Hi! So I know Quinn doesn't perform The First Time I Ever Saw Your Face with the glee girls in Yes/No, but I feel like she should have and would have fit in perfectly, so that's why I added her in this time! Anywaysss, enjoy chapter eight!
Extraordinary Merry Christmas
She loves the holidays, and even though this is going to be the first one she is spending single, she's still super excited. They decide to give Mercedes the solo as they decorate the choir room. Quinn is on present wrapping duty with Rachel and Tina. She dances with Rory when all over the couples are dancing together, seeing Mercedes and Sam together can't even bring her mood down.
But then she sees the mistletoe and she gets a little nostalgic, remembering how Sam had surprised her with mistletoe in the hallway last year and kissed her against the lockers. She smiles to cover up her pain.
Sam tells her in the hallway after Glee Club about his idea to sort of take Rory under his wing because he knows how it feels to miss your family because they're not here. She tells him she thinks it's a great idea and is sure Rory would appreciate it.
He tells her he's going to be Rory's Christmas Sponsor when he sees her next in the halls during their next break between classes and she laughs and tells him that she loves it. She also tells him that if he needs any ideas she knows a few things they can do around town that she used to do with her family back when they were all still a family.
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She feels bad for Sam after he leaves the auditorium by himself. So she texts him asking him where he's collecting donations and meets him there after they're all finished in the auditorium.
He gives her an extra set of bells and she thanks him, lopping an arm that isn't holding the bells around his because she's freezing and it's an excuse to be close to him. "I agree with what you were saying to Artie, Christmas should be a little sad." He scoffs and asks her what she could possibly be sad about. It stings, but she knows he's just upset. "This is the first Christmas I'm spending alone, my mom is going to visit Frannie so I'm here by myself."
She watches as the guilt spreads across his face. "Shit Quinn, I'm sorry I didn't think-" she shakes her head, causing him to stop talking because it's clear she doesn't want to discuss it. "Do you want to drive down with me and Rory to Kentucky and spend Christmas with my family?"
She smiles and squeezes his arm, but tells him "no it's okay, I'm going to hang out with Rachel since she doesn't celebrate Christmas."
"Are you sure Q? I know how much you love Christmas." Her heart flutters at the fact that he remembers, but she nods.
"I'll be fine, my mom and I are planning to do something anyway when she comes back." He looks unconvinced, but lets it go and they change the subject on what he should get Stacy and his mom for Christmas instead.
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She tells Sam about how the Glee Club was supposed to perform at the homeless shelter for Sue and the both of them decide to bow out of the Christmas special to volunteer.
She gets there after him and stands in the entrance, watching him joke around with some of the volunteers. She grins as he spins one of the little girls around. She jumps about two feet in the air when Sue appears behind her shouting, "Q! What are you doing? Grab your apron and get it going!"
Sam looks up at, finally noticing her and she blushes. She goes and stands beside him, helping him pour food onto people's plates. She calls him out the fourth time she catches him staring at her, asking him "what?"
He blushes and tells her, "You look like you're doing a lot better."
"I think I was just stuck focusing on the stuff that I didn't have and none of the stuff that was good. Stuff in the future." She doesn't know what it is about Sam that just makes her want to pour her heart out to him, but she feels like she can tell him anything. She hopes that feeling never goes away.
"I'm glad you turned it around. You deserve good things Quinn." She wants to tell him I don't care about having good things, I just want you. But she knows now isn't the time, not when he still has unfinished business with Mercedes.
She watches as a grin spreads across Sam's face when he sees the Glee Club walk into the shelter. It makes her happy to see him joyed. Santana gives her a look when she goes to give her a hug and Quinn shakes her head to indicate nothing happened. She ended up having to tell Santana the whole saga about her feelings for Sam after she had blurted out that she still loved him in the bathroom that day at school.
She takes her apron off and stands beside Rachel near Rory and Sam while they perform Do They Know It's Christmas?
She helps Rachel distribute presents after their performance and helps Sue clean up as soon as everyone has been fed. Her and Sam are some of the last few to leave and they walk in a comfortable silence towards the parking lot.
She wishes him goodnight before heading to her car, but he stops her before she can go too far. "Hey Q, hold on a sec." She turns around, eyebrows raised as he places a small wrapped box in her hands. She looks at him questionably as she unwraps the box and opens it to find the promise ring he gave her sitting in it.
