Wow hi! Even though Glee has been over for like over five years I always hated what the writers did to Quinn, she deserved so much more. Her storyline and the things that she had been struggling with should have been explored so much more! Plus I have always thought that her and Sam were soulmates (I mean Ken and Barbie!), so this is my kind of AU/rewrite of Quinn on Glee (aka how I wanted things for her to be). This story starts up during The Sue Sylvester Shuffle and continues on throughout the series so there will be time jumps and all that fun stuff. Please enjoy and this is my first multi-chapter story so of course comment comment comment on what you think!
The Sue Sylvester Shuffle
She thinks that she loves him, and it absolutely terrifies her. This isn't a part of her plan to get back on top. All Sam was supposed to be was armcandy, he was supposed to make her look good while she took the reins again. He was supposed to distract everyone from the fact that she had gotten pregnant the year before. And it was working in her favour, until she fell in love with him.
He was so much sweeter than she expected him to be. She thought he would just be another typical football jock trying to get into her pants, but oh how she was wrong. Even before they officially started dating, Sam never let her carry her own books to class, he always let her choose the movie they were planning on watching (even if the most of time she caved and picked Avatar for the hundredth time because she could never say no to his puppy dog face), and of course there's the promise ring. Sam Evans was a true romantic at heart and as much as Quinn tried to deny it, she loved it.
She's at her locker when Finn confronts her. She wants to roll her eyes at how predictable it is. She, Brittany, and Santana have been singing backup to him and Rachel ever since they joined Glee club and now that they've quit they're all of a sudden important.
She ignores the butterflies she gets inside when Sam defends her. She convinces herself that she's just hungry, so she feels light headed. She pretends not to notice the smile she has on her face when she leaves Finn standing at her locker with Sam's arm wrapped around her shoulders.
She bites her lip while she stares at the cannon they're supposed to use at regionals, she wonders if it could actually kill Brittnay, or if someone would stop Coach before they would have the chance to find out. Just as she turns to head onto the bus she hears Finn.
"Hey!" She's almost disappointed that it isn't Sam standing there, convincing her not to do this, that it doesn't matter if she's a Cheerio or not, that he'd still love her. She knows he would support her decision regardless, but part of her had wished he would have told her that she made the wrong decision, not Finn.
"What're you doing here?" She asks, even though she already knows the answer.
"Stopping you guys from going to Sue's Regionals competition. You guys got to come to the game with me." She fights the urge to roll her eyes, he should know that their first choice will always be Glee, and in another life she would have made the right choice, but he saw what happened to the football guys, and they were still on the team, they weren't even permanent members of the Glee club. He should know her well enough to know that to her, a bad reputation is better than no reputation at all.
"Haven't you been paying attention? If we're not Cheerios, we're nothing." She knows it sounds so pathetically cliche, and somewhat shallow, but high school is survival of the fittest. And if anyone would know that, it would be Finn, she knows that's why he auditioned for the Cheerios right after her, and that's why he prayed to his sandwich that he would get his quarterback position back.
"You think that, but it's not true. You joined Cheerios to be popular, but you joined Glee Club because you loved it. Sue doesn't care about you guys. She's fine killing Brittany. Tell me honestly. If you didn't think it would hurt your reputation, which would you choose?" Brittany answers what they're all thinking and Finn takes a step closer to her. "I know you, and you don't think you are, but you're strong enough to do this."
Finn's words make her heart feel warm, and she tells him okay because that's all she's been waiting for, someone to push her to make the right decision. She had hoped it would have been Sam, but part of her is glad that it was Finn. She doesn't pay attention to Santana's answer, she just continues to think about what Finn had said. She feels like she's floating for the rest of their conversation. She knows she tells Coach Sue that she quits, she knows that she walks away, but she can't stop staring at Finn.
Sam winks at her when he sees her on the sidelines for the rest of the half. She blames the butterflies on the conversation she had with Finn earlier. She taught Sam to do his own zombie makeup earlier during the week, so she doesn't see him while they are all getting ready for halftime.
