Let it Rain, a final fantasy x fanfic

Let it Rain

It was a bit of a gloomy day. Warm, but gloomy nonetheless. I was happy though. My deepest wish had come true. Tidus was back. He was…home. And even the dark clouds rolling in from the sea, blanketing Luca in a melancholy veil, wasn't enough to dampen my spirits.

The past few days had seemed to go by in a blur. I'd barely set foot on the sands of Besaid to celebrate saving Spira again, and my beloved's return, when Tidus and I were swarmed by all the cheering locals.

I was overwhelmed by the warm reception. And Tidus was, too, considering how he'd been fighting back joyful tears almost the entire time. It was good to be home. But there was no better feeling than being reunited with the man I loved.

Of course I wasn't the only one who'd missed Tidus. All of our friends were overjoyed to see him as well, especially Wakka, who just wouldn't leave his side until Lulu finally gave him a subtle hint with a nod in my direction.

We'd spent the whole night talking on the beach about all that'd happened in the past two years along with my latest adventure. It was wonderful. And having his lips on mine again…well, it was magnificent.

The next day we'd left with Rikku and Paine to visit a few places my beloved had wanted to see again. Kilika had been our first stop. And I'll never forget the look of amazement on Tidus' face when he'd laid eyes on the islands newly constructed village. He was in complete awe of how quickly it'd been rebuilt and expanded on after Sin's attack.

I had to remind him it'd been over two years, which in turn made me feel guilty, because of how much he'd been struggling to reconcile with that fact. Thankfully, it hadn't deflated him any. Tidus had been quite resilient on my pilgrimage and had managed to adapt to what had been a foreign world to him during that time. So, I wasn't too worried as long as his spirits remained high.

Mount Gagazet was next on our itinerary. Mainly because I'd wanted to thank Kimahri for handing over that sphere he'd found to Rikku over two years ago and show him what'd ultimately resulted from it. If it weren't for him, I'm not so sure things would've turned out so well for me…or Spira for that matter. Needless to say, our visit had been a delightful one.

It was after our brief stop at the Zanarkand Ruins when we'd decided to have Rikku and Brother drop us off in Luca. The Gullwings still had sphere's to hunt. And Tidus and I…well, we wanted to rediscover the rest of Spira again…together, alone.

Luca was having a carnival that week. And Tidus couldn't wait to visit all the attractions. We'd spend most of the day playing games at the vendors, eating junk food, and now, standing in line to ride the ferris-wheel. I'd never been on one before and was excited to experience it for the first time with the man I loved.

"This is so exciting!"

Tidus chuckled at my enthusiasm. "You act like you've never been on one before."

"Well… I haven't."

"Seriously!?" When I confirmed with a nod, the surprise on his face eased into a devilish grin. "Then we gotta make it memorable."

Knowing Tidus the way I did, memorable would probably involve our lips locking in a passionate embrace. My stomach fluttered. Now, I was even more eager for this ride!

The line went fairly quick. And before I knew it the operator was waving us over.

Tidus and I took a seat in one of the metal gondolas then strapped in as the operator lowered the bar securely in front of us.

Scooting closer, my beloved threw an arm around my shoulders and flashed me another one of those famous grins I adored. "Y'know…when I was a kid and rode on one of these in Zanarkand, the older kids would often swing the gondola they were in with their dates and say, 'when the boat is a rockin' don't come kn-kn-knockin'."

I couldn't help but expel a nervous laugh at the innuendo. And I was trying to understand why. Maybe it was because it was the first time Tidus had made a sexual reference around me. We may have made-out a few times since he came back, but those times were gentle and sweet and…well, more romantic than anything else.

Judging from how quickly Tidus' smile had faded, he must've sensed the tinge of discomfort that'd settled over me.

"Sorry. Sometimes I don't think about what comes outta my mouth, y'know?"

"No, no, it's fine," I insisted.

"You sure?"

"Mm…" I gave a firm nod accompanied by a sweet smile, hoping he'd change the subject.

It's not that I hadn't thought about making love to Tidus before. In fact, I'd fantasized quite a bit about it since my pilgrimage, which often led to feelings of sadness when I'd thought about how it could never happen because of my duties back then, and later on when he was…gone. But now, he was back. And the prospect of it actually happening sometime during our trip was very likely, which not only made me excited, but a little nervous, too.

"Wow!" he exclaimed, eyes wide in amazement. "You can see almost all of Luca up here!"

When I followed his gaze, I too, became immersed in the view as we began to descend in the gondola. "It's so…pretty."

"Sure is." Then, his finger slid under my chin, tilting my head to meet his mischievous grin. "But you're way prettier." The corners of his lips receded and his eyelids drooped into a smouldering look. "You're…absolutely beautiful."

My cheeks flushed at his compliment. Bashful, I went to look away, but was stopped by Tidus' gentle caress on the side of my face. He then leaned in, capturing my lips in a slow, tender kiss that had me tingling all over.

Those sweet lips were so soft and so…wonderful. I'd never grow tired of them. The kiss deepened and our tongues entwined in a sensual dance. A rush of heat sailed through my veins. And I suddenly felt very…warm.

After several long moments of indulging in each other, I drew back and inhaled deeply.

"Sorry…" He nervously chuckled. "Guess I got carried away."

"Oh, no that was… That was perfect."

There was a twinkle in his eye that made my heart skip a beat. "I really love you, Yuna. I hope you know that."

"Mm… I love you, too. So very much."

"I'm glad we're doing this—traveling all of Spira again, together."

"It'll be so different this time, not having all the peril and sorrow of the pilgrimage looming over us."

"Well, didn't you just get to experience that? Y'know…traveling with Rikku and Paine all these months?"

"Yes but… There was still the whole thing with Shuyin and Vegnagun. And most of all…you weren't by my side."

His gloved hand lingered on my cheek, softly stroking the skin with his thumb. "I know… I'm sorry. When I promised I'd stay with you always, I didn't know what would happen to me until we reached the summit on Gagazet."

"I… I understand why you didn't say anything. You were afraid I'd quit my pilgrimage, weren't you?"

"Nah… You wouldn't have done that." Tidus leaned back with a thoughtful smile and took my hand in his. "Lose focus and try to find another way was what I was more worried about. And I knew there wasn't one. I didn't wanna put you in that position."

Surprised at just how well my beloved knew me, I bit back a smirk and agreed with a nod. "I suppose you're right. That does seem like something I would've done."

"See! Things worked out for the best!" he indicated with a toothy grin. "And we're together now in spite of it all. We're finally able to focus on…us."

"Yes…us."

The farris-wheel slowed to a stop. And the operator below began to let the passengers out of the gondolas one-by-one.

"Sorry folks, ride's closed!" the operator shouted to all the people still in line, earning several disappointed groans.

We were three gondolas away when Tidus garnered my attention with a gentle squeeze of my hand.

"So, whaddaya wanna do next?"

My beloved had been eager to retrace the steps we'd taken on my pilgrimage. So, I was certain he'd want to head to the Mi'ihan Highroad. But the sky was growing more menacing by the second. It would rain soon. And I didn't want to get caught in the storm.

"We should probably take cover. It's going to rain."

"Aww…" He gave an exaggerated pout. "I was really hoping to visit the chocobo corrals."

"I'm not so sure we'd make it there in time."

Our gondola stopped in front of the operator, cutting our conversation short. The bar was released and we quickly vacated our seats to follow the path leading back onto the carnival grounds.

"We could go to the tavern and wait out the storm there," I suggested, glancing over at my beloved who seemed a little disappointed from how his eyes remained downcast as we headed out of the crowded area.

"Mm…I guess." Tidus slowed to a stop and looked up at the dark clouds with a disgruntled frown. Then, suddenly, his face brightened. "Y'know…the travel lodge isn't really that far from here. I think we can beat the storm there! Just a feeling I got."

"You really want to visit the chocobo corral, today, don't you?"

"What can I say?" He shrugged, flashing me his best grin. "You never forget your first chocobo ride."

Tidus' boyish charm had always been my weakness. And I found myself giving into it along with his infectious smile. "Okay, we'll go."

"Alright!" he cheered, pumping a fist into the air. "C'mon, let's hurry!" My beloved impatiently grabbed me by the hand and rushed toward the path leading up to the Highroad. When we reached the bottom of the steps leading out of Luca, he stopped and gazed over at the spot where we'd shared a special, yet awkward, moment on my pilgrimage. "Hey Yuna…" A goofy grin formed on his lips. "Wanna practice smiling, again?"

I should've known. "Um… It'll cost you."

Thunder rumbled in the distance, interrupting our playful interlude. I was already regretting my decision. The storm was close. And if we didn't get indoors somewhere soon, we'd almost certainly get caught in it.