She gasps, "Sam, I can't." She goes to give him the box back, but he puts his glove-covered hands overtop of hers and pushes the box back towards her.
"It belongs to you Quinn, I have no reason to keep it. I know you put it back in my locker last year," He trails off and she feels embarrassed knowing the reason why. "But I want you to have it." She's shocked, when she gave him his Christmas gift last week (a new video game that he had kept going on about) she had told him she hadn't expected anything in return.
"Sam seriously, give it to Stacy or something, I can't keep it." She hasn't stopped staring at it since she opened the box, it still looks the same as it did last year.
"As I said Q, I want you to have it. Merry Christmas." He leans forward and kisses her cheek before heading towards his truck. She smiles at the ring, taking one of her mittens off and placing it on her finger.
Yes/No
She's sitting outside with Santana when Mercedes and the girls come over talking about Mercedes' relationship with Sam over the summer. Quinn's face falls and Santana reaches over, squeezing her hand.
She loves Mercedes, but she really doesn't want to hear about her and Sam's relationship. Isn't Mercedes still dating Shane anyways? She snickers when Santana kicks Mercedes and Rachel off the table. She laughs along with Tina and Brittnay at all the details when really she's dying on the inside.
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She cheers with Brittnay and Santana when Mr. Schue announces that he's going to propose to Ms. Pillsbury. It puts her in a great mood until she sees Sam chase after Mercedes after Glee Club.
Ever since Sam joined the God Squad to get closer to Mercedes, Quinn has been stuck third-wheeling with the two of them. Normally she doesn't mind third-wheeling with couples, she loves Blaine and Kurt. And hanging out with Tina and Mike is awesome, but hanging out with the guy you're in love with and the girl he's trying to get with? Not the best feeling.
She thinks he's joking when he tells her he joined the synchronized swimming team, until he shows her his robe.
"Sam, you can't be serious. You love football, why can't you just wait another year until tryouts again?" She asks him while they walk down the hallway together.
"I want to get her back, Quinn. So if an athlete is what she wants, an athlete is what I'll be." She should have known this would have been about Mercedes.
She's tried her hardest to not be bitter about it, and so far? She feels like she's been doing a good job, but it is really difficult when he's practically shoving the fact that he wants Mercedes back down her throat. So she kind of snaps at him.
"She has a boyfriend Sam." She covers it up with a laugh so it doesn't look like she's upset about it, but it just comes off like she's insane.
He doesn't appreciate her comment because he tells her, "yeah well so did you and you still chose Finn."
Ouch, that stung. She doesn't get why he's being so defensive. If he knows firsthand how it feels then why is he choosing to make Shane feel the same way?
But maybe it's not about Shane or Mercedes at all, maybe this is still about last year, so she asks him, "Is that what this is about? You're trying to punish me?"
He laughs at her like she's crazy and she wishes she could take it back. She wishes that she just hadn't said anything at all. Of course it's not about her, why would she even think that. Sam is clearly over her and everything that happened between them.
"I don't know if you've noticed Quinn, but not everything is about you." He says coldly.
She decides that's where she's going to draw the line, and she doesn't really want him to see that she's made him cry. So she sniffles quietly to keep in her tears and storms down the hall, ignoring him calling after her.
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She watches him get slushied, and she's about to leave as soon as she sees Mercedes walk over, she's decided that she's punished herself enough for today. But then she hears Shane and sighs, knowing Mercedes will probably leave with him. Once she runs around she sees that her suspicions were correct, so she grabs his arm and pulls him towards the girls washroom, muttering, "come on."
He throws his bag on the floor and she helps him out of his flannel. She shakes it out to get the slushie pieces out and he runs his hands through his hair. As soon as she's done with his flannel, she goes to help him with his hair, taking the towel and running it under hot water.
"I'm getting a weird sense of deja vu right now." He chuckles. She ignores him. Just because she's willing to help him out doesn't mean she's still not upset about what he said to her.
He must get the hint because he sighs and says "I'm sorry."
She's still hurt and thinks she deserves more than two words, but she also doesn't want to fight with him so she tells him "it's fine" in a little bit of a harsh tone.
He turns off the tap and grabs her wrists turning her towards him, forcing her to look up at him. "I shouldn't have snapped at you and said what I said, I'm sorry."
