"He doesn't want to fuck me anymore!" a wide-eyed brunette exclaimed to her co-residents. They were out drinking for their post shift celebration, and yet here she is ranting about how her boyfriend doesn't rail her like he used to.

"Bitch, then leave!"

"Maybe he's cheating again!"

"Wait! Can somebody fill me in? I'm new around here." The new intern adjusted her glasses as the group stopped dead in their tracks to drink their shots.

"Oh boy, here we go again." Another girl sighed, preparing for the Mikan Sakura rant train that can go hours end with no clear station… nor destination… It's basically just a never-ending loop in the same place.

"Ugh, newbie! Why did you even ask?" Misaki, their chief resident, interrupted as she poured herself another glass out of frustration. She knows Mikan tends to 'hyper rant' whenever she's exhausted. Most times it's just about the most mundane things, like her two-hour rant about how angry she was by the lack of Howalons in the hospital's vending machine. But then again, sometimes, it's about the most serious things, like how she beats herself up for not being a 'good doctor like the rest of them'whatever that means. True enough some have its merit, but how can you distinguish them from each other when they all sound the same?

"I mean it's only fair to ask since it's eating her up." the new intern Luna said while pouring everyone another round of shots.

"It's been eating her up since med school. She will live another day." Anna chimed in. She just wanted to get shitfaced drunk after a long shift, why is Mikan making it about Natsume again? She didn't sign up for this.

Mikan started to tear up as she reached for another shot of tequila. "You guys are being so unsupportive! You're supposed to be my girls. I don't want to pay for your drinks anymore!" She pouted, trying so hard to cutely throw a temper tantrum. No one was buying it. The girl was livid.

"Ugh, Fine! I don't want to pay for my drinks anyway. Go tell her on that table." Hotaru said pointing to the table at the backend of the speakeasy. "I'm ordering crabs, you pay, we deserve it." Hotaru said in one breath.

"Okay Luna, since you're the only one who wants to fucking listen." Mikan said as she shot a death stare towards her so-called girls, dragging Luna and her tequila away.

Honestly, they couldn't be bothered at this point. They've had enough. They distanced themselves from the two of them and continued looking at the bar's menu.

"So what's up?" Luna said pouring her another glass.

Mikan took another shot before starting her story. "You see, Natsume and I have known each other since elementary school! He always made fun of me the whole time! It's always the smallest of things! Teasing me about my hairstyle, the color of underwear I was wearing, usual stupid kids' stuff." She stopped to refill her shot glass. "But by the time we were in high school, somehow, I've gotten through him… Wore him down, and we started getting closer and closer. I didn't realize when… but I started falling for him. It was so random! We were just walking to our next class, he looked at me and ask what my lunch was, and my heart sped up like crazy. It felt like it was gonna fall from my body, I was so terrified. He just saw me as a friend though! He was so in love with this other girl from our class. Courted her for months! In the end, she just left him for another boy. It really messed him up that one… Me too, actually. He didn't sleep, he didn't eat. All his thoughts were about her, so were our conversations. It kept going on repeat, that it was also starting to wear me down. Still, I was there for him, taking care of him and whatnot since he kept acting up. He started becoming distant to me and our friends. Few months later, for some reason something changed, I felt it. All of a sudden, he was getting this huge playboy reputation in school. He was out there like really fucking the entire school's population. Of course, I was young and naive, I was like, I can change him. I can change him."

"Damn, he sounds like bad news. You still with him?" Luna said pouring Mikan another shot.

"Hey what about you? Aren't you drinking?" Mikan pushed her shot glass towards Luna.

"Newbie, designated driver." She said nonchalantly.

"Oof! Been there... Anyway! I told him I was in love with him, for a long time now. And he was so shocked… took my virginity and then let me off telling me to give him time to process things. He asked me to be his girlfriend few weeks after. Really felt like eternity waiting for him to call me back! Kinda felt shitty, kinda felt used. It wasn't… great… it felt terrible being his girlfriend, to be honest. I doubted myself because maybe I wasn't enough for him. I knew I wanted out, but this is Natsume we're talking about. Why would I want out? We really weren't ready back then. I always felt like his rebound. He told me he felt as if it's his obligation to ask me out, so we really crashed and burned. We dated for a little over six months and he was out cheating on me for the last half of it. I mean of course in high school, months feel like years. I was so oblivious! The entire school knew, so did my friends! They were already telling me, but I kept everything going on. Until one time I went to his dorm because I wanted to surprise him for his birthday. Saw him fucking another girl and all."

"Did you make a whole scene? I would have! Like I'd really punch your boyfriend."

"No, I held back my tears and told him to talk to me in the morning. I really didn't want to break up with him."

