punish you, won't I?"
"W-Wait-agh…!" Subaru tried to explain himself, but to no avail. Natsumi gripped her hands around both sides of her dress, roughly pressing her breasts together. The boy's head leaned back as a new wave of pleasure washed over him. The girl began to move her hands up and down, rubbing her boobs along his shaft with a pressure that he would've never felt before. He couldn't even make out words anymore, as she moved through all sorts of patterns.
She would go slowly, then suddenly speed up. Sometimes, she would lean down, allowing her tongue to drag over the slit of his dick every time it poked above her deep cleavage. Whenever it began to get a little dry, she'd add more of her spit to lubricate it – and at some point, she didn't even need to do that anymore, as Subaru's precum was more than enough to keep the deep space between her breasts wet and ready for him.
Natsumi would giggle every time his precum built up, leaning down to happily scoop the extra pooling liquid with her tongue and take it into her mouth. This lewd sight shook Subaru to the core, just turning him on every more.
"I won't waste a single thing that comes from you, love...give me everything...everything you've got!" She'd happily call out, as she would then resume her assault.
Even for her, she was getting slight pleasure from this. Her breasts weren't so sensitive, but the frequent movement of her nipples rubbing against her much-too-tight clothing was absolutely wonderful.
It was just his dick in there, but Subaru felt like he was just drowning in her breasts. He knew that he couldn't hold on for too much longer against his wife's brutal assault.
"Natsumi, I'm gonna...gah…" He couldn't finish his sentence, but Natsumi knew well what was coming...and that was why she completely stopped. "H-Huh?" The disappointment was palpable in Subaru's voice, as the rising feeling in his shaft began to leave him.
"Come on...did you really think I was going to let you let it out so easily after disobeying your lady's orders, Mr. bad knight?" Natsumi chuckled, giving Subaru a tantalizingly pleasurable, yet teasing squeeze of her breasts. "I can't let you cum so easily, not in your lady's breasts…"
"Oh come on, Natsumi...g-gimme a break, I was right there! I-I'll do anything just to finish up!" Subaru pleaded, his desperate tone bringing a smile to the woman's face.
"Anything, huh? You know that you should be careful with words like those, Baru...who knows what a scheming girl like me could do with them~!" She teased, lowering her lips down to give his tip one last teasing kiss. Putting away her mischievous smirk for a second, she instead affixed her husband with a somewhat somber look. "Then, today...I want you to tell me how much you love me."
Subaru gave her a confused look, but remained silent, allowing her to continue on.
"When I thought about those days I spent alone in that wasteland of a world, those days when I had absolutely nobody or nothing to comfort me...having to relive those memories...I want you to wipe all of them away, Baru. I only want to be thinking about you, what we have here and now...I don't want anything else to be filling my thoughts."
Hearing Natsumi's earnest plea, her desperate words which seemed to be filled with nothing but the desire to escape her past...Subaru let out a sigh. "You dummy. If it's about loving you – I'd tell you anytime you wanted to hear it. Heck, I'd tell you even without you asking! So, you don't need to ask for something that simple. It's a given, I love you, Natsumi."
"Subaru…" Natsumi's words trailed off, into silence. That silence lasted for only a few seconds, before she gave a short giggle. "You know, sometimes I really understand why there were so many obstacles in the way to get to you. You can really make a girl happy, you know? Hearing you say things...it's always like seeing some small part of me that I lost come back again. You've already made me very happy today…" Natsumi slowly got to her feet, reaching behind her, and under her dress.
With one delicate movement, she moved her panties to the side, and got up onto the bed with Subaru, straddling him. His dick was sandwiched between the two of them thanks to the closeness of their bodies, but Subaru couldn't tell that.
Right now, all of his attention was on the beautiful woman in front of him, and her attention was on him. To the both of them, they were the only ones that existed in this world right now. Her brown eyes mirroring his...their hearts and minds fully connected.
"Subaru…" Natsumi breathed out, her hands gently resting on his shoulders. "I...I want you inside of me, already...I want to feel you fill me, Subaru...so I don't have to feel so empty anymore…"
"You didn't even need to ask anymore, Nat." He replied simply. "'Cause no matter what, I wanna be connected with you, too."
At those words of his, those words that always filled her with so much happiness and glee, Natsumi couldn't restrain herself anymore. She slowly lifted her hips, with Subaru holding onto her all the while. And with one last, loving look into his eyes, slowly lowered herself down, biting down on her lip in anticipation.