He's looking at her with those puppy dog eyes he knows she can't say no too so she sighs and pushes his shoulder. "I hate you."
He grins and tells her, "good. I would've had to tickle forgiveness out of you otherwise." while pinching her hips.
She yelps at tells him to stop it while laughing. "Sam seriously stop, you are such a child."
This causes him to laugh and pick up his bag and flannel, heading towards her slowly pinching his fingers together like a crab.
She laughs and runs out of the washroom while shouting at him, "Sam you're so weird!" laughing as he chases after her.
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Tina helps her get ready for the number the girls are going to perform for Mr. Schue. She helps her pick out a black dress and curls her hair for her. She squeals with Tina and Rachel before they're about to perform to get their nerves and excitement out.
She takes a seat on one of the stools and thinks about Sam as she sings her solo lines, remembering the first time she saw him when he ran into the choir room last year, the way that she had felt, but apparently she wasn't the only one who was thinking about him.
She follows the other girls into the girls bathroom where Mercedes ran off to, she listens as Mercedes tells them that she didn't think of Shane, she thought of Sam. Her heart drops as Rachel suggests that maybe the spark between Mercedes and Sam might still be there.
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Mr. Schue loves Sam's idea of a synchronized swimming proposal. They rehearse for a couple of days and then Mr. Schue decides they're ready.
She gets ready with all the glee girls and sits to the side with Sugar as the rest of the girls are asking Mercedes about Sam. Sugar asks her why she isn't over there and Quinn lies and tells her it's because she's nervous about their performance.
For tradition, Tina does her hair and Quinn does her makeup. They all head outside and she tries not to look at Sam and Mercedes talking in the corner.
She swims to the edge and takes Tina's hand as they watch Mr. Schue propose. They cheer after they hear Ms. Pillsbury say yes. She's too happy to be upset over the fact that she saw Mercedes and Sam hug out of the corner of her eye.
Michael
She drives Sam back to the Hudson-Hummels because Kurt has to drive Blaine to the hospital and Sam had gotten a ride to the parking garage with them, not seeing the need to drive himself there.
He slams the car door as soon as he gets into the passenger's seat. She flinches and after a few minutes of awkward silence she says, "please don't break my car." while chuckling softly.
"This is such bullshit! And I just know that they're going to get away with this crap, it's garbage." If she didn't know Sam better, she would be afraid at how angry he is, but this is what Sam does, he protects the people he cares about.
She takes one hand off of the steering wheel to grab one of his. "Look I know it sucks, but there's really nothing we can do except tell Mr. Schue."
She rolls her eyes when he mumbles "like that will do anything." under her breath.
"What are you doing to do then Sam? Beat Sebastian up? Look what happened when you went after Karofsky last year." She doesn't want him to do anything stupid. Sebastian is smarter than Karofsky, and he's a wild card. There's no telling what he'll do, and if he's willing to do this to an ex-warbler who knows how far he'll go with the rest of them. She doesn't want Sam hurting himself.
When they get to the Hudson-Hummel's he thanks her for the ride and wishes her goodnight. She's exhausted when she gets home, falling asleep immediately after sending Kurt a text to send her updates on Blaine.
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She gets her Yale letter the next morning in the mail. Her mom brings it to her before she heads to school and tells her to open it. As if she didn't have enough to be anxious about today, she also has to perform her Michael Jackson number in Glee Club later on.
She tells her mom to open it for her and read her what it says because she can't get her hands to stop shaking. Her heart is beating like a mile a minute.
"Quinnie you got in!" She feels like she can't breathe. She got into Yale? There's no way she got into Yale, why would they want her?
"What? There's no way." she says more to herself than her mom.
Her mom seems to think she's talking to her though because she shoves the acceptance letter in her face and says "no look Quinnie! Look!"
She takes the letter in between her shaking hands and reads the first few words. Ms. Fabray, we are pleased to inform you she stops reading there because she already has her answer. "Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit."
Her mother just laughs when usually she would scold her for cursing. They both cry a little bit, but then Quinn has to go. Before she leaves she promises her mom that the two of them will celebrate later tonight.
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She tells Mr. Schue when she sees him in the hallway once she gets to school because she's itching to tell someone. He hugs her and congratulates her, telling her that he's so proud of her.
