They call her Human Torch! Chapter 35 -Rated M for a reason and one example of that reason is in this chapter so read with caution if you do not like that type of writing. Thank You
October 10, 2015- night.
"This is a beautiful sight. Thank you for bringing me up here."
"Of course, anytime Steve."
She smiled up at him softly but it soon fell as she looked out towards the city. Steve sighed and took her soft hand in his.
"Bella, I know you don't believe what Kitty said. What are you thinking?"
She shrugged and looked down before groaning and laying back.
"Everything is just so unnecessarily complicated you know? Even if I do.. when I do talk to her, I just know that she will never be okay with me going to Asgard or them visiting. They have no filter and they are so loud.. I love it, they are so enthusiastic about everything! A passion for life that you don't see in humans.. but I can just picture it now, her walking away in annoyance and being rude to them, a wedge between her and I or between me and them.. ugh!"
"Alright, I love this view but I think it's time we go back. You need to talk to her, at the end of the day she is your daughter and you need to make her understand where you are coming from. See why this affects her so much."
"I know. Just thought that we would have a longer relax period before the drama started. I think we should just lock ourselves in my room and watch all the Disney movies."
"I would agree but only if we could bring in some food.. if not then I wouldn't last more than 2 movies."
She laughed and sat up to look into his eyes. He could see the worry and the anxiety in her eyes but he could also see the need she had for him, he had it too. When she began crying after being yelled at by Kitty, all he wanted to do was pick her up and take her far away until there was peace that she could come back to. She was doing everything she could to make everything easier for him and he felt it unfair that everything for her so far had been so hard.
"I think you need a plan."
"A plan for what?"
"For what you are going to get done. I was completely lost Bella, didn't even know which way was up, still don't, but now I have a plan. You are going to help me catch up with history, with movies, go to those Disney amusement parks. One day I want to get to pearl harbor, and lastly, look forward to how you and I grow together as everyday passes. I have a plan now, I have something to look forward to, thanks to you. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders because as lost as I am, I know from today forward, you will be there as part of any plan I make, you will factor into it and I can fall back on you for help just like you can fall back on me. You are my mate, I didn't know I needed a mate until I met you, didn't understand just how much it meant or just how deep the bond was until this morning, but now? Now I can't imagine a life or a future without you there beside me.. and I know, I know nothing about you really.. not what your favorite color is, not what your favorite book, not your favorite time of the year.. you are a stranger to me, just like I am to you.. but that doesn't matter. This indescribable feeling in my chest, the emotions I feel every time I look at you, it all means that you are mine and I am yours, you are my plan and I can't help you the way you will help me. I can't do anything to help you get adjusted again, it irritates me that I can't be everything you need as your protector, not even as a provider.. not that you need one but it's my instinct to shield you from anything that can harm you, to give you everything you want or need. I can't protect you from your daughter though.. I can only be there for you and help you plan something to look forward to, a goal that I can help you work towards until we can make a new routine.. together."
He looked intensely into her eyes and softened when he saw them fill with unshed tears. She whispered his name, trying to make sense of the emotional storm rushing through her from head to toe. She launched and turned them midair so he was laying on his back and she was straddling him with her hands in his hair and his arms around her waist.
"It's too soon to tell you that I love you, no matter how much I want to right now."
She kissed him deeply for a moment before leaning up and cradling his face.
"I will say however.. that I need you, I need you and everything you just said, to happen. Make no mistake Steve, we have a crazy life and a crazy future ahead of us, but you will always be the person that my plans revolve around as well. We are a package deal now, I go where you go."
"And I go where you go."
They both understood the double meaning to his words. They were not just said for sentiment, he meant it, and she knew he intended to be by her side when that rainbow bridge opened up once again.
She suddenly got a wicked gleam in her eye as she smirked down at him.
"You would look so sexy dressed up as a viking warrior.. all that armor, a sword, facial hair!"
Her insides clenched at just the thought but before she could say anything else, he had already flipped them and attacked her lips with his.
…
Kitty felt instant remorse and guilt even as she was saying the words, but it all multiplied when her mothers face contorted in anguish and the tears fell freely. Steve held her hand and left with her quickly after that but the silence around the table only lasted seconds before everyone began yelling at once.
Peter looked around at the feuding family and gently took Char's hand before leading her out of the room with Bruce following after them. No one seemed to notice however since everyone was now standing and yelling, not listening to what anyone else was really saying.
"ENOUGH!"
Pepper looked to Tony, everyone stopped talking instantly, everyone shocked at hearing his angry roar. Tony began to pace before pausing at looking up straight at Kitty with a look of anger that she had never seen before. His tone of voice laced with controlled anger, seen by the veins popping out on the strain of his neck.
"You. Had. No. Right."
"Ac-"
"Shut up! Sit down and listen to what I am about to say Kitty. You listen well because I am only saying it once. Understand?"
She mutely nodded, tears already forming from being spoken down to.
"Do you honestly think that I want her to go fight in another freaking planet? Do you think I want her to go visit a place where she was trapped for 8 MONTHS?! No Kitty, I don't! She needs us, she is as lost as the man next to her is right now, no job to report to on Monday, no routine to fall back on to pretend like nothing is wrong, like she didn't just miss 8 months of our lives! She feels like there is no place for her in our lives, like too much time passed and now we have done too many things without her so now she can't just hop back in. I understand why she is holding onto Asgard so much, she knows that place, that place was her sanctuary until she could see us again, people there helped her to not lose her fucking mind as the days turned to weeks! She in no way insinuated that she wanted to go back to live there, yet you went off your rocker and decided it was okay to talk to your mother like that, to disrespect her so blatantly while she is at such a low point. Logan has made it clear that you have been in a mood for months, that is acceptable, that is expected, but not with her. She fought her ass off to get back to you, to all of us! And you tell her to go back? You yell at her?! Did you not see her face? YOU are the one that doesn't give a shit anymore Kitty! If you were going to have such a shitty attitude then you should have fixed it before coming to see her. Kid, I know your emotions are shooting off everywhere I get it! But you need to fix this, now!"