"M-Mmmmh~!" She let out a cry of pleasure as she felt his tip move into her, and only kept letting out noise as his dick eased its' way further in, inch by extremely pleasurable inch. For Natsumi, this process was never uncomfortable...because Subaru's dick was the perfect size for her pussy.
It didn't painfully stretch her out, and wasn't too small to the point where she couldn't feel it against her walls – but rather, it fit her snugly, like a hand in a glove. Their compatibility was truly almost supernatural – to the point where things such as this were never an issue.
Not to mention, Natsumi was practically soaking wet, and more than ready to receive her lover's cock into her warm, wet walls.
"Gah…" Subaru let out a shaky breath as he felt her pulse around him. For Subaru, it was a perfect experience, as well. He could feel every inch of her pussy massaging his length, a loving grip that held him deeply inside of her.
Natsumi felt Subaru about to move his hips, but slowly shook her head. "No, darling...let me handle this. I just want you to handle giving me your love…"
With that, she began to move her hips up and down slowly, bringing Subaru in and out of her inviting, tight vagina. Each and every movement she made, she'd let out a little moan, or she would elicit a groan from her raven-haired lover.
It was a slow, sensual, lovemaking, one that had very little to do with receiving any intense pleasure, but rather, everything to do with the simple intimacy of the act. Just being close enough to one another, staring into each other's eyes, whispering small affirmations of their affection to one another, letting out sounds that showed just how much they were enjoying this moment.
Not to mention, it shared a double-purpose, allowing both of them to recover from the intense pleasure they had been subjected to moments ago. The both of them were in physical shape – but the art of pleasure was a completely different experience from regular exercise. Neither wanted the other to have to tap out so quickly.
"Ah...Natsumi, you feel so good…"
"Baru, I can't get enough of...mngh...y-you, inside of me~."
But, soon, past these loving words, their instinctual, carnal desires would begin to take them over. Bit by bit, Natsumi's pace began to pick up, as her body yearned for stronger and stronger stimulation. Subaru's dick twitched in response, growing even harder inside of her.
"N-Nat…!" Impatient as always, Subaru leaned forward, taking the lips of the girl he loved forcefully, more forcefully than either of them were used to. Yet, she didn't react negatively to this new forcefulness, simply keeping her lips locked with him as she continued to move atop him.
She didn't even notice when the broke the kiss, just for her to throw off her dress to the side, leaving her in nothing but a black bra, which she quickly took off too.
Her beautiful chest was out bare for Subaru to see, her nipples a slight darker shade of pink. What Subaru found most beautiful were her areola, the quite darkened circle of skin that surrounded her beautiful nipples...for some reason, seeing this small imperfection on her skin just made him appreciate her beauty even more.
"T-Touch me, Subaru...I want to, mgh...feel your hands on me!"
To her insistent words, Subaru moved his hands to her chest, lightly fondling her large breasts, which his dick had been between only moments ago. She let out a deep moan, biting down into her lips harder than she had meant to, drawing a bit of blood. However, she only saw this as an opportunity to share even more of herself with her beloved.
Once more, she pressed her mesmerizingly soft lips to his, filling Subaru's mouth with a very faint taste of iron. Everything, she wanted to share it with Subaru...she and him were already close to one in the same, but Natsumi just wanted them to be even closer, to go beyond even those boundaries, and to truly become one with him.
'Subaru, Subaru, Subaru…!'
Her thoughts weren't even coherent anymore, filled only with the man she loved, whom she was currently riding. Their lovemaking soon became so rough that it was clearly audible, a loud smack echoing throughout the room every time Natsumi brought her hips down against Subaru's.
A pool of moisture had collected on the both of their legs, a mixture of his precum and her
The boy could only let out helpless groans and grunts, muffled by the rough make-out session he was currently having with his girlfriend's lightly bleeding lips.
'When I'm with her like this, everything fades away...just like how I used to feel about Emilia...it's like she has this ability to just overwhelm me, to take over my thoughts and absolutely control me…'
Subaru's mind was on her as well, but in a much more understandable way. Rather than the crazed love that Natsumi held for him, Subaru held a deep, stable love for her. After all these years together, and even despite the fact that they had done this a countless amount of times, each and every moment felt special to him.
