Chapter 2: The Price of Forgiveness
I don't remember much about how I got trapped inside the ice, the memories before that were hazy and every time I tried to remember what happened, I was only invaded by feelings of fear and guilt.
Because I knew perfectly well that it was my fault.
When I was released from that prison my mind was still somewhat asleep, I remembered that I was naked, lying in the cold snow, with the sensation of a lump pressing against my stomach while someone was on top of me.
He was probably whispering something to me.
I listened to her angelic voice, but I couldn't shape the words. Mentally overwhelmed as I was it was impossible for me to follow a conversation, my body in those moments was weird to me, I guess now, looking from behind, it was something normal since my body had been growing inside the ice.
Little by little I was able to capture the image around me, but before that I was invaded by a heavenly sensation.
I felt someone licking me, biting me, toying with me. His breath created opaque shadows that floated in the air and ran across my skin. It was warm, his body was crushing mine, pressing with endless longing, but also with so much affection. I found it so pleasurable and terrifying at the same time. His tongue ran over parts that no one had ever even been able to touch; my collarbone, my breasts, my stomach, his touch then made my nipples erect for the first time in my life, of course he didn't miss the opportunity to take them into his mouth. I could only gasp with pure pleasure. But that didn't stop him in the least.
He continued to play with my body, giving me pleasures I had never known until then. Little by little I got used to my adult body, I recovered my sight and I saw him.
Lying in the snow, behind him I watched as the white sky was getting darker. He was on top of me, his hands were still holding my arms while his mouth was exploring my body, when I opened my eyes after a few blinks and saw him facing me, watching me. Seeing him lost in his lust was seeing the most beautiful thing I had ever seen in my life, his face was red as he watched me lying on the white snow. Normally I would have been upset with him for stopping his games so abruptly, but not in those moments, I just couldn't stop watching him and if anyone interrupted that view, I would hate it.
He was cute: wild and tender at the same time, with honey-colored eyes and intense gaze, tousled black hair, his body well toned and naked over mine. That was the first time I met him, he whispered things in my ear, told me he wouldn't hurt me, that he didn't mean to, but that he would because he could control the beast in him. That it was a part of his sin that was awakened only with me.
At that moment I didn't quite understand the meaning, I was simply lost in the warm breath near my ears as if to ask.
He said the first time was going to hurt and maybe even scare me. After I got over that trance, the other times would be frantic and bordering on ecstasy, he assured me. That's what he told me.
When his bulge started rubbing me, I understood.
I couldn't have been more scared than I already was.
It was too big, it wasn't going to fit.
But I still let him do it.
Why did he believe her?
In truth, he did not lie in the least.
He kissed me again until─
"Archbishop Natsuki I'm afraid you are overreaching," said a voice I don't remember what it sounded like. "You promised that you would control yourself and listen to her, won't you at least allow her to be able to explain or defend herself?
The person was someone he could not make out, a blurry silhouette that appeared to be a woman, but Subaru seemed to recognize her.
"Beat it," he snarled. His teeth showed in a snarl, and there was such naked menace in his voice that it seemed that whoever heard it would run away just hearing it.
Seeing him from behind it was so cute to see him that way, so protective. I remembered how his lips curved back to show his teeth, like an animal warning another to stay away from its female.
The figure seemed to mumble something until finally relenting, shrugging his shoulders and losing himself in nothingness.
When I turned to look at him, his mouth was already on mine. His tongue was daringly roaming inside me and the force applied to my arms intensified.
"Your sin," he said with his lips pressed to my ear. "I don't know if such a thing can be forgiven. I don't know what your motives were, but what you did to your people is unjustifiable. For that, you are doomed. Doomed to me."
He hovered even more over me, wedged his hips between mine and, suffering the most burning and irritating pain I had felt so far, penetrated me with a single thrust. Then there were more until my uterus let him in completely.
He didn't lie about the beast in him, he was an animal. He had torn me completely apart, I felt like I was bleeding between my legs, he heard my sobs, my pleas for him to stop, but he would not. Nothing in the world could stop him. He penetrated me again and again, and I watched his face full of absolute pleasure as he came inside me.