Everyone stayed silent as he finished speaking. The only noise to be heard was her sobs and she rocked back and forth in Piotr's arms. He tried soothing her but even he didn't know what to say, everything Tony had said was just what she needed to hear. Bella had never really raised her voice with Kitty, never punished her when she acted out.. but no one wanted to add to her hurt by voicing their agreement to what Tony had said.
May walked passed Tony, giving his arm a gentle squeeze as she walked to Kitty. Piotr leaned back and released her as Aunt May held both her hands in hers.
"Kitten, I know you are hurting, we all were, we are happy your mom is back but we don't know how much she has changed, we still love her, she is still family, but she has experienced so much, has learned so much. It will take time for all of us involved to wrap our heads around. The question is, why can't you try to adjust? What is holding you back darling girl?"
Everyone sat down and waited for her answer but she wasn't willing to say it, she knew how it would make her sound..
"I don't know."
"Yes you do. What do you really think about her new friends coming for Thanksgiving? Why was the idea so absurd to you?"
"Well, because!"
Logan raised an eyebrow and shot her a dirty look.
"Watch that tone kid, you're already on thin ice."
She huffed and looked down.
"I just, I don't want them here. This is a place only family comes to.. we don't know them, we only know that they helped mom out.. but she was there because of them! It's like she forgot who is to blame for all this!"
Jane sighed and spoke from across the table while Aunt May rubbed her back to soothe her.
"Kitty she doesn't blame them, why should we? She was shaking their hands, it was an accident. No one is to blame for her getting there, only Loki was to blame for her getting stuck but now he has been taken care of and everything slowly goes back to normal. Why not give them a chance to become family? Kitty, I can see the wonder and the excitement in her eyes, it is a world full of magic that she wants to show us, not to get stuck, not to never see us again, no, just to show us something new. Am I scared that she won't come back again? Yes, of course! But she got back once, she would do it again, she knows how now."
"Okay but what if she really likes it, really starts to miss it? What if when that bifrost thing is fixed, she takes Steve first and they both fall in love with the place and each other and they just decide to stay there just the two of them for a while? What are you going to do then? She is going to leave us again but this time it will be her choice!"
"Is that what this is about? Steve?"
"No! That's not what I said."
Pepper reaches over and hands her some tissues before taking a turn to talk.
"You don't need to feel like Steve is taking her away Kitty, she will never stop loving you and being your mom."
"He will. Didn't you hear what Peter said this morning? They are all each other needs! We could all die and they would still be blissfully happy in their little bubble. Tony already said he is starting to rebuild Stark Tower just so we can stay there and only come over weekends so they can have alone time. They don't care what we do or what we think."
"They are newly mated Kitty, of course they need space but you know she cares for you very much, it would break her heart to hear you say these things. If she really didn't care about you anymore, would she have burst into tears when you yelled at her?"
"No.. But look at her reaction though! She took his hand and left! If he weren't here then she would have stayed here to talk it through and fix it right then and there."
"Kitty.. you need to understand that they need each other and complete each other in a way that we can't even begin to understand. He is not taking her away though. You were fine with the idea this morning, even yesterday you made a joke and asked him if he would be your dad if they got together. What's the issue now?"
"That was before though! Now they really are together and it's only been one day and look how intense they are already! She gave him her seat at dinner! He is taking over her life officially now."
"And you are worried about where you fit in, in all this?"
She sighed and looked down, answering the question for everyone.
"Kitty, you need to have faith. Asgardians aren't bad, Steve seems like a great guy.. Just wait and be nice until there is something actually wrong? Do that for Bella, she would be crushed if her daughter hated her soulmate. I know Steve will prove you wrong.. he is not looking to toss you aside and take her full attention, I can guarantee that."
"I- I know, I know I'm just being stupid.."
"You're not. I remember when my parents divorced.. my mom started dating another guy and I hated him so much! I gave him such a hard time but then he moved in, he married her, he stood by her and went to every recital, every game, parent teacher conference.. he took care of me, knowing I hated him but not knowing why. I just thought he wanted to send me away so it would be him and my mom but he proved me wrong. Steve will prove you wrong, I just hope you are more open than I was."
"She's right Kat, You know I grew up with Bells, she is my sister. When Renee started dating Phil.. it was pretty bad for a while. You're mom can relate to you more than you know, you just need to open up and tell her everything you just told us. But first, you need to apologize. You broke her heart a little bit Kat, you need to fix it."
She sniffed as tears flooded her eyes again. She hated the thought of hurting her mom, making her cry was like taking a punch in the stomach.
"Come here kid."
Darcy got up to hug her and soon everyone was in line giving her a hard squeeze. For the first time in months.. she really felt like she had her family back, like things could really get back to something similar to what they had before.
…
Tony rolled his eyes once he got to the roof and saw her taking off while carrying Cap. Guess they want alone time. A part of him felt bad for talking down to Kitty but he knew from experience that she needed to be slapped with the truth to bring her back to the smart, kind girl she could be. He really did know now the meaning of 'tough love' she didn't take it personal though, she said as much when he hesitantly lined up to hug her too.
…
Steve leaned back slightly until he was a couple inches away from her face. It took so much willpower to actually let go of her warm, soft lips. He spoke but even he himself scooped down to give her a kiss in between every word.
"Alright. Alright. We have, to go, now."
"Why?"
She teased him slightly and ran the tip of her tongue over his bottom lip before biting down on it. He groaned in the back of his throat and she smirked before kissing him one more time and jumping up.
"Alright, I guess we can go now."
He sighed and rolled onto his back with his eyes closed.
"You're gonna kill me woman."
"What's the fun in that?! No, I think I'll keep you for a while at least."
He chuckled lightly but got up and wrapped an arm around her waist tightly.
"Um… nooo, that's not how it works honey buns. I fly, so I hold."
She moved fast to get out of his hold and threw him over her shoulder before shooting up into the sky laughing when she heard him yell out at her.
"There has to be a better way to do this!"
She laughed but didn't respond since he probably wouldn't be able to hear her. I really should think about that though.. maybe a harness? No, then he would look like a baby.. hmm. Once landed, she put him upright and bit her lip to not giggle when he stumbled back.
"Okay.. let's never do that upside down again."
