He sat by the table for about 20 minutes now. He was holding onto his phone which every minute he would check the time. His fingers were intertwining around it uncontrollably. His breath was becoming uncontrollable every moment. A few times a local here waitress was approaching him, just to check if he already picked up his order. Every time he would send her back, saying he was waiting for someone, which wasn't a lie as she saw it. The truth was he was indeed waiting, waiting for his fate to come, waiting for the decision that was about to change half, like not the whole, of his life.
Hiccup. He was about to adopt Hiccup. At least he wished so. Many thoughts were now encircling his mind. What if he didn't succeed? What if he failed? But those weren't even the worst ones. What if he wouldn't be good for him? What if he became aggressive and dangerous? Maybe he was too young. His legs were shaking underneath the table, and his breathing, he was sure of that, was hearable from second by him table. What gave him hope, was the knowledge he tried. He laid himself onto the chair, even more, now glancing at the ceiling. He, at last, tried if so.
Eventually, he heard a bell by the doors of the café, getting him to know that someone indeed stepped inside. As he glanced his all thoughts stopped immediately. Minden, it's now or never. When he knew she noticed him he turned towards the table surface, now waiting for her to join him. She gladly did, a young woman now sat just in front of him, a few papers were laid on the said table and with rather a serious face she looked over him. "Would you rather order something before, or we might start even now?" She asked as she looked behind him a place a few waitresses waiting for calling.
"That's alright." He nodded, likely making only himself sure about it. "We might start."
She took the pen into her hands and closed it towards the paper, in a way to start writing. "Mister Tobias Thomas Night, am I right?"
"That's right."
"Eighteen years old, born 3 January."
"Right."
"Both of your parents died at a rather young age causing you to become an orphan."
"Unfortunately."
She glanced over him from her papers, and analyzed him for a mere moment, before coming back towards her documents. "Right now you're attending a local high school?"
"I'm graduating next year."
"Explain to me, what plan you're having exactly for taking care of a child with the school over your head?"
He breathed loudly. Despite her unwillingness towards the theme, likely she already knew the answer, she didn't know he was prepared. "Since the first mouth for the child is always rather worst, I planned on skipping it at my school just to take care of him."
"Would you be able to later keep on with new material in your school? A full mouth is rather a long time."
"I will surprise you, but among my classmates, I'm known as one of the best students." She raised a brow at him. "I can confirm by my calling my physics teacher even now."
"It's alright." She sighed. "What about a job then? About earning money? I want to make sure both of you wouldn't end up broke."
"About money, I already have much savings from years earlier, but despite it, I'm as well having a remote job."
"What job it is exactly? Are you able to use it to provide a healthy life?" She crossed her arms.
He smirked. "I'm working for a local hangar with hang-gliding. I'm projecting some of theirs hang-gliders."
Her eyes widened. "Mind explaining to me how, the hell, the teenager was able to get such a job?!" Her mouth stayed wide open.
"I already told you I'm one of the best students in my class, right?" He chuckled. "Let's say I got bored with life. Since being young I learned about aerodynamics, and I used some part of my saving in that direction. I got pretty good diplomas and as well I self-learned how to project such things. Believe me when I say I'm getting pretty good money from it." He glanced over her mockingly. "Is that enough?"
She cleared her throat. "Even beyond it, I guess." She sighed. "But then, what about when you'll come back to school?" She smirked as she supported her arms over the table. "I mean, I hope you're not planning on leaving two months child alone at home, are you?"
He shook his head. "Not too far from my house, there is a nursery I planned to put him into."
"Wouldn't he be too young for nursery?"
"Fortunately, my friend has good contacts by which there was found one of the workers who by extra charge would take care of him."
She stared at him now. "You thought about all of it pretty well, didn't you?"
He started onto her as well. "Exactly." He now sat with arms crossed and a slight smirk on his face. His heart beat with happiness.
"What about college?" He glanced over her questioning. "I mean since you're having such great abilities as well as good degrees, do you want to waste such talent?"
"There are far more important things than that, but despite it, I'm sure it wouldn't be any problem with that." He lay on the chair even more. "As I said, nursery, even if he gets older kindergarten and I'm pretty sure it would be enough."
