Yes.
so she never actually loved him ?, she said that she loved him at the wedding.
She also said it at the rocket while being with tim, if she said it to save you that time, maybe she said it to make you feel good this time ?
why would she want to make him feel that good ?
Because she stated that she cared about you 3 years ago in the hospital.
could that have been a white lie too ?
No, you were unconcious, you didn't know until you saw it, and she wasn't intending for you to see or hear it.
so she cared about him enough to lie but didn't love him, then why did she stop and leave ?
Because she no longer cared.
why did she stop caring about him ?, what made her stop caring about him ?
Was it because of something wrong you did ?
there's no way, he did a lot of wrong things and paige never stopped caring about him.
Maybe because you did the wrong thing to her and not someone else ?
not that either, he sabotaged her dinner with tim, he fired her, he even yelled at ralph once and she yelled at him but didn't stop caring about him.
So it wasn't because of something you did ?
maybe because of something else ?
* he tries another angle of reasoning*
When did she stop caring about you ?
she cared about him when she lied to him at the wedding, but she didn't care when she left him, so in between, in other words, over the course of their relationship.
What about your relationship made her stop caring ?
it must have been whatever was different about their relationship than before it, whatever new things it added to her life.
What new things did your relationship add to her life ?
like any other relationship, they got more physical.
So she didn't find you as attractive as she expected ?
that's absurd, she had 2 attractive men and didn't end up with either of them, so it wasn't that.
What else was new ?
they spent more time around each other, she saw more of him.
That's it!
of course, it happened on every relationship he had, they though him attractive, but when they saw more of him they leave, paige cared about him enough to stay for a bit but stopped caring when she saw more of him.
Of course, it's wasn't because of something you did, it's because of something that is.
no!
it's because he's a genius!
it's not a bad thing!
Because your EQ is too low!
i've been making progress, she said so herself!
because he's not and will never be normal!
it's not my fault!
Because you're flawed, Because you're messed up!
i was born this way!
of course, he doesn't blame her, eveyone did the same, it's not her fault.
neither is it mine!, it hurts!
She was kind to stay that long.
why was i born this way ?
so this outcome was inevitable then ?
Yes.
why couldn't i just be normal like everyone else ?
well he's not, that's an irrefutable fact.
so whoever it is they'll just leave me ?
Yes. yes.
WHY?
Because of how you are.
because of what he is.
Because of who you are.
Wait! wait! wait!
...
...
You know how you are.
and he knows what he is.
But, but,
who am i ?
...
You're walter o'brien right ?
and ?
he has the fourth highest IQ in the world
but i don't.
You founded a problem solving company called scorpion.
but it no longer exists.
he hurt a lot of people.
and helped a lot too!
You Killed a lot of pe...
"son"
cabe saw walter go up to the loft, he heard the sound of the marker dragging across the board, he knew it was walter's coping mechanism, he knew bottling walter's feelings was a bad idea but making him immedietely face them was just as bad, he decided to let him cope for a few miniutes.
when he heard the sound of the pen stop he went up to the loft, he saw walter standing still in front of the board, he called out for him.
"walter"
no response.
"walt", "you okay son ?"
still no response.
he walked over to him, he saw tears streaming from his eyes down his cheeks yet he was just as expressionless, he didn't hear the sound of his breath, cabe was deveatated to see him like this, his son was dying inside, he grabbed his shoulder and called "son".
walter deeply inhaled like his lungs had been devoid of air for ages, he had never felt like this, he had his hand on his chest and took several deep breaths, cabe was surprised and worried,
"what happened walter ?!, are you okay ?!" said cabe.
"yeah i was just writing some equations for a second" said walter while breathing hard
"a second ?!, son you've been out for at least a few miniutes, you were holding your breath"
"what ?!", no it was just a few seconds, and i wasn't holding my .." he stopped mid sentence, he was still breathing hard
he couldn't remember whether he was breathing or not, it didn't seem like anytime had passed at all, he experienced this kind of sensation when he was in the rabbit hole with collins or in his childhood, but he wasn't doing any work, he didn't think of any work he just stood there, and more importantly he didn't forget to breathe !!, this was a different kind of rabbit hole, more dangerous, and fatal if gets lost for too long, he suddenly saw the world tilting sideways,
oh.
he was the one falling sideways.
his legs didn't support him anymore, his vision got darker and blurrier and the last thing he heard was cabe's voice screaming his name.
he fainted.