"Okay, sorry!"
He glared at her playfully but ended up chuckling right along with her.
"You ready?"
"Not entirely. I would rather wait until she cools off. Maybe we can watch a movie tonight and I will talk with her later when we are having break-"
"No, now."
He grabbed her hand and dragged her inside. She sighed but a part of her was very happy that he cared for her happiness and her relationship with Kitty. They walked in to the observatory and chose to take the stairs slowly down to the living room where she was hoping everyone, or most of the family would be.
"Bella! I'm glad you are both back, Kitty went looking for you a while ago and felt bad when Tony told her you had left."
"I'll go talk to her, thanks Pep. Is she in her room?"
"Yeah, she should be. Peter and May left already, Clint went to a bar with Nat and Logan, Darcy and Jane went up to the lab with Bruce and Tony, and finally, Peter and Char.."
She leaned in to make sure no one overheard, even though Nat and Clint were suppose to be gone, they still had to be safe.
"They had to go hunting."
She nodded but turned to Steve as she turned back to the TV.
"Would you be okay on your own while I go chat with her?"
"Of course. I can stay here or go to your library. Go take your time."
He leaned down at the same time she leaned up and kissed him quickly. After she left the room Pepper turned to Steve and smiled.
"So, I see you guys are not as shocked and freaked out as you were this morning?"
He smiled to himself and sat down on the armchair across from her.
"I am still slightly shocked. The feelings are so intense, so fast. It doesn't feel like we became mates last night, it feels like so much longer, like I have been with her for a long time but am just now getting to know her. I know how crazy it sounds, but I feel it."
"You don't have to defend what you feel or explain it to anyone Steve. I'm happy for you both, you really seem comfortable around each other, even her, she has such a calm demeanor about her.. something I have never seen, not even around us."
"What do you mean? She is acting normal isn't she?"
"Well, I mean, I know that Bella has always wanted a big family, but even before, when she had us all here for Thanksgiving, she would stand at the main door and look over all of us with a smile, like she was so happy to see this group of people in need of a family come together, but at the same time there was a look of detachment too. I don't know if it was from her own experience, her mother being so irresponsible and turning her back to her, losing her father, the family she found in the Cullen's leaving her too.. maybe the training she got in Shield.. to always be on her toes, never trust anyone.. all that just made it so she could never fully join us, mostly she just stands back and watches us be a family, with her only coming into it once in a while when she lets her guard down but with you around.. she really does let her guard down, she is fully here, her mind isn't wandering off somewhere else you know?"
"She knows she doesn't have to be on her toes, I will never abandon her, she can relax, knowing I would do anything to protect her. She feels it, just like I know I can relax and not be on guard, if anything comes our way, I know she will be with me and we will get through any battle together."
Pepper looked at him and felt her mouth hang open.
"How are you even real?!"
…
Bella stood at the door for a moment before deciding she wouldn't knock.. afraid Kitty might refuse to see her. Okay, I can do this.
"Kitty? Oh! What is-"
"Mom!"
"Bella! Shit!"
She stood there in shock at walking in on her daughter and Piotr making out and him groping her breasts.
"What the hell?!"
"Mom, I didn't mean to keep it from you, I wanted to tell you in private, away from the family, but we hadn't found a right time!"
"How long have you 2 been together?"
"Everything just changed for us 5 months after you disappeared.."
"And you both thought it was okay to be dry humping under my roof?"
"N- no! We weren't! I mean- that wasn't what was happening?"
"Right, okay I get it, relationships between people change but now that you are both in a romantic relationship, rules are going to be placed understand? Piotr I expect you to follow them as well. No sex in this home, make your own time for it because I never want to hear or smell that off you 2, that being said, whenever you 2 are in a room together, the door remains wide open, no exceptions."
"Mom we haven't even done that! Logan is always listening at the school an-"
"Good. That is good to hear. Find your own time for that Kitty. Don't disrespect me by doing it under my roof and don't disrespect Charles by doing it under his."
They both sighed and looked at each other miserably. Well I sure as hell am not going to feel bad that they have nowhere to go have sex comfortably!
"Piotr, if you don't mind, I need to speak with Kitty in private. I will talk with you later though, this is not over."
"Yes Bella.. and um, I'm sorry."
She nodded and patted his arm as he passed. After he had shut the door behind him there was a moment of silence before Kitty got off the bed and came to stand in front of her with tears already forming in her eyes.
"Mom, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean what I said.. I am so happy you are back, I waited so long to see you again and now you are here and it's like I forgot how to act around you.. I'm so sorry mom."
Bella opened her mouth to speak but stopped when Kitty put her hands up.
"Please just let me finish. Pepper and Darcy told me I had to be open with you and I want to be.. I just need to get out how I am feeling, I don't want you to think I actually want you to leave me again."
Kitty sobbed just remembering the way her face contorted in pain at her words.
"I'm a mutant, I never judge anyone because I know what it is like to be wrongly stereotyped.. but that is what I did with everyone you have talked about from Asgard, I made them into the bad guys in my head for so long that when you came talking about how good they are.. it's like a part of me didn't want to believe it.. I'm scared you will miss it too much and will want to live there. I'm scared at what Peter said about you and Steve only needing each other.. I'm scared he is going to take you away and you will fall in love and toss me aside like.. like my parents did.. I don't want to lose you but it will hurt so much more if you chose to go this time.. I don't- I wouldn't survive it mom. I love you, everything good in my life is because you picked me up all those years ago, even my friendship with Piotr got stronger after you interfered in it and told him how much I needed him. I'm so sorry I have been such a brat, I will try mom, I swear when they come for Thanksgiving I will be nice, I know how much they mean to you, how much Jane misses the connection she made with Thor. I didn't mean anything against them mom, I'm so sorry, I just wanted someone to blame for everything and Loki wasn't enough, I just wanted… I don't know.. I don't know why I yelled at you or why I said those things but I- I want so bad for these past months to just disappear!"
Bella rushed forward and hugged her hard as she broke down.
