White walls everywhere accompanied by a dim blue light, this was a regular hospital room but for her it was a nightmare, for her it was the most horrible place that could exist. The sounds of machine beeping haunting her head, the violence of the scientist leaving physical and mental scars forever on her.
Every time she saw the walls of that room every time she saw the scientists and their tranquilizer guns it was the panic in her head, the voices inside getting louder and louder telling her to kill the scientists or flee as she was pleading for these same voices to stop. ''Calm her down, will you ! Just don't kill her.'' the head scientist said as his goon grabbed her forcefully punching her hard in the stomach he grabbed her and put her on the bed strapping her to it so she couldn't move ''No ! Stop it please ! No !''
Wraith woke up with a start. She was sweating hard, her breath was uneven, she was trying to steady herself but bits of her nightmare flashed, making her groan and plead for it to stop. ''Mon amour calme toi !'' Another voice pleaded trying to get the void walker back down on earth. Wraith felt the arm wrapping themselves around her waist and lips on her neck, kissing the skin softly. Of course she woke up her girlfriend after all Wattson never was a heavy sleeper as others might think otherwise she was the only one aware of that. ''I'm sorry Natalie didn't mean to wake you up.'' Wraith said rubbing her face with a groan ''it's ok Renee I'm always here if you need me.''
A small smile formed itself on her face but somehow feeling the warmth of her electric lover dug some insecurities from deep inside herself. Wraith felt weak and undeserving of the love she received daily. ''I don't deserve your love.'' she whispered her face buried in her lover's neck. ''You know it's not true Renee. Je t'aime de tout mon cœur.'' She said and the raven haired woman embraced the blond tighter. ''I don't know who I am, all these voices in my head, all these nightmares… I'm scared Natalie.'' Wattson kissed her on her forehead softly. ''Don't be scared I'm here and I'll always be by your side'' now she was rubbing Wraith's back in small circles trying to soothe her.
It was a common thing for Wattson to be awakened by her girlfriend's panic attack due to horrible nightmares from her past. The electric genius would always be there for her, always attentive to her pleas and crying, sure on the outside Wraith looked cold, distant and pretty much a tough girl, a fighter at heart.
The truth is that she is mentally scarred for life and very fragile, it's a side of her she only shows when she's alone or with Wattson.
The two of them had started dating shortly after the blond's arrival to the apex games; they were often seen in the same squad and from there a strong friendship blossomed making for a beautiful relationship afterwards. The easygoing and friendly persona of the engineer was like a lit fireplace for Wraith to warm up to after a raging snow storm.
Another thing Wraith loved was when Wattson spoke with her native language from Solace it was oddly charming and soothing at the same time. She could remember all the time it would make for a very good turn on when they were intimate and very warm when she was having an episode.
She felt all kinds of emotions with her sure the ghost was still here, her quest for answers still up in the air and the voices in her head still loud… but once in a while she could enjoy the warmth of Natalie Paquette, the greatest lover she could ever hope for. The only one who could lull her back to sleep and replace the nightmares with dreams.
''Fais de beau rêve mon amour.''