When his hands let go of my arms, they rested on my breasts and pressed them hard, he put my nipples together and used his mouth to suck them both at the same time. He fucked me for hours, the pain had turned into pleasure like I had never had in my life, he took not only my virginity, but also my first orgasm.
At that moment I had lost count of how many times we had cum, he filled me again and again with his seed. We were truly insatiable, my legs were weak, but somehow they wrapped around his waist so he wouldn't stop. My body would never get used to having him inside me, although there was pleasure, he was too big and that time he was anything but gentle. He did it to me until I lost consciousness. Still, I don't think he stopped even then.
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He was called by many names: devil, demon of depravity, avenging lust, witch's fury, the archbishop of lust.
He never cared what title he was given, he dispensed justice and did so for months. Besides, Subaru thought they were very cool titles.
He had never doubted his methods, his judgment or anything the gospel had told him.
In the words of an acquaintance, he was a fervent believer in LOVE.
He had been doing his job very diligently. So he didn't have many problems within the organization and hoped that it would continue... as long as a certain centuries-old virgin idiot didn't find out that he had been fucking each of his wives.
Things had been going relatively well for him.
He and his subordinates had tasted countless women, of all races and types, one after another, it was pleasurable without a doubt. Subaru had a lot of fun using his authority on them.
Through the authority of lust he could make a woman's body respond to his actions as he pleased, and it was a delight to watch a certain redhead try to contain the rage and hatred as his magic pleased them in ways they had never felt before. That hair and those eyes provoked a dormant anger inside, so he had enjoyed it as much as he could.
Subaru almost regretted donating it to the slum demihumans, but it was for the best. The debt was owed to them, the Astrea's debt to the cult she had already paid.
But the day came when it all came crashing down.
The day I would know what it truly means to love someone.
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He had just released the witch who had frozen all his own people.
Pandora told me about her, about how she knew her as a child and how she had barely survived her fury, about how overwhelming and absurdly great her power was. She was without a doubt The Witch's Daughter or whatever that meant.
Did she do it because she wasn't a full elf? Nothing justified that.
When I freed her from the ice you can see her... naked.
She was beautiful, the most beautiful thing indeed. Needless to say, she turned me on at the first moment, I had gone with the mindset of making love to her, but to find her so willing was very stimulating.
"W-What" It looked like she tried to say something, but she fell in the snow without being able to say anything, it seemed that being trapped had made her dizzy or something. Physically she was fine, with a few scrapes from her fall, either the problem was mental or she was faking it. I didn't care, I wasn't going to wait any longer.
I stood over her as I grabbed one of her silver locks, it smelled so good and it was ─ familiar...
My gaze roamed over her smooth, unwrinkled face. She was definitely a beautiful woman. Her skin was so fine and white, her face exuded such innocence and was endowed with high, sculpted cheekbones, lips were sensuous and her cheeks somewhat puffy that she had a somewhat childlike appearance. It was all dominated by a pair of sparkling amethyst eyes under arched, silver eyebrows. "Such a pretty face to make something so ugly," I whispered.
She didn't seem to catch my words.
At the time I had doubted that she was capable of doing something like that.
But the authority of lust allowed me to know the body of anyone around me if I focused. She had a latent power capable of that, an enormous power like Pandora had described, a power of ice that froze everything for almost a century.
I began to play with her body, partly because I could, but also because every cell in my body was burning with a life and warmth for the first time in my life.
She couldn't deny that she enjoyed my touches either, I didn't even have to find out on my authority, her moans made it more than clear and her body urged me to continue.
And so I did.
I was mesmerized by her beauty and reactions.
How truly idiotic he could be.
I had completely fallen for Pandora's ploy, although the bitch wanted to stop me, it was only to escape from the guilt and disengage from the problem.
I couldn't remember what had happened since we got together. My head felt like it was drugged, it was probably Pandora, it was so strange that she had left without contemplating the act of LOVE like she always did.
But none of that mattered, I knew I was unkind.
Now that it was all done I could only bow my head in shame and close my eyes to the silent accusations that screamed from the snow crushed with some of their virgin blood.