"I just missed you so much mom! You missed so much time! We needed you and you weren't here. I kow it's no one's fault but you are our glue and we know that but when you were gone everyone went their own way.. I didn't just lose you, I lost the whole family! Partially it was my own fault.. everyone called me at least 20 times but I ignored all of them, I would have even ignored Piotr if he would have let me, if he hadn't fought against me so much. I love you so much mom, I'm so sorry."
"Shh, It's okay baby girl. I know how hard it was for everyone, for you and Tony I know I was not there like I always am to support you guys.. I can't say that your words didn't hurt but, Steve told me you didn't mean them and I knew it already, I just, I didn't know if the whole family felt like you did."
"They don't mom, really they don't! They were all pretty angry that I yelled at you.. Tony let me have it… not, not that I didn't deserve it."
"I hope he wasn't too harsh. I know what it feels like to snap Kitty. I really do but I would never leave you baby girl. You know what it is like, to be tossed aside by the family that is supposed to love you and be there for you no matter what, I know what it is like too Kitty, you know I could never do that to anyone, I could never be responsible for making someone feel like I did, like you did. I love you so much Kitty, Steve coming into my life does not change the way I feel about you. I know what position this puts you in, I know how you may feel like you have to make nice for my sake, but you don't.. I want nothing more than for the 2 most important people in my life to get along, but I won't force that on you.. all I ask is that if you don't like the way something changes, just come tell me, don't take it out on him okay? He wouldn't try to make a wedge between us but if anyone ever did try.. you know I wouldn't let them."
She nodded and hugged her back tighter than she ever had.
"I guess I just don't know where this whole mating thing leaves me.. I know you guys need to spend a bunch of time together the first like year but even after that Peter said you would be like him and Char and they never go out without the other."
"They have, but yes I understand where you are coming from. Look I know that this bond I have with him is sudden and is so powerful.. I can feel how much I need him, need his presence even now, knowing he is just in the living room but the feeling is so intense that it doesn't make much sense yet, I know I will be wrapped up in him most of the time, especially with trying to help him with catching up but how about we make a deal? I still pick you guys up every Thursday to come spend the weekend as always but-"
"Actually it's every other Thursday now.. since I help kids with tutoring, I have to have office hours and now I leave the school every other Thursday and the other weeks I can't leave until Friday evening."
"Oh, wow, well I'm so happy that you are taking on more responsibilities at the school, Charles didn't mention anything about office hours or Friday's."
"Well.. I had no reason to come here if you weren't here so I haven't been leaving the school at all, I haven't used the schedule the way it's supposed to be used."
"Alright well how about at least twice a month when you are here, aside from anything we might do as a family, you and I can set time aside to do face masks or any spa stuff we want to spend quality time together and you can decide if anyone else can be invited."
"That sounds so great mom! Thank you!… I'm really sorry mom. I'm so glad you're back."
"I am glad to be back. I love you Kitten."
"Love you too mom."
Bella got up and kissed her forehead before pulling back her covers since she was in her pajamas and was clearly tired.
"I'm gonna go and I'm closing this door behind me understand? No Piotr sneaking in when we are all sleeping. Jarvis will tell us if he does."
"I know mom, don't worry."
She blushed and looked away, making Bella smile.
"Goodnight baby girl."
"Night mom.. I know you will have a guy sneaking over to your room when we are sleeping."
"Eh, maybe before then.."
"Ew! I was just joking! I don't want you to agree with me!"
Bella left the room laughing but managed to get it down to giggles by the time she got back to the living room where Steve stood up instantly.
"How did it go?"
"Really good. Thank you, for encouraging me to talk to her now. I did walk in on something startling though.. Pepper? You knew Kitty and Piotr are a thing?"
Pepper looked away from the TV instantly and widened her eyes in horror.
"You walked in on them! How embarrassing! Wait they weren't doing anything right? Peter said she was still a virgin."
"Oh… good then. I just walked in on them making out but he was a little handsy.. Spread it to the rest of the family will you? New rules.. Every time those 2 are alone in a room, the doors have to be wide open. Absolutely no sex under this roof!"
"That doesn't apply to us adults right? Because I know Tony would have a problem with that rule."
Bella closed her eyes and breathed out while Steve scrunched up his face and looked anywhere but at the 2 women in the room.
"No Pepper, it does not apply to anyone else.."
"Just making sure, not that we would follow it anyway but you know-"
"Alright! Goodnight."
She marched up the stairs with Steve's hand in hers but stopped in front of her door.
"Bella?"
"Um, are you staying in my room again?"
"I… I honestly didn't think about it really. Do you want space?"
"No! Um, it's not that I don't want you to, I just know that yesterday was because we were both mostly ruled by our instinct to be together but I know this between us is so new so you might want to take time and not push it since being in my room is not necessary tonight so-"
He pushed his lips on hers mid sentence and felt her smile against his lips.
"I thought we weren't overthinking things."
"I guess not.. I was just asking.. don't want you to feel obligated."
"I need to shower and change clothes but how about I meet you in there?"
"You want to watch the next Disney movie?"
"Of course! Which one was next?"
"I'm not exactly sure which is next but we can look up the one you said you didn't get to see? Which one was it?'
"Victory Through Air Power."
"Okay, let me look for it while you get ready."
He nodded and smiled down at her one more time before heading left to go into the room he had a feeling he would never sleep in.
Sunday, October 11, 2015- Morning.
The loud blasts of guns and grenades going off in the distance get louder until I feel myself falling and ice cold temperatures burn my body, it gets harder to move but as I turn my head I see a gray skinned figure sitting next to me. 'BUCKY! NO!'
My eyes snap open and I gasp as I sit up and close my eyes trying to put aside the images… Without opening my eyes, my arms seek the comfort I know holding Bella will bring but the sheets are cold?
Where is she? She wouldn't leave the apartment without telling me right?
Irrationally my heart pumps faster and my breathing turns to pants as I get up and see the empty bathroom. Rushing out of the room I go to her office and find that empty too. A knot forms in my stomach and tightens as a million scenarios pass my head.
"Jarvis? Where is Bella?"
"Good morning Mr. Rogers, Bella is already cooking breakfast in the second floor kitchen. Would you like me to call for her sir?"
"Uh, no, thanks."
"You are welcome Mr. Rogers."