She watches Sam score the winning touchdown and convinces herself that she's cheering just as loudly as everyone else. She makes eye contact with Finn after the game ends, and pretends that the arms that wrap around her waist and spin her around doesn't make her feel any differently.
She doesn't know why she meets up with Finn after the game. She was just planning on thanking him for making her realize that Glee club is where she truly belongs. She doesn't know why she tells him that his actions from this week reminded her of why she loved him. Half of her is screaming at her to stop, that she has a good thing going with Sam and she doesn't want to ruin it. But this is Quinn, the queen of self-destruction.
So she kisses Finn because falling in love with Sam makes her feel like she's losing herself. And maybe she never stopped loving Finn.
She tells herself the nausea she feels immediately afterwards is because she's exhausted from today's events, not because she just ruined the best thing that happened to her.
Silly Love Songs
Part of her thinks Finn is a jerk for saying that the kissing booth is for the Glee club when they both know he's just trying to do it to get her to kiss him. Which she is not going to be doing again. She hates herself for cheating on Sam.
She's not an idiot, she can see Finn staring at her in the hallways. Sometimes she gives him lusty looks back just for fun, other times she looks away immediately. She hasn't answered any of his text messages and has not spoken to him in person since she kissed him, isn't he getting the hint? She made a mistake.
But the other part of her? Kind of likes the attention. Before she had gotten pregnant, guys had always wanted her. Even when she was dating Finn, but now they all think she's used goods or something. It's nice to have that attention back.
But regardless of how she feels, she will not be cheating on Sam again. She has sworn off cheating forever. Besides, Sam is really good to her. When Finn had found out she had cheated on him with Puck she felt awful, but then she had learned he had cheated on her as well with Rachel. Sam would never do something like that.
Sam brought her a rose and a stuffed bear holding a heart this morning, and she cheated on him less than twenty-four hours before. She's disgusted with herself for it. So there is no way she will be giving Finn a stupid dollar to kiss him again. Why would he think she would? The proceeds are partially going to her anyways. She wants to roll her eyes at Finn saying that she is the only girl that won't kiss him, is he an idiot? Neither of them see Tina or Brittnay waltzing up to his stupid booth waving a dollar between their fingers. Because they have boyfriends, and Finn somehow still respects their relationships, but doesn't have the decency to do the same for hers. The longer this day drags on, the more she's regretting kissing him. If she knew it was going to stroke his ego this much, she wouldn't have told Sam not to wait for her after the game.
She doesn't know how the idea that her not wanting to kiss Finn means that she's cheated with him on Sam gets into Sam's head. It makes her sick that she has to lie to him, and she hopes his confusion about the records will help him forget what they were talking about, or will cut the conversation short. Hearing how he thinks everyone thinks he's dumb breaks her heart because he's not wrong, she did kiss Finn, and it's the reason why she won't kiss him now, but she can't tell Sam that.
She hates that he has her all figured out. Because if he had said all that to her earlier she would have never kissed Finn in the first place. So she tells him she'll kiss Finn again to get the both of them off her back. The sooner she gets this over with the sooner she can pretend like none of it ever happened.
She slaps a dollar on his stupid booth to cover the fact that she can feel her heartbeat in her ears. She doesn't want to do this, she doesn't want to risk losing Sam again, but she knows Finn, she knows he won't stop trying until he gets what he wants. She wants to roll her eyes at how he calls Sam a pervert, Sam's right, he is her boyfriend. And this stupid kiss isn't going to change that.
But it does. It makes her feel something different, something different from what she feels with Sam, and she can't figure out what it is. So she runs back to him and tells him to meet her in the auditorium so she can figure it out.
She wakes up feeling giddy because it's Valentine's Day. Valentine's Day is actually her favourite holiday. Most people would never guess because she puts on this Queen Bitch attitude and she has cheated on both of her boyfriends, but Quinn actually loves romance.