"Tidus, I really think we should head back and take cover."

"Nah, we can still make it. That storm is still a ways out."

"I'm not so sure about—Argh!" My beloved had grasped my hand once again and began tugging me along before I could voice my concern. I loved this man, but his insistence on the matter was really starting to get to me.

Once we reached the top of the stairs and started down the main road, an unmanned chocobo bounded out from behind a bush then began sprinting aimlessly along the path.

"Whoa!" Tidus balked. "This big guy looks spooked!"

"He must've gotten loose somehow," I mentioned, rubbing a thoughtful finger over my lips. "And it probably senses the storm coming."

"Well then, we should return him." Tidus tossed a smug grin my way. "Told ya we'd get to the corral in time!"

Folding my arms, I returned his grin with a look of warning. "You're not a chocobo trainer. And neither am, I. He's frightened. How do you propose calming him enough to where we can mount him?"

"I had to race with these several times, remember?"

"This isn't the same."

"We'll see." Tidus cautiously approached the big, yellow bird and tried to soothe it with some calming words, which only served to literally ruffle the chocobo's feathers.

Another clap of thunder rumbled overhead. This wasn't going to end well.

"Tidus, we need to head back."

"And leave this poor guy out in the storm alone!?"

As much as I didn't want to admit it, he was right. "We're going to get caught in this storm as well, you know."

"Not if I can help it." My beloved then leapt into the chocobo's path, grabbed it by the reins, and fought to steady it from fleeing. "Whoa! Easy there, fella." Petting the creature's yellow feathers, Tidus continued to coo at the chocobo in an effort to soothe it. And oddly enough, it seemed to be working this time around. "That's it… We're not gonna hurt you. We're gonna help you get back to the corral. That is, if you allow us to ride you. Whaddaya say? Think we can do that?"

Kweh!

The chocobo had surprisingly calmed to where Tidus was finally able to mount the bird and direct it over to where I was standing.

"C'mon Yuna, hop on!"

Extending a hand out to me, I accepted his gesture and climbed up behind him on the saddle, wrapping my arms around his waist.

"Hang on tight, okay?"

I tightened my grip and pressed my body up against his back, wary of the ride ahead.

"Yah!"

The chocobo took off, racing down the Highroad at breakneck speed.

Lightning flashed in the darkened sky followed by a loud boom of thunder. I then groaned, knowing what would come next.

Drip… Drip… Drop…

"Yah! C'mon boy, we're almost there," Tidus encouraged the chocobo. "Just a little further."

The raindrops began to accumulate, pelting against my exposed skin and dampening the cotton material of my gunner outfit. Thankfully, the travel lodge was in sight. But that hadn't stopped the inevitable from happening.

Just then, the sky opened up and a torrential downpour ensued, reducing our visibility, which resulted in the chocobo slowing down.

"C'mon, don't quit on me now! Just a little further to the left!"

"How can you see anything!?" I hollered over the rain and the howling wind.

"Trust me, Yuna. That's it! Right here, boy!"

Finally, the travel lodge came into view. And Tidus managed to direct the chocobo over to the doors where we were greeted by Clasko, who'd just happened to come out of the inn at that moment.

"Oh, thank goodness you found him!" the young, chocobo breeder expressed with great relief. "I've been so worried."

Swinging his leg over the saddle, Tidus dismounted then reached up to grip my waist and helped me down.

"Lady Yuna, Sir Tidus," he addressed with a curt bow, "you have my gratitude."

"Hey, anytime! We couldn't let him stay out in this."

"I'll get him safely into the stables," Clasko insisted. "You two should head inside and out of this storm."

"Yes, that would be nice," I answered with some irritation in my voice, and Tidus noticed as much from the way his expression fell.

Pushing open the door, I stepped inside the lodge and headed over to the counter to get us a room so we could dry off. I won't lie. Tidus' insistence on going there and ignoring my warnings of the storm had me quite angry. We were sopping wet from head to toe, looking like a couple of drowned rats. I wasn't impressed at all.

"Lady Yuna, it's good to see you, again," Rin greeted me with a friendly smile, gaze then falling on my beloved as he joined me over at the counter with his blitz boots squeaking against the tile from all the rain. "I see the rumors are true. It's good to have you back, Sir Tidus."

"Thanks."

"That storm is quite intense. It's expected to last until morning. May I suggest getting a room for the evening? That way you two can dry off and get some rest."

"Yes, please."

Reaching under the desk, Rin retrieved a key and set it onto the counter. "Due to the storm, our rooms have filled up quickly. We only have one left. I trust you two will be comfortable sharing? If not, I can—"

"No, it's fine, really," I insisted with a wave of my hand. "We're…together, so…"

Rin's face brightened. "I see the rumors are true about that as well. After bringing the Eternal Calm, you both deserve to be happy. You're in room seven down the hall on the right. If you need anything, or get hungry, you can contact me or one the staff on hand through the CommSphere inside. Enjoy your stay."

"Thank you." Swiping the key off the counter, I headed down the corridor to the right with Tidus slinking behind me.

"You're angry at me, aren't ya?"

I shivered from the cold, drenched clothes clinging to my body then cast a sharp glance over my shoulder at him. "A little."

"I'm sorry. I really thought we'd beat the storm here."

Stopping at the door to our room, I unlocked it then released a dejected sigh. "I just wish you would've trusted my judgment. I'm not the same girl you journeyed with on the pilgrimage, you know."

"Yeah… I know." The disappointment on his face made my stomach knot. I wasn't sure what to make of it. And that frightened me.

Stepping inside the room, I flipped on the lights and surveyed my surroundings. The interior was quite cozy with warm, autumn-colored walls and décor. There were two wooden chairs on opposite sides of a small, round dining-table, which was located near a door leading to what I assumed was the bathroom.

The next thing I noticed was a modest, wooden dresser pushed up against the wall beside a window with heavy curtains drawn closed. Then, my gaze flitted over to the focal point of every room at an inn—the bed.

It was the size of at least two twin ones pushed together, making it quite big. Fluffy pillows were neatly arranged near the wooden headboard with two matching nightstands guarding its frame. The color of the bedding reminded me of the sunset I'd seen there on my pilgrimage almost three years ago. And I couldn't help but smile at the memory.

Tidus and I hadn't shared a bed as of yet. And the thought of it made my stomach flutter. On the Celsius, we'd slept in the cabin quarters together, but the beds were only big enough for one person to comfortably sleep on. And we were never alone there either. Well…not for very long, anyway.

Tonight, would be different though. We'd not only be sharing a bed, but we'd be all alone in this room, together. I hadn't really thought about the implications until Rin had mentioned only one room being available. I suppose I should've considered it more. But sharing that room didn't mean something would happen. And I wasn't sure if I was more worried about something happening between us, or not happening, to be honest.

My eyes then fell on the bear-skinned rug lain out in front of a large, stone fireplace that Tidus was crouched in front of, busy lighting the flint with one of the matches provided on top.

The flames finally roared to life, crackling against the logs as my beloved set the grill back into place. He then rose to his feet and looked at me with some uncertainty.

"Yuna… I'm sorry I didn't listen to you earlier. You were right about the storm."

"It's… It's alright. I'm over it." For the most part, anyway.

"I don't like you being mad at me."

"I don't like it either. But I suppose this stuff is expected in…a relationship."

"Yeah… I guess you're right."

Lighting flashed behind the honey-colored curtains and a loud crack of thunder followed, echoing around us.

The way he'd reacted when I'd first mentioned how I'd changed was still plaguing me. So I decided to voice my concerns, even if I was nervous of his answer.

"Um… Can I ask you something?"

"Shoot."

"Does it bother you how much I've changed?"

Seeming uneasy about my question, Tidus shifted his stance and folded his arms over his chest. "Look, don't get me wrong. I love how you've become more confident and playful. It's just… I guess I'm worried that our time apart may have…" He paused then shook his head, dismissing whatever he'd been thinking. "Never mind. It's stupid."

"But I do mind. Do you…still feel the same way about me?"

Tidus breathed a laugh, and my stomach flopped, unsure what that'd meant. "Yuna, I love you. If anything, my feelings for you have grown. I'm just afraid that you…" he paused once more, brow creasing with worry this time, "that you might not feel the same way about me, anymore. That you're just biding time to let me down easy."

Honestly, I hadn't expected that response. Especially after all I'd told him the night he returned. "You know how hard these past two years have been for me. I'd never once thought about being with anyone else. I love you. When I say that, I mean it."

"Told ya it was stupid," he mumbled, lowering his gaze to the rug.

"It's not stupid. I was… I was worried about the same thing. We were apart for two years. And people change."

Suddenly, his eyes met mine, and they were glossed over with emotion. "That may be true, but my love for you hasn't."