I felt some of my tension leave but I wouldn't relax until I could feel her next to me and smell her. Is this because of my nightmare or because of the mating instinct?
Going down the stairs quickly I turned the corner and found her cooking bacon in a big pan but looking up at me already with a soft sympathetic smile.
"Hey, I'm sorry I wasn't there when you woke up, I heard you asking Jarvis about me and you sounded worried."
"It's okay.. I guess I only sleep well if you are with me."
"Did you have a nightmare?"
Concern washes over her face and she rushes over to me and puts her hands on my cheeks. I dig my nose into her hair, she must have taken a shower since it is still damp. All the tension and panic in my body melts away as soon as her scent fills me and I can't stop my arms from wrapping around her like a vine.
"Steve?"
"It's fine, I've had them every night since I woke up almost 3 weeks ago now. It just caught me off guard when I reached for you and you weren't there."
"I'm sorry Honey."
I feel the right side of my mouth rise up into a smirk. I love the way she feels concern for me, the way she looks to me and needs me like I need her. May's words from yesterday make me smile into her neck. Marriage. I had never thought too much on it, I had dreams about having a wife of course but it was never a reality for me since girls never looked me way, especially if I was standing next to Bucky.. I don't know why Darcy said Bella is not on board for that, but I hope she tells me soon.
"Steve?"
"Sorry, lost in thought about yesterday."
I looked down at her and smile before leaning down to kiss her soft lips. I would never tire of being able to do that so freely. She is mine, really mine.
"Good morning."
She giggled and said it back before stepping out of my arms and turned back to the stove.
"You're lucky I was done cooking the bacon or else they would have burned and the whole kitchen would have been filled with smoke."
"Only because you let yourself get distracted, not because of me. Besides, can't you get rid of the smoke?"
"That is beside the point!"
She stuck her tongue out at me and gestured me to sit at the nearest stool before setting a cup of orange juice in front of me.
"Thank you. What are you making?"
"Some breakfast casseroles. I know some of the guys probably got drunk at the bar last night so if they are hung over then some greasy food should be good for them."
"Did you hear when they came home?"
"No, I think we fell asleep or the TV muffled the sound. I didn't ask you last night by the way, did you like the movie?"
"Well, I can understand now why the local theater did not play it. I can't say I would want to watch it again but it was not bad."
She laughed and rolled her eyes.
"You don't have to be polite Steve, that movie sucked!"
I chuckled but had to nod in agreement. Once she put the casserole mixture into 4 pans and set them in the oven, she moved to sit next to me and rested her head on my bicep while I intertwined my right hand with her left one.
"How did your talk with Kitty go last night? You just said that you walked in on her and Piotr."
"Yeah, ugh! don't remind me of that. I don't think I will ever get that image out of my head. I know she is not a baby, she can have a boyfriend and choose to have sex if she wants to but I just never want to know about it or see it, hear it, much less smell it!"
She shivered and I had to stifle a laugh at her reaction.
"Don't laugh! She is my baby!"
"I know. I'm not laughing at you sweetheart."
It felt good to call her that.
"She did explain what was bugging her so much though.."
"What was it?"
"I think a combination of things that just boiled over honestly but she said that one of the reasons she was so against Asgardians coming was because she had blamed them this whole time for me being stuck there and couldn't really believe all the great things I was saying about them, she couldn't really accept it but she did say that it was nothing really against them and that if they did come then she would try to be nice and welcoming."
"That's great! I can understand that. She had to blame someone for you being gone.. I can't imagine what she went through."
"She said that she pretty much pushed everyone in the family away. She did say something else though that is worrying her.."
The way she said it made me turn to look down at her.
"What's that?"
"I guess Peter briefed the family on the basics of what being mated means, how much we would need each other and how intense our feeling would be. It started to worry her when she heard him say that we pretty much only needed each other. She said she was scared that I might miss Asgard too much and that I would take you to live there with me, choosing to leave her behind since I would only need you. She doesn't have anything against you, I don't think, but she is feeling insecure about where she fits into my life now that you are in it and I am so focused on you."
I felt my gut twist again and looked down at the table. Would Bella still want to be with me if Kitty didn't like me?
"Bella, you have to know I would never want to take your attention off her. I have no intention of doing that."
"I know, really I do. She does too but it all goes back to the damage her parents did to her, I can understand it, I know the position she is in, I felt the same way when I realized that things with Phil and Renee were serious."
"Phil is your step dad right? Renee is your mom?"
"Yeah."
I stayed quiet for a moment, not knowing if it was okay to ask but deciding I should try anyway.
"What happened with Kitty and her parents?"
A look of pain passed through her eyes and I felt her pain stab through me too, not knowing why, just knowing I would always feel with her what upset her.
"She, um, it's actually kinda common I guess.. some parents just can't handle having a mutant as a kid, or they are against mutant rights and don't want to deal with them.. Her parents just left her at the school and, they just abandoned her."
Her eyes filled with tears and fury, feeling pain for her daughter. I can't believe it's a 'common' thing to do. Don't those bastards have a heart? They don't deserve to be parents at all.
"When Renee found out about me.. after the cosmic exposure, she encouraged me to find a cure so my fire would go away. When I made it clear that I had no intentions to do so, she left me behind too. I can relate to Kitty, I know how she must be feeling so I promised her that twice a month when she comes over we can take some time to do girly activities together just the 2 of us. I figured spending quality time together here in the apartment would make it easier on our bond than me taking her away for dinner somewhere you couldn't follow us to."
My arms tightened around her at the thought of her going off alone for over an hour and me not being with her.
"Thank you for taking that into consideration. I'm sure even if it's here in the apartment Kitty will still cherish time with you. The more we work on it maybe in the future we would both feel comfortable with you leaving the apartment with her."
"Yeah I'm sure that we'll get there with time for sure."
We spent the next 30 minutes mostly in silence, just leaning against each other and listening to the soft classical music she had put on. The silence was interrupted suddenly by the beep of the oven and the sound of doors opening and closing all around the floor. Wow, food really does draw them out.
"Morning! Who is hungover?"
I chuckled when Bella spoke extra loud on purpose, causing a collective groan of pain from said 'hungover' people.
