while cabe was still asleep walter scanned the entire garage and loft for any microphones and cameras, he found a lot of those, and he disabled them all and got rid of them.
good.
now collins doesn't have 24/7 surveillance on him.
now what ?
*catch me if you caaan*
how is he supposed to do that ?
where does he even begin searching ?
last time he tried tracking his movements it was used against them and cabe almost got in prison.
but that was set up by collins too.
they were dancing in his palm all along.
why would he set that up if not to imprison cabe ?
and his special friends, he had to do something about them too.
and that rabbit hole he gets lost in.
he only responds to touch in that state, if he goes there while no one is there to get him out of it,
he will die.
he has to do something about that before anything.
so he had an idea.
when he's in that state, he forgets to breathe, which means his o2 levels get dangerously low,
and he only responds to touch.
so, he got a wrist band with SpO2 technology that can read O2 levels via red and infrared light sensors, and he modified it to have a small electric taser so that whenever his O2 levels get dangerously low it sends an electric shock to wake him up.
he knew that the rabbit hole was fatal, he knew he shouldn't be there for long,
but,
when he was there, he figured out a lot more than he ever did before on his own, with his own EQ.
he could evolve beyond the level of an emotionally stunted teenager.
when he was there, everything made sense.
he found it... beautiful.
he wanted to go there again, he wanted to figure out the answers to his unanswered questions, the solutions to his issues.
if he could be there for long enough, if he could evolve beyond the level of an emotionally stunted teenager,
paige will want him back!
he wanted nothing more than that.
so he gave into the temptation.
he put on the wrist band, he took a deep breath, he closed his eyes, and resumed his line of thought.
why is he looked down on for making mistakes when all people make mistakes ?
why is it directed towards him ?
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*he tries another angle of reasoning*
why does a person look down on another ?
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*he tries another angle of reasoning*
who is a person that is looked down on ?
The weak, the poor, the mentally challenged.
that's it ?
No, there are other people that are looked down on, depending on the people and circumstances.
well what do these people have in common ?
we feel superior to them.
the powerful feel superior to the weak.
the rich feel superior to the poor.
the intelligent feel superior to the mentally challenged.
so people look down on others when they feel superior to them ?
Yes. yes.
well what does it really mean to look down on somebody ?
To show your superiority to them in your actions and words, in other words, be condecending towards them.
why does one show their superiority when it doesn't affect the outcome ?
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because it feels good.
how does one show their superiority ?
By pointing out their higher qualities.
by criticizing the other's shortcomings.
does that mean that the person looked down on is looked down on because they're inferior ?
no. Not always.
Difference is a constant in everything so therefore there must be difference in the superior side in relation to the side looked down on.
why would a person look down on another if they're not inferior ?
maybe they think the other is inferior even when they're not.
it makes sense, every person makes mistakes.
why would someone think they are superior when in reality they're not ?
Well what makes a person feel superior ?
money, power, intelligence, beauty, belongings, achievements, glory, admiration from others, and other factors too.
So all the factors are things that make you feel superior by having them ?
no, somethings feel better by not having them like flaws or mistakes.
but every human makes mistakes.
so therefore it's nor by having or not having them but the amount you have.
But people don't have a certain way of knowing these things, as a lot of them are either objective or require information that one doesn't have.
then why do they think they have more or less if they don't know for certain ?
well money for example, people think you have more money if you dress better or have more costly belongings even if you have less money, and they think you have less if you don't dress well or have less costly belongings even if you have more money.
so it's all looks then.
No, it's too broad to be categorized as looks.
then what is it in these things that attracts admiration or condecention ?
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Difference.
of course!
when a person dresses differently or has different belongings one either thinks they have more or less money.
Same with power, the way someone acts, speaks and dresses around others could make you think they have power when they don't or the other way around.
You never look down on someone like you.
so when a person sees difference they either think it's good or bad, that the one that has it is either superior or inferior ?
Yes.
so is all difference either bad or good ?
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No. no.
That's too simple to be true.
it's much more complicated.
Sometimes it's neither.
