I've always had the fear of falling in love or just saying 'I love you' to someone i cared for since I was 14 years old maybe even when I was 4 years old.
I said it to my Mom and Dad before they died. I said it to my Uncle Ben before he died. I even said it to Gwen before she died.
So when I met her, I got scared. I wasn't ready to fall in love again but...I did. I didn't mean to, I just did.
I remember when she first said 'I love you' to me. I froze. She thought it was because I didn't love her like that or I just wasn't ready to say those words. I quickly shut her thoughts down and explained why I froze.
"I didn't freeze because I don't like you nor did I freeze because I'm not ready to say them. I froze because everytime I ever said those words to someone I care for, they died. I don't wanna to lose you."
Every since that day, instead of saying 'I love you' to each other we say 'I adore you' or 'I care for you'.
I was broken out of my thoughts by the woman I love sitting down next to me in the living room with the other Avengers.
"What are you thinking about?" She questions.
I just smiled. "You." Was my only answer.
She blushed and smiled. Her blush and smile is so beautiful.
She let out a laugh. "No but seriously, what are thinking about?" She asked.
I raised an eyebrow at her and her question. "You do realize you can just read my mind."
"I know but you know I don't like reading your thoughts because I would be invading your privacy." She said.
She then snuggled into my side and layed her head onto my chest. "I adore you, Peter."
I smiled down at her. "I love you too, Wanda."
Wanda pulled away and looked at me in shock along with the others. "Y-you just said 'I love you', but I thought you hated saying it because of what happened to everyone you every said that to."
"Kid..." Mr. Stark breathed out in shock.
I smiled. "I think it was about time I said it. Besides, I'm pretty sure that y'all can handle yourselves."
Wanda teared up. "I love you." She breathed out as she wiped the tears away and snuggled back into my side.
"I love you." She whispered again.
"I love you, too."
My name is Peter Parker aka Spiderman and I've finally got over my fear of falling in love and saying 'I love you'.