Okay, so I know I am in a lot of trouble. I just wanted to save her. I wanted to save him too.

I should have listened to Hotch and Morgan. I know that they always have my back.

When the unSub targetted us, I was afraid. At first that they knew where my mom was. Nobody on my team knew that my mother was hospitalized. And the unSub did. My mom is the only family I have left. My dad left us when I was a kid, I didn't know that I needed a father figure in my life and then, Aaron showed up. I know that I should feel closer to Gideon. He found me and gave me the opportunity to work with the BAU.

Not many understand my brain as Gideon does. He saw potential and he knew I was a good fit for the team. He is a good mentor and has taught me how to play chess. To think outside of the box. Chess is different from poker, in both you need to be two steps ahead of your opponents, but with poker, you only need to count cards and bluff, that's easy. So I'm in debt with him, but

Aaron is different, with Gideon I have an intellectual bond, meanwhile with Aaron, is more personal.

He has helped me with relationships, without him I wouldn't be open as I am. I wouldn't have Morgan. The big brother I didn't know I needed. He is a pain in the ass, and at first, we couldn't be in the same room alone. He asked the weirdest questions and got annoyed with me when I gave the answers, then it happened. I got shot by an unSub, and he showed his true colors. He was alongside Aaron in the waiting room and needed to be kicked out when he couldn't stay the night. Of course, Aaron made him go home.

JJ is another story, I have a crush on her, and she may be my best friend. Penelope is the big sister I never had and we share the same love for science fiction. She loves to bring me sugared coffee, and sweets. I love to show her my magic tricks. She is overprotective, not the same way Aaron or Derek is, but she is always worrying about us. We usually get a care package, when we come home from a case. Elle is another story. I like her, and she can be considered my friend, but that's it. I don't think that our bond is that strong. She was attacked by the unSub and I'm glad that the surgery went okay.

My relationship with Aaron started with him trying to be my mentor, then a good friend, and now I see him as a father figure. When I'm happy or sad or in pain, I call him Dad. I know that he doesn't mind, but at first it was weird for me. He sometimes goes to my lectures at the college I teach, and we have many late-night conversations. I have a room in his place, that has another bed for Morgan. He has opened his home for us.

Sometimes I babysit Jack, or go shopping with Haley, Hotch doesn't like to carry her bags, I don't understand why men don't like to go shopping, but I know I don't help her when she asks me questions about outfits. Is a good time to read, or do crosswords, I carry some in my bag. I also bring my journal, it helps me focus on my anthropology work for my doctorate. So a win-win.

But I'm getting off-topic. I'm in trouble with Hotch.

I put myself in danger twice. First with the fisher king by not telling them that he had a bomb and then trying to rescue Rebecca. I know that my actions were not appropriate, but at the moment I didn't think because of the guilt. At that moment I felt betrayed by my mom. I know that I shouldn't just tell her everything. It's my way to cope with her situation. Then an unSub was with her. I couldn't protect her, and he had the means to hurt my BAU family. So I was blind and thought I could save everyone. Well, look how that ended.

I was surprised when Morgan spanked me, he rarely does that. I was shocked. I can understand why he did it, but it is rare for him to take that role.

Now, it's 7 a.m. and I dread going downstairs with Hotch I know he is going to go straight to business after we have breakfast. At least I know he is going to spank me. I just wish that he doesn't use his hairbrush. I hate that thing. I'm lost in my thoughts when there is a knock on the door.

"Spencer, I know you are awake, breakfast is going to be served in fifteen minutes"

"I'm not awake," I told him. He enters the room and looks at me

"If you were asleep, I know I wouldn't have this attitude from you this early in the morning Spencer"

"I'm not hungry"

"Well, that's unfortunate, I'm going to make breakfast and you're going to eat it. You had a light dinner. You haven't eaten anything since yesterday morning. You know that" He looks at me with his no-nonsense look. The one where he is not blinking and is looking directly at my eyes.

"I'll be downstairs in a minute"

"Glad, you changed your mind" He closes the door.

I'm in so much trouble.

—-

So Reid is awake, I woke up at 5 a.m. to do my morning run. I came home drank my green juice and got into the shower. I was thinking about today, what am I going to do with him when I started to hear sounds in his bedroom. From what I hear he is walking and muttering things to himself. He knows he is in deep trouble.

I want to get over this. I will tell him to go downstairs for breakfast. After a brief discussion, he is going to be downstairs. I start preparing oatmeal and cut some fruit. A pot of coffee for both of us. He is going to need it.

We ate in silence.