She nodded onto that, and he felt she was all convinced. There wasn't anything she could say against him now. She stared at her paper and scratched her head analyzing it whole. For unknown reasons, something felt odd. Was it maybe the way she kept staring at those papers? Almost like she wanted to found onto him anything. He tapped with his fingers onto the table, already anxious about the whole situation. Eventually, she exhaled. "I made a decision." His heart stopped- "I'm sorry but I cannot grant you permission." And broke.
He glanced over her troubled as well as sorrowful. "W-what? B-but I said everything! I don't understand."
"Listen. Everything you say makes perfect sense, but you're still forgetting one important thing, you can't predict everything." She looked over him seriously. "You would be all by yourself, there might be accidents happen, who would take care of him then? You don't have parents, any close family, or any partner. Who would take care of him when you couldn't?"
"I-I have friends, loyal friends. They-" He shallowed. "They would for sure!"
"They still have their lives. They couldn't help you every time." She glanced over his, now devastated, form. "I'm sorry, but maybe letting it go would be far better for both of you."
"Both of you?!" He likely snapped. "You're saying all of that likely you're sure something bad would have happened, but what if it didn't?! What if-"
"Stop it, right now!" She slammed her palms over the table. "That's my last words."
He stared at her, but his sorrow was slowly replaced by pure anger. "Yours just sending child onto orphanage just because of might happen?!" This time he slammed his palms against the table. When he saw her jump away as bigger than her male seemed to be only more and more aggressive he bit his lip and looked her eye in eye. "Let me ask, is there something I might do? Is it over? There is nothing I can convince you with?"
She looked at him likely offended now. "Obviously!"
"Alright." He took sight out of her, just so by next glance make her the coldest and the most furious glance he ever did. "You have no damn heart, you fucking-"
"Language!" Her eyes widened after that words of his. "You're still talking with a civil servant!"
"Bullshit! For me what you're doing is rather fucking joke than really being a civil servant." He took a rather deep breath. "Do you know what have you done now?"
"A saved child from a madman?!"
"You just send him onto one of the worst fates! You say something might happen, but you know what would for sure happen?!" He stared at her with a murder glance, she started sinking into her chair, already thinking through if she should call for help. "Have you ever been in an orphanage? Have you ever seen what's going on about there?!" Before she could respond he sharply added. "Of course, you weren't, such people as you, those civil servants as you call it, never actually cared about those like me. Do you think how it works out there? You think what, you would send him out there and after a mere moment he would find the family? You think it's like the blink of an eye?!" He stood up, still supporting himself by the table. "It's nothing like that!"
"B-but every week there are send willing parents-"
"And what!" He almost yelled at her, the table shook under the force of his palms. "As you named them, willing parents, there are three types of those. One of them, worst of all, are those whose doing it for money, for those programs which by adoption gave them money. Guess what are they doing with it? Drink and smoke! They bringing a child from pathology into another, even worse one!"
"You think orphanages are pathological?"
"Obviously." He crossed his arms now, still standing over her. "Adults are lacking, not caring about the fate of kids, causing some kids to feel abounded, reasoning violence around. It's for them like watching the TV show, who would survive most. I know that. I lived through that."
Her eyes still were focused on him, frightened that if she lost focus for a mere moment, likely predator he would jump onto her. "I didn't know-"
"Nothing surprising." He responded harshly. "The other two types are better, but still not enough. Second would be those, which are choosing, picky ones. They would take only those perfect, forgetting all of us deserved love. People are like that, always taking the best things, just to brag those it. Third is best because those care about making relation, they create those before choosing."
"It's not that bad, is it?"
His face straighten and it was enough for her to answer. "I was met with such type forth times in my lifetime. Eighteen years of experience and that's what it takes!" He yelled. "You see now?! You still think it's such a great decision you make?!"
"I have no choice. There are rules I have to look after."
"What about moral rules? About those, you forgot like the rest of that damn city council?!" He was close to her, she moved away. "You might think now, you're making a good decision, but I guarantee you, you're going to regret it. You will get to know life, and just then you will finally notice your mistake, but it would be too late as the life you destroyed is likely impossible to fix again."