Those words not only provided me with the affirmation I'd so desperately needed but made my heart soar to new heights.

"My feelings haven't changed either. I love you. I want to be with you. And only you."

A bright smile bloomed on his lips and his arms finally relaxed at his side. "I, uh… I'd give ya a big hug and a kiss, but I'm afraid the amount of water that would come out of our clothes might flood the place."

I laughed and slowly shook my head at his quirky sentiment. Some things really haven't changed.

"I'm going to find a towel and dry off."

"Okay. I'll do the same after you're done." He then sat down in front of the fireplace and sprawled out on the bear-skinned rug, leaning back on his hands as he sighed in content.

Feeling more at ease after our conversation, I headed into the bathroom and shut the door, delighted to discover a white, silk robe hanging off the hook behind it. At least now I could change out of my soaked gunner outfit.

I took off my holster and carefully set it onto the counter beside the sink then proceeded to strip down and dry off with a towel from the rack.

Once I was finished, I slipped into the silk robe then used the hair-dryer provided on the counter, which actually had styling attachments hooked onto the end. What luck! The Al-Bhed had always been so innovative. Now, my hair wouldn't be a tangled mess when I went back out.

The process hadn't taken long at all. And when I was done, I stood in front of the mirror, head slightly tilted to the side as I inspected my reflection.

I was completely naked underneath the robe. And I had to wonder if I was comfortable enough to venture out wearing nothing but the thin, silk material. What would Tidus think? And how would I feel about sharing a bed with him while wearing practically nothing?

A soft knock startled me out of my troubled thoughts.

"Yuna…?" my beloved's concerned voice came from the other side of the door.

"Y-yes?"

"I hate to rush you, but I kinda have to pee."

"Sorry, I'll…be right out." Well, it was no use procrastinating any longer. This would have to do…for now.

Inhaling deeply, I opened the door, ready to brave his reaction.

But I received none at all as he pushed past me in a hurry and shut the door behind. For a moment, I was disappointed—offended even. Then I thought about it some more and realized that maybe he'd just really needed to go that badly.

Giving my head a shake, I retreated over to the bed and propped myself up on the pillows, fidgeting with the silk robe, and fretting over any assets of mine being visible.

After a few minutes, Tidus emerged from the bathroom, and my heart stilled. All those toned muscles underneath that tanned skin had me mesmerized. I'd seen his bare chest before, but I'd never seen him in only a pair of boxers.

He'd normally slept with a t-shirt on in the Celsius. And I wasn't sure if it was due to the cooler temperature set inside at night or because of the lack of privacy in the cabin quarters.

A familiar flush warmed my cheeks. Then, I tentatively met his affectionate gaze and bit down on my lower lip, curious about what he was thinking at that moment.

"So much for his-and-her robes, huh?" Tidus tossed me a wry smile and made his way over to the nightstand to turn on the oil-lamp. "Guess whoever was here last decided to take it as a parting gift." Chuckling softly at the predicament, he switched off the main lights in the room and returned to the bed. "You hungry at all?"

"N-no, I'm… I'm fine."

"Yeah, eating all that junk food made me feel kinda sick to tell ya the truth." Climbing underneath the comforter, Tidus settled in a spot next to me on his side and propped himself up on an elbow. "You warm or something?"

My muscles tensed. "No. Why?"

"I just thought you'd join me under here."

Oh, that's what he'd meant. "I, uh…" Don't sound nervous, I silently chided myself. "I didn't think you were that tired."

"I didn't think so either. We've been out at that carnival all day and I guess I'm more zonked than I thought. But if you're not, we can always stay up and talk. Just don't get mad at me if I pass out on ya."

"Do you find me that boring?"

His lips curved into a teasing grin. "Just when you go on about sphere break."

"That's only because you don't understand the game." I giggled.

"Nah, I've just never been into games like that. I'm a jock, remember?"

"You seemed to enjoy the games at the carnival."

"Those were actually fun!"

"And sphere break, isn't?" I retorted.

"No way!"

"Then what's your favorite game to play other than Blitzball?"

"That's not an actual sport?"

"Mm…"

"Hmm…" He rubbed his chin in thought before breaking into a huge grin. "Flirting!"

"That's not a game." I giggled once more.

"It can be."

We stared at each other for a long moment, my palms growing damp as I wondered what would happen next, if anything.

Tidus continued to hold my gaze, his playful expression sobering into something much more serious. "Be honest with me. Do I make you…uncomfortable?"

"What—no! Why would you ask that?"

"I mean all this. Being alone and sharing a bed together," he clarified. "Does it make you uncomfortable?"

Unprepared for such a question, I released a sharp puff of air and lowered my gaze. Honestly, I was a bit nervous. But I was hesitant to voice my concerns. I didn't want things to become…awkward.

"I don't ever wantcha to be uncomfortable around me, Yuna. And I know we've never talked about it, but…I'd never take advantage of you in a situation like this, or pressure you into something you're not ready for. I love you. The last thing I wanna do is screw things up between us."

My eyes met his, and I could see the sincerity swirling in them. This man was so thoughtful and loving and… Was it wrong for me to want him to take advantage of me, just then?

"Yuna…you believe me, right?"

"Y-yes. I know you'd never do that. It's just… Well, it's something that couples do, you know?"

"Yeah, when they're ready for that step."

"And are you…ready for that step?" I couldn't believe I'd asked that question, but I was curious of his answer.

Breathing a laugh, Tidus poked the inside of his lower lip with his tongue and nervously rubbed the back of his neck. "Uh… You see, this isn't just about me. It's about us. It doesn't matter if I am. If you're not then we're not ready, y'know? I don't mind waiting."

So in other words, he was ready. Which brought me to my next question that I wasn't so sure I'd want to know the answer to. But I asked it anyway in an indirect manner.

"I suppose you've had experience with this sort of thing back in your Zanarkand?"

An incredulous cackle left his lips. He then pressed them tightly together, seeming reluctant to answer.

"Is that really important?"

"It is to me," I insisted.

With a resigned sigh, Tidus looked me in the eye and hesitantly confessed, "I, uh… I had a few flings in the past—nothing serious. Sex isn't complicated though. Making love, however, is a different story. And I've yet to experience that."

"I see…" My stomach coiled at his admission. I wasn't surprised by it though. I'd always assumed he'd been intimate before. But hearing him confirm it made it very real and hard to ignore. The thought of Tidus with other girls had me feeling a little disheartened and…jealous.

It may have been in his past, but it bothered me for some reason. He did say that he hadn't made love before. So, I suppose there was a difference. I, on the other hand, had no experience with this sort of thing. And until Tidus came into my life, I hadn't had any romantic feelings for anyone. I was experiencing all of this for the first time…with him.

"I never had a girlfriend back in Zanarkand, if that helps any? I didn't have the time or the desire to be committed to anyone. Blitz and my friends took up most of my time there. You're the only girl who was able to steal my heart, Yuna. And I mean that. I've never felt this way about anyone before."

The sincerity in his voice had touched me in a profound way. It was then when I realized Tidus and I were both each other's first loves. And that'd helped to ease the uncertainty brewing inside my chest.

"Now…" His eyes sparkled with mirth. "I get to ask you a personal question."

Unsure what he had in mind, I bit down on my lower lip and answered with some hesitancy, "Um…okay."

"Before you saw Jyscal's sphere, you were planning on marrying Seymour to 'make Spira happy'," he emphasized with a bit of disdain, "were you ready back then to consummate that marriage?"

Nothing could've ever prepared me for that question. And I honestly didn't know how to respond. "I, um… I suppose I never really gave it much thought back then."

Tidus' brow shot up in surprise. "Seriously!? What didya think was gonna happen on your wedding night?"

"It wasn't meant to be a traditional marriage," I refuted, shooting him a pointed look. "It was only for show. And you know that. So, I suppose I hadn't considered that scenario. I expected to just continue on my pilgrimage right after like nothing happened."

"Look, I know he just wanted to use you to become the next Sin, but…" Tidus' face pinched with distaste. "I saw how he looked at you back then with those twisted bedroom eyes. He would've expected something that night, y'know?"

Our conversation had taken an unexpected turn, leaving my stomach in knots. And I didn't want to have it anymore. The mere thought of that demented guado's hands on my body made me ill inside.

"I'm… I'm sorry. I'm not comfortable talking about this anymore."

"No, I'm sorry." Tidus offered me an apologetic smile then lovingly brushed the side of my face with his hand. "I shouldn't have brought it up."

"Why did you?"

"Because of what Lulu said back then."

My pulse quickened. "What… What did she say?"

"She kinda hinted at you being in love with me. I didn't get it at first. But after what happened between us at the spring, and listening to your sphere recording, I finally clued in."