"Nooo!"

"Yeah! Exactly! Right?"

"WHY ARE YOU STILL TOGETHER?" Luna felt violated. If someone as beautiful as Dr. Sakura reeks of desperation… what then would happen to someone like her?

Anna walked in on them for a second and listened in, she then shouted. "Okay girls, we're still on the high school era. You can still order the sangria!" Mikan threw her the napkins she found on their table before she ran back to her friends.

"Okay, where were we? Oh! So, I was the one who begged him not to break up with me! And he was totally like it's not you, it's me. I was really having none of it. It was already graduation after all! I wouldn't be able to fix things because we're going completely different routes in college… I'm geared to take up my pre-med, he wanted to be in business school. So I was like, please don't leave me. Flat out desperation. Really begged him to stay. That was such a hard time for me, you can't even imagine! I wasn't eating. I almost didn't make it to graduation. Our parents didn't know we broke up, so they forced us to take pictures together."

"UGH! You're still with him? WHYYYYY?!"

"Wait, hold on! So, I got into med school, got my heart broken a couple more times until I realized I don't want to be with anyone anymore. I just slept with who I want to sleep with, classic med school. I'm so stressed out I was living on my own the city, so I took it out on sex… That was up until Hotaru's wedding."

"She's married?"

"Yup. One kid. We were high school friends, the four of us. They were the 'it' couple, you already knew they're gonna be together forever. Us? The dark contrast. It was a bit chaotic. So she's getting married, we were all in town, he's the best man, I'm the maid of honor, I mean I didn't want to fuck it up and say I don't want to go. Hotaru's gonna kill me. So I said, yeah, it's alright. I don't know. When we saw each other, I don't understand, there were butterflies in my stomach, I kept throwing up. I thought it was because of my nerves because I would be giving out a wedding speech. Turns out, after the speech I was still throwing up, 'cause I was nervous because he kept looking at me the whole time. His whole speech people were like egging us on and he didn't mind at all, still kept looking at me. I really felt awkward. It felt like a movie."

"So, what happened?"

"Well uhm, I got really drunk to calm me down, so I approached him… liquid courage! We made small talk the entire time. He was really nice and like… sexy. He started apologizing for everything he did in the past and said he really learned from it and was starting to think of settling down and all. Meanwhile I was like I don't know, horny drunk. So it was enough to ask him what hotel room he's staying in… so uhm, we had sex… At first, I really thought it was gonna be bad! Like the ones in high school! But he really… he improved… so much. Like he's… I don't know how to describe it, but he's really good in bed. I mean like I almost passed out good level. Have you had that?"

"I mean, I don't necessarily partake…" Luna turned beet red. She didn't necessarily want her colleagues to know that she was still a virgin. I mean it's only been weeks since she's got here.

"Personally, I love it when he's like in charge and you know, that move when he pins you to the wall and stuff. Like he sometimes puts my legs up. Damn that's like ugh... It helps that he's big too, you know, like I'm not a small girl but like he just takes me to the right places… I mean, I think it's safe to say that we already fucked at every corner of his house."

Luna blushed once again, she was unable to take her mind off of the lewd things Mikan was telling her. They say boys have potty mouths, but really, they should listen to girls talk.

"Ohhh… I get it. You're a virgin." Mikan teased. "Neat! But you should try it though, it changes your… perspective." She laughed heartily.

"Can you just go on with your story! I don't want to talk about it."

"Okay, fine. So I asked him to be my… well… my fuck buddy. For a few weeks we were like that, I'd call him up if I had a long day and wanted relief… whenever I'm bored… sometimes, even just to rant about how tired I am. Everything was going well… up until he told me that he was still in love with me and would love it if things work out for us."

"Damn. What did you say?"

"Of course, I said no! He used to be such a fucking player. I made him work for it. Like he really changed the game for me. He started courting me, sending me flowers and whatnot, and then sending my friends gifts also… But, you know, at that time, I felt like I deserved more than that, I wanted to make him pay. So, I was putting the thought of us in the back burner. He was really putting in all the effort though! Like I knew it was getting serious when Hotaru already asked me what we were, and I was like 'oh we're just friends'. Nobody could do anything about it. He eventually got tired when he saw me and… well, I don't think you know him anymore, he used to work with us… You know, Akira?"

Luna shook her head.

"Well Akira and I went out for dinner, and Natsume saw the two of us together. Apparently, what I didn't know that time was that he told Natsume to back off before. Told him I'd end up with him anyway eventually and that Natsume was just some sidepiece I'd fuck around with before I end up with him."

"Wow, the level of confidence these men have. What happened after?"