If something being there is bad and the lack of it is good, or something being there is good and the lack of it is bad, if that was it, then there wouldn't be much difference in it, it wouldn't make sense in reality.
because difference is a constant.
so the reason people look down on each other is because they see difference and assume one of 2 things, they see difference in themselves and assume it's good so they think of themselves as superior, or, they see difference in others and assume it's bad so they think of the other as inferior, regardless of what actually is ?
Yes. yes.
no wonder i'm always looked down on, i always highlight my difference in a bad manner, because my shortcomings are always highlighted in social situations.
is that it ?
they all see difference and assume one of 2 things ?
that would make them all the same .
That can't make sense.
There's always difference between people.
so the difference they see is not the only reason ?
no. No.
then what else is ?
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*he tries another angle of reasoning*
who looks down on people more ?
A narccissist for example.
It's his nature.
so a person can look down on someone just because it's their nature ?
Yes. yes.
so the difference in their nature makes them look down on others.
the difference IN them, not just the one they see in themselves ?
Yes. yes.
so therefore the difference in a person's needs, wills and circumstances can make them look down on another?
That is logical.
We look down on another because it feels good.
So what if it's a person that has a need to feel good about themselves.
or a person that wants to feel good about themselves.
or someone who's nature is to feel good about themselves or have a circumstance that makes them look down on others.
so therefore the reason a person looks down on another is because of the difference they see in themselves or others and the difference in them that they don't see ?
Yes. yes.
so the reason people almost always look down on me isn't because i make mistakes, it's because i highlight the difference in me in a bad way, and the difference in them makes them think of me as inferior to feel good about themselves ?
Yes. yes.
then what can i do to fix that ?
i don't want to be always looked down on.
The difference in other people you can't do much about since you don't know.
but HE highlights his difference in a bad manner.
HE lets them think of him as inferior.
so the reason that people almost always look down on me is because i LET THEM ?
yes.
Grykon - thank you for you constant comments on every chapter and your support, i intend to have walter rise up to the challenge on his own, i don't like him being the damsel in distress un most of the show and in the fanfics, your secrets and graduation fanfics inspired me and our PMs.
railman - thank you for you constant comments on every chapter and your support, i believe it's better referred to as puppeteer, english is my second language so i don't really know, i know i'm being petty lol, the answer is just no, i won't be having CP help him, collins and walter's rivalry is too personal, and walter would never endanger the others, he'd want ralph at least to be safe if not them.
pearliegirl - thank you, it's my first time writing anything so i didn't really expect much positive feedback, i'll have more chapter coming but i'm writing as i go so there may be delays or not a chapter everyday.
SkunkeeFunk - thank you for the feedback, *your name lol, i just can't*
RoMitriZoNila - thank you, i had the idea because i wanted to dive deep into walter's mindset, he always tried following paige's because he flops whenever he follows his own, and at one point he just thinks her mindset is infalliable and if he doesn't follow it he's wrong, i want him to develop his own mindset in this story, i don't want him heavily depending on anyone in these matters, especially paige, i wouldn't trust them again to be honest.
RiseOfDespair - i intend to take it to a unique direction that i don't think fanfic writers have taken
the guest with the really long comment -
thank you, no you're not a walter apologist, i 1000000000000% agree with you, his kindness and generosity towards them is almost always disregarded by them, they always say i was this before scorpion, i was that before scorpion, as if scorpion is a natural phonomenon that happened to them and not an almost guranteed to fail investment that walter made in them for years, they say sly stole from a bank before scorpion, that toby owed every casino in town before scorpion, that happy used to pay standins before scorpion, not sly was a broke homeless kid before walter practically raised him, not toby was about to be killed for his debts before walter saved his ass and kept bailing him out, not happy was practically on the run and had no sliver of stability in her life before walter gave it to her on a silver platter, and yes he was the scapegoat too often, he's not your typical idiot that makes mistakes because "muh, i'm broken or sad" , but he just doesn't know, and honestly, i wouldn't trust toby or paige again, and it's not like the ending was a surprise, if you look carefully you could see it coming all the way from s3, and the direction i'm going with collins is one that makes you go "huh, he's lowkey making sense tho" and not "oh no walter don't listen to him, he's messing with you", it's what i really like about him, there are moments where you actually believe him, and come on, do we really need proof on how petty paige can be, we have plenty in the show"