"I see…" Well, actually I didn't. But I sensed he'd elaborate on the matter.

"I also admitted to her during that time that I was…in love with you. Rikku kinda picked up on it as well. She even suggested I propose to you and get you to quit your pilgrimage."

Mouth slightly agape from shock, I drew in a quick breath and looked away, struggling to process what he'd revealed.

"I guess I wanted to know whatcha were thinking. Because if you were in love with me, why would you even consider marrying him?"

Right then, I knew—my decision to marry all those years ago had affected him deeply. More than he'd ever let on before. I'd hurt him. And I never intended to.

"Tidus… I had no idea how you had felt. And at the time, I couldn't get involved with anyone because of what I had to do—not if there were real feelings present. It wouldn't have been fair to you. And you know the other reason. I thought it would—"

"Make Spira happy. Yeah, I get it."

He sounded so bitter just then. "Are… Are you angry with me?"

Face softening, he let out a long breath and pursed his lips to the side in careful consideration.

"Nah… I'm just…mad that I had to watch that bastard force you into marriage and steal your first kiss. I wanted to rip out his spleen and ram it down his throat. You deserved so much better."

A small smile tugged on the corners of my mouth. "Like you?"

"Like anyone other than him." Then, Tidus' playfulness returned as well as his famous grin. "But yeah. I wish it'd been my lips on you for the first time."

"I suppose I was pretty naïve back then," I admitted. "But…I want you to know that I never considered what happened at the altar to be my first kiss. That happened with you at the spring."

The sweet, boyish smile he gave at my confession made me melt inside. I wanted so badly to kiss him right then. So, I did. Sliding down on the bed to level my face with his, I leaned in and captured those moist lips in a long, luscious kiss that he'd hungrily returned.

Sometime during the sensual massaging of our lips, Tidus' arm snaked around my waist and pulled me close. The silk material of the robe had ridden up as a result, exposing a large portion of my thigh. Worried of it ridding up further, I went to pull it back down, but Tidus' hand had already wandered over and claimed that section of my thigh to give it a gentle squeeze.

His touch sent what felt like a jolt of electricity throughout my body. Absently releasing a moan into his mouth, I abandoned my task and threaded my fingers though his flaxen wisps, reveling in the feel of his palm sliding over my skin.

I suppose I should've stopped him. But I didn't want to. It felt so good. His touch… His kiss… They were submerging me into an ocean of desire. That's when I knew. I wanted to give myself to him completely. I wanted to make love.

And that's when his lips left mine and his hand adjusted the silk material back over my thigh.

"Sorry," he breathed. "I kinda get carried away when I'm with you. Are you, alright?"

"I'm… I'm fine." I wanted to tell him I was ready; that I wanted him to make love to me. But I just couldn't. My bashfulness had taken over, seeding some unwanted doubt in my mind.

Eyes searching mine, Tidus licked his bottom lip and cautiously asked, "Didya maybe wanna…join me under the covers, so we can…cuddle better?"

It was an invitation of sorts. Of what I wasn't certain. Tidus was usually more direct. So, if he had something more in mind, he probably would've just come out and said it.

Slightly disappointed, I gave him a weak smile and slid off the bed, adjusting my robe once again before joining him under the sheets.

Tidus didn't waste any time cozying up to me and draping an arm over my waist. It felt wonderful having him so close to where my body was absorbing the heat from his.

Facing me on the pillow, he bumped his nose against mine—lips stretching into a broad, toothy grin. "If I knew all I had to do to getcha into bed was get us caught in a storm, I would've done it a lot sooner."

My eyes widened. "Tidus!"

Chuckling at my response, Tidus gave my hip a tender squeeze, only for his smile to falter a moment later. "Sorry. Bad joke."

"Mm…"

"I really do feel like a jerk for mentioning the whole Seymour thing, now. I guess you can tell I was pretty jealous back then."

"Mmm… You're not the only one guilty of being jealous," I admitted. "When I thought Shuyin was you, I'd found a sphere of him rather fondly mentioning his lover Lenne. Since I didn't know he wasn't you at the time, I got so…mad." Brow dipping low at the memory, I inhaled a quick breath and continued. "I'd never been jealous before, so I was having a hard time processing it all. I remember the feeling of betrayal and thinking how I was supposed to be your girl. Not this…Lenne."

"It's funny… I never thought you'd be the jealous type." The corners of his eyes crinkled in amusement. "You look real cute when you are though."

"How… How would you know?" I challenged.

"I saw how you reacted earlier to me having flings in the past. Your initial reaction was somewhat resentful. And I've seen that look before. I got it a few times from my flings when I just talked to another girl."

Kinking my lips to the side, I lowered my gaze and released a dejected sigh, slightly embarrassed about his accurate observation.

"Y'know… You have no reason to be jealous. Not now. Not ever. All I want is you." His hand left my hip to thoughtfully trace a finger along my jaw. "You're all I've ever wanted. You love me for me, not anything else. There's no ulterior motive. And you understand me better than anyone. Sometimes better than myself. You're loving, thoughtful, smart, and…absolutely gorgeous. I don't want anyone else—ever."

Tidus' heartfelt assurance had me blinking back tears. Those words were so full of love and emotion that they'd left me breathless.

Inching closer, he pressed a loving kiss to my mouth, igniting my body in a blaze of desire. Instead of him deepening it into fiery passion, Tidus ended it there and affectionately tucked a few wisps of my hair behind my ear.

"Didya wanna get the light?"

What!? No, I didn't want to get the light! I wanted… I wanted what I couldn't ask. Why couldn't I just say it? Tidus, I want to make love. It was as simple as that, wasn't it? But the words never came.

"Yuna…?"

"Oh, yes." Groaning inward at my inability to voice my desires, I turned over and switched off the lamp then settled back into my beloved's warm embrace.

"G'nite, Yuna," he sleepily mumbled. "I love you."

"I love you, too."

I laid in silence, gazing upon his peaceful expression while he slept. He'd fallen asleep so quickly. It was actually quite remarkable. I'd never been able to fall asleep with such ease. I suppose it was going to be next to impossible now with my hormones raging.

Then suddenly, his leg draped over mine. The friction of our bare skin sliding over one another sent a rush of heat to my core. And I had to stifle a moan from escaping my lips.

His hand then absently slid down and settled onto my backside, drawing a slight gasp out of my mouth. Thankfully, it hadn't disturbed his slumber. But I was now pulsing with desire. It was a strange kind of ache. One I knew only Tidus could alleviate.

It was during my pilgrimage when I'd first encountered these strange sensations. Every time I thought about Tidus, I'd have them. I'd learned the basics about sex and the reproductive system from Lulu when I'd first got my period. And I'll admit I was a little disconcerted by it all back then. Of course it didn't really matter once I chose to become a summoner. I knew what that would entail. So, becoming romantically involved with someone was out of the question.

But when I met Tidus, everything changed. I fell in love so effortless. And it scared me a little. When I thought about us not being together…well, it hurt. It hurt so much. But it felt so wonderful at the same time, being in love with him.

That night at Macalania, I'd seriously considered abandoning my pilgrimage. I wanted to be with Tidus. I wanted to run away with him like he'd suggested and live a normal life. But I knew I'd never forgive myself if I had.

And when we made-out in those majestic waters of that spring, I'd wanted to indulge in more than just a few tender kisses. It was the first time I'd thought about making love to anyone. But I knew it wouldn't be fair to him, knowing what I had to do.

Two years later, with Tidus gone, and I was full of regret from my decision. I vowed if I ever had the opportunity again, if he somehow returned, I'd seize the moment.

Yet, here I was, in bed with the man I love, with only two flimsy pieces of fabric between us, and I still hadn't made a move. I suppose it stemmed from my inexperience.

Rikku had been kind enough to elaborate on sexual acts with me one night early on in our travels, assuming we'd find Tidus again and I'd have the opportunity. I knew what to do, but it was another thing implementing it.

What would he like? How would he like to be touched? I didn't even know what I liked. I'd tried to do the whole self-love thing Rikku had mentioned, but it'd just felt strange to me. The only touch I wanted to feel was his. Caressing my body and pretending it'd been him had only left me feeling sad because I knew it wasn't him. It was a poor substitute.

But now, he was right in front of me—alive and very real, according to what Tidus had told me about his time in that other realm…. Palamecia, I believe? I knew he wouldn't be the one to initiate something like this. He'd even admitted as much. I'd have to do it. But why was it so…difficult?

His leg suddenly twitched. And with a soft groan, he rolled onto his back. The covers slipped down to his lower abdomen, revealing even more of his taut muscles and tanned skin. I lain there, silently watching his bare chest slowly rise and fall. The arm that'd been draped over me was now peacefully resting at his side.

