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So as the best attention maker insecurity, he loved their reactions and seeked for them in a way. He still wished he didn't look like that but his feelings towards their reactions is just too lovely. It's frustrating him, eating him inside out because as a overthinker he often thought : 'what if I had the chance to get buff?' and that question burned him. Made him think all night long which then leads to exhaustion. That one billion dollar (or billion laughter) question. Then at the end he just thought that he wouldn't ever get the chance, which also made him upset since he didn't like his form but the attention and their laughter was just worth way more.

He had never actually worried about it actually happening that he would gain muscle and fat mass, but still he could not decide which would be better. Being buff and no reactions that he just loved with such a passion or staying in that weak, frail and skinny body with that attention, the laughter, the smiles and overall reactions. He just couldn't decide. But luckily he had never had that question in life. He never had the chance to choose. So it was nice feeling safe. But maybe that decision will actually appear in his life..

It was a usual Saturday morning and all the titans were awake. Almost all of them in the main room whether chatting, reading or cooking radioactive foods. But a certain green boy was still not there. Beast boy.

Beast boy was still in his room looking at himself in the mirror longer than usual. It was just 2 weeks after his 14th birthday and he hoped that he actually went through good puberty. The usual things, you know? Muscle, voice, broadness the usual things. But he never expected them coming, or atleast this early.The green boy had his eyes fixiated on his body. His shoulders, arms and legs. Beast boys mouth formed a small O as he turned to one and then the other side. He eximed his feature for 10 seconds trying to decide whether he was dreaming or not. But he wasn't. His 'O' shaped mouth turned into a smile. A proud one. He turned to his sides again. A slowly lifted his arm sleeves and flexed his muscles. He stared in shock. He had never been this buff. For beast boy this sight was really rare, and something he wished for years. And truth is yes, yes he had gained a bit of weight. His arms and legs definitely looked more toned. His shoulder were more curvy and not just some sharp narrow shoulders. And his muscle mass has grown more. If you looked at him closely for a hour without a stop you could notice it. But it wasn't something really big. He smiled again as combed his hair with his hands and flirted with himself one more time before he dashed to the main room.

"Woah, hey beast boy, you are cheery today. Well, more than usual.." Robin greated. Raven looked up from her book to look at him to find a bright smile. He indeed was more cheery. "Yo, did he prank someone? I swear if you put tofu in my car seats again, you little.." he grimaced while taking a finger and putting it on beast boys chest. Beast boy gulped while looking up at him. "No! No, I didn't do that! I swear!" He remembered the way he reacted the last time he pranked him with that. And he took a note. Never, never ever do that again. He sees the scene of punishment again as he innerly shivered.

"Oh, hello friend! Did you have a pleasant sleep? I am too more cheery today because I cooked my famous gloknarf tartens!"

Starfire made her way from the kitchen to hug beast boy. "S-star, can't b-breathe!.." He managed to say. Starfire looked down at him apologeticly as she let him go. "Apologies.." She put her hand on her neck rubbing it.

"So what are you so cheery about this morning?" Robin asked curiosity wandering in him. Beast boy smiled brighter again.

"Well, I am surprised you didn't noticed but... I HAVE MORE MUSCLES!" He screamed excited jumping around. They looked at him another minute before finally seeing a slight difference in his frame today. They smiled at him.

"Well, alright dude! time to get buff, right?" Cy high fived. Everyone noticed that the difference was small but knew for the green boy it was pretty big. "Yes, wonderful! I think look quite the 'buff' this morning, yes? Do you agree boyfriend Robin?"

Hearing that from his girlfriend made him a blush a little. "Yeah, beast boy, if you go on with this you will maybe be as buff as I am." He smiled. Beast boy let out a 'hmph' and crossed his arms on his chest pouting. Raven innerly cooed at that sight.

While everyone continued to giggle, beast boy went up to Raven. "Hey Rae-" He started and got stopped by Raven.

"Raven" she corrected in her monotone voice. "I am buff now too, you like my muscles?" He flexed while everyone including him laughed. Raven blushed a bit before pushing him on the ground without using her power. "Wow, you are really strong and buff." She replied with her sarcasm tone. Everyone laughed even harder while beast boy was on the ground pouting yet again.

"Hey! I was not ready for that! That was cheating, I am stronger than you are!" He spat out grumpily as he stood up by the help of his best friend. "It sounds like we'll need another arm wrestling match!" Cyborg yelled excited. And prepared their stance.

Raven looked at beast boy like she always does with no emotions. Beast boy smiled at her confidently. "This time I'm going to win, dude!" He said proudly. In response she rolled her eyes and ended the thing with a 'let's get this over with..' .

"Oh, you are scared? You should, since I am the official beast man!" He smiled again. Raven just glared at him.

"Cy I don't think-" Robin spoke but got interrupted by his metal friend. "Shhhhh, I got to have the perfect silence before starting this.." A moment of silence came afterwards enough time for Robin to remember the last time they fought and Beast boy lost.

Everyone laughed while beast boy stared in shock. But real shock. Shock and sadness of his loss. After a while he fake giggled as well and looked over to Raven who had her smile on that said 'I'm better than you' after a while they where chatting and also still talking about the loss of beast boy. "Yeah, this little dude really needs some more training!" Cyborg blurted out taking beast boy's arms and swinging them around. They all laughed but beast boy wasn't so happy.

"Dude, let my arms go!" He angrily said while gritting his teeth. He struggled trying to release from cyborg's grasp. He sure could be a perfect restraint for beast boy. The others, cyborg the mostly, laughed. Beast boy felt humiliated. It had not happened in a while that he did since he loved their laughing at his flaws but he felt truly humiliated. "Ughh..L-let me go!.."