He asks her if she's told anyone else and she tells him no, she's planning to tell them after her Michael number in Glee Club.
Right before Glee Club Rachel finds her in the washroom, telling her that she needs her advice about an adult problem. The first thought that comes to Quinn's mind is, holy shit she's pregnant. So she asks Rachel just that.
"Well uhm, Finn asked me to marry him." She gasps because that was not what she was expecting at all. Rachel and Finn are soulmates, everyone knows that. Wherever the two of them end up, they will end up together. But Quinn also knows Rachel, she's ambitious and determined. She has these big dreams and goals and a teenage marriage? Will only get in her way.
So she's honest with Rachel, she tells her that she can't.
She knows Rachel came to her because Rachel wants to say no, but she needs someone else to tell her it's a bad idea first. That's why she came to Quinn and not Kurt. But she also knows Rachel won't admit that.
So she gives Rachel her Yale acceptance letter, telling her that she got in early admissions.
Rachel hugs her and tells her, "Quinn that's amazing. That's so great."
She kicks herself when she remembers Rachel has already been stressing about NYADA, she probably thinks Quinn is tiring to rub her acceptance in her face.
So she tells Rachel, "my point being is that I've dated Finn, Puck, Sam. Even thought I loved some of them," Inside her head she thinks, I'm still in love with one of them. "But by the time the snow falls in New Haven next winter, I won't know why." She hopes what she is telling is the truth, that as soon as she leaves this place she'll be able to forget about every mistake she's ever made, she'll finally be able to get over the past. She'll finally be able to move on.
She tells Rachel that she has an amazing life ahead of her, full of all these goals and dreams and that as hard as it may be, if she wants everything she's ever dreamed of, she's going to have to say goodbye.
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She's too happy to even be nervous about her performance for Glee Club. As soon as she finishes, she stays at the front this time and doesn't rush back to her seat.
Finn tells her that her performance was incredible and Mr. Schue urges her to share her news with the rest of the Glee Club.
"I got into Yale!" The praise she gets from her fellow members doesn't even make her embarrassed this time, she's too giddy. "I wanted to thank you guys, because without each and every one of you this would have never happened. You supported me and loved me through all the drama, and that's why I'm standing here. I wasted so much time hating myself for the stupid mistakes that I made, but the truth is that without all of those, I would have never dreamed this to be my future. I was the only one standing in the way of myself. You can't change your past, but you can let go and start your future."
She says the majority of her speech to Rachel because she wants Rachel to realize that she is capable of so many great things, with or without Finn. She knows Finn, she knows that he's probably just afraid to lose Rachel because she's planning to go to New York and he has no idea what he wants to do, and that isn't fair.
She hugs everyone, squeezes Kurt's hand as he tells her how proud he is and he's definitely taking her shopping before she leaves because she needs a new wardrobe for New Haven.
She lets out a few tears as everyone tells her how proud of her they are. She's a little afraid that Rachel might be upset with her because she didn't come up with the rest of the group to congratulate her, but she hopes Rachel will understand eventually.
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She gets pulled into someone as she's walking down the hallway and laughs as soon as she realizes it's Sam.
"Yale are you kidding me? Why didn't you tell me you applied?" He looks ecstatic and it makes her heart flutter, knowing it's all for her.
"I didn't know if I was going to get in." she shrugs while biting her lip.
He shakes his head while still smiling and pulls her in for another hug. "I am so proud of you Quinn, you're going to kill it out there. I will admit that it's going to suck not having you here. I am going to miss you like crazy."
She tells him she's going to miss him too. But she knows it won't hurt that much, she's gotten used to the feeling of missing him. After all she misses him all the time, and he's right here.
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She tries to hang out with Kurt as much as she can while Blaine is in the hospital awaiting his surgery. They have the same study hall together so they research Yale when they don't have any homework or studying to do. She's allowed him to take her on two shopping sprees, and they've hung out after school watching Broadway musicals she's never heard of three times this week. She's running out of ideas.
Luckily Tina suggests a girls night on Friday. Rachel's dads agree to hold it in their basement as long as there is no alcohol this time. She's one of the first ones there, with only Kurt and Tina being the only others to arrive before her. She helps Tina set up the snacks as Kurt and Rachel bicker about the perfect movies to watch.