"He got really upset and walked out. He waited up in my house and asked me if I was aware that I was on a date, I said I wasn't so sure, but it wasn't the first time. He finally asked if he actually has a shot with me or I was just waiting around and using him up until I get bored. At this point I was really at it, like irate. I told him about every trauma that I felt because of what he used to do to me, and that like I don't even think what he's doing now makes up for it… that maybe I'm just using him for sex and all. That conversation went on for too long."

"You're kind of toxic too! What the fuck is wrong with you two?"

"Exactly! He eventually gave up and straight out asked me if I could forgive him for what he did in the past because he's really serious and like he's ready to settle down and stuff. And I was like, I don't think I could, and I don't think I want to settle down with him, so that was that. He told me how sorry he was, and how thankful he was that he met me… because he wanted to be better because of me... At this point I was balling. Like I want to be with him, but I don't want to be with him. I needed to grow up too."

"So what happened? Aren't you together now?"

"Yeah. That was because of Hotaru too. They flat out asked me if I would be okay with seeing Natsume months after we kinda broke it off because they want to set him up with another girl on their kid's party of some sort. I was like, why the fuck are you setting him up and not me? He's the worst. And they were like, 'No honey, he really wants to settle down and he's been nothing but nice to everyone this whole time. If you don't want to see them we can just like set them up another time.' Kind of telling me that I was actually the problem. I was really fuming at this point but I stood my ground, I didn't want them to notice so I said it's fine, I don't care. So, when I saw them being introduced at the party, I was straight out dying. Like seeing him happy made my heart clench. He was doing fine while I was out here stuck in a rut. That was fucking horrible. I cried and cried for days over it and realized that I was still in love with him. It wasn't just because I can't have him anymore, it wasn't just because of the sex. I love him. I can't imagine my life without him, he needs to know that. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat. The thought of him made my heart jump. I dreamed of him every night. I think of him every morning. The thought of him makes me nervous and calms me down at the same time! I don't know if he'll take me back but for sure, I can't live my life not knowing. So, I rushed to his place one morning and I told him how I felt, how empty I felt without him and how I never felt happier like I did when we were together. I told him that it's fine with me if he already has someone else. I just wanted him to know how I feel… that I love him… and that I don't think there would be anyone else but him."

Luna couldn't help but giggle. "What did he say?"

"Yeah. Well, wait, hold on. Are they still ordering?" Mikan rushed to their friends' table. "You guys are drunk already, stop charging my card for your orders and finish these."

"Well, we could if you just speed up you're fucking Ted talk and come over here!"

"Fine!" Mikan said as she dragged Luna back with them to their table.

"So which chapter are you in on now?" Anna said half drunk. "Mikan really has this penchant for drama, you know. She really likes making a big fuss out of things especially when things are going well for her. She really likes to self-sabotage." Nonoko interjected.

"Ugh! Anyway, he told me that there's no one else and that he's still in love with me too. We promised to work it out... and I guess that has been a couple of months ago. He's been nothing but a dream. Like still sends me flowers and stuff, knows my schedule, picks me up after my shift, even sends food to the staff whenever we have a long one."

"What seems to be the problem then?"

"Well… we haven't had sex."

"For how long? Three days?" Misaki exclaimed, the girls laughed.

Mikan squirmed, she seems embarrassed about her answer. "…well since we got back together."

The girls were actually shocked. Misaki, being their group's go-to interviewer had to ask. "Wait hold on, you've been together for a few months now, right? You mean to say he hasn't made a pass on you yet?"

"Yup. Almost like, I don't know, four months?" Mikan scratched the back of her neck, uncomfortable with the sudden admission.

"Something's up, if he's not getting it from you, where is he getting it from?"

"Yeah, maybe he's cheating!"

"Would you guys let this go? They've been through so much, you think Natsume's just gonna cheat on her like that?" Hotaru exclaimed, evidently drunk.

Luna had to asked since she didn't understand the issue at hand. "Wait, why is it a big deal anyway?"

Mikan squirmed in her seat, uncomfortable with sharing her current situation. "I don't know maybe 'cause you know… we used to… a lot."

"I mean if you say he's changed, and you did too… maybe there's a reason. Like maybe you two should talk about it before jumping to conclusions. I mean it's just sex, it's nice to have… but if you love him, it should be more than that."

"Damn, newbie's got a point, cheers to that!" Misaki raised her glass. "To newbie!"

"To newbie!" The girls said in unison as she Mikan smiled to Luna. She's definitely getting high marks on her book.