The blood was more than one would expect from a virgin breach.
Brute. Monster. Rapist.
All the insults and nicknames he had earned so far fell much heavier on his heart.
Now that he knew the truth...
I had used my authority to give me a devastating force, with all the terrible risks and responsibilities that it entailed. I could not simply eliminate it, my power had rules and limits, I could not alter the physical attributes in an unlimited way as many times as I wanted in a person. I altered the OD involuntarily by doing so, I altered the Soul of the person as it adapted to its new container and Pandora warned me of using it repeatedly in short periods of time.
If I wanted to get back to normal or at least decrease my strength I had to wait years.
Now I was a man who stood out even among those blessed with inhuman strength, I was at the top of the pack, my muscles were literally harder than rocks if I stiffened them normally. I had gone toe to toe with a Snow Blight just for practice and I had emerged victorious, I knew that no woman's strength was a match for me if I used this form!
I could have killed her!
Always, ever since I was summoned I had been careful when it came to intercourse, I could humiliate her and have fun, but I was always careful not to hurt them, more so if the other party was weaker - Always! - I kept myself in line since Theresia and that had been just an accident.
Now it was disgusting, he had used brute force on her and the worst thing was that he felt something he didn't feel for anyone else.
I didn't understand what the hell happened to me with her, I just exploded with uncontrollable, dominant and possessive desire. I wasn't like that, but something had awakened when I saw her and I'm sure the sapphire-eyed bitch interfered afterwards.
I loaded the woman into a bridal bag and carried her to one of the huts. I did my best to make the place livable, but my mind was lost at the time.
I feared I had made a mistake and, deep down, I knew I had.
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I rubbed my eyes when I woke up, my legs felt a bit numb and I was covered on blankets while looking at the unfamiliar ceiling. I jumped out of bed when I saw him there cooking and looked for the nearest door to get out of there. He scared me. I was terrified, enraged and hurt by his behavior.
He stopped me by hovering over me and smashing me against the wall with my back to him. He was still too aggressive. Through the window I could see that it was already dark and the moon was shining brightly in the sky, bigger than ever. I didn't want to join him again, I didn't want that kind of relationship. Besides, I didn't even know his name.
He hugged me, this time without violence, only with tenderness and some possessiveness, and buried his face in my neck. With a breath in his voice, he begged me not to leave him and to please give him a chance to apologize.
The conversation took place, he was mortified to hear my story and I could see how he held back tears. He told me that a bad woman had cheated on him and made him believe that I was a very bad person.
We talked a little bit about us, shared our names and he told me that that kind of union we had had was not what he wanted either, he told me he would never do it again if I didn't want it, but he wanted me to be his eternal partner.
I did not understand what he meant.
He told me that I would be his and he would be mine, and he begged me to let him love me again as he knew how, that he wanted to make me feel good. I don't know why I grieved after those words, especially after how he had treated me, but I wanted to trust him. I felt I could do it, and after the tone it wasn't so unpleasant.
He took me in his arms again and laid me on the bed. With his hands and kisses, he calmed my tremors and my fears. With his tongue, he licked and sucked my wounds from my fall and also the unseen ones. He placed himself between my crotch and I covered myself, it hurt and I didn't want him to touch me there again.
When he asked me to let him cure me, I seemed to see his eyes watering and very sorry for what had happened. I was touched, I could not help it. I pulled my hands away, he took them and kissed the fingers of both of mine one by one. Then he settled between my legs and pushed them apart with his shoulders.
He put his mouth and tongue down there, and I was enraptured. It was unbelievable. He sucked and sucked me until I was almost in tears, but this time with pleasure, and after bringing me to ecstasy three times in a row, he settled between my legs and sank into me. I thought I was going to go crazy with joy. I had never imagined anything like that between men and women. But he had shown me. It was worth the initial suffering to receive the most sublime pleasure.
Well, that was how I had stopped being a virgin. Now I am a woman in love and married to a man named Subaru Natsuki. Emilia Natsuki, the witch of the frozen forest, and Natsuki Subaru, the Archbishop of lust. What a couple.