After about three movies Santana suggests a gossiping session, and of course the first topic of discussion is Mercedes and Sam. She wonders if she can head to the washroom again to avoid hearing about it, but she already went ten minutes ago so she decides against it.
"I don't know guys, I'm still with Shane, but I can't deny that I still have feelings for Sam." Quinn sips on her lemonade so she doesn't end up saying something she will regret later. Tina asks Mercedes how he's been doing without his family and Mercedes tells them he's been okay, but he misses his brother, "Stephan I think." It's Stevie! Quinn shouts inside her head. He has a sister too, Stacy! And I know for a fact he misses her more because she's his baby sister. It annoys her that Mercedes doesn't even know anything about Sam, how much can she possibly feel for him if she doesn't even know his brother's name?
As soon as the topic switches to Rachel's first time with Finn, she excuses herself saying she needs a refill. She heads over to the drink table, placing both hands on top of it after putting her cup down and taking a deep breath.
"You okay?" She jumps and turns around, finding Kurt looking at her concerned.
"Yeah I'm fine, just need a refill." It's a lie and they both know it. He can tell that she doesn't exactly enjoy Mercedes talking about her feelings for the guy Quinn is in love with.
"You never ended up telling him, did you?" She shakes her head and he gives her a pity look, then stands beside her and wraps an arm around her shoulders.
"I mean I tried, but it came out all wrong and he thought I was just using him to get Beth back. And once I found enough courage to try again, I heard about him and Mercedes." She sighs and wipes a stray tear from her cheek. "Look at how happy she is when she talks about him, I can't do that to them."
He nods in understanding. "You're a really good friend Quinn." She smiles at him and he gives her arm a squeeze. "If it's meant to be it will be." he tells her before heading back to the group.
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Sam texts her once she gets home that night to Facetime him. She raises an eyebrow at the message, but goes to her computer and clicks the call icon beside his name. They haven't Facetimed much since he's been back since there isn't really a need for it anymore, choosing to spend more time together in person instead.
"Quinn I need your help!" He blurts out as soon as the call connects.
"With what?" she asks. She's sitting on her bed, facing her computer trying to take off her boots while he talks.
"I want to do something special for Mercedes for Michaels week." She drops her boot and it falls to the floor with a dull thud. She feels her throat starting to close. He wants her help to do something special for Mercedes? Advice she can give, and she can handle hearing little details about their relationship, but helping him do special things for Mercedes? She doesn't know if her heart will be able to take it.
She asks him why he doesn't just ask Finn and he rolls his eyes. "When have you ever known Finn to be romantic? C'mon Q please?"
She sighs and tells him okay, turning around to put her boots into the far end of her closet so he won't see the few tears escape her eyes.
She tells him what she thinks he should do and he tells her that her idea is perfect, asking her how she came up with it. She lies and tells him she just said what she thought Mercedes would like, when in reality it's what she hopes he would have done for her had the roles been reversed.
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She makes her way to the auditorium when she sees him setting up. He looks so excited while he talks to the band, telling them to be ready to perform Human Nature. She watches everything from where she watched the Glee Club perform You Can't Stop The Beat earlier in the year. She doesn't know why she does it, she knows it will only make her upset.
She leaves the auditorium in tears after watching Sam and Mercedes kiss and tries to run straight to the girls washroom without anyone seeing her. Unfortunately luck is not on her side today as Brittnay stops her.
"Quinn? Are you okay?" She shakes her head and runs past her, heading to the washroom. She gets a text from Santana a few minutes later asking her if she's okay and that Brittnay said she saw her crying. She ignores the message and slips into one of the stalls.
"Quinn Fabray I swear to God you better come out of whatever stall you're hiding in right now." She knows she shouldn't even be surprised when she hears Santana come into the bathroom a few minutes later.
She groans and opens the door, stepping passed Santana and heading straight to the mirrors.
"Quinn what the hell happened?" Santana asks her, putting a hand on her shoulder.
She sighs and grabs some paper towel to wipe away the mascara that had run down her cheeks. "He kissed her."
She can see Santana look at her in pity and it just makes her feel worse. "Oh Q."
"I know I have so much to be grateful for, but it hurts so bad seeing them together, Santana. I would give anything to go back to last year and just not mess anything up."
She doesn't try to push Santana away as she grabs her and pulls her into a hug, just starts crying again. "I know Q, I know."