The girls had a few more drinks and shared more tmi stories with each other. From Anna's worst patients to Nonoko's weird relationship with one of her neighbors. They really were about to be shitfaced drunk, so Luna called the shots and called it a night. She couldn't handle any of them throwing up in her car. She dropped them off at Hotaru's place because most of them couldn't figure out where they lived. Mikan on the other hand was actually somehow sober enough to ask her to drop her off at her boyfriend's house. She'll confront him once and for all!

"Dr. Sakura, you're drunk, this seems like a bad idea."

"Nooo! This is a good idea, I'm no holds barred when I'm drunk!"

"Yeah, but it's two in the morning!"

"I don't care! Take me here." She pointed out to the navigator. Luna sighed and finally gave up. "Ugh. Fine!"

Luna started to feel a certain level of familiarity to Mikan's boyfriend's house. It's like, she's been in the area before but couldn't remember how… Well, that was up until they rang the doorbell and Natsume answered.

"Babyyyy I missed you." Mikan shouted as she wrapped her arms around Natsume's neck who seems really tired and unwell… especially since Mikan woke him up… without prior notice… at this ungodly hour.

"Love, you reek of alcohol." Natsume chuckled a little. He actually finds it cute when his workaholic girlfriend tries to have fun once in a while. He got distracted by Mikan's clinginess up until "Oh my god, Luna!"

"You're… you're her Natsume?" Luna shrieked in fear.

Mikan sobered up a bit. "You two know each other?" Maybe it was the alcohol, but she was starting to get jealous. "You two used to fuck or something?"

"Oh god, oh god no!" Luna shouted, evidently disgusted with what Mikan said.

"Goodness Mikan! Don't be disgusting! She's my cousin."

Mikan turned red.

So did Luna.

The two just realized how traumatic it was for both of them that she already knew too much. Luna wanted to puke out of disgust... Natsume was well respected in their family, he's the intimidating cousin. No one knows anything about him, except that he's set for success… So to know how much he fucks around, really fucked up her image of him.

Natsume noticed the sudden change of atmosphere around the three of them. "Mikan… what did you tell her?" He said with a stern voice.

"Nothing! Nothing right?" She turned to Luna, pleading for her to not say a word about how much dossier she already knows about them.

"Uhm… I should get going. I still have an early call time tomorrow. At least Mikan has the day off."

"Would you be okay? You can stay here. It's almost three in the morning. I can't have uncle and auntie curse at me if something happens to you."

"Yeah, you can stay." Mikan said as she gave butterfly kisses to Natsume's neck. Luna really wasn't ready to see her cousin and her superior have sex around her. Besides, she didn't really drink, so it's safer for her to leave.

"No, I think I'll pass, I'm just a few miles away from here anyway, I don't mind."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah."

"Okay, take care of yourself. Text us when you get home."

Luna was open mouth puking on her way home. She was so excited to take a bath and rid herself of all the sexual things Mikan told her about Natsume. At this point she never wants to go to any family reunion again.

"Why didn't you text me? I could've been in danger." Mikan pouted.

"Why would you be in danger? Besides, I didn't want to ruin your night." Natsume said as he prepared a hangover drink for Mikan.

"I could've been hit on by a cute guy, you know?"

Natsume chucked. "Yes, you and your friends, coming out from a toxic shift with your smelly scrub suits on while you drown yourselves in several bottles of beer and whatever seafood Imai is craving. Yes, men wouldn't be scared to death to hit on you at all."

"You don't know that, men are trash!"

"Yes they are, but I know you. You would pay them no mind and break their necks when needed." Natsume handed her a glass of the drink he made. "Drink up."

"You have the answer for everything! You think you're so smart with your reasoning and all or whatever."

"Kind of. Truth is, I'm also kind of sick, so I'm kind of beaten down. But at least you're here."

Mikan then realized that Natsume looked more tired than usual, she was surprised and a bit disappointed that she failed to notice that he was kind of hot… and not the fun kind.

"Oh no. This is so embarrassing!" She almost cried as she buried her face in her palms out of shame. She's a doctor for goodness' sake! She didn't even notice it until he told her.

"It's fine, I didn't want to ruin your night. Besides, I'm already taking the medications, every four hours right?"

"Yeah…" Mikan's disappointment with herself grew more and more. She was out there ranting about her boyfriend who was out sick but didn't want to bother her because he wanted her to have fun.

"Would you be alright? Can I sleep now? Maybe you can take the guest room tonight, I don't want you to catch a cold from me or something." Mikan's heart skipped a beat, he was so thoughtful. She's the doctor, it's her profession, she should be taking care of him, not the other way around!

"Go ahead. You must be so tired. I'm sorry for bothering you."

"Thanks. Good night, love." He said as he kissed her forehead before heading to his room.