Unable to resist, I reached out and carefully traced the muscles on his chest with my fingers. The dancing flames from the fireplace cast a golden light on his tanned skin as I continued my exploration, trailing my hand down to his toned abs.

Honestly, the oil-lamp had never really been needed. This felt much more romantic. I'd considered waking him at that moment then quickly put it out of my mind. For now, I was content marvelling at his gorgeous body and lightly brushing my fingers against it, knowing one day soon I'd be able to fully enjoy it.

Through my careful examination of his muscles, a tent formed in the sheets at his groin and I froze. I never thought my feathery touches would elicit such a strong response. I suppose I should've stopped what I was doing. But my curiosity had gotten the better of me.

What would it feel like? I wondered. One touch was all I intended to do. Then, I'd find a way to fall asleep.

Tentatively, I slid my hand underneath the covers, over the cotton material of his boxers, until it bumped into a solid mass. Tidus hadn't flinched or made a sound, so I was confident I didn't wake him. Just to be sure, however, I glanced over at his face to confirm. And thankfully, his eyes were still closed and his expression remained in a relaxed state.

Feeling a little emboldened, I coiled my fingers around the solid muscle tucked away in the confines of his boxers and gave it a small squeeze.

A pleasurable groan fell out of his mouth and my stomach flipped.

I quickly released my grip, yanking my hand out from under the sheets then carefully rested it upon his chest.

"Mmm… Why stop now?"

Gasping in surprise, I bolted up in bed, eyes wide in shock as I met Tidus' amused gaze with what felt like my heart in my throat.

"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I should never have—"

"Yuna, it's fine," he assured with a chuckle, rubbing a soothing hand over my arm. "I was enjoying it."

"Wait…" My stomach clenched. "How long have you been awake?"

His grin widened. "I never went to sleep."

"What!?" Mortified, I groaned and buried my face into my hands, only to shoot him a playful glower a moment later. "You tricked me!"

"Hey, I was really trying to sleep at first!"

"Really!?" I challenged. "Is that why your hand wandered to my backside?"

"I didn't plan that. My arm really did slip," he insisted. "But after hearing that gasp come outta you, I figured I should roll over, so I wouldn't be tempted to do anything about it." The teasing in his tone and facial expression was long gone and replaced by a level of seriousness he rarely displayed. "I meant what I said earlier. I'd never take advantage of you."

A wave of guilt washed over me. And I looked away, ashamed of what I'd done. "I suppose the same can't be said about me."

"Wha—nuh-uh. C'mere," Tidus carefully pulled me down next to him and gathered me into his arms, eyes intensely locked with mine. "I don't see it that way at all, okay? You were curious. Those touches weren't meant to seduce, I know that. But I won't lie…" An impish grin now played upon his lips. "It really turned me on."

"Then…why didn't you stop me?"

"Because…I didn't want to."

My heart stilled. "Tidus…"

"Look, I gotta be honest, here. When I first got back and saw just how much you'd changed, I was worried that maybe…you'd moved on without me. That is, until you told me otherwise. It was selfish of me but… The thought of another guy's hands on you drove me insane. And I know that's not fair of me because of…well, y'know…my past.

"Truth is; the only hands I want touching you are mine. And the only ones I want touching me are yours. I guess what I'm trying to say is…I wanna make love to you—so bad. But I know this is something you haven't—wait no, that's not what I wanna say. Ugh!" He cringed. "I mean, I don't wanna—"

"Stop!" Silencing him with a finger, I drew in a quick breath and finally confessed, "I've… I've wanted to make love to you ever since that night at the spring."

Tidus slid my finger off his lips, eyes widening in surprise. "You serious?"

"It… It was the first time I'd ever considered making love to anyone. And…" Pausing, I lowered my gaze, finding the courage to continue elaborating on what had been an intimate secret of mine for so long. "I suppose, I should've said something then. But…I couldn't. I just couldn't do that to you, knowing what I had to do. It would've been selfish of me."

"Yuna…" My beloved ran a thumb over my bottom lip and offered me an affectionate smile. "Do you really think you were ready back then?"

Facing certain death during my pilgrimage had me entertain a few things I, otherwise, never would've. At the time, I had thought I was. But when I gave it a little more thought… Well, I wasn't so sure, anymore.

"I… I don't know."

"We're not on some crazy mission to save the world anymore—that's over. And neither one of us are going anywhere. So…we can take our time, y'know?"

Mulling over his words, I gave him a long look, knowing what they'd implied. "You don't think I'm ready, do you?"

"I'm not saying that at all." Tidus released a troubled sigh then affectionately brushed a stray wisp of hair out of my face. "I just want you to be sure about it. What I feel for you—it's unlike anything I've ever felt. I love you, Yuna. I've never said that to a girl before. If we made love and you ended up regretting it—that would kill me inside."

"I could never regret making love to you," I argued, brow creasing in mild offense. "Do you have any idea how long I've waited to feel your touch? When we were making-out earlier, and your hand slid over my thigh, I wanted… I didn't want you to stop. I wanted it to happen. And…I still do."

"You sure about that?"

"Yes."

Gaze darkening with desire, Tidus lightly trailed his fingers down my neck then dipped them lower to where my cleavage was poking out of the robe, allowing them to linger on the exposed flesh as if he were gauging my reaction.

I shuddered at the sensation as a blissful sigh escaped my lips. Eager for him to continue, I slid a hand to the back of his neck and scooted closer, hoping he'd get the message.

But considering how quickly he withdrew from his task, it was not received.

Frustrated, I unleashed a small, dissatisfied groan to which he chuckled in amusement. He was toying with me.

"You're teasing me, aren't you?"

"Maybe." His hand was now on my thigh, slowly inching its way underneath the silk robe up to my hip. "If this is whatcha really want then I want us to take our time. I want us to enjoy each other."

My pulse quickened. So, it really was going to happen. We were finally going to make love!

Leaning in, Tidus smothered my lips in a slow, meaningful kiss, sending a pleasurable spark down my spine and straight to the core of me. His lips… His touch… They had me melting in his embrace. It felt so wonderful…. So sensual… I thought I was going to turn into a puddle of goo.

Tidus' lips left mine, just then, eyes half-lidded but focused. "You're sure this is whatcha want?"

There was nothing I wanted more. "Yes. I want you—all of you. I love you so much."

"Mmm… I love you, too. And I really, really want you, right now." His lips were on me again, but this time, they were busy lavishing the delicate flesh on my neck.

Reveling in the sensation, I threaded my fingers through his wispy hair and released a soft moan. That wandering hand of his had abandoned its previous activity underneath my robe to fumble with the knot in front. After a few tugs it loosened and Tidus slipped his hand inside, skimming it over the bare skin of my waist.

I rolled onto my back, inviting him to follow. And he did.

Shifting over me, he pressed his erection into my thigh and left a series of hungry kisses over my collarbone then down to the middle of my chest.

The room suddenly became very warm—smouldering even. And I swore I was going to burst into flames at any second.

Tidus paused at the center of my chest to slowly peel the silk material open, revealing my bare breasts to him for the first time. For a moment, I felt vulnerable and slightly embarrassed. I'd never been naked in front of anyone before and it was a bit unnerving. But the loving look in his eyes eased whatever reservations I'd been having at the moment and warmed my heart.

"You're so beautiful…" he breathed, dragging his fingers over the fleshy mounds with a look of wonderment.

Inhaling a sharp breath at the foreign sensation, I arched my back, feeling my nipples swell at his touch. I'd yearned for this for so long—to experience his touch in such an intimate way. It was better than anything I'd ever imagined.

Then, those perfect lips enclosed around one of my nipples and all coherent thought flitted out of my mind. There was just my lover, his mouth and tongue stimulating that erect nub in a series of flicks followed by a gentle suck.

I moaned his name for the first time and that seemed to encourage him even more, squeezing the fullness of my other breast before switching over to give it an equal amount of attention.

"Mmm… Teeduus…"

From all the squirming I'd been doing, the lower part of my robe had fallen open, leaving me completely exposed. Oddly enough, I didn't seem to mind. The throbbing between my thighs had grown so intense that I'd begun to liquefy.

Smoothing a hand down his back, I slipped it underneath his boxers and gave a firm squeeze to his rear.

Tidus groaned and began to grind his hardened arousal against my thigh. It was quite stimulating, knowing I was the source of his desire. I'd only dreamed of such an encounter. The real thing, however, was so much more rewarding than any fantasy I'd ever had.

Humming into my breast, he gave it an aggressive suck then met my bleary gaze with a mischievous grin. "Who's teasing who now?"

I released a small giggle and sweetly tilted my head to the side. "Am I not allowed to touch you?"