"Reid, let's get over this, go to my office. Stand in the corner and wait for me there"

"Hotch, not the corner please"

"Do as I told you, Spencer, I'm not in the mood to have this discussion. I need you to think about what happened yesterday. And before you tell me that you've already thought about it. Just think about what could've happened if you were hurt."

He stands up and goes to my office. I hope he does what I told him to do. I start to do the dishes and clean the kitchen. Afterward, I go to my bedroom to retrieve my hairbrush. The hairbrush is made of bamboo. Dave "gifted" it to me years ago when he used it on me. I know how much it hurts. He did it this time. It is needed. I hide it in my pocket. I enter the office, and he is in the corner. I'm glad that he did what I asked. I know that I wasn't fond of the corner of Dave's home. Sometimes, I rebelled against him and sat down on his couch. Dave rewarded me with a warm-up and a longer time in the corner. I don't want to do that with Spencer, right now. The punishment is going to be hard as it is. I sit down at my desk.

"Spencer, come out of the corner, please" He comes out and comes straight to me. "Sit down please, let's talk. Tell me, why are we here this morning?" He sits down.

"Well, I have been thinking in the time I was in a corner, and I don't think that this needs a discussion "

"Spencer…"

"Hotch…"

"Spencer I am being serious. You put yourself in danger twice yesterday. We need to talk about it before we start the show. If you want I can give you a preview, but let me tell you that If you decide that's necessary. You will not like the outcome, you may lose the privilege of having clothing for the entire punishment"

He looks at me with his puppy eyes

"I'll ask you. One last time. Why are you here this morning"

"I wanted to save them. You can't punish me for doing my job " The nerve of him.

"You know that this is not what this is about. So don't be acting like it is. You know me better than that"

"I know that my methods were unorthodox, but Morgan has already punished me" I'll say it again… The nerve of this kid.

"I don't know what you are trying to play here Spencer, but let me tell you if you keep it up. You're going to lose. You know that what Morgan did to you was only a taste, and you deserved it. You lied to us, and pulled that stunt".

"But Hotch, he did spank me, even if he didn't have the right to do that"

"He gave you love pats, and you know that. He has the right to punish you when he sees it fit. He loves you, and you know how the dynamic of our family works. He is older than you. He cares about you as you care about him".

"It's not like I can punish him.."

"You shouldn't but you know you can talk with me whenever there is a correction needed"

"If he had put the same stunt I did he wouldn't have this talk". I force myself to not laugh at that statement. If he only knew.

"If he had put the same stunt he would be in the same position as you are. The difference is that he doesn't" At least not anymore, but I don't tell him that. "He knows better than put his life in danger twice, but we are not talking about him —"

"Why not?"

"Reid, I'm getting tired of this. You put yourself in danger, not Morgan" I tell him raising my voice a little. He changes his demeanor, he knows I'm not bluffing.

"I know that I did, but I had my reasons. Hotch, is my job" Okay that's it. I stand up and go towards his chair. It is quick because he doesn't know what hit him. I stand him up and put him over my knee.

"Hotch no—" I start to spank him over his pajamas. I alternate between cheeks.

"I know that you don't want to be punished" SMACK "Hotch please—" SMACK "but you put your life in danger. You should know better. I don't feel that you are understanding the gravity of this situation. So I'm going to explain it to you" SMACK SMACK

"We knew that the unSub was dangerous" SMACK "We decided that you were going to talk with him, then you decided to go to him" SMACK SMACK "Hotch I'm Sorry–" SMACK "Which wasn't in the plan we talked about."DAAAAAD, it hurts" I almost stop at that statement. Whenever he calls me dad I feel like the most important person in the world. I'm honored that he sees me as his father, I know he has had a difficult life, but this is for his own good. I need to keep going. I need this attitude of his stop and he needs to see what the real problem is. SMACK "It is supposed to hurt, and we haven't really started to talk . Are you ready to talk without the attitude you are giving me?" SMACK "YESSSSS!, Dad please, I don't know what I was thinking. I'm sorry" I stop and stand him up. I move us to the sofa. I get the hairbrush out and put it in his line of vision

"Reid, this is your last warning. I only plan to end your punishment with this, you give me more lip or attitude or don't take this seriously and I promise that I'll use it for the entire punishment" With that he sits down and I do the same. He looks at the hairbrush and then at the door. "Don't even think about it" He looks at his knees and tries to find a comfortable position to sit. He is not doing a good job with that.

"So let me ask you once again. Why are we here?"