Mikan slept on the sofa for a few hours. She couldn't take it. But she promised herself that she'd wake up early to take care of Natsume who has been nothing but perfect to her these past months… and who she completely trash talked to his cousin the night before. She will make it up to him, definitely.

She woke up and checked on Natsume who was starting to have chills. She gently woke him up to ask him what time he was supposed to drink his medicine. He apparently slept through one, that's why he's like this. She slowly got him up to drink his medicine. She went ahead and gave him a sponge bath while he was sleeping and changed his clothes. Out of sheer exhaustion she then fell asleep on the foot of his bed up until they were both woken up by the sound of her alarm.

"Sorry, hold on, you have to drink your medicine. I'll cook you breakfast after. You want anything?" Mikan said as she touched Natsume's forehead.

"Thank you. You must be tired. Don't mind me, go change first." Mikan then realized how disgusting it was that she was still in her scrubs from last night. "Oh god I'm so sorry, I'll throw these in the laundry after. Don't worry. Just go to sleep, okay?"

"As you wish, doc." Mikan's heart fluttered. Damn it, he's so cute. She just wanted to stay there and stare at him.

Natsume woke up with a hazy memory on what happened the past few days. He just remembered being sore as hell and that Mikan was helping him with the most basic tasks.

Mikan. Where is she by the way? Natsume thought to himself and searched all over the room for her.

"You're awake!" Mikan settled her food tray to the nearest table as she ran towards the bed to hug her favorite person.

Natsume chuckled as he hugged her back. "How long has it been?"

"Four days! I kept telling you to get your vaccine! Look at what happened, you kept putting it off! I got the virus too but at least my symptoms are mild. You idiot!"

"I'm sorry." Natsume felt guilty. He truly keeps forgetting about it and it's his fault she's still out here taking care of him.

Wait. She's still here.

Mikan wrapped her arms around his neck. "It's fine, at least I get to quarantine with you. So, if you're doing better today. That's like 7-10 days from now. I already replied to most of your emails, transferred it to uncle and auntie. They're taking over for now and they wish you well. I messaged all our suspected closed contacts so they're mostly in quarantine. Called sick from work… and then yeah that's about it. That brings me here with you." Mikan said cutely as she lets go of Natsume's neck.

It was at this moment Natsume had a proper glance at Mikan. She had her hair in a messy bun. She was wearing the eyeglasses he loves but she hates using unless she can't use her contacts anymore… and she's also wearing the only clothes she left in his place… a satin chemise back from when they were still fooling around. Natsume gulped. "What the fuck are you wearing?"

"It was the only thing I can find here. Why you like it? It used to be your favorite." She smirked while touching his leg lightly.

Natsume can feel his morning wood starting to break free. "Put a shirt on, I'm hitting the shower." He said nonchalantly as he proceeded to do just that.

In the shower, Natsume kept forcing himself to think about the stupidest things just to stop him from thinking about his girl… sitting outside… practically begging him to have his way with her. No Natsume, focus. He thought to himself… Think about the funny animal video compilations she sent you. The elephants… Think about the elephants! Don't think about her! Her silky skin that feels so good to touch, how warm she feels whenever you're insi- no! Okay! The funny videos. He stopped and had the coldest shower of his life. When he finished, he looked at himself in the mirror, fully clothed- plain white shirt, boxers. No room for mistakes, he thought. He got to the bedroom and panicked. Everything was cleaned up, but Mikan wasn't there anymore. He then went to the kitchen and saw Mikan eating all by herself. She was now wearing his shirt on top of her clothes and Natsume didn't like the reaction his body was doing. He pushed his thoughts aside and sat to the chair next to hers. "You didn't wait up." He nudged and pouted at her.

Mikan wasn't having it. She made an annoyed face and mumbled what he said mockingly. He didn't care. Well it's not that he didn't. He was just really hungry, and the food looked amazing. He was really at it pigging out, but when Mikan was done eating she just left him and started washing the dishes silently. Natsume just ignored her and thought that maybe Mikan just got really tired from taking care of him the past days. He will apologize later… aka after he devours the stacks of pancakes she made for him. Mikan was just about to leave the kitchen when she silently asked, "Why don't you want to fuck me anymore?"

Natsume was flabbergasted. He followed Mikan into the living room. She was clearly onto something. "What the fuck was that?" he shouted.

"Exactly what you heard."

"What question was that?"

"Exactly how it sounded like! Just go back in and finish your food! I hope you choke on your toast." Mikan said mockingly.

Natsume stared at Mikan for a while, his thoughts were going a thousand mile per hour, but he didn't want to go overboard so he just gave up and sighed. "Tell me what's on your mind, love." She started to cry.

"Is there someone else? Cause I don't know. Am I unattractive to you? I can change. Just let me know." She was evidently frantic, Natsume was so confused.