"You think what, after that great speech of yours I'm just going to believe you would be better than you just described to me?" She glanced over him now confidently. "You think you would be able to take care of such a kid as him?! Disabled one nonetheless?!"
As an answer, he likely kicked his foot into the table, but Minden was surprised when she was met with the sound of metal against metal. She glanced underneath, his foot was shining metal-like. Her eyes widened as she glanced over at him. "I lived with such for whole my life." He finally breathed loudly as he sighed, finally likely breaking before her. "You know what is worst? You don't understand what you do because you weren't there! You weren't!" He tightened his eyes painfully. "You came to him like what? Once? To check if your charge isn't dead, that's all." His eyes watered, looked at her now devastated. "I was coming to him every day, I was thinking about him every moment. With that tiny, most innocent, and pure child I spend so much time that we created the strongest bond possible, but you don't understand that because you weren't there!" He sniffed loudly as his eyes became blurry. "You don't understand, but you're taking away from me someone with whose I created a bond I always wanted to have with my parents. I created with Henry a bond I won't be ever able to forget." He glanced over the floor as he always broke onto the table with his head against it.
She raised her arm towards him but flinched at the last moment. "I'm sorry, but I have to do that. I hope I could do something different."
"You can." He stood up straight now, she could see thick tears against his cheeks. "Do one favor for me, if you're sending him to that orphanage, don't forget about his existence. Don't be like all of those, which promised help, but didn't do anything more, please do it for me." He glanced over her sorrowfully. "Please."
Their conversation was interrupted as the waitress came towards their table, probably noticing the whole tension between them as well curious about it. "Are you ready to make your order?"
Immediately Tobias turned around and went towards the entrance. Minden sighed sadly as she glanced over her papers. "Thank you, I'm good."
With a loud bump, he closed the doors behind him and with rather a fast gait he walked in direction of his home. He felt terrible. He felt depressed, devastated and furious. Eventually, about halfway there when whole angry emotions were lost against this sad, he broke. He sat by the nearest bench, his palms covering his wet eyes. He cried terribly. He lost. He failed. He failed him.
"I'm so sorry Hiccup."
Minden's head was racing while walking towards the hospital once again. She didn't want to go there after what happened, but not because she didn't want to see that child, she felt terribly at blame, but had she another choice? She slowly pushed doors which with cracks opened for her. As she walked in, she was met with rather happy Atali, which was now checking on Hiccup already sleeping in his bassinet. At the feeling of a new presence, she turned to her, immediately saddened seeing another's one's troubling. "Minden, what happened?"
"I'm not in the mood if I had to be honest." She hardly sat by the chair, hitting her back on the chair as well as her head on a nearby table.
Atali rolled her eyes still keeping glancing at Hiccup. "I would never understand you. I would be rather happy if my charge, which was about to become an orphan, found itself a family."
Minden sighed. "I didn't get him permission." Atali's eyes widened as well as her mouth when she looked sharply at her. "I didn't have another choice! It was against rules!"
Atali was about to snap, but stopped herself last moment, breathing loudly. She took a glare at sleeping Hiccup once again before walking to her. "Against rules?! What was here against rules?"
"I don't know, maybe the fact he is eighteen? Maybe the fact he would be all alone with it? Maybe the fact he isn't prepared for worst?!"
Atali shook her head. "I can't believe these are your points, Minden!" She came towards her even closer, now standing by, bending over the table, the form of a younger woman. "You can't be serious Minden."
"I am serious!" She groaned. "First, they learn me to go by rules, now I'm supposed to dump all of them?!"
"No, you shouldn't. But there are rules which are more important than those city ones." Atali made eye contact as she crossed her arms. "Moral ones."
She chuckled. "He said something like that as well."
"Then he was right."
"He also snapped onto me."
"If I had to be honest, I'm not much surprised by that."
"So what now? Everything is my fault?! I just do my work!" She impacted her head into the table, in a mere moment after regretting it.
Atali supported her by placing her palm against her back. "There is work, but then there are morals as well as people." Atali sat by another chair, just before the young woman. "Minden, please, listen to me." As asked, she did as Minden glanced over her, much towards her unwillingness. Atali smiled. "You were always ambitious, always willing to do your job, but the problem is you're forgetting the job isn't only about that, but also about making it right, seeing all of the possibilities."