She wears red and meets Sam at his locker. He's just as giddy as she is, but she knows it's not so much because it's Valentine's Day but because in exchange for allowing her to pick a romantic comedy for the movie they are going to watch tonight, she agreed to watch Avatar with him again over the weekend.
He gives her roses and she doesn't bother covering up the gigantic smile it puts on her face. She kisses him for a little longer than usual because it's Valentine's Day and she won't see him until Glee rehearsal afterschool. She puts the roses in her locker and then heads off to her first class.
She forgets about Finn until she sees him in Glee club. He has a weird look on his face and it makes her smirk. Part of her thinks that meeting up with Finn will be stupid and Sam doesn't deserve it, the other part needs to know what these feelings are.
So she goes to church after rehearsal and tries to convince herself that she can live without knowing why she has been feeling the way she has about Finn. But she can't. So she drives to the school and goes to the auditorium even though she feels awful the entire way there.
She hates how cocky Finn is being. It makes him such a hypocrite. He was devastated when she had cheated on him with Puck last year, and he was so angry at Rachel for cheating on him recently, and now he's trying to convince her to cheat on Sam with him.
"You know this is making me a cheater, the thing that hurt you so badly that it made you break up with me. And Rachel." She hopes that right there makes him realize that they shouldn't be doing this. That he is becoming the person who hurt him so badly. But he doesn't.
"You know why it hurt so bad when you guys cheated on me? 'Cause it meant you didn't love me."
She tells him that he's wrong, she made a stupid decision that ended up biting her in the ass, but she still loved Finn. At least she thinks that she did. And even if she didn't, she knows that Rachel did. But he continues.
"No. At least not enough to not want to hurt me, and that's the thing about cheating. When you really love someone, you'd do anything to keep them safe."
She wants to shove all of that back in his face. He had cheated on her with Rachel too, so did he not love her enough? The whole reason why she's doing this is to keep Sam safe, so she can figure out what these feelings mean and go back to him and move on from all of this.
"I love Sam." He knows that she doesn't have enough strength to stop this, so she hopes that Finn will gain some morals and realize how wrong all of this. But of course, he doesn't.
"No, you don't. Or else you wouldn't have come here."
Well he has a point, if she truly loved Sam she wouldn't have told Finn to meet up with her. If she truly loved Sam she wouldn't have kissed Finn in the first place. But she knows she feels something for Sam, something stronger than just attraction. And she is done trying to deny it or pretend like it's not there.
"Fine. I think I love him. No matter what happens between us, I'm not going
to break up with Sam until I know for sure one way or another."
"Okay."
She knows that this is her last chance to leave. But she can't, not yet. She needs more answers.
"Do you think you can love two people at one time?"
"Not totally. You have to choose, eventually."
She knows he's just saying that to get her to kiss him. But it works, because she kisses him anyway.
She gets mono, of course she gets mono. And of course Santana was the one to figure out that she was cheating on Sam and gave it to them. She hears Sam say it was just a peck, and she wants so badly for him just to take her home so she can think of some sort of excuse to get herself out of this, but she doesn't have enough energy.
While she's sitting in the nurse's office she decides that she's not doing this anymore. This has to be some sort of sign that she needs to stop cheating. She starts to think her thoughts out loud.
"I've cheated twice in my life. The first time, I got pregnant. The second time, I got mono. I think the universe is trying to tell me something."
"Maybe. But I think Sam likes you enough to believe whatever story you told him." She wants to correct Finn that Sam loves her and that's why he would believe her, but she doesn't feel like getting into that with him and she's too pissed off at Santana.
"Santana is such a bitch."
Before she can rant more the nurse comes in.
"It looks like mono to me. I called your mothers. You can hang here till they pick you up, but no kissing."
"I'm not done with us yet."
She rolls her eyes. Doesn't Finn see that this is a sign for them to be done?