"What are you talking about? Of course not! I wouldn't change anything about you... You're beautiful." He said wiping her tears away.

"Why haven't you been intimate with me since we got back together? Am I not exciting enough for you anymore? I mean if you're not getting it from me, you might be getting it from someone else... 'Cause you know, if that's the case just tell me the truth, don't lie to me. Just tell it to me straight, I'll be okay. I promise." Her tears started trickling down her face once again. "I'm just, I don't know... I'm dying to know. Is it because I'm not attractive enough for you anymore? Because maybe you realized that I'm boring and I just work a lot? Maybe because you realized I wasn't really what you wanted? I don't know. Maybe you were just forced into this. I'm getting insecure. Just… let me go if you don't want me anymore."

Natsume got more confused. "That's a little bit of a stretch, don't you think?"

"Screw you." Mikan shouted prepared to leave when Natsume reached for her hand and pulled her close to him. She squirmed as he forced her to sit on the sofa. "I wish you told me this sooner, I had no idea this was a big deal to you."

"Stop gaslighting me! It's not just sex to me."

"Exactly! Stop interrupting me!"

"Fine! Say what you want then!" She stood up ready to leave when he finally finishes making his point.

"Truth is, I've been insecure myself… I mean, when we were younger, I asked you out because I felt guilty, 'cause you know, I took your virginity… When we got older, you asked me out because I was an easy fuck. I just felt like… I don't want it to be like that anymore… I don't want to be someone you just fuck around with. I want you to see me the way I see you. Because you're… my person. You're the one for me, Mikan. You're the love of my life." Mikan's heart fluttered, her eyes are starting to water as she sat beside him, she touched his face to make him look at her before wrapping her arms around him. "You're so stupid." She laughed lightly. Natsume pouted, he was slightly annoyed and was about to chime in before being shushed by Mikan's hand. "My turn." She took a deep breath before looking into his eyes.

He's still the same boy she loved over the years.

"It's not just sex to me, because it's well… showing the person I love the most… that I'm all his. I want to make love to you not just because well… we're pretty good at it, if I'm being honest." Mikan laughed a little before continuing her thoughts. "I want to make love to you because, Natsume… I want you to know… I'm all yours. Always has, always will."

Something clicked in Natsume's head. All this time, all his sacrifices of not making sweet, sweet love to his girlfriend was for nothing! She wanted him. All of him. He felt stupid. "You really mean that?" Mikan smiled and nodded. He then carried her out of the room as she suddenly felt unease with the energy shift between the two of them. He locked eyes with her the entire time which got her distracted and disoriented. All of a sudden, she saw his eyes turn into something she can't describe… In other words, she felt like his prey and it was feeding time.

Mikan was thrown roughly to the bed as he stood in front of her. "Take your clothes off." He commanded.

"Natsume." Mikan said softly.

"You heard me." He said pulling off his shirt over his head leaving him in his boxers. Mikan started scrambling, she went in panic mode as she suddenly remembered that she got off the pill this month. "Love, you're too slow." Natsume said cheekily as he went to ravish Mikan's neck trying to rip the shirt off of her. "Natsume, st- stop." Mikan held onto his chest.

"You can't be serious." He looked up.

"I'm off the pill, you have protection?"

"I don't think so…" Natsume panicked and tried to look for one on his nightstand. "Ugh. Of all the days!" He yelled evidently irritated. Mikan started to chuckle as Natsume looked at her frustratingly. She pulled him in and kissed him full on the lips before whispering to his ear. "Then no glove no love, baby... I will make this as equally hard for you as it was for me... Eat your heart out." She took off the shirt that she put over her chemise a while ago. She laughed, she loves him so much… but he can go to hell.

Natsume have been pacing around and around the room since dinner time. At this point Mikan couldn't care less as she tried to read a book on his bed. Occasionally, she glances at an annoyed Natsume scavenging for protection all over his room like his life depends on it.

"Would you give it a rest. Just call someone to give you some tomorrow."

Natsume growled. Hours ago, she was practically begging him to have his way with her, and now that she practically got him wrapped around her finger, she left him high and dry! The fucking nerve! "You think I didn't ask around? Everyone we know who knows where I live is also practically in quarantine with their partners. No one wants to give out their stash!"

"I expected a tech company CEO to have more creative problem-solving skills than this."

"…well we could… ask Luna..."

