September 3rd
"this stuff makes me feel really calm, even when triggered, what is it" ask Tori taking a short puff
"special weed for dealing with PTSD, basically it keeps the trauma triggers from triggering no matter what but it only works for so long, generally around six hours, sometimes less" says Jade
"so this will stop me from losing it on Andre because of the trauma Dean left me with" asks Tori taking another puff
"in most cases yes, some may slip through, no method is perfect but it's safer than most ptsd meds, and generally more predictable, how do you like the grape taste" says Jade
"it makes it easier, I don't want to be known as a pot head though" says Tori
"and you think I do, I've had to use it since I was fifteen after my uncle literally threw me around after I denied him his perverted desire to rape me, my doctor started me on medicinal weed after the meds for my ptsd only made me worse, it's not that I want to use the weed, its that I have no choice, with the various types of ptsd it's either the meds work, don't work or make you worse, please no more than three puffs Tori, your body isn't used to the effects yet, even after two days the body could still react badly to it if you take too much" says Jade finishing off her weed dose
"but you got to take your whole dose, I'm not even close to finishing my itty bity amount" says Tori clearly feeling the effects
"as of right now yours is an emergency dose, to use when you need it Tori, not to use up in one go like me, I've proven to my doctors that I can handle it, your doctor made it explicitly clear not to let you smoke the whole dose at once for the first week" says Jade
"when is Andre coming back I miss his abs" pouts Tori
"later today but not full stop, today is but a test, if you pass the trigger test around him then he can slowly reintroduce himself for longer and longer times till he's here all the time, he's out getting you a dress, he'll be here shortly, your doctor said the best time to reintroduce was while you were under the influence of the green" says Jade
"can I like you know have some fun with his thing while I'm high, because just thinking about his abs is kinda making me warm" asks Tori
"you need to be careful with that, because this strain affects the trauma triggers it can affect memory too, you may not remember who you did it with only knowing you did it, it might freak you out but I'd seriously recommend recording your first time if you do it while you're under the influence of your dose" says Jade
"oh uhh yeah dean stole my first time" says Tori
"if you didn't willingly give it then it doesn't count morality wise Tori, Dean stole it if you didn't give it, Andre doesn't have to know, I would suggest you tell him when you're comfortable telling him" says Jade as Andre parks outside
"omg he's here" giggles Tori as Andre walks in
"how is she" asks Andre
"dean stole my innocence Andre" says Tori without thinking
"then I'm glad he's dead" says Andre calmly as he hands Tori a bag with the dress in it
"y-you're not mad" asks Tori as she opens the bag and her jaw drops at the sight of the dress
"why would I be mad, he took it from you, I'd have been mad if you gave it to that jerk, having it stolen is a different ball game entirely Tori, could you pretty please put the dress on" asks Andre
"ok" says Tori as she runs to go put it on
"keep in mind she's high right now Andre, fresh off her dose of the green, she has signaled her intention she wants you to make love to her" says Jade
"and she won't freak out, you can guarantee that" asks Andre
"Tori told Sadie her triggers, while the green is affecting her the triggers don't fire, she has a six hour window before she needs to take another puff or two" says Jade
"so she will have to be constantly high to function" asks Andre
"no, she's only high for half an hour to an hour but the effects of this ptsd specific strain block the trauma triggers for up to six hours at a time at her current dose level, if she reacts well to the first week she gets a stronger dose that boosts the need to puff from six hours to twelve, then if that goes well it will go from twelve to eighteen hours strength then to a full day dose, though as I warned her that because it blocks the triggers it can affect her memory, so it is best to record your first time with her, not for it to be a tape you watch but solely so that in the rare case it blocks out who she did it with she will be able to watch and realize it is you she did it with and not some creep" says Jade as Tori walks back in with the amazing dress on
"wow its even more beautiful on you than I'd hoped Tori" says Andre blown away by how beautiful Tori looks
"from now on can you call me by my full name" asks Victoria
"I thought you hated when people called you Victoria" asks Andre
"only because of Dean, my cousin Adriana coined the name Tori and it stuck, Dean used it to keep me in a box, with you I could be free of that" says Victoria as she leads Andre up the stairs
"I bought Sadie a dress too just so you know" says Andre
"that's sweet unfortunately she's a skirt girl most of the time, she's self-conscious of her in a dress, maybe you can change that" says Tori
5 minutes later with Cat and Jade
"boy I'm sure glad the designer opted for sound isolation insulation in this house" says Cat
"why" asks Jade
"because Andre's doing Tori, I only know because of the security camera system, remember she made us put one in their room" says Cat
"does it sound like she's enjoying it" asks Jade
"clearly you're more nosey than I am, I kept the sound off but it does look like it, I watched a minute of it then closed the app, I'm not her girlfriend anymore so I don't want to intrude too much" says Cat
