Just want to thank you all for your reviews and likes. I am suffering with quiet bad depression and anxiety, and this has given me a massive boost in confidence to get up and do something with my day. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart x Here is chapter 4 x also need to warn you it's definitely rated M.
It was Saturday, Jay was off until Monday, Hayley had come home late on the Friday, and they hadn't had time to speak. Lydia and Hayley were up early and had settled in on the couch with a cup of milk and coffee, Jay stood watching them Hayley hadn't seen him. He loved the way they looked at each other, the way they had their own language, the bond they had formed in such a short time of knowing each other; Jacob had formed one with her too but was a daddy's boy through and through. Hayley saw Jay and stilled, the air around them was thick with anxiety and unspoken words. They both said nothing and dealt with the kids. They kept to themselves mostly, the kids being the only reason they spoke to each other. They found jobs around the house that needed doing. Hayley concentrated on the washing general cleaning and hovering. Jay did the garden, the twins helping both adults where they could.
Dinner time came and between them they fed and bathed the kids. Hayley stood by the bedroom door watching the three of them together, Jay was patient with them, they talked about their day and what they wanted to do the next day. Before Jay noticed her, she made her way downstairs to tidy up the kid's toys, by the time she had finished Jay was downstairs.
"I was thinking we could order some Chinese food and talk about last week. I need to apologise and explain some things, it's totally up to you, I understand if you want to just eat and ignore me. I totally deserve it." He smiled at her, not a smarmy smile, just a pleading 'please let me explain'
"Ok, I'm going to change the washer over, you going to order food?"
"Oyster sauce, beef and vegetables with rice, right?" he asked her.
Hayley nodded with a smile and went in the garage. Jay bit his lower lip and picked up his phone to order food. He grabbed a beer each and put them at the end of the Island. Jay waited for their dinner and checked his email's. Hayley was folding clothes and mulling her time with the family, over in her head. She knew there was a spark of something between her and Jay, sexual frustration paid a massive part in it on her end. It had been a long time she had been with anyone, and she enjoyed sex, a lot. If and it was a big if, anything was to happen between her and Jay, lines would be crossed, lines that meant if something went wrong, Hayley would end up leaving and finding a new job. She wasn't sure if Jay felt the same, but she felt differently about him, he felt like home, just his presence, that was until the other night. When her mom and dad got together, and in the early years of her life Nikko, her dad was an amazing person. Something clicked in him the day they were robbed; she wasn't sure what had happened, but if Jay was the way he was with her on Thursday, after only knowing her three weeks, then how would he be in a year or two? Hayley couldn't let herself get in that deep.
Hayley was still in the Garage when the doorbell went, Jay answered the door and brought dinner into the house, putting it on the side and going to find Hayley. She was stood at the counter folding the kid's clothes, messy bun on top of her head tank top on and Pyjama bottoms and furry slippers, she had heard him come in, but continued folding. Jay couldn't stop himself anymore, she was a temptress without even knowing it. He walked towards her, she had seen him from the corner of her eye, walking towards her, her chest becoming tight at the thought of him getting too close. The tension between them was getting worse, someone was going to snap at some point, and she really didn't know how much longer she would be able to keep herself, from doing something that would put her job at risk. Yesterday she would have loved to pick up her stuff and walk away, and now she felt like she was about to combust. Before he could stop himself, Jay had grabbed her hand stopping her from folding, the sparks that ran up his arm ran up to his heart, jump starting it, it felt like it was beating properly for the first time in over a year. Their eyes meeting and speaking a thousand words. Nervously Hayley walked towards Jay. Stopping close enough to him she could feel his hand trembling and his breath as he struggled to keep his hands too himself.
"We need to talk Jay, nothing can happen between us, until we talk, OK?"
"Ok, lets go talk, dinner is here."
They sat at the island in the kitchen, both enjoying their meal, not talking much except to laugh about something one of the twins had done during the day, Lydia helping with the washing and pretending to be a mommy to her baby doll and Jacob getting his pretend lawnmower out to help Jay but being too scared to follow him out on to the lawn. The noise being too much for his little ears.