"You have to stop. Nothing can happen between us, until I figure out what's going on with me and Sam and you figure out what's going on with you and Rachel."
She's not dumb. She can tell that there's still unfinished business between Finn and Rachel. She's clearly not over him, and when Finn isn't looking at her, his eyes are glued to Rachel.
"Nothing's going on with me and Rachel."
She rolls her eyes again at how Finn has never been able to sort any of his crap out.
"All I know is that when I don't catch you staring at me, you're staring at her."
Comeback
She blinks a few times to make sure she's heard him clearly. Painting coasters? That's his ideal Friday night date? Maybe she is better off choosing Finn. She thought he was kidding. She almost wants to tell him she thinks it's stupid. Really Sam? Painting coasters? What are we? Twelve? But he's looking at her with those puppy dog eyes that he knows she can never say no to so she licks her lips before telling him she doesn't think she has anything else going on. Does she really want to spend her Friday nights doing stuff like this? She loves Sam, or at least she's ninety-nine percent sure she does, but can she really handle someone who is so different from her?
She cannot believe her eyes when Sam walks into the choir room with a new set of bangs wearing a purple zip-up hoodie. She thought he was kidding last night when he told her about his one-man-band over the phone. But now that he's standing in front of her talking about Justin Bieber and how he relates to their generation, all she can do is cringe.
But then he starts singing to her. And she immediately melts. All the second hand embarrassment and fear for his sanity has washed away as she watches him serenade her. Any thoughts of doubt for the relationship or Finn leaves her mind as she watches Sam in awe, watches him completely confident and completely in love with her. She's an idiot for not being able to realize it before, Sam is the only one for her.
She can feel Finn staring holes into the back of her head, but she doesn't care. She can see it now loud and clear, there was never any choice, it was always Sam. So she tells him after Glee rehearsal to come to her house later on so they can continue watching the Star Wars movies and genuinely smiles at his overjoyed reaction.
She wonders if it's evil, lying to him about the stupid gumball and her kiss with Finn. She wonders if she told him the truth, if he would be able to forgive her. She knows that he can tell that somethings off because of the way she keeps giving him side glances while the movie is playing. And because she hasn't made one single comment about a flaw she has noticed so far. It's kind of their thing, Sam points out the flaws and how unrealistic things are in the movies she chooses and she does the same to his choices.
It's not until the characters are in some space battle near the end of the movie where he pauses it. She looks at him in confusion, even though she knows he can tell somethings bugging her, but she thinks that maybe if she acts clueless he'll think that he was wrong.
"Hey is everything okay?" All she feels is guilt when he looks at her with genuine concern. She really doesn't deserve Sam, he treats her so perfectly, and look at what she's done to him.
The word yes is on the tip of her tongue, but then she hesitates. This is a perfect opportunity to come clean, tell him the truth before he hears some stupid rumour that will come to bite her in the ass later on. Maybe if she tells him the truth the universe will stop trying to punish her for all of her mistakes.
"Sam I need to tell you something." Her heart is beating a mile a minute and there are tears pricking at the ends of her eyes. The worst that can happen is that he'll get really mad. Maybe he'll storm out, but they'll eventually talk about it. And then they'll be able to move on.
"You know you can tell me anything." God she's going to Hell. He's so perfect and here she is kissing Finn fucking Hudson behind his back. The millions of excuses she has prepared are on the tip of her tongue. I didn't know what I was thinking. I needed to figure out my feelings so I could realize that you were the one for me. He pressured me.
"I-" but then she looks into his eyes. And he's looking at her like he's worried about her. Like no he just wants her to be okay. And nobody has looked at her in that way in such a long time. And she can't risk losing it. And if that makes her a terrible person? Then so be it, but she can't lose Sam. So she chickens out. "I really love your band."
If he notices her voice break at the end, he doesn't comment on it. He just chuckles and kisses the side of her head before going to play the movie. She bites her bottom lip hard enough to draw blood to keep herself from making any noise as the tears roll down her cheeks.