"Touch all you want. Just know I'll up the ante though."

That playful nature of his had really made me feel more at ease. It reminded me that we weren't just lovers. We'd started out as friends and those feelings had blossomed into so much more, so quickly. Tidus was, honestly, my best friend. True, I had many more who I'd considered as such. But he was a little different from the rest.

He'd done for me what no one else had—sacrificed his existence so I could live, challenged me in ways I'd never been challenged, encouraged me in ways like no other, and made me see life in a way I'd never thought possible. That man made me feel more alive and loved than I'd ever had my entire life.

Our lips sealed in such a fiery exchange that I hadn't noticed his hand sliding over my tummy and down between my thighs, until they glided over the sensitive nerves at my center, drawing a pleasurable gasp from my lips.

"Omigosh…"

An affectionate chuckle sputtered out of him, obviously pleased by my response. "How's that feel?"

"Mmm…"

"That good, huh?" Grin widening, Tidus pressed another soft kiss to my lips then continued to gaze upon me with a lustful desire.

Those fingers strummed over me with such purpose and intricate precision. It's like he knew just where to touch me and how. When I'd tried this on myself it felt a bit awkward, knowing it wasn't actually Tidus. And then the sadness would set in right after. So, I'd never really experienced the pleasure from it.

But now, with having him there, showing his love for me through such an intimate act, I was finally able to enjoy all the sensations. And they were growing more intense with each passing moment.

Just when I thought I couldn't feel any better, Tidus slipped a finger into me and began to steadily pump it inside. His thumb, however, proceeded to massage my swollen nerves in a circular motion, sending me spinning into a blissful haze.

"Ah… Mmm…"

"I take it that feels even better?"

"Mhmm…"

"Mmm… Betcha I can make you feel way better though."

And I had no doubt he could. But I couldn't imagine what that would feel like. Already my body was experiencing sensations like never before. The thought of it intensifying had me wondering if I'd black-out.

"Can I…show you?" he cautiously asked.

That sounded like an offer I couldn't refuse. "Mhmm…"

After leaving another tender kiss on my lips, Tidus withdrew his hand—much to my dismay—and slid down between my thighs, wedging them further apart before settling into a position on his stomach.

My tummy fluttered, knowing what he was about to do. When Rikku had first mentioned the act to me, I'd found myself wondering why someone would want to do it. After giving it some thought, however, it'd made sense because of how intimate it was. And she was sure to mention just how good it felt for a woman. I suppose I was still a bit nervous of experiencing that level of intimacy. And I was certain Tidus had sensed it from the concerned way he was looking up at me just then.

"You okay?"

"Mhm."

"You're nervous, I can tell."

Apparently, my lover knew me far too well. "I'm… I just never… Um… Maybe just a little," I finally admitted.

"I don't wantcha to be. I love you, Yuna. And I really wanna do this." He paused to leave a lingering kiss on the inside of my thigh. "But only if you want me to."

Those pleading eyes had me thawing faster than a snow cone in Bikanel. Tidus wanted to do this. He wanted me this way. And the thought had me thirsting for it as well.

"Yes, I… I want you to."

His face broke into a huge grin. He then slid his arms underneath my thighs to grip my hips in preparation for what he had planned.

Relaxing my head back onto the pillow, I surrendered my insecurities, ready to experience what I'd only dreamed about for so long.

When his tongue glided over the most intimate part of me, I couldn't help but unleash a long, erotic whine. It felt so…amazing! But what'd followed dwarfed anything I'd experienced so far that night.

His mouth hungrily feasted upon me, gently sucking, every-so-often, to where I thought I'd fall apart at the seams. If that wasn't enough, Tidus added to the pleasure by entering me with a finger and pressing it against…something that felt absolutely wonderful.

Breaths growing heavy, I balled the sheets in my fists, and began to murmur his name over and over as if I were praying to a fayth. Then, his thumb replaced his mouth, and I felt a slight pinch as he carefully slipped a second finger inside.

I winced and let out a faint grunt, which ground Tidus' actions to a halt.

"You okay? I'm not hurting you, am I?"

It's not like I didn't know what to expect my first time. I suppose, I never considered how big two fingers would be, or Tidus' for that matter.

"No, it just feels…a bit awkward. Don't stop though."

"You sure?"

"Mhm," I confirmed with a nod.

"If I do something you don't like, I wantcha to tell me, okay?"

"Okay."

Tidus proceeded to slowly pump his fingers into me then resumed feasting on the center of my desire. The awkward feeling had soon disappeared. And that titillating sensation returned with a vengeance. His lips… His tongue… His fingers… They all were driving me toward that edge I'd yet to experience.

Whatever he was doing with his fingers, though, had me enraptured. They were no longer pumping into me, but rather, tapping against that something, which was creating a pleasurable pressure inside. And I felt as though I'd burst from it all.

The sensations intensified along with my lover's sensual techniques. I was squirming and tugging mercilessly at the sheets, breaths now full-fledged pants between loud moans.

"Nrh… Ah… Nuhh…"

Something was building deep inside. Something incredible that I'd never experienced before. And knowing it was Tidus making it happen had only served to hasten its blissful culmination. But I didn't want it to end.

At that moment, Tidus' mouth broke away long enough to encourage me in a drowsy purr, "That's it, Yuna. Listen to your body. Let it happen."

Listen to my body? It wanted to explode! And from the way my lover was sucking at the center of me and stimulating that spot inside, I was close to doing just that. Whatever had been holding me together that whole time had begun to unravel.

With a hand under my rear, Tidus slightly angled my hips and I began to quiver. Those talented fingers hit that spot he'd been so focused on in such a way, I was powerless to what'd followed.

An intense burst of pleasure shot throughout my body, sending tingling tremors down to my toes. I'd actually felt like a volcano erupting with hot, wet lines streaming down my backside and pooling underneath. And the erotic wail that'd escaped my lips was surely heard in the neighboring rooms, if not throughout entire inn.

Tidus, however, still held me captive, humming in delight as he gripped my hips with both hands and sucked punishingly hard on my bundle of nerves, leaving me lightheaded and breathless.

A joyful chuckle bubbled out of him as he finally released my hips and wiped the glistening liquid off his mouth. "Wow…" he breathed. "That was awesome! I can't believe I actually gotcha to do that."

Recovering from my powerful release, I tried to steady my breaths and understand what he'd meant, which hadn't taken long. I was a little embarrassed once I realized what he'd been referring to. Rikku had never mentioned anything about that happening when I reached my pinnacle. And I was left wondering if it was even supposed to happen.

"I… I had no control. I'm so sorry."

"Are you kidding!? That was my ultimate goal!" He beamed, settling next to me on his side. "Wait…" Expression sobering into something more serious, Tidus peered into my eyes in question. "Didya not know that could happen—that women can ejaculate, too? No one ever told you?"

Feeling my cheeks flush from my lack of knowledge on the subject, I lowered my gaze and slowly swept my head in a silent reply.

"Oh Yuna…" Tidus released a long-winded sigh and combed his fingers through my hair in a soothing manner. "You got nothing to be embarrassed about, y'know? What happened was totally natural—not easy to achieve, but natural."

"Not easy to achieve?" I echoed, curious of the matter.

"Well, there's a certain technique to it. And it usually involves knowing your lover's body well enough to make it happen. That's why I was a little surprised that it happened on our first try."

I didn't want to think about how many girls Tidus had done that to. But it'd already entered my mind.

"Well…I suppose you've had lots of practice."

Judging from how Tidus' brows knit together, he must've sensed my sudden deflation.

"Nah, that's the first time I'd tried it."

My spirit's lifted some. "Really?"

"Yeah. I only knew what to do because of what I heard in the locker room when I played for the Abes." His expression then eased into a look of pure adoration. "You're the only girl who was worth the effort. I'm crazy about you, Yuna. You should know that by now."

A brilliant smile tugged on my lips. This man loved me more than his own life. How could I ever think otherwise?

"So, I'd ask if you enjoyed yourself, but I'm pretty sure I got my answer earlier."

Releasing a soft giggle, I shyly bit down on my lower lip and met his affectionate gaze. "That was amazing."

A loopy grin etched across his face. "Guess ya never knew you could have one like that, huh?"

"I… I'd never had one before that, actually."

"Really!?" Tidus' mouth slightly fell open at my confession as though he were struggling to believe it. "You never had one on your own?"

"No, I… I, um… I tried doing that sort of thing over the past year, but…I just couldn't find any pleasure in it. When I thought about you, I'd start to feel sad. Thinking about you wasn't the same as having you there."

His expression fell. "I'm…really sorry for putting you through that. I had no idea."

"No, don't apologize. It wasn't your fault. You…couldn't help what'd happened."