"Atali, but I'm seeing other possibilities!" She raised herself from the table. "In one of those, I'm going to lose my job, because I let teenagers adopt infants!" She snarled. "I wish I would already get that promotion, I wouldn't have to make those stupid decisions."
"These are really important decisions, Minden."
"I know, but I wanted to do something more than that!"
"At first you need to show you can do simpler work before you take yourself that hardest."
"And that's what I'm doing and you're against it!"
"Do you think by that one agreement you would have lost your dream promotion?" Atali sighed seeing Minden's embarrassment as she just confirmed it. "Minden, there are far more important things than a job."
"He said that as well."
"He is really smart then." Atali giggled, and Minden just rolled her eyes annoyed. "Have I ever told you how I'm dealing with my emotions around patients sometimes?" She shook her head. "Well, I'm sometimes getting much sickened patients, kids which are almost incurable. These are times they are ending dying because of it."
"Why you're saying that? What it has in common with my situation?"
"It seems to me similar. You see, I'm crying over every one of my patient's death, no matter how long I have known them. It has something in common with you because you're about to send a child to an orphanage and believe me, it wouldn't be a pleasant feeling. Knowledge, some child is about to live through such horribleness is terrible, but now think how would you feel knowing you had another choice."
"I guess by that another choice, you mean letting that teenager adopt him?"
"They have a really strong bond, Minden, I know that because I saw it." As she glanced over her, Minden didn't seem much convinced. Atali glanced around and her sight catch Hiccup's bassinet. "I have an idea what would change your mind." She took her by palm, despite another's unwillingness as she forced her to say by chair nearby it. "Look at him." She pointed to Hiccup.
Minden annoyed. "I saw him already. Poor boy, we all know that."
"Minden, not like that, no!" She sighed. "Just, look at him and think through all of the possibilities."
"I already did."
"You thought about it from your perspective, now do it from his." She grabbed her by the shoulders, forcing her closer to her tiny body. "Think through what would happen to him if you made a decision and if you didn't, just then decide finally."
Minden sighed. "What if I'm not much gold-hearted as you think? What if I'm more selfish than you think?"
Atali smiled at her softly. "You're not selfish, you're just lost, and as more experienced, my duty is to show you the right path." She hugged her slightly from back and both women were likely needing it. When she stopped Atali walked towards the entrance.
Minden surprised. "Atali, where you going?"
"I will leave you two alone now, it's supposed to be your decision." She grabbed the doors, but before leaving she glanced at Minded. "I'm sure you're going to make the right one." Afterward, she left, leaving the younger women by herself.
"What a bitch! I can't believe she has done that to you." James yelled at top of his lungs as both boys, he and Tobias, were standing in the kitchen of the older one. Hookfang took the slip from a glass which was poured a drink, immediately afterward offered it to his companion who refused it.
"If I have to be honest, one slip of it in that state and I'm about to become an alcoholic." He said as his arm covered his, uncomfortable about the whole situation, face.
"It's only a vine. After such a hard day, even you deserve one." He still insisted as he showed it before him.
Toothless didn't likely change his mind and moved it away from himself. "Hookfang, if I'm saying I don't want it, please, don't push it more."
"I'm sorry, I just wanted to help. You're looking more horrible than usual."
"Thanks, that helped a lot." He ironized as he rolled his eyes. Then he sighed, stroking with his fingers his forehead. "What a day."
"You mean that part in which you had to fight over that adoption permission, or maybe that one in which you weren't allowed into adopting Hiccup?"
"I guess both."
Hookfang snorted. "That's bad. I'm truly sorry for you, but I'm still not convinced why she didn't let you do so. You seemed to have good points."
Tobias breathed loudly. "She pointed out that there might happen something bad, because of which there wouldn't be no one to care for Hiccup."
"What about us?" Tobias glanced at him questioning. "I mean, your friends. Most importantly your best friend is known by the name Hookfang, the most loyal friend you could've dreamt of."
"Loyal? Are you sure you didn't mess something up here?"
James's eyes opened wide as well as his mouth. "I am loyal, probably even most loyal of everyone!" He throws his arms in the air.