"I'm almost certain that's why she had it installed pointed at the bed Cat, if it was about security it'd be pointed at the bedroom door" says Jade
"why did that never clue in to me, I swear sometimes I can be very dull" says Cat
Later that day as Sadie returns from work
"where's Tori" asks Sadie
"in bed with Andre, also she's back to Victoria" says Jade as Sadie's jaw drops
"I'm shocked" says Sadie
"why, this was your plan to get a stable triad Sadie" asks Cat
"because she's always always, I can't stress this enough, she's always hated her name, mainly because her mom jokingly named her after the lingerie brand Victoria's secret, she is the one that asked for a nickname to replace it, Dean was just the catalyst for her to never go back, if she asked anyone to call her Victoria then she's doing far better on this regimen than anyone could have hoped for" says Sadie
"wow what a brand to be named after, I hear their stuff is good" says Cat
"granted it generally is and she does own some of their products but the hatred of her name came right from her own mother, who at the time Victoria was born worked at said company for the CEO no less, it was a kiss up to the boss not a general love for the name" says Sadie
"wow, I'd have never thought it was that bad, I knew Holly was a blatant cheater but I didn't know it was that bad, what always struck me as odd is that nobody or barely anyone with Tori's voice don't know how good they are and Tori always seemed to struggle with that" says Jade
"that… right, ok so imagine at a young age Tori got an ad spot to sing the musical portion of that ad, and that it not only happened once but four times" begins Sadie
"go on" says Cat
"ok so Trina's not always been the jerk slash needy sibling, Tori was getting charity ad spots and Trina wasn't getting any, Holly basically sparked a rivalry that hadn't nor needed to exist, Holly said that Trina should get an ad spot too, the police department was looking to promote their "bring lost kids home" program and Holly had managed to convince David to give Trina the on screen gig, the ad was a flop and neither Tori nor Trina were ever hired again, however as a result of Trina getting the on-screen appearance she got to hold that over Tori as Tori had only ever been asked to do vocal spots, that was the beginning of Tori's long fear of Trina's wrath, that was at the age of eight" says Sadie
"wouldn't Trina have known better by then" asks Cat
"with a mother like Holly I doubt it" says Sadie
"then what got through to Trina because she says it was me dating Tori that did it, that showed her the light" says Cat
"you helped her see the light yes but it was Dean who turned Trina around or at least started the process, Trina had realized that her being rude to Tori wasn't helping anything and she only realized that after Tori came down for breakfast looking like she had survived an attempted murder, which in a way she had, Trina had begun begging David to intervene, it took two months for her to finally convince him to take a short shift and join them for dinner for David to see who Dean really was, and in that same swift moment David divorced Holly and kicked her out, only then did Trina begin healing, what you did Cat was lead Trina to the door of her past, showing her how evil she had been towards Tori since Trina was eight it was a big wake up call for her, David was very proud of her for defending Tori and helping her in the immediate aftermath of Dean" says Sadie
"is she going after Beck" asks Jade
"all I know is that her target for love is a young lady I have no specifics on who, maybe Victoria knows" says Sadie
"what was she like growing up" asks Cat
"oh you know just the friend everyone wishes they had, I have epilepsy, I'm super sensitive to lights, one time it landed me in the hospital and Tori never left my side, not a single time, she held my hand the entire time, no we weren't friends she was supposedly friends with my cousin but I was the one with a potentially life threatening condition, so if I started seizing out of the blue she'd be right there making sure I felt safe while she called an ambulance or while my cousin tries to help me, luckily now I have contacts that filter out the flickering of lights so I don't have epileptic seizures anymore, at least while I'm wearing them" says Sadie
"anyway you should probably go see them in your guy's room" says Cat as Sadie runs up the stairs giggling
"hey Andre how's Tori" asks Sadie
"tired and fulfilled sexually, I wore a sleeve but man she seemed happy" says Andre
"its because it means we will be together as a thruple Andre, for as long as we can, maybe for the rest of our lives, maybe for a short time all that matters is we're happy, are you too worn out to give me a try" asks Sadie
"unfortunately yes, do you work tomorrow" says Andre
"yes, I only have one day off this week, I'm a waitress, it's paying well and we need the money for her PTSD regimen" says Sadie
"I got signed by an Italian record label, they seemed to like my desire to bring the truth to light, they left the option open for Tori to join but at this moment she doesn't seem to want anything other than making love right now and I'm ok with that" says Andre
"why, she loves music" asks Sadie
"this regimen is helping her heal, that takes time, if making her quiver somehow helps with that then I will do what I can" says Andre
"she enjoyed it" asks Sadie
"very much so, I guess she's wanted this for a while, can we cuddle" says Andre
"let me change first" says Sadie as she changes