After they had finished eating, they both got a drink and sat on the couch. Looking at each other they were almost shy, Jay was the bravest of the two.
"First of all, I'm sorry for the way I spoke to you! It was completely out of order; I understand that you were worried, and I was wrong for not keeping you up to date with where I was, or at least getting Kim to let you know I was ok. I can't tell you the whole of it, but it was important that I got the leader of the gang who was doing what they were doing. The 16th was also a year since Amy passed away. The case was personal to me, these girls were lost and were using to forget. Amy had decided that the kids and me were not enough to forget how messed up we were when we came back from Afghanistan. We had seen some crazy stuff dark stuff. Then we lost touch and we met at Molly's. I had seen someone, managed to get my head on relatively straight, the twins coming set it on in concrete, I chose work and the kids to keep it on. She chose drugs and kept me in the dark until it was too late for me to do anything to help. I know we weren't in a good place and hadn't been anything really, both sleeping in separate rooms and at different times, we hadn't been together for a long time, I'm not use to this, seeing someone in the house that wants to be here, cleans, cooks, interacts with the twins, I'm not saying I want to replace Amy at all. I guess it just scared me how good it feels to have you here it finally, feels like a home and watching you with the kids how much they love to be with you, this morning with Lydia, I don't think her and Jacob ever really bonded with her like they have with you. We had a Child minder who would watch them, and her parents helped more than they do now, Hank loves them My Dad passed away so he became like a dad to me, him and Al are the best Grandparents a kid could ask for. I see the unit as family they were all there for me from day one, slowly they have backed off. Please don't leave us? I will do anything a raise, a car, a new bed?"
Tears had streamed down Hayley's eye's; she couldn't answer him. She stood up and walked to the kitchen needing to put some space between them.
"I'm sorry that you have had it tough, Jay I really am, but I have spent too much of my life being shouted at and bullied by men. I feel that there is something here between us, and I felt it when I walked into Makayla's party. I would have taken you upstairs and there and then had the chance come up." Biting her lip to stop a smile and hopefully stopping a blush of her admission. "This job is amazing, the kids are a dream, I love it, I'm happy Jay and I don't want to leave, I understand that there will be days we clash and days we don't agree on things, but you can't ever speak to me like that again. I will leave as much as it will hurt me, I won't be like my mom. As for this between us, it can't happen, right? I mean what if it goes belly up and then I have to leave because its awkward between us. It wouldn't be fair on the kids, or Kim. She would be stuck between loving you as her brother and killing you for breaking my heart!" Biting her lip again a blush spreading across her cheeks as she realises Jay has made his way across the room, they are stood in front of each other, Hayley moves backwards and sits on the counter eyeing Jay suspiciously, he moves closer a smile ghosting his face, their eyes meeting, the spark igniting in their belly's.
"I think it will be you who breaks my heart, but in all honesty, Kim loves me the most!" he smiles gauging Hayley's reaction he places his hands on the either side of her thighs, she smiles a megawatt smile, she looks down at his hands and looks up into Jays eye's. Slowly Hayley raises her left hand and places it on Jay's arm above his elbow, playing with the sleeve of his t-shirt. Jay looks into Hayley's eyes sees no hesitation and leans in to kiss her, their lips touch, slowly a few pecks and then like magnets they are drawn together. Hayley raises her right hand, snaking it round Jay's neck, holding him to her as they continue to kiss, a long slow kiss that has Hayley moaning into his mouth. Jay picks his left hand up and threads it into Hayley's hair pulling her to the left as she wraps her legs around him, pulling them together, a moment of realisation sweeps over Hayley and she pulls away,
"Jay, what are we doing? Is this the right thing to do."
"It's totally up to you! I'm not sure I can go every day and not kiss you again." A boyish smirk on his face, "In fact let me just try again!" Kissing Hayley on the mouth and trailing down her neck, finding the spot below her ear, that just makes Hayley melt into a puddle on the counter.
"Ok, we are doing this, but not here, I have to cook on this counter, on the couch"
"Mmm! Ok!"