He pleaded but eventuelly gave up and whimpered. "Nah B, these string arms need to be tested a little more! And we just started, are you exhausted already? Come on B, if you want to be free, free yourself.." He smirked and laughed and so did the others, even Raven. But Beast boy was on the verge of letting his tears slip on his cheeks from his eyes. He struggled again and groaned trying to get free. After a while Cyborg tightened his grip on beast boy. And even though he had done that to Raven for example to just hold her, it hurt beast boy. They giggled and laughed beast boy was in pain. Mentally and now even physically. He tried again. Soon his bloodstream was blocked from Cyborgs tight grasp. He couldn't let a tear slip. No, not now. He didn't want to humiliate himself more. "Ughhh... Cyborg l-let go.. please..it..h-hurts.." He said followed by another whimper. The other 2 stopped laughing and looked at beast boy. He really looked to be in pain but Cyborg kept at it and then even squeezed harder. Beast boy could not bare it any longer he gasped before turning into fly and flying his way out his way. Then he transformed back. "Yo, that's cheating and also, why didn't you do the bar, huh little guy? Afraid it won't help either?" While everyone was laughing they didn't notice beast boy's one tear falling off before he left the room.

A while later when Robin went out of his room to get himself some coffee he heard something.

'What is that noise?' It came from the practice room. Robin walked down the hallway to hear the sound more. It was panting, but painful panting. Panting, thuds and groans coming out of the practice room. After a while the noises had lessened but panting was still there. Robin held his ear at the door. "Ugh!" It was beast boy. What was happening in there? Was he hurt or was he fighting? "Ugh! Useless, stupid, ugly, weak, pathetic, skinny, arms! Can you do anything! Or are you some decoration?!" The changeling growled, his tone lower. Robin wicked at his words. How could his cheery member say something like that. He thought his arms were just fine. Then he remembered his loss and the way cyborg treated him afterwards. He didn't know it would affect him like that. After a while he heard more panting groaning and thuds.

That continued for a while before there was only the panting and then suddenly one loud thump. Afterwards nothing.

Robin decided to get in and check what happened and the sight of it wasn't pleasant.

There was beast boy - on the ground still panting and breaking hard. His eyes were closed.

"Beast boy!" Robin yelled running over to kneeling in front of him. His face was paler and he had sweat everywhere.

"Beast boy, are you okay?" He asked and gripped his arms to get him up from his position on the ground. However beast boy cried out and winced with his eyes shut tight just at Robin even barely touching his arms. Robin looked at his arms with wide eyes and pulled his sleeves fast but gently. Underneath he saw all of the pain he took in while they were making fun of him. Two gigantic, really large, Huge bruises were on each arm. He felt guilty almost immediately.

"Bast Boy.." He looked at the room and noticed there was a full water bottle at the bench. Must be his. He ran to the bottle grabbed it and went to beast boy again.

"No.." beast boy refused. "What do you mean no? You need water!" Robin panicked slightly at the refusal.

"No.. I don't.. deserve it Rob'n..I'm not done yet and also.. I fainted.. I shouldn't.. be rewarded.." Robin gasped at was was coming out of his teammates mouth. He didn't have to deserve and even if he would he should. He pushed himself a lot.

"Beast boy. It's not a reward you need it for Energie, god, is that why it is still full? How long have you been here?"

Robin panicked he gave him the water bottle again and this time after some time he accepted the bottle and drank the half of it. "What time is it?" "It's 5 pm" Robin replied. "3 hours.." beast boy said truthfully after while.

"Beast boy, I heard you panting just now if you did practice that intense the whole time that is too much, you are overworking yourself. And I also heard you saying mean things about yourself. Please, beast boy don't think that way...

Now the trainings over, you look still a bit unsteady let me carry you.." Robin placed his hand on his neck and his thigh but before lifting him beast boy denied the touch. "No thanks, I am strong enough to stand and walk myself Robin." He stood up -

But a little too fast. The room was spinning again and the dark spots appeared again. He collapsed again but Robin catchend him before he could fall. He this time carried him without the younger refusing him. When he was at his room he placed him in his upper bunk and left again saying 'take a nice rest'.

And at the end of the day the whole practicing only mad him lose weight.

"Alright then on the count of three" Cyborg ripped me out of my thoughts as they were about to begin.

"One... Two...three!" They started and after about 7 seconds beast boy was beat.. again.

"Wooh, nailed it, Rae!" Cyborg yelled as they giggled. "Yes friend, you have kicked his butt! Although you were also very good, it took more time today to beat you!" Starfire assured him while putting a hand on his shoulder. "Thanks, star." His eyes brighten. "Yeah, I will be truthful, it was more difficult to defeat you this time." Raven even admitted and looked away shortly after. Beast boys eyes brighten even more at that statement. "Dude, really?!" Beast boy's asked excited.

"Yes, but don't take it as a compliment." Raven said in monotone.

'We are getting somewhere' beast boy thought proudly. Only thinking that this was the start made his mouth corners go really wide and high. "Yo BB, if you continue this that would be great, but you'll never be as strong as I am" Cyborg smiled teasingly.

"Yeah, yeah you'll see, and this is just the beginning!" Beast boy said also smiling at him. Raven just rolled her eyes thinking 'boys..' while Robin made his way to the couch and Starfire to the kitchen. "If that's so, you should slow down, B, soon we won't be able to roast you anymore!" They both giggled.

{Hi guys, thanks for reading! Reviews are accepted, bye}

09.10.2021

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