"I know in my gut I'm not going anywhere this time. And I know I already told you that a few days ago but… I just wantcha to know that I intend to keep my promise, okay? I'm gonna stay with you always. Or…until you tire of me."

"That'll never happen."

"Promise?" He grinned, collecting me into his arms. "I can get pretty annoying."

"I'm already used to that," I teased.

"Gee thanks."

The damp part of the robe clinging to my backside had suddenly become unbearable and made me cringe.

"What's wrong?"

"Oh…it's nothing, really. The robe is just kind of…"

"Soaked?" he guessed with a wry smile, resulting in a rush of heat to my cheeks once again.

"Mm…"

"Then let's getcha out of it." Aiding me in my task, Tidus helped to peel the silk material off my body and flung it to the floor. "The sheets are toast, too," he concluded, running a hand over them. "But we can always call housekeeping later to get another set when we're ready to pass out for the night."

"Omigosh!" My eyes widened in alarm. "We can't! Not after how loud I was. What would they think?"

Tidus laughed as he settled back down beside me on the pillows. "That we had ourselves a great time, tonight."

"Ohh…" I groaned, burying my face into the pillow.

"Do you know how cute you look when you're embarrassed?"

Peering up from my fluffy refuge, I shot him a doubtful look. "So you say."

"C'mere." Tidus pulled me close and smothered my lips in a heated kiss that made me forget whatever we'd been talking about.

Our hands began to roam over the other's body in a possessive claim. And mine had eventually sought out the renewed bulge in his boxers, earning me a low groan into my mouth.

It was my turn to show Tidus just how much I loved him. And I was a tad nervous. I'd never practiced on anything. Rikku had suggested popsicles, but I hadn't consumed many of those in the past year. And when I had, it hadn't occurred to me to try when the man I loved was still not by my side.

Now, I was faced with the real thing. And I wasn't so confident instruction alone would be adequate for such a task. For the time being, I pushed the thought out of my mind and focused on pleasuring my lover in other ways.

My lips left his and I shifted over him, releasing his member in the process to seek out the muscles on his chest. Pressing my lips against his warm skin, I left a path of feathery kisses down to his abdomen, enjoying how his breaths grew ragged with each pass of my mouth.

Touching his body… Tasting the saltiness of his skin… It was exhilarating. And hearing his blissful sighs had me throbbing with desire once more.

When I reached the band of his boxers, anxiety swelled inside my chest. I had to remind myself that Tidus loved me. And that my inexperience wouldn't matter to him. At least, I hoped it wouldn't.

Hooking my fingers into the sides, I carefully tugged the cotton material down with some help from my lover and tossed it aside.

Outside of the erotic sphere Rikku had insisted I watch one night alone—that she swore she'd swiped from Brother's collection—I'd never actually seen the male erection up close and in great detail. It was fascinating and…sexy.

I reached out with a trembling hand to grip his member and inspected it further. He seemed well endowed. But it's not like I had anything to compare to, really.

Curiously, I slid my fingers along the ribbed length of his erection then ran my thumb over the tip, noting how smooth it was and extracting a pleasurable groan from my lover in the process.

The sexy sound he made, right then, filled me the courage I needed to do more than just lightly touch him. Recalling the tips Rikku had given me, I leaned down, squeezing him at the base and lowered my mouth over his member.

"Mmm… Yuna…"

That husky voice had me entranced. Eager to pleasure my lover, I relaxed my throat and slid him deeper inside. I hadn't taken into account how big Tidus was, or seemed at least. And since I hadn't practiced on anything before, I didn't know my limits, which resulted in me gagging on him the first try.

After abandoning my task, I cupped a hand over my mouth and squeezed my eyes shut, embarrassed at my failed attempt.

"Hey, you okay?"

Worried about my lover's reaction, I nervously met his concerned gaze with an uncertain bite to my lower lip. "I, um… Y-yes. I'm just… I'm a little embarrassed."

"You shouldn't be," he assured me with a hint of a smile. "It happens. And you managed to avoid scraping your teeth on me, so that's a win."

Leave it to Tidus to find a silver-lining to my blunder. But it did help to restore my confidence a little.

"Y'know…I don't wantcha to feel like you have to do this. I mean, I wantcha to but…"

"Tidus… I want to."

"Good." His smile returned. "Because your mouth felt so damn good."

Those words and the gravelly whisper in which they were spoken had me tingling inside. Determined to give it another try, I gripped his member again and slowly lowered my mouth over it, careful not to go too far down this time.

It was a bit awkward at first, using facial muscles I hadn't before. But after a few bobs of my head, I'd finally got the hang of it and began thrusting my hand down his base to meet my motions.

"Mmm… That feels sooo good…"

Hearing my lover's encouraging groans only emboldened me. With that new found confidence, I grew more aggressive in my technique, squeezing and sucking harder on him.

"Ah… Mmm…" Tidus carefully gathered the hair out of my face and bunched it at the top of my head. A dopy smile then inched across his lips as his eyes slipped shut. "Yunaa…"

The more he moaned my name, the more confident I'd become. I wanted to please him so badly. To make him go over that edge he'd taken me over earlier.

But something happened at that moment, which I hadn't anticipated.

My lover bucked his hips, taking me by surprise, and resulted in me gagging on him once again.

"Shit!" he cursed, bolting up with an alarmed expression. "You okay?"

Hand cupped over my mouth like before, I gazed over at him, still in shock of what'd happened and expelled a cough.

"Oh, man… I'm sorry, Yuna. I… I lost control."

"It's okay." I cleared my throat and offered him a tiny smile. "I'm okay."

"C'mere." Gathering me into his arms, Tidus laid back on the mattress, pulling me down with him. "I'm really sorry," he apologized, smoothing my bangs out of my face. "That shouldn't have happened."

"It's okay, really," I insisted.

"No, it's not. I shouldn't have lost control like that."

"Well…" An impish grin spread across my lips. "You seemed to be enjoying yourself, so…"

His face then split into a huge grin. "Yeah, I was. You were really amazing, y'know? I was pretty close to exploding before that happened."

Feeling my cheeks flush, I released an elated giggle, quite proud of what I'd been able to accomplish, but had yet to finish. "Would you like me to—"

"Nah, another time," Tidus interjected with a wolfish gleam in his eye. "I'd rather move onto…other things. That is, if you're ready."

And I was. But he seemed to need my confirmation on it one last time.

"Mm," I assured with a firm nod.

Tidus pressed a gentle kiss to my lips and rolled me beneath him.

My stomach did a flip. But before any apprehension could consume me, his fingers slipped between my thighs and began to massage my pulsating nerves. I shuddered at the delightful sensation as my eyes slipped shut.

After a few moments, his fingers dipped inside me, rhythmically pumping in and out. And I wasn't sure if he was doing it to just tease me, or if there was another purpose. I didn't mind, however. Everything my lover did felt absolutely incredible.

Removing his fingers, Tidus gripped my hips and shifted further up between my thighs then guided my legs around his waist.

A tinge of anxiety washed over me. I knew what would come next. And I couldn't help but be a bit concerned of the level of discomfort I may experience at first. Rikku mentioned how it varied from woman to woman. But I wouldn't know what category I'd fall under, until it actually happened.

Just then, Tidus interrupted my troubled thoughts with a fierce kiss that broke through those fears and obliterated them into a pile of rubble. My hands slid over his shoulders, savoring their warmth and the fiery passion setting us ablaze.

There was a slight pinch as he pushed forward, which grew more pronounced the further he inched inside. It wasn't overwhelming like I'd feared, but it was uncomfortable, no less, drawing a soft whimper from my lips.

Tidus' delicious mouth parted from mine—eyes alight with love but also swirling with worry. "You okay?"

"Mhm."

"I know it doesn't seem like it, right now, but…"

"I'm fine," I assured with a smile. "It's… It's not as bad as I thought it would be."

Tidus breathed a nervous laugh, and I winced, realizing how insulting that must've sounded.

"Wait, that's not what I—"

"It's okay, Yuna," he calmly interjected. "I know whatcha meant. And I'm glad it's not too uncomfortable for you. I wantcha to enjoy this—us."

"I already am." And I was being honest. It may have been a little awkward, but we were finally joined in the most intimate way possible, which was what I'd wanted for so long.

"Man, do I ever love you." His lips claimed mine once again, deepening our kiss as he began to slowly move his hips.

Each careful thrust filled me so deeply, so completely… And hurt a little less each time.

Those gorgeous blue eyes held my gaze throughout, studying my every expression and shining with adoration when I offered him a sweet smile.

Breaths growing heavy, Tidus left a sloppy kiss on my lips and groaned. "You feel sooo good," he breathed, eyes glazed over with desire. "Are you doing, okay?"