Soon the food was served up and I had one of the best meals in my life.
"God Bella, I missed this! I looked up all kinds of recipes and couldn't find anything that tastes like this."
"Pep I already told you what's in it! It's just eggs, bacon, hash browns, cottage, Swiss, and cheddar cheese. Oh and some diced up sweet onion cooked with the bacon. It's really easy and fast, just cooking the bacon is what takes a while."
Pepper rolled her eyes and huffed while Stark smirked.
"It's okay Bells, you know my girl is a great ex waitress and an excellent business woman but a cook, she is not."
The words were just out of his mouth before she hit the back of his head and Bella sent a fire ball his way that seemed to go up his nose, causing him to snort. What in the world? Everyone at the table laughed but Bella leaned over and whispered in my ear.
"Don't worry, I didn't burn him. It was hot enough to burn his nose hairs and to tickle his nose but not enough to actually hurt. I do it to him and Logan all the time."
Now I understood why they all laughed.
"So what are all of you doing today?"
"I don't think we have any actual plans. All I know is that tomorrow we need to go down to the shelter to sign some contracts and get final design input."
Everyone around the table nodded, agreeing to go help out where we could for the destroyed building.
"So since you guys don't have plans, wanna join Steve and I in our movie day? I am helping him catch up with Disney movies. Can you believe he went to watch Snow White when the movie first aired?"
"Holy shit!"
"Damn you are old."
I felt my cheeks warm under their stares but Logan glared at them playfully before smirking.
"I better not hear y'all call him old in front of me again."
"That's right! You're way older!"
"Watch it!"
Bella and I stifled our chuckles while Logan glared at Darcy. Slowly we all moved over to the media room that Bella and I had already been in. We spent the entire Sunday watching the next couple of short films that Bella said didn't get popular like Bambi, Dumbo, Snow White, and Pinocchio did. We watched Make mine music, Song of the south, Fun and fancy free, and Melody Time. They were all great movies but I agreed with all of them that they could not reach the expectations I had from what I had already watched.
"We just need one more boring movie and then we can get to all the classic good films!"
"Which one?"
She looked down at her device and read from the list she found on the internet.
"It's called 'The adventures of Ichabod and Mr. Toad'"
"That's the next one? Bella in what world is that movie boring?"
"Yeah! What the hell are you on?"
"Tony, Bruce, I know you 2 are on the older side but that movie is not funny!"
Jane tilted her head back and forth before speaking.
"Actually, I agree with them, it's a nice movie."
"You're only saying that because you like the ride in Disneyland!"
"But see?! If it was a bad movie, would it have it's very own ride in the happiest place on earth?!"
She laughed and looked at her watch.
"Okay, we have time for one more, you all wanna watch it?"
Everyone shrugged their shoulders, not having anything better to do really.
Monday, October 12, 2015
Monday was the first hectic day I had witnessed in the family. Bella spent the morning in her office, returning the dog's call.. judgment on his character be damned, I didn't think I could ever bring myself to like him, no matter what Bella said about him being a 'good guy'. The thought of any man touching her intimately burned my own fire inside me and knowing he was the only one that ever had, centered all that emotion on him. The hate I felt for Edward was purely for how much hurt he has brought into her life but I did not feel insecure, I knew that if one day a man were to steal Bella's affections, it could be anyone but him. She spoke of him in a way that made clear she hated him with a passion that was unmatched.
After her phone call she stood by the elevator like a drill Sargent, barking out orders and getting everyone ready on time to leave for the shelter. The way she centered her voice and threw a glare at anyone who wasn't getting ready to go aroused me enough to have to sit down. She threw a wink my way at one point and I had to think she had seen the tightness in my pants before I got the chance to sit. Later on I had to leave to room entirely when she and Stark started signing contracts and she started giving specific orders to the construction crew about deadlines and required permits that the shelter needed. It was incredibly arousing to see her be in charge. In my day most men laughed it off when women gave orders but here she was, making men twice her size bow their heads in understanding of her requests.
Tuesday, October 13, 2015-
The day so far had been lazy to say the least. I had woken up to the pleasant view of Bella stretched out on my chest, it brought forth the memory of her bare body when I had so brazenly walked in on her bath. Everyday seemed to get harder to resist touching her intimately, I knew she felt it too, the instinct getting stronger and unrelenting. I knew we had spoken about letting things happen naturally but the speed was alarming, I thought we could get to know each other a little better so when the time came, bringing up the subject wouldn't be awkward but I didn't think we would realistically last much longer. If I were to be honest, I was very nervous about having sex with her. I knew talking to her about it would not get me to relax, she would think I was nervous about doing something that would have been inappropriate in my time, that was far from the truth. Women in my time had grown independent enough after the prohibition that having casual sex was not such a foreign thing, god knows Bucky sure didn't hold back with women. I was certainly looking forward to experiencing something so intimate with Bella, something that would really bind us together as soulmates. The problem I was having now, was that I have heard Darcy, Pepper, and even Stark talk so freely about sex, I was worried I wouldn't be able to give her a good experience. Even now I remember some men in my group talking about giving a woman pleasure during sex, they would boast about it and the other men would listen attentively, saying it was nearly impossible with most woman, they sat around speaking of techniques and theories but at the time I thought they were pigs who should keep their woman's privacy. Now, I wish I would have listened to the damn tips!
"Steve?"
I nearly jumped when I focused on the here and now. Everyone was looking at me but Bella's face was filled with concern.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes, I'm sorry, I was stuck in my head for a moment too long I guess. Is the show over?"
"Yeah, I thought you had liked it? Did it bore you?"
"No, no. It was actually very interesting."
"Oh, okay.."
