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Ch4 - New Beginning
After getting revenge on those who hurt me, I apprehensively decided to join the Cullens; however I wasn't prepared for the changes that now being immortal would bring.
I'm still getting used to drinking animal blood, its fair to say that this vegetarian lifestyle will definitely take some getting used to.
All I want to do is drink human blood, I am fully aware that it would disappoint Carlisle greatly if I were to even taste a drop of human blood.
The smell alone makes me delirious, I have noticed that I have changed; I cannot deny that I have changed. I have caught my reflection from time to time.
I must admit that I am also having a hard time adjusting to my new eye colour. I had lovely eyes when I was human; now they have been replaced with eyes as red as blood.
I knew that over time they would change colour and eventually I would look slightly less strange.
I am also running out of clothing. I do not know how I am going to be able to get some of my old clothes. I am almost certain that my parents have been told of my death.
I let my mind drift, to as far back as I could remember; I could just about recall my mother and father and their appearances. Why couldn't I remember them as clearly as I see myself in the mirror.
It frustrated me greatly, I knew that I would never be able to see or speak to them again; as I stared at the reflection in the mirror, I couldn't help but notice that I was slightly more beautiful now that I was a vampire.
The longer I stood there, the more I couldn't help but feel strange; I'm definitely going to have to discuss my new life and what I can and can't do with Carlisle.
Once again my thoughts drifted to my mother and how this must be affecting her. How will she go on? I wish I could see her one more time. My father isn't the emotional type, he's probably sitting in his study; or perhaps he is helping my mother deal with all that has happened.
I wonder if they will hold some sort of funeral for me? How would that work? They might not be able to have a funeral. I will have to ask Carlisle, how it's possible since they don't have my body for the purpose of a funeral.
I must also ask them how to get my belongings from my old home and my room. I want everything to feel as normal as possible. I have so many questions, and no answers as of yet.