Chapter 9

Olivia clicked her pen on her desk as she thought about the night before. She learned the real reason Amanda fled Atlanta. Her sister Kim had problems and drugs only multiplied them. Amanda was a beautiful young blonde and her Captain took notice. He groomed her and Amanda being young, never saw it coming.

She told her how it started with simple flirting and spiraled out of control. When her sister had charges on her, Captain Reynolds and Deputy Chief Patton cornered and asked how much she loved Kim. Amanda cried on her shoulder for 3 hours after explaining how they raped her over and over.

Her sister was cleared of all charges and she tried to tell her mother what happened. Her mother didn't care, Kim was free. She just couldn't stay in Atlanta. "What's wrong Liv?" She stopped clicking and looked at Fin. "Missing your boo?" He smiled a wide grin, but Olivia couldn't.

He looked concerned and she covered it up, "Sorry, I didn't get much sleep last night." Fin rolled his eyes and pointed saying she better notify Cap of the relationship, because he didn't need anymore problems. She thought Fin was right. She stood and walked into his office.

She closed the door, "Captain, I really care about Amanda and you asked me to notify you if we were moving forward. If someone has to transfer, make it me." He smiled and explained he cleared it months ago before the trouble came. Cragen smiled wide and told her everything was good.

Everything wasn't good though. She covered for Amanda saying she was sick with a stomach bug and laughed saying it was a price to pay living with kids. She was worried about her all day. She even called Lucy several times to check in. "Liv, I dropped off Quinn. Kyle is at Columbia talking to the baseball coach. Amanda hasn't come out of the room all day."

Olivia sighed, "Thanks Luce." Quinn was in a summer camp. Prince Miller even came and gave out free lessons. Kyle was on his way to college on a full D1 baseball scholarship. He was proud of that, because he didn't need his mother's money. He never even touched the monthly stipend. She hoped he would change his mind. Now she just needed to help Amanda find her way. She didn't want to go after them and that was fine, but she had to heal.

Olivia walked in with an excited Quinn. She dribbled her new basketball, "Kyle! Lucy! Watch me!" They all watched her dribble between her legs and behind her back. They all thought the same thing, she was pretty good.

Olivia was frustrated. "Ok Quinn, stop bouncing that in the house." Everyone caught her tone and Quinn frowned holding the ball under her arm. Olivia rubbed her head and picked her up, kissing her. "I'm sorry baby, just be careful." Quinn smiled and put the ball on the couch.

Olivia looked through the mail and then kissed Noah. "Hey sweet boy." She looked at the closed bedroom door and then at Lucy. Lucy just shook her head. They all heard a knock, "Quinn, open the door for David." David had been very active with Noah. One night a week he came over to see him. He never took him, but he was still so young. He never missed his week though.

Kyle walked over, "Hard day mom?" Olivia smiled and nodded. Olivia handed Noah to David and spoke to him. They only spoke about Noah. He didn't stay long, which was weird, but he claimed something with work. Once he left, Kyle offered some help, he knew something wasn't right. "Mom, how about Luce and I take Noah and Quinn to her favorite diner and then we can shoot some hoops downstairs."

Quinn jumped up, "Please mommy!" Olivia definitely liked the sound of that. Once everyone was gone, Olivia heated up the leftover meatloaf, potatoes, and green beans. She put enough for two on one plate.

She opened the door and it was dark. She turned on the light and sat beside her, "Wake up sleepyhead. You need to eat." Amanda blinked those blue eyes. Olivia was worried that she would fight her. She didn't, she sat up and ate, she ate more than Olivia. "How do you feel?"

Amanda shrugged, "I think better. I feel better because you know and I don't have to hide it." Amanda looked at Olivia. "I don't want this to stop us from being together. Please don't tell me that you don't want me."

Olivia kissed her, harder than she ever had before. "I told you I just wanted to know. I'm here for you and I want to be with you." Amanda cuddled under her arm. Her hands roamed all over Olivia's body and up under her shirt. Olivia kissed her deeply and they made out like two teenagers.

They moved the make out session to the tub. Amanda sat in between Olivia's legs. "Liv, I like this. I feel safe with you and before you, I didn't feel safe for a long time." Olivia kissed her neck and rubbed circles around her belly button.

Olivia was in a tough spot. Amanda had told her something that was sexually traumatic. Her SVU training was kicking in. If she did this wrong it could trigger her or really piss her off. She didn't want to push her faster than she was ready for. However, if she denied her, that wouldn't work either. Olivia thought about what she should do and Amanda grabbed her hand and pushed it between her legs. "Liv, I feel safe, now make me feel good."

Olivia knew the fastest way to make that happen. It wasn't to penetrate her. She circled her clit slowly, then faster, then slowly again. Amanda's toes gripped the edge of the tub and she pushed back on Olivia's body. "Ahhh! Ahhh! Liv! Fuck!" Olivia cuffed her lower lips and held her body as she shook, splashing water out of the tub.

They were both clean and dry when the kids came home. "Mommy! Manda! I had breakfast for dinner. A huge waffle with syrup and whipped cream."

Kyle smiled, "And then we played basketball and worked off the sugar." Olivia shook her head, but she didn't complain because it allowed her and Amanda to have some alone time.

They were in bed and Amanda looked so happy. "Mommy, can I sleep with you and Manda?" Olivia usually didn't let that happen, but Amanda answered yes before she could say no. Olivia watched her cuddle next to Amanda. "Mommy, I love you and Manda. Are you two together?" Quinn giggled and smiled.

Olivia didn't hide their giant step. "We are. Is that ok with you?" Olivia and Amanda held their breath waiting to hear her small voice.

Quinn nodded and hugged Amanda tighter. "Yeah, now she can be my mommy too. I think you have to be a mama though. I can't get you mixed up."

Amanda stroked her hair and rubbed her back until she fell asleep in her arms. Olivia waited until her eyes were shut before turning on the TV. She watched the news.

Amanda smiled, "Liv, I want one." When Olivia turned to look her in the eye, Amanda immediately became nervous.

Olivia confirmed what she was saying, "You want a Quinn? You have one right there." Amanda frowned. "You want a baby?" Amanda nodded. "Ok, have you thought about how and when?" Amanda was shocked that Olivia was entertaining her.

Olivia turned off the TV to really talk. "I mean, I love Noah, but he was a bit of a surprise, especially at my age. You're younger, but you still need a donor. You plan on cheating on me?"

Amanda shot those blue eyes like a dagger, "No!" Quinn stirred and Amanda had to pat her back to sleep. Olivia kissed her to calm her wrecked nerves.

She pushed her tongue in and watched her eyes smile as she slowly pulled away sucking on her lip. "I will try to give you anything you want. You're like my kryptonite."