She gave me a strange look before things seemed to turn tense and awkward. We had been watching a show called 'COPS' and it really was very interesting but the thought of her easily took my attention away from it, not that I could tell her that with everyone in the room giving me strange looks though. We were sitting in the living room, all hardly paying attention but spending time together as Pepper had said. Peter and Char sat in the couch next to Bella and I while Tony and Pepper sat with their limbs tangled together in the large armchair. Logan sat in the armchair next to them while Jane, Darcy, and Bruce all shared the larger couch by the TV. Kitty and Piotr sat on the floor by Bella's feet. We watched another episode of the show, it had police officers arresting men for drugs and another arresting a prostitute, which got me thinking about sex all over again.. The best thing I could do would be to ask for 'advise' or 'tips' the thought was embarrassing to say the least but it would be more than worth the humiliation if I could please Bella right? Logan was out of the question, I have a feeling he wouldn't entertain me with a response anyway.. Stark seemed like a good man when around the family but I have yet to speak with him on a personal level, so far everything seems to be a game or a joke to him. Bruce was a good guy, shy, but then so was I. It had to be Bruce or one of the women, not Darcy, maybe Jane or Pepper, though I didn't know if my questions might be taken offensively. Another thing to consider would be Peter, he and Char were very helpful to explain everything they could on the mating bond and apparently Peter was turned in the 1800's so he should understand where I'm coming from and how much sex may have changed from his time right? I was broken out of my thoughts again but this time it was by a loud rumble that shook the building's walls for a second. Everyone looked to Bella collectively and asked the same thing.
"Was that lightning?"
Her face lit up and she jumped up before running towards the stairs at… lightning speed. We all got up to follow quickly but by the time we made it to the roof Bella was of course already there and in the arms of Thor. He embraced her tightly and lifted her a few feet off the floor. I felt a surge of protectiveness, an urge to go rip his arms off her but I fought it down, knowing she considered him a brother and that I was being too 'instinctual' in my thinking right now.
"Sister Bella! I have no words to express how much we have missed your presence! Asgard seems colder without your energy now."
"Oh Thor I have missed you too! I have missed everyone! How are they? Did you run out the Marauders?"
"Not yet, they have gone into hiding once more, word of the Bifrost being repaired has served well. My father and Heimdall have given me permission to visit Midgard, they send their congratulations to you and the Captain. Heimdall has explained your union, it is a great pleasure to hear you have found a true mate in which to share your lifetime. I am happy for you sister."
She smiled up at him broadly before turning to us and dragging him to me.
"Yes I am quite happy that fate has given me such a hansom mate."
She smiled up at me cheekily before winking and kissing my cheek. He shook my hand and smiled at me for a moment but then got a serious look on his face.
"I have fought beside you and consider you an alley my shield brother but make no mistake, if you hurt my sister, you will have not just I but the entirety of Asgard coming down on you mightily. Heimdall will alert me the moment that you make her cry and the moment you put her down. Do you understand this truth?"
Everyone froze momentarily, shocked I think.. a part of me wanted to be angry, tell him she was mine and that my relationship was none of his business, another part was offended that he could think I would ever treat her badly but the final and biggest part of me was happy that he cared enough for her to keep an eye on her and anyone who could hurt her.
"I don't plan on ever treating her badly but I assure you that if I ever hurt her, I will take any beating you and the rest of Asgard dished out."
He smiled at me once again and moved on now that the threat was in place. Bella smiled up at me and I could see the lust in her eyes. She dragged Thor over in front of Jane and smiled at him in encouragement.
"I'm sure there are many things for us to catch up on but then again, I'm sure you would like to get reacquainted with Jane first? You know, before you threaten anyone else"
He gave her a lost look for a second but when he turned and made eye contact with Jane, his smile came back and he lifted her hand to his lips.
"I would like that, yes.. If you would be so kind to give me a moment of your time, I can.. explain my misleading promises that I was unable to fulfill before now?"
Jane who had been silent in shock blushed under his stare. It took a moment for her to look him up and down before she grabbed his hand and pulled him with her inside. Calling out last minute that they would be in her room and to not interrupt. Why can't things be that easy with Bella and I? Maybe I should talk with Jane after all, she seemed to have the confidence that I needed now. I felt someone tug on my hand and knew instantly, without looking, that it was Bella. Her abnormally high body temperature had nothing to do with it, it was the emotions I got every time she was near, like an invisible rope that tethered me to her, that was the basics in the mating bond according to Peter and Char. That 'rope' was my bond to her and it would never go away. If we were far apart, that bond would feel tighter and I could always follow it to get to her, that thought gave me comfort but the thought of ever having to use it didn't. It was because of that 'rope' that I knew when she was near and when it was her skin that touched mine, it felt like completion.. there was no other way to describe it.
"Come on."
I followed her back inside and was surprised when she led me back to her room. The bed was still unmade from this morning but before I could say anything else, I found myself airborne. I landed in the middle of the bed and looked up to see Bella climbing onto it, slowly crawling to me with a predatory look in her eye that was filled with lust. The look she gave me tightened my pants immediately, she crawled until her her lips were just out of my reach, sliding her hands up across my chest and into my hair she tugged until I looked up into her eyes.
"You are so hot. I saw the possessive look on your face when Thor talked to you.. I like that, I like that a lot."
"Me acting like a possessive idiot?"
"Possessive over me, knowing you want me is such a turn on."
She ground her hips against me and I thew my head back in surprise and at the sudden sensation. The heat coming off the apex of her thighs was enough to arouse me but the feeling of her pushing down on me was something completely different.
"Bella."
She leaned forward and kissed me long and hard. It wasn't like other times where we would pull back and end a kiss, no, we just kept going with our hands roaming each others bodies. This was making out I realized, we laid in bed kissing for what felt like hours but was only 10 or so minutes before she pulled away and tugged on my shirt. I was surprised she was taking it this far but I certainly wasn't complaining. Once my shirt was off I hesitated for a second before taking her shirt off as well. My eyes widened at seeing her bare chest inches away from me. Not fighting against any hesitance I went with what I wanted and trusted her enough to stop me if she didn't want to keep going, I leaned forward and planted small kisses around her breasts. Above me, I heard her breath hitch and felt her hips grind against me once more.
"Steve."
She whispered my name softly but in a tone that made me look up into her stunning, half lidded eyes.
"I want to try something but, I'm not ready to jump into sex right now. I know we have both been feeling the effects of our bond a lot but.. well I just thought we could try something else until we are both ready?"
"Bella, you don't have to do anything if you don't want to or are just not ready, really, it's okay."