Mikan gulped. "Don't do that…"

"You're threatened? What did you tell her, Mikan?" Natsume pried as he went closer and closer to the bed. In honesty, he doesn't give a fuck what she told her, she's the only one who cares about family and stuff, he doesn't really care that much. "You tell people so much about me… while I don't even tell anyone what you're like… you know?" Mikan gulped, Natsume's hand was starting to roam around her legs, moving up to her thighs. "I mean I doubt your friends know how you like it in bed… I wonder how they'd react knowing how this strong independent young woman that they all know and love… practically begs me to take charge in… fucking her senseless." Mikan's breath grew heavy, Natsume's hands were threateningly over the bands of her underwear, rubbing circles on her hips, trailing his fingertips down her hipbone. He gently pushed it down gaining access to her wet core. "Does they know how much you like it when I put you in cuffs?" Mikan couldn't help but moan Natsume's name as he inserted a finger inside her. She was already dripping wet as she gasp at the heat and pleasure between her legs. "Or how you like it when I… fuck you in public places?" He inserted another finger and slowly started pumping in and out of her.

"Natsume…" Mikan couldn't take it, it's been months since Natsume held her like this. Her legs opened further as she pushed her hips outside, giving him more access. She started throwing her head backwards. "You know you want me, Mikan. Just the tip. I'll pull out, I promise." He whispered to her ear, still pumping his fingers in and out of her. She couldn't think straight… She knows that wouldn't work, but should they? I mean it's just one time, right?

"We can't… That… doesn't… work." Mikan screamed Natsume's name as she started to move her hips violently. She was already at the edge waiting for her release when Natsume pulled his fingers out. She gasped for air in shock and felt violated.

"Well, you can't just have your cake and eat it too, right? Be a good girl and go help me finding some too." Natsume said teasingly and kissed her forehead like nothing happened.

"You evil piece of shit!" She screamed throwing a pillow at him. She's making her suffer with him!

"All in a day's work." He said getting off the bed and continuing his search for rubber.

As soon as Mikan got over her high- or the lack thereof. She started looking around Natsume's place as well. She then went over Natsume's nightstand and saw a tiny velvet box which got her curious. She opened it and saw a cushion cut Ruby ring which stopped her dead in her tracks. "Natsume, what's this?" She said holding it up, making Natsume realize the stupidest mistake he ever made… making his intrusive girlfriend snoop over his stuff. He felt a sudden heat rushing to his face as he quickly tried to bury it through the closet he's been searching on.

"That's for my mistress." He quickly snapped back at her. Bad move.

"Oh… for your mistress… I wonder if she's as good in bed as me… considering you've been trying to get with me for hours now. Telling me how crazy you are about me." She said with a sly smile as she sat on the edge of the bed. Okay, she already knows it's for her, how does he fix this? He thought to himself.

"Fine. That's for your birthday. Happy?" He tried to say calmly, deep inside he was in a state of panic, struggling to find a good defense.

"My birthday came up a month ago… and you won't give me a Harry Winston ring as a birthday gift…" She pouted. It was a lost cause at this point. She was too smart for that.

"I'm just rich."

She chuckled. "…Oh it fits me like a glove too. You tried asking around, babe?" She said taunting him while trying to fit the ring on her finger.

"That's great. Take it home with you. Happy birthday." He was kind of beaten down at this point. He doesn't know if he's too pissed at himself for being such a dumbass or pissed at her for being so fucking nosey.

Mikan, on the other hand, was having the time of her life. He plans on proposing to her! Her heart squealed, but she had to keep it cool just to annoy him and see what happens. "Figures… I didn't think you'd pick an engagement ring this superficial anyway… It's like you just bought an expensive one and didn't even think about it."

"Fuck you! It's fucking Ruby! I thought it would remind you of me! I had to keep getting it resized just to get it right for you! I even had to ask your mom! It came in late that's why I didn't prop-" He stopped himself. He turned so red as if he just spilt a million secrets.

Mikan looked up at him with her big doe eyes. The ones he fell in love with. "Timing was never our thing, wasn't it?" She asked standing up as she walked closer to him.

He seemed to calm down now. She knows. What else can he do but wing this one out. He pushed the stray hair on her face and tucked it behind her ear. "It never was." He said pulling the ring off her finger as he knelt down on one knee. Her eyes started watering. "Mikan Sakura, you are, and forever will be, my greatest love, will you marry me?"

"Yes!" She screamed. "Of course I will marry you!" Mikan said lunging towards Natsume, putting all her weight towards him. Good thing he didn't have his guard down and caught her right on time. "You're going to pay for all the trouble you put me through this whole time." She said as she kissed him as if it's her last day on Earth.

"What about… protection?" He said between his breath.

"…I don't mind if you don't."

And with that they both continued their intense make out session.