I was doing better than okay. The discomfort had passed and was replaced by that tingly sensation I'd experienced earlier.

"Mmm…" I purred. "It feels…really good."

"Yeah?" He grinned, voice raising an octave. "Good."

Those slow, careful thrusts steadily increased, along with the sensations at my center. It was actually quite remarkable how wonderful he felt inside me. There really was no other feeling like it.

Had we'd done this at Macalania I probably would've changed my mind about the pilgrimage and ran away with the dream. My dream. My Tidus. My… Omigawd… Did he ever feel incredible!

Our soft pants filled the room in a sensual symphony, arousing me even more. I hooked my ankles together at his back and lifted my hips to meet his powerful thrusts, urging him deeper inside.

Apparently, Tidus had wanted that as well from the way he angled my hips and aggressively thrust into me, penetrating that special spot that'd reduced me into an oozing mess earlier that night.

"Omigosh…" I gasped, feeling the pleasure intensify. "Mmm…"

Tidus let out a gleeful chuckle and planted a quick kiss on my lips. "That's it," he encouraged. "Let go."

That tingling pressure had finally hit its peak, sending me tumbling into a perpetual state of nirvana.

"Ah… Oh… Omi—gah!" Once again, I was powerless to stop the flood that gushed from my body onto the sheets. My lover, however, never missed a beat, driving his hips into me with lustful abandon.

"Omigah… Yuna…"

The wet sound of our bodies slapping together coupled with Tidus' husky groans had me close to yet another release. And I hadn't even recovered from the one before.

My lover's eyes squeezed shut as his grunts turned into short gasps. "Ah… Ah… Arghh…"

That did it for me. And on the heels of Tidus' primal groan, I joined him over that blissful edge, unleashing a delighted squeal while I quaked in his arms.

Three, powerful thrusts followed. My lover then slumped at my side in a gratified heap with a leg and an arm draped over me, head nestled into the crook of my neck, while he gasped for air.

"That… Was… Mmm…"

Tidus' inability to string together a coherent sentence was all the praise I needed. And I couldn't help but release an elated giggle because of it.

"How do you feel?" he breathed.

"Fulfilled…on many levels." Feeling his smile on my neck, I shifted onto my side to face him and sighed in content.

"That was…wow—just amazing," he admitted in a soft tone, threading his fingers through my tousled hair. "I hope you know how much I love you."

"I do." Blinking back tears, I traced the outline of his lips with my index finger and smiled. "I love you so much."

"So, was it worth the wait?"

"Yes!" I giggled, wiping a stray tear off my cheek. "It was so much better than I imagined."

"I'm glad." Then, a pensive look crossed his face. "Y'know…you're not the only one who wanted to do more than kiss at that spring."

I drew back and blinked several times, surprised by his confession and the timing of it. "Really?"

"Yeah, but I would've never acted on it, even if you'd asked me to."

Now I was thoroughly confused. "But you'd just said—"

"I know," he interrupted, "but just because I wanted to, doesn't mean I would've let it happen. I wouldn't have wanted our first time together to be out of desperation in the woods. This is more of what I had in mind, anyway. So, I think things worked out pretty good, don't you?"

"I suppose you're right."

"Besides, Kimahri was watching us the whole time."

My blood chilled. "Tell me you're joking."

"Nah, wish I was," Tidus answered with a curt laugh. "I caught him scurrying off when we came out of the water. I guess he was just concerned about us and standing guard of any fiends that would've appeared."

Still, that was a little disconcerting. "So, he knew about us?"

"Lulu and Rikku both had their suspicions as well. And Auron…well, he kinda dropped subtle hints here and there."

"I… I had no idea."

"Lulu even mentioned one time on the Fahrenheit that she wanted me to stay with you after we defeated Sin and Yu Yevon. Well, more like promise I would."

That'd actually helped to clarify a few things. "I suppose that's why she never pushed when all those suitors came flocking to Besaid."

"Suitors!?" he echoed in shock. "Are you serious!?"

"Oh, uh... Just more proposals for political gain. I turned them all down, of course."

"Good. You deserve to be happy, Yuna. And if you marry it should be for love."

An irrepressible grin stretched across my lips. "That's why I waited for you." I then cringed, realizing what I'd allowed to fall off my tongue.

Tidus' brow shot up at my confession then quickly relaxed into something more endearing.

"Well, I did promise to stay with you always." He lightly chuckled. "And I guess it's comforting to know what your answer will be when I eventually ask you that question."

Part of me wanted to just die at that moment. Wait… Did he say when?

"Didya mean that the way I think you did, or…" he seemed a little nervous from the way he paused, gaze sliding over my face in a careful assessment, "did I read too much into that?"

Taken aback by his question, I pursed my lips and contemplated whether or not to confirm his suspicion.

"I, um… I didn't mean to imply what you thought I had. But…that's only because I didn't want you to know…yet."

"So, you did mean it in that way," he concluded, face breaking into a wide grin. "Were you worried I didn't feel the same?"

"Well…even though we've been friends for a while, we've really only begun to explore this kind of relationship and…I didn't want to scare you off."

"That's not gonna happen. I know what I want. And when I want something bad enough," he paused to press a feathery kiss to my lips, "I do whatever it takes to get it."

"Mmm… 'Every blitzer knows—when you got the ball, you gotta score'?"

"Wow!" He cackled in astonishment. "I wouldn't have put it that way. But I guess that's one of looking at it. I'm beginning to think I'm a bad influence, here."

"I like your bad influences."

"Yeah, well…" He continued to chuckle. "Not sure everyone else will."

"I don't care about what anyone else thinks—only you." I went to shift myself again and grimaced at the uncomfortable dampness underneath me. "Ohh…" I whined. "These sheets…"

"Don't inns usually keep an extra blanket or something in the closet?"

"Um…I'm not sure."

"Hang on, lemme check." Tidus rolled over and bounded off the mattress, making a beeline over the closet doors to pull them open. "Alright! Score!" Reaching up to the top shelf, he pulled down a large, fluffy blanket and hurried back to the bed, inspecting the comforter that was bunched down at the foot of it. "Looks like this managed to escape the flood." He tossed me a rueful grin. "Whaddaya say we sleep on it and use the blanket to cuddle under?"

Agreeing with a sure nod, I vacated the bed and helped my lover spread the comforter over the remnants of our lovemaking then unfurled the blanket with a soft floomp.

"That should take care of things," he mentioned, climbing under the thick, plush material.

Following my lover's lead, I joined him under the blanket and cozied up to him with a contented sigh.

"Much better, huh?"

"Mm…" I purred, snuggling into chest as he held me close.

"Y'know… I think I like staying at this inn a lot better this time around."

"Me too."

Lightning flashed against the heavy curtains followed by a loud clap of thunder, reminding us that there was still a storm raging outside. It's funny how we'd forgotten about it. Then again, we'd been quite preoccupied.

"Getting caught in the rain wasn't so bad now, was it?"

Finding myself in agreement, I gave a slight giggle and peered up at the humor dancing in his eyes. "No, I suppose not."

"Guess all I really did need to do was get us caught in a storm, huh?"

"Stop!" I continued to giggle, giving his chest a playful shove.

His smile suddenly receded, turning his expression deadly serious. "So, what do I have to do to get you to say, yes?"

Knowing exactly what he'd been referring to, I swallowed hard, feeling my pulse bound inside my ears.

"…Ask."

Those sweet lips stretched into a wide grin. "Lemme work on getting a ring first, okay?"

That man could be such a horrible tease at times. Then again, this was Tidus. I shouldn't have expected anything less. "Mm..."

It was kind of funny, really. Even though he hadn't officially asked and I hadn't officially accepted, it felt like we'd already committed to that next big step. Maybe that's because we just knew. We were meant for each other. There would never be anyone else, for either of us.

"Yuna…?"

"Mm…?"

"I really do wanna spend the rest of my life with you."

My heart soared. "And I want the same with you."

"Can you imagine the look on everyone's face if we came back from this trip a married couple?"

Was he serious, right now? "Tidus… They'd be so—"

"Pissed?" he guessed with a chuckle. "I know. I wouldn't do that. But I'm sure they'd be happy if we came back…engaged."

He really wanted this, didn't he? "I'm…sure they would."

"And this time…" Sliding a finger under my chin, he tilted my head up to meet his loving gaze. "It'll be for love." His lips then laid claim to mine in one of the most breathtaking kisses I'd ever received.

I would've never guessed our journey across Spira again would begin in such a wonderful way. The storm may or may not have been the catalyst to what'd happened between us at the travel lodge that day, but I was sure of one thing. Tidus was my shining light. And no storm then or in the future would ever threaten to tear us apart. We would finally get our always. So, as far as I was concerned—it could rain all it wanted.