Watching her beautiful long, black hair twirl behind her, seeing that look of ecstasy and love on her face, feeling her body against his, feeling himself inside of her…
A long time ago, Subaru had thought that if there were a separate version of himself in the mirror, he would absolutely despise him. Hate him with every deep fiber of his being…
Yet, now that he, no, she was here...Subaru had instead hopelessly fallen in love with her.
"It's not enough…" Natsumi murmured, as she slowly drew from Subaru's lips. A string of saliva connected them, a weak connection that didn't even compare to the feeling of Subaru's dick stirring up the beautiful woman's insides. "I want more of you, Subaru...I want everyone to know that you belong to me, and me alone…"
She leaned forward towards his neck, and momentarily stopped the movement of her hips, kissing the crook of his neck roughly, sucking against it with all her might.
"M-Man...y-you, you really are forceful, aren't ya, Natsumi…? N-Ngh..."
As if to give a cheeky response to his words, Natsumi began to grind her hips against his legs, slowly moving her ass in a circle, from side to side. This slow, delicate movement pressed Subaru's dick against her walls, a movement that made him practically stir her pussy. Her free hand moved down, below her dress, where she would begin to stimulate her over-sensitive clit as well.
That stimulation alone made her tighten around him even further, turning her slow, sensuous movements into an almost torturing experience for the both of them. Natsumi kept clamping around her beloved's dick, feeling the shape of it inside of her every time her pussy clenched from the extreme pleasure. For Subaru, he couldn't even properly move to get the full sensation of their connection, left entirely at the mercy of Natsumi's slowly grinding hips, and continually tightening walls.
This torturous, slow pleasure came only to a stop as Natsumi finally removed her lips from his neck, leaving behind a very noticeable, deep hickey. She gave a satisfied smile at her handiwork, panting, as she felt herself nearly out of breath.
'Good...even if it's just small things like this...anything that leaves a mark on him makes me happy...I don't want him to forget me...I don't want either of us to forget one another...if this world ends again...just like...just like the last one…!'
Seeing Natsumi so deep in thought worried Subaru – but before he could say anything, she began to move her hips even more wildly than last time. It was almost an entirely desperate movement, like she was just trying to shove him as deep into her as he could get, and Subaru – he was loving every single second of it.
"Nat-Nat! T-This feels...way too-too g-mh...!" He was cut off by a rough kiss from Natsumi again, who practically now pushed him all the way down on the bed. She pressed her body against his as hard as she could, enjoying the new angle that this now brought his dick into her at.
She closed her eyes, leaning into the kiss as much as she could, not stopping even as she felt the overstimulating pleasure from her multiple orgasms overpowering her. Her fingers simply dug deep into Subaru's skin, drawing a small amount of blood from him. The boy in question didn't mind this pain either, instead forcing his way even deeper into her, now matching her pacing.
They were completely synchronized – they were completely and utterly buried in the love, pleasure, warmth, and comfort that their bodies brought one another.
And...neither could hold out for long.
Natsumi felt Subaru's dick twitch inside of her, and felt Subaru groan something against her lips. She didn't need to hear him to know what he was trying to say. Even then, she didn't stop, her hips continued to bounce even as his slowed down and his body shuddered.
'Let it out in me, Subaru...show me...show me how much you love me! Let me feel all of your love…!'
Her fingers dug into his skin even more as she felt his warm cum shoot up into her, filling up her womb with the seed that he had been building up over their entire tease-filled session. It was only a few strong spurts, but for Natsumi, it was heaven just having some semblance of him inside of her...just as she had traded her blood with him, having his sperm made her feel all the more connected.
For a small time after he finished, she continued to slowly ride him, as she found yet another final orgasm only a few moments after he had finished. Once more, the seal of their lips kept her lover's muffled protests and groans from his likely over-stimulation quiet, and she even felt a few more weak spurts come from him as she finally finished.
Only then, did she break the kiss, looking into Subaru's eyes, which were now open and looking into hers. They were both panting heavily, their chests heaving up and down in unison.
"That...was amazing." Subaru was the first to speak, in an awe-filled voice...only for the both of them to share a bout of laughter at how silly it sounded.
"No, you were amazing." Natsumi corrected, tapping a finger on Subaru's chin.
"Sooo...don't you think we should get up and take a bath sometime soon? Or clean up?" The raven-haired boy was the one to asked this sheepish question, only for Natsumi to huff and turn her head to the side.
