Muramatsu: All For Us
I'm the one who's always being loyal to the friend group, especially Terasaka. Man, I barely get any time to myself because I'm always worried about the rest of the gang. "Yk, I've always felt the need to fit in.", Yoshida told me when we were sitting down on my bed yesterday, "I know it's pretty stupid, but idk, I guess maybe it's because I used to get bullied in grade school." "You used to get bullied?" "Yea, it's because I was a nice and meek person back then you know? Circumstances change you tho. When I got into junior high, I branded myself differently." "How so?" "You already know dude, I became a sort of bully, but you know, hurt people hurt people and all that. I also started doing drugs." "Yea I know, that's the reason you got sent to class e, Asano caught you smoking weed, and told the principal." "Mhm. I just, it's hard you know, staying clean." "Have you relapsed?" He looked down at the ground, and twiddled his thumb, "Mhm." I sighed, "When?" "You know that girl from class c who had a party last month?" "Yea." "I was invited, and went to the party. A group of people from c class brought drugs, I'm guessing it was the popular kids. Anyways, I saw them with the drugs and...yea." "What kind?" "What do you mean?" "Like... Weed? Coke? Shrooms? Acid? Heroin? Molly? Opioids? Oxys? Or was it just lean, or what?" "Coke. Also, why would we be doing fucking heroin at a junior high girl's party?" "I don't know, and you did drugs with them?" "Yea." "Okay, when last did you do drugs?" "Last week.", he said, he looked like he was lying so I looked directly into his eyes, "Yesterday.", he still looked like he was lying so I stared more into his soul. He sighed, he looked like he was telling the truth, "This morning." I sighed, "Is it bad?" "Is what bad?" "Your addiction." "Now I wouldn't call it an addiction, I could stop anytime I wanted to." "You just said it was hard for you to stay clean." He stared into my eyes, his eyes filled with anger and venom. He then looked away, and unexpectedly started laughing. "I'm just worried for you dude.", I told him. "We'll stop worrying, I'm fine.", he said in slight laughter. "Oh my God, are you high right now?!" "Mmm yea.", he replied with a slight grin. "So you lied to me?!" "What do you mean?" "You told me the last time you did drugs was this morning, but in reality it was 5-10 minutes ago?" "30.", he sighed happily laying on the floor. "HOW ARE YOU JUST SITTING AND SMILING LIKE NOTHINGS WRONG WITH YOU DOING DRUGS AT MY HOUSE?!" "I'm sorry.", he said still smiling. "No you're not. You need help." "You know?" "What?" He said getting up while pushing my hair back behind my ear, "You look cute when you get all mad." I blushed a little. I was really mad at him right now, but I really wanted to kiss him, especially since I like him, but I couldn't take advantage of him in an intoxicated state. He started caressing my thigh. I wanted to fuck him, but dammit I was mad at him, and I couldn't take advantage of him because he's on drugs, most likely molly. "Get off of me.", I told him. "Man, you commanding me like that's got me horny." I looked down and saw his boner. "You just saw my boner right?", he whispered in my ear, "I want you to get me off. I want you to fuck me." Shit. I got hard too. "Dude, go home. I don't want to take advantage of you when you're in an intoxicated state." He got up from my bed. "Damn, talk about a boner killer." He left. I don't even know how to feel right now, relieved he left, angry he won't seek help, hot and bothered cause he just tried to fuck me, or lonely because I just made him leave. This shit happens a lot. Not Yoshida tryna fuck me, but my friends always coming to me for advice or comfort or to be their fucking therapist. The reason I don't ever tell them I want a break from hearing about their problems is because I feel like I'm doing it for the best. I'm helping my friends with their problems. I'm taking it all for them. Taking it all for us.