She laughs when Artie, Mike, and Puck all walk in behind Sam in different coloured zip-ups and new bangs. She laughs harder when she sees Puckerman wearing a wig. But then Sam is dedicating his performance to her and she's in a daze once more. Sam is either the most cruel punishment she has ever recieved or the sweetest gift.
He looks so handsome up there on that stage and it reminds her all over again why she fell in love with him. So she tells Finn she can't do Friday and hopes he gets the hint that whatever was between them is no more, she chooses Sam.
But of course, Finn does not give up easily. He follows her like a creep in the halls and she resists the urge to roll her eyes.
"Sams an artist Finn." She ignores his dig about Sam wanting to take her to Color Me Mine. She finds it so ironic that Finn was practically begging Sam to join the Glee club at the beginning of the school year, immediately friending the new guy, and now he's completely turned on him and is saying all this behind his back. She seriously wants to tell him off. But she can't risk other people overhearing and running to Sam to tell him the true story about her and Finn.
"I told you I needed time to figure out what I was gonna do with Sam, and I did. I choose him." She wants to punch Finn for thinking she was only choosing Sam because of his band. Yes, that was a part of the reason, but only because The Justin Bieber Experience made her realize her true feelings for him.
"Look. I thought it was gonna be stupid too, but he was so shameless. He just got up there and owned it. It was sexy. I'm sorry, Finn. But like I said, Sam's an artist and at the end of the day. It really turns me on."
Even though she can't tell him off, she's content with the look on his face as she leaves him standing there alone in the hall.
She's really glad her and Santana were able to get over that stupid fight at the beginning of the school year. Although she would never admit it, Santana is her best friend and she loves the girl to death. So she compliments Santana back on her outfit just after she compliments hers.
She can't believe Rachel and her constant need for everything to be about her. Can't she just let Brittnay have this one thing? Brittany's harmless and has never done anything intentionally cruel to Rachel. Everything has always been because either her or Santana has made her. She can't believe Rachel would do this to someone as sweet as Brittnay.
She goes to meet Sam at her locker so she can see if she can use one of his shirts as a smock for their date on Friday. She knows he won't mind, she could ask him to cut off one of his fingers for her and he would do it no questions asked, but she kind of wants an excuse to talk to him and she is really excited for their date.
But then he tells her that he's not her boyfriend and her heart stops. She hasn't had a panic attack since two months after her relationship started with Sam, but standing there in front of him listening to him tell her he knows she cheated on her with Finn, she feels like she can't breathe. Everything inside of her is screaming at her to just say something but she can't. She opens her mouth and no words come out. Her ears are ringing so loud and she genuinely feels like she could pass out at any second.
But then she does say something, even if it's as pathetic as I want to be with you Sam, at least it's something.
But then he's talking about Santana, and her feelings of heartache turn into rage. Santana? Of course Santana had something to do with this.
"Since when does Santana tell you what to do?"
Her knees almost give out when he tells her that it's because they are now dating. So her heart is now broken for two reasons: she just lost what is probably the best thing that has ever happened to her, and her best friend is the one that took it from her.
She thinks it's karma, having to stare at them in the choir room, her legs propped up onto his. It makes her physically ill how Santana's touching his hair in a way that was only supposed to be reserved for her. She's the first one out of the room when practice ends. She doesn't even care that people will probably be able to tell that she's devastated as she runs out of the room as quickly as she can so she can go cry in her car.
It's not until she's finished her shower (where she mostly cried until the water became too cold to handle) when she gets an idea. Sam wants to break her heart? Fine, she'll just break his right back. So she grabs her phone and sends Finn a text. The reality of it all makes her so nauseous that she barely has enough time to make it back to her bathroom before she empties herself into her toilet bowl. But she needs to make Sam realize breaking up with her was a mistake somehow. The response Finn sends makes her break down all over again.
Yeah, I am still free Friday.