"I put myself in danger by going by myself with the unSub; I didn't tell you or Morgan, that he had a bomb, only when it was going to explode and then I run into a burning house to save Rebecca"

"Well, we are getting somewhere, Tell me why you did it, please"

"I felt guilty about the entire situation, it was my fault that—"

"Let me stop you right there, you have nothing to be guilty about what the unSub did. He used your mother. You are not to blame"

"But Elle is in the hospital"

"She is and that was Jason's call. You don't have anything to be guilty about it. If you want you can blame me too. I was on board with the decision. Sometimes, we make mistakes. I should have told Anderson to stay with her, and I didn't".

"It's not your fault, I shouldn't have told my mother about us. Our secrets"

"You didn't know that she was going to be telling others about them. I call Dave and tell him about my day often. We want to share with our parents what we love, and Diana even with her condition is proud of you Spencer. Any parent of yours is proud of who you have become, and your achievements. I know that I am, and I know that Diana is, I had the chance to speak with her, and she told me that you are her biggest accomplishment"

Spencer has tears in his eyes. I think that no one told him this before. I hug my boy and let him cry on my shoulder. It pains me when he cries, and I am the one causing it.

"Really Dad?, you are proud of me even after I put myself in danger?"

"Yes, I am. You made a mistake and are going to pay for it, you know that I am not going to go easy on you, but you know that I love you, Spencer. You are like a son to me. I know that you see me as I see Dave, and I am honored"

"I want to meet Dave, he seems like someone amazing and I have read his books. He doesn't know about me, does he?"

"He doesn't know you in person, but he loves you already. I have told him everything about you. You will meet him soon, I promise you that, but please son don't tell him you have read his books, I will never hear the end of it If you do". With that, he smirks at me mischievously.

"You know that I will tell him that I love his books right?"

"Of course, you will. You will have him eating in the palm of your hand, just like Morgan does" I hug him a little more "Let's get over this, so we can keep this behind us" I stand him up "Spencer pants off" He does what I ask, but I can see that he doesn't want to. I put him over my knee afterward.

I start slowly, alternating hits, two in one cheek and two in the other. I don't use a lot of force, but the swatting is fast. I usually scold while spanking, but right now I want my hand to do the talking.

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

"OW!, it hurts Hotch"

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

"It's supposed to hurt son"

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

I start with his undercurve, and I can feel that he is silently crying. I use more force in that area, I want him to remember this lesson.

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT. Four in one cheek

"It's supposed to hurt son"

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT Four in the other.

I start to apply my hand to his bottom again. He is struggling now.

"Please, Dad I am sorry!, I'll never put myself in danger," He says, I want to believe him, but I have been in his position many times.

"I want to believe you son, but if you do put yourself in danger again, remember the consequences of your actions. You will be in this position again, and you know how I don't like repeating myself"

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

"I KNOW DAAAAAAAAD! Please I am sorry"

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

I give him a break and rub his back.

"I know that you are son, but we are not finished". I pull down his boxers and he puts his hand back as I do. I take the hand and put it behind his back. His butt is only pink, I need this lesson to be remembered so I start to spank him again.

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

"I AM SORRYYY, PLEASE! STOP!"

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

"I know son, I hope you're learning your lesson. We are almost done." I stop and take the brush, and rub it in his butt. His backside is starting to get red. He feels the brush and tries to get off.

"Son, last dozen. Please try to not struggle. I don't want to hurt you more than I intend" I move him and trap his legs between my legs so I can have a better target.

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

"OW! DAAAAAD!"

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT

"Last four son, you are doing great"

SWAT SWAT SWAT SWAT.

I target his sit spots in the last hits. And the punishment is finished. He is sobbing now. I know that I was hard on him, and I want to thank Dave, I never believed when he told me that when he spanked me it hurt him. Right now I just want to take the pain away. Reid's butt is a scarlet shade of red.

He starts to calm down while I rub his back and let him cry. When I feel that he is ready I tell him to stand up.

"Are you ready to stand up?, we can stay like this the entire day if you want, but I don't want to embarrass you more" He stands up, and I look away so he can put his clothes back. I try to give him the privacy he needs. I know, how embarrassing it is.

When I hear a hiss, I know that he is clothed. So I look at him and open my arms. He runs at me and I hug him with all the affection that I can. I know how important affection is after a punishment.

"You did good, all is forgiven. You paid the price of your actions, well, almost"

"Almost? This is the hardest spanking you have ever given me"

"Well you did it this time Reid, but don't worry. I will not spank you again, but you're grounded"

"Daddddddddddddddddd!"

"Yes, you are grounded for two weeks, but I'll not take your phone or books this time. You just are confined to my home and work. That's it" Dave would take my phone and entertainment away and I know that I would do it with Morgan, but as Haley tells me. I do have a soft spot for him.

"Let's go to the living room, we can watch whatever documentary you want"

"AND ICE CREAM, I deserve it after this torture" He jokes

"Yes, I have your favorite"