"Like that one time, you screamed at me, because I got captain position?" Tobias smiled mockingly.
James annoyed. "Twins fault, they manipulated me."
"What about that one time I was angry about Sleuther and you were against me?"
"Your fault, you behaved like an idiot."
"What about-"
"Okay, that's enough!" Toothless raised his brows onto him, and James snarled. "Shut up."
Toothless chuckled, then likely saddened. "Back to the theme-" He stood before kitchen furniture. "-she said you wouldn't be always here for me, I guess she was right." He sighed. "As well as you were right back then."
Hookfang held onto his heart. "Toby, next time warn me before saying such words! I almost got a heart attack! What happened to you, something haunted you!" Then he smirked. "Not that I'm not agreeing with you."
Tobias shook his head. "Moron." He sighed. "I mean that one time when you warned me about adopting Hiccup."
James shrugged. "What do you mean? I'm pretty sure we already have told each other I was an idiot back then."
Toothless supported himself on the marble surface of the tabletop. "That's a problem." He exhaled. "You weren't."
James's eyes tightened thoughtfully. "Okay, now I'm totally confused, I was sure I was a total asshole."
"Maybe, but what you said was the truth. I was much pleased by the thought I could adopt Hiccup, I forgot to think what would happen if I failed." He covered his face. "And I did, because of which what you said was the truth. I should let that go when I had the chance."
Hookfang scratched his head. "Okay, first of all, I'm such astonished you're saying I was right about something. Mind recording it so I can set it as my alarm?"
Tobias chuckled. "That one was nice actually because it was a joke right?"
"Of course!" He chuckled as he pushed his phone back into his pocket. "I'm sometimes such fun I amaze even myself." As Tobias rolled his eyes at him James cleared his throat. "Back to the point-" He walked towards his friend as he patted another's back. "-Tobias I wasn't right. I know what I told you, now might be right, but then you tired. You didn't succeed, but you tried. It's not your fault all of that happened. You have done what you could've, it was only that bitch which had some brain problems."
Tobias smiled at him thankfully, then saddened. "I don't know, maybe it's really for the best. Maybe I wouldn't be a good father for him."
"What a damn talk, you would've been the best father! I mean-" He raised his chin as he started pointing out. "You're responsible, you love him so much and I'm pretty sure you would've been so protective over him that much if he ever would have had bullies-" He shook his head. "-I would have been scared for their fathers because they wouldn't have been alive afterward."
Tobias chuckled and smiled at Hookfang brightly. "Thanks, James, that's reassuring." He lowered his brows thoughtfully. "That's odd for you. What do you want?"
"I just wanted to make you happy after a hard day." He smiled innocently. "Let's say I returned a favor for yours giving up on the captain position."
Toothless smirked. "You would never do something for someone without any interest in it."
He glanced over him. "Well, someone learned me that way." Both laughed as from Tobias's pocket his phone started ringing. James pointed to it. "You're not going to pick it up?"
He sighed. "Now?" Hookfang glanced into him like on madman before the other one groaned. "Fine." He took it out as he clicked the green button and placed it against his ear. "Listen, I'm one that to knives now, so if you're again recommending me yours hovers, I'm going to kill myself, so think it through." James beside him facepalmed.
I-it's me. Minden.
"That doesn't change anything." He sighed. "Are you getting me to know we're going to see by the judge for offending a civil worker?"
A-actually I wanted to apologize.
He was surprised, rather took the phone even closer to him. "R-really?"
"Hey, Toby! Who is calling?" James waved his hand before his face, but he pushed it away, focused on the phone conversation.
I was selfish by making that decision, you were right. I thought by law, forgetting that there are people which are worst than you and still can get themselves kids and-
"Minden, everything sounds great, but please to the point."
Very well. I'm calling you to inform you I once again checked your documentation in which I couldn't find anything suspicious and by which I can only inform you that I'm giving you my permission. Congratulations, you just adopted young Henry.
His heart stopped and sounds around him blurred as everything else. He was rather stunned and stood in the same position. James was shaking him from the unconscious, but he likely couldn't register anything else than one thought. He did it. He did it.
Hello? Is anyone there?
