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Chapter 20

Gods, she's so beautiful.

I mean, really. Just…just look at her.

Why is it so hard to tell her how I feel?

I totally chickened out of showing her the house and took her to where we first met instead, fully intending to tell her how much I've changed and shit when low and behold I'm a fucking coward. Who'd have thought? Why is charging into battle so easy but saying three simple words I've thought a million times is the most terrifying thing I've ever tried to do. She seems perfectly content to just let me hold her though. Gods, how I've missed her. I'm still afraid I'll wake up and find out this is just a dream or that I've truly gone crazy. Wait, she's talking. Shit, I've not been listening. SHIT, she's waiting for me to say something! Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Just nod, alright. Just nod and then if that's the right response she'll settle down.

That was not the right response. She looks pissed. Shit, what did she say? Just be honest, tell her you were just lost in the moment or something sappy. That'll make her either happy or terrified. Or…ya know, just stay silent because you're a giant wuss.

She's still pissed, do something. You will not fuck this up, ya hear me?! STOP FUCKING THIS UP!

"Sorry, I zoned out for a sec. What'd you ask me?"

Okay, she seems to be considering this and…. she smiling, okay pay attention this time. She's asking you whether you've been ignoring her on purpose. Oh, fucking great, and you nodded when she asked. I mean it's true but still you should follow it up with something more than just nodding.

"It wasn't like I wanted to. You were always so busy."

Ah, hell. That's just…that's just a gods damned lie. Why can't you just apologize like a normal human being? Why are you making this so much worse?

"I didn't mean that. I…I was just scared I'd mess things up like I'm doing now."

Okay that's better. Aw hell yes, she's smiling and…wait, what's she doing. Oh gods, she's going to kiss me! SHE'S GOING TO KISS ME! I mean we've kissed before why am I so excited? Okay, so we like kissed exactly three times. All three under extremely stressful situations. Am I a good kisser? Am I? AM I? Gods I hope I am.