"I do want to, I do, I just.. well I haven't really figured out what is holding me back yet but.. like I said, I do want to familiarize myself with your body."
If it was possible I felt myself get harder. She had started out speaking shyly but ended with a smirk and the lust back in her eyes, covering the uncertainty that was there only seconds before. In a flash she stood up and was suddenly standing before me only in her small lace underwear. She was stunning, every inch of her called to me like a mythical siren. She leaned over my body and pushed me back until I was relaxed and laying down fully on the mattress, that calm lasted only a few seconds when she started placing open mouthed kissed down my chest, her small but firm hands explored lower until they got to the waistband of my pants and pulled them down along with the boxer-briefs I had on. I lifted my hips and sat up as soon as my pants were off. I felt too exposed for a moment but looking into her eyes she smiled at me shyly once again.
"Is this okay?"
Her hand softly grasped me and I had to lay back down and shut my eyes to not embarrass myself with her.
"Yes Bella, more than okay."
I heard a soft giggle escape her lips but I couldn't focus on the sound when I could feel her hot breath against my length.
Bella's POV-
A part of me sighed in relief when he laid back down on the bed. I was eager to do this but I was nervous and his eyes on me wouldn't help. The sexual tension was getting to be too much lately but I was too scared that what happened with Paul might repeat if I just jumped into bed with Steve right away. Char was the one that recommended this and I was more than eager to do it. I wanted to please him and have him be more comfortable, I could see the nerves in him too and I figured it might be because he had never done anything sexual with anyone, that thought turned me on even more. I kissed his swollen tip and felt confidence when I saw his thigh muscles flex. Sucking his tip into my mouth I rolled my tongue and lubricated it well before pushing another 2 inches into my mouth. I wished I would have payed more attention when Darcy and Jane started talking about sex in their drunk conversations but to someone as inexperienced as Steve, techniques didn't really matter did they? The feeling is what mattered most and from the way his hips flexed and pushed up I knew the feeling was good. I pulled back and licked him up and down before putting him back in my mouth. This was something I never imagined doing but it really turned me on to see his reaction and to feel him pulsing in my hand, his length and thickness was impressive and feeling the firmness in my hand, coupled with the soft skin was more than enough to get my fantasies going. I was suddenly happy that I never listened to Darcy and that I never got larger sized sex toys, it may be slightly painful but I couldn't wait for Steve to be the one who helped me get used to the new size in me. His head lifted slightly and he opened his eyes, looking right into mine. The lust I saw there almost made me move my hands to play with myself but I didn't want him to feel the need to do that. This was all for him, I had to resist an orgasm for a while longer. He half whispered, half groaned my name over and over until sucking air in through his teeth.
"Bella, god Bella"
I almost chuckled when his eyes widened, seems he surprised himself by throwing god in there but he was close enough that he pushed the thought aside and threw his head back, his eyes closing tightly once again. His hands reached down and I reached my hand up to hold one of his while the other went into my hair. He held my head in place as his hips thrust up uncontrollably and with no pattern. Looking up through my eyelashes I saw his body shinning with a thin sheen of sweat covering it, his neck red and strained as he breathed harshly, the groans coming from the back of his throat was enough to know that his control over his body was gone, all instinct were out and present and he was loving it, that encouraged me to try pushing him over the edge, brazenly I reached my free hand up his thigh softly until I got to the apex, softly cupping him at first but once I felt him pulse at the base of my throat I relaxed my throat and swallowed while humming and tugging his testicles at the same time. His head snapped up and his eyes opened wide for a second before a broken grunt escaped his lips, his hips twitched up once more before my name was yelled out. I swallowed all the salty liquid that was now shooting out of him, that taste was like nothing I had ever had, I wasn't sure what I was expecting but it was just.. salty.. not a great taste at all but something I could tolerate doing again, especially if it was to make him feel good. He laid back in bed panting, looking almost lost as his head rolled to the side and his eyes half opened to see me but too spent to say anything. His eyes opened and closed multiple times before a lazy smile crossed his face and he pulled my body on top of his.
"You're beautiful."
"Am I?"
"Oh yeah."
His words were mumbled and not clear at all, he almost sounded buzzed.
"So.. you liked it then? Enough to do it again?"
I was suddenly feeling shy, knowing he liked it but scared he might criticize it in some way.
"Bella, don't do that, don't downplay it. That was the most.. intense.. the best thing I have felt in my life. I Just hope I can make you feel at least half of what you made me feel."
He smiled at me, no longer panting. His hand slid down my waist and towards my ass but I moved off him before he could get there.
"It's okay Steve, I wanted to do that for you only, I don't expect anything in return."
"Bella? I can't be that selfish."
"Trust me honey, it's not selfish.. I wanted to do that, I want to do it again but I don't want you to repay the favor quite yet.."
He frowned but looked at me in understanding. He pulled me back to lay on his chest and pulled the covers over us.
"Okay, I won't push it. Can you just tell me what is going on in your head?"
"I just don't want to risk it.. I don't want to jump into bed with you too fast and risk losing control.. you know body temperature climbs during sex and well, mine is already high.."
I ran my finger over his neck and collected the beads of sweat that had collected there to prove my point.
"I have the control it takes, I'm sure of it.. I just don't want to risk hurting you so I want to be completely comfortable with your body before we move forward.. it's not that I don't want you.. you know that right?"
"Of course I do Bella, I know you need me and want me as much as I do you. I understand what you are saying and though I don't think you could ever hurt me.. still, thank you for caring enough to want to take precaution for me."
"Of course I care.. I can't imagine hurting you either but.. I just have to be sure."
He nodded and leaned up to kiss me but I moved back again.
"Um.. did you forget what part of your delectable body was just in my mouth?"
His eyes crinkled in confusion and so did mine.
"Why would that matter? And Bella, I can assure you I will not be forgetting that anytime soon, if ever."
I blushed under his stare and at his praising words.
"I just, I know a lot of guys think it's gross to kiss after doing that.."
"But it's my own body."
He looked even more confused before shaking his head and brushing off what I had said.
"I will never not want to kiss you Bella."
I smiled up at him and he did the same before pulling me to him again and crushing his lips on mine. God this man is amazing!