The pair sit on the couch close enough to reach for each other, both savouring the moment, soft touches and kisses, gentle nips, and moans as they get closer to taking each other's clothes off. Hayley starts by playing with the hem of his top, gathering it up, and lifting it over his head. It lands on the floor, and she lets her hands roam his toned chest. She hesitates as her hands find a scar on his shoulder, she leans forward and kisses the silver scar, she finds another that is lower and longer than the first one, he stills as she lets her tongue lick at him. He looks down at her and she has questions, he can tell but he can tell she isn't going to ask, not tonight. He holds her chin and pulls her in for another kiss, he takes her top off surprised to find she has no bra on, he kisses his way down her chest and finds a nipple, its budded and her breast are firm, he latches on, and a moan escapes her throat, that's the sweetest sound he's ever heard. He's already hard but this makes him harder, she realises that maybe they will be more comfortable if she was sat on his knee, she pulls her legs around, so they rest either side of his thighs, moving her hips over him she elicits a groan from him that rivals her own as he nips at her breast again. He runs his fingertips down her back slightly digging his nails in to her flesh. As she arches her back moving her hips forward grinding into him.
"Fuck" he gasps "Hayley, stop doing that, I'm not going to be able to stop if you do it again!" He warns.
"Then don't, take me to bed Jay!" She stands holding on to his hand as she pulls him up to stand, her eyes hooded and full of desire.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes!" she moves to walk away, "one time offer Jay!"
She walks upstairs and before she reaches the top, he grabs her playfully round the waist, his hand going to her mouth to stop the yelp that she lets out. He twists her and backs her to the wall outside the family bathroom their mouths clashing and hands grabbing at each other.
"Your place or mine?" Jay asks her playfully.
"Yours! My boss is so strict, if he finds you in my room, I'll lose my job!" she laughs as they kiss, and Jay moves them into his room. As he backs her to his bed, he pulls her pyjama trousers down, she falls on the bed and he hovers over her, kisses exploring her abdomen going down towards the apex of her legs. She shuffles up the bed and Jay uses this to his advantage grabbing her legs he lands kisses on her thighs running his tongue up and along her glistening lips, her scent drawing him in closer his tongue working its magic, her taste is like nectar, it's not long before her head is thrown back and she's crying his name out between hard breaths, he doesn't think there is a sweeter sound or sight, his name as it tumbles off her lips as she falls apart beneath him.
Jay kisses his way back up her body slowly, giving her time to come down from her high. She shivers beneath him, her hands roaming his body find their way to his joggers. She pulls the band down over his waist and uses her feet to guide them down his legs. She cautiously looks down between them eyeing his member, raising her chin so he can look her in the eyes he leans forward and kisses her again. Slipping into a natural rhythm of tongue and teeth. Jay nestled himself between her legs, looking into her eyes he asks the question "you sure about this?" her only reply is to nod and pull him down into a kiss. Slowly he lines his tip up with her entrance, anticipation is driving her wild, she shifts her hips, and he enters her some more. Her head throws back on the bed "fuck" she gasps he tries to go slow but the need to feel her all around him has him pushing in deeper until she full of him. He slowly pulls out not all the way, and slowly fills her again. "Ah fuck Hayley!" he can't take it anymore and starts to thrust himself in and out of her. Her legs wrap around him pulling him in deeper, harder they kiss longer, harder, their bodies keep meeting pleasure radiating through the pair as they fulfil their needs and desires. They start a deep rhythm they flip at some point Hayley on top taking the lead, riding Jay harder than he has ever been before. He's not going to last much longer, he takes a nipple into his mouth her head gets thrown back, gasping at the sensation, her hands in his hair pulling slightly, he lifts her up and lies her down, driving back into her, he's on the home stetch but doesn't want it to end. Her moans are getting louder and closer together, she's quivering beneath him.
"Jay, fuck ah!"
"Come for me Hails, let go for me? I've got you" she starts to squeeze around him, milking him, she's panting her breath is ragged and she's lost all control. His final thrust as he finishes inside her, he takes her face in his hands and kisses her a long slow kiss, it feels like home, she feels like home.