Natsume started walking backwards trying to find out where the bed is. He suddenly went off balanced and tripped over the edge landing with a soft thud, with Mikan on top of him. She started giving him butterfly kisses on his neck, Mikan wasn't letting him off easy. He felt himself quickly harden when she started whispering lewd words in his ear… like how much she wants him to fuck her hard until she couldn't walk. Damn, she used to be such an angel, now he can't help but feel excited knowing how much she's fallen because of him.

"Mikan Sakura, you're a bad, bad girl." He said while slapping her ass as he competed with her hungry kisses, trying to pin both of her hands down.

Mikan wasn't having it. She was strong too! He wasn't the only one working out around here. Natsume can't easily put her down. They both wrestled for power with Mikan continuously making Natsume weaker with her words. "Fuck me… daddy." Natsume was caught off guard as his eyes grew wide. Mikan never called him that. He's kind of… into it… For all he knew, Mikan was already on top of him, gaining complete control of the situation as he felt his boxers being stripped off with his member jolting up from excitement. Mikan got too distracted and overwhelmed. She was too excited. So, she stopped and stared for a while. Natsume on the other hand was quick on his feet as he pulled her hands and rolled her over to position him on top of her.

Mikan yelped out in surprise. "Not today, love." He placed one hand securing her wrists over her head and one hand roughly pulling off the strap of her nightgown fully prepared to rip it off. Mikan winced and hurriedly stopped him. "Wait! Nooo! You've ruined so many of my lingeries already!" She said as she got up and stepped aside pulling it off her head leaving her in her underwear. Natsume sat up and involuntarily licked his lips scanning every curve of her body. Damn, this girl ages like fine wine.

"Oh, you like that?" She teased, looking at him intensely. Mikan felt a surge of confidence as soon as she saw his unease to hide his erection. "Not at all." He answered quickly. Mikan paid him no mind as she continued to strip off her clothing. She unclasped her bra and slowly, agonizingly slid the straps before throwing it on Natsume's face. His mind is going wild at this point. "You okay, baby?"

"Never better." He was trying to look away to keep his composure, but he was honestly about to burn down this house if his girlfriend doesn't stop with all the teasing she's giving him.

"Look at me then." She said toying with the bands of her underwear before completely sliding them down and throwing it again at Natsume's face.

He couldn't hold himself any longer. Natsume stood up and crashed his lips roughly onto hers with both of them fighting for dominance... but they both knew Mikan wants him to win this one out. She soon melts into him as he picks her up by the waist and wraps her thighs around him. She whimpered as she felt him so close to her womanhood, tossing her on the bed once again.

"Ouch! You asshole! Why are you being so rough?" Mikan winced in pain as she pushed Natsume away from her.

"You don't like it?" Natsume said in his bedroom voice intensely looking at her. She was lost at this point. "I… I do."

"Good girl." He laughs pulling her closer to him. They just started losing it. Natsume started to press his fingers on every part of her back reaching her throbbing pussy. She sighed and lifted her hips, giving him a better angle as he inserted a finger inside her once more.

Mikan couldn't take it anymore. She was getting closer and closer. "I… want you…"

"Beg." He said in a command.

"Please fill me up… daddy."

"…I thought you'd never ask." He flips Mikan onto her back, pulled her arms above her head and pinned her wrists to the headboard, his face buried on the molds of her breasts sucking every part of her.

"Scream as loud as want, let everyone know you're mine." he growls as he pushes into her, increasing his pace. Mikan was over the edge as screamed Natsume's name, feeling every thrust hitting all of her sensitive spots over and over. Damn. His stamina doesn't seem to match with hers as she kept getting weaker and weaker by the minute. The heat on her body was slowly rising up giving her a warm tingly feeling of unease. Her legs were about to give up. "Natsume, please I'm…" she moaned.

"Not yet love. Wait for me…" Natsume said as he raised both of her legs making it harder for Mikan to hold on any longer. Natsume slammed onto her once more as she felt Mikan gather her remaining strength, tightening her walls around his cock sending him to complete ecstasy. He kept pumping in and out of her with Mikan repeatedly screaming his name cursing him for torturing her like this.

When he finally felt his limit, he whispered "That's it. Come for me, love."

She suddenly felt a jolt of electricity ripping through every fiber of her being as she squeezed her eyes shut so hard feeling a white light come for her. She felt lightweight as she released her grip on him. He moaned her name as he released soon after her, freeing her hands and pulling her on top of him.

"So I guess I have to order some things online, if you're gonna be stuck here for a whole… month."

Her eyes grew darker. She knew how persistent he can be when he wants to. "Natsume, heyy! Stoppp!" She protested cutely as he rolled on top of her, with her trying to keep her legs close.

"You're not going to sleep tonight." He said as he trailed kisses on legs, slowly spreading it wide open.

This quarantine will be fun.