"No way, I don't feel like it! I want to sleep just like this, pressed up to you, and with you inside of me...don't you think it feels good inside of me, Baru~?" Natsumi pouted, giving the boy the most moe-cute look that she could. Subaru winced, almost as if he was looking away from the sun.
"That cuteness is too bright! Alright, fine...but don't start getting 'in the mood' in the middle of it, alright? Or else we might end up spending all day here…" He gave in, unable to resist his beautiful's wife ever-present charms.
"Hehe, I don't mind. As long as it's with you, Baru, I'd go to the ends of the world all over again." She smiled brightly, seemingly happy to get her way.
"Geez…" Subaru rubbed the back of his head. "I never would have guessed that I sounded that cheesy saying stuff like that."
"Don't get embarrassed over it!" Natsumi flicked his nose, frowning. "Don't act like you don't love it, anyways. I would only ever say this stuff to you, so you should be thankful."
"Yes, yes, my lady. This knight, Natsuki Subaru shall be ever-grateful to you for your great kindness!"
Without even thinking about it, they burst into yet another hearty laughter, a laughter that washed away any trauma they held. Any doubts, any worries, and negative feelings that remained in the both of them.
This laughter they shared, a laughter only the two of them would be able to perfectly share with each other, was one that cleansed them, that soothed their souls.
It connected them.
"...I love you, Natsumi."
"I love you too, Subaru."
And so, the two of them stayed just like that, holding each other, and drifting off to sleep.
Whoever was to come for them throughout the rest of their years, they didn't care. For all they needed in that world was each other.
All they needed was that love, to continue understanding themselves.
Omake: Holy Shit. Wow. I mean, holy shit. (Oh god it's written in script, please help me)
Destiny: "And so, that's how the story is going to go. Sounds good?"
I turned around in my chair with a grin, looking right into the face of Pupil.
Pupil: "...Holy...shit. Wow. I mean, holy shit. It was a joke, you know? I didn't actually expect you to fucking make it! This...abomination."
At his surprised tone, and outraged voice, I sighed, shaking my head at his shortsightedness. Frankly, it was obvious he couldn't see the true greatness of this tale.
Destiny: "I'll admit, this was one of my more questionable ideas, but I really put effort into it, you know? It hurts to have it shut down so easily…besides, you're not seeing the vision..."
He stomped his foot down, shouting even louder.
Pupil: "You think I fucking care about that?! No man, this was a horrible idea, horrible! I, no, we can't be saved! It's over, man! You can't write this, holy shit, you cannot write this, dude! Posting it isn't even a question!"
I nod, calmly and carefully taking in his words, assessing every bit of his opinion he has expressed, before raising a finger.
Destiny: "Valid opinion...but, Yandere. It's a continuation to your Yandere Natsumi fic, and she does Yandere stuff in it. Yandere. Yandere, yandere, yandere."
That drove him completely silent. I do hope that works, I added in as many 'Yandere' buzzwords in there as I could. Pupil may be a morally strong man, but even he has to fall against such an assault...
Pupil: "...Fuck you, hurry up and write it."
And so, the story was born, thanks to the uncaring, mischievous interests of one man, and the easy-to-manipulate, intense interests of another.
It is such a bad thing this exists, or something...
Destiny: I mean, between you and me, now that Pupil's not here, I'm not sorry that this exists. I'm not sorry at all. In fact, I enjoyed writng this. Pupil probably feels like this was a mistake though. Ohhhh well, what can you do?! Onto the next story!
With a grin, I blasted off into the sky, riding my imaginary [EXPUNGED] into the ever-great beyond.
Two figures stood in the darkness, staring at the scene that had unfolded before them with disbelieving eyes.
Subaru: Hey...did we really just get this wholesome continuation to our story on a whim? I mean...wait, doesn't that mean we're characters in a written story? And we're not even canon?!
Natsumi: I don't care, as long as I get to spend more time with you, Subaru. Besides, I sure knew that you felt canon last night-
Subaru: Alright, alright, stop. It's clear that we aren't going to get any answers from Ms. Natsumi, here.
Natsumi: Hey-!
Wait...are those two casually discussing the story in my OMAKE? This is my cool author corner! They're not allowed here! Hey...HEY-
Destiny: HEY, WHY THE HELL ARE YOU TWO OUTSIDE OF THE ONESHOT BOX?! I'M GONNA-
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