MONOLOGUE 1- NORA COSMA

NORA

Ok, first and foremost, my name is Nora. Not "woman" or "old lady" or "hag" or "alcoholic bitch", ok? Not that fucking hard to understand. I am a person to, so I deserve to be treated like one.

I've just gotten back in my cell from hammering fucking rocks in the field, one of the prison's most pointless activities. Well, at least it's some outdoor time for me though. At this point, anything outside getting my ass torn up, the stone-ass bed I "attempt to sleep" on, and the shit they serve is considered a luxury. Man, this place is a living hell. I don't deserve this. I know in my heart I'm a good person. I fuck up a good bit, yeah I'll finally admit, but who hasn't fucked up every now and then?

Anyways, I'm here on an assault and domestic violence case which I think is complete bullshit. Yes, I've hit my husband but I would like to say I've got a pretty good reason. Might I even say he's the reason why I'm suffering in this hell hole. I escaped here a few months back to try and "teach him a lesson" but it ended up backfiring. I gave it some thought, and now that I've gotten the chance to adjust to this place (though this place still sucks ass), I realize killing him won't do me any good. It's just going to give me a life sentence or possibly even death row. But if those weren't in the way, I'd totally do it. He deserves it.

Why does he deserve it? Well, first off, I'd be lying if I said he was the man I loved. My dumbass just married him because I was so desperate to forget Arthur and to not be lonely, that I married someone with a fucking potato IQ and a fucking chipmunk voice (god how annoying it is). We had gotten married and we made the foolish mistake to get pregnant with 3 disappointment children. You would think as the man, Linnie would take some fucking responsibility and raise the kids. But no. See, my youngest disappointment was a baby when I realized Linnie didn't love me, that he thought I was worthless. Cosmo had full intent on turning me into a fly after I allowed him to use an adult wand since he seemed like he had some potential, and by instinct, I had pulled Linnie in front of me so he got zapped instead. What? He's the man! He should've been protecting me! He probably would've gotten in front of me anyways.

Now let me tell you what this piece of shit does. He gets zapped and then just flies off..as if we were nothing. And then 3 years later, the fucker has the audacity to show back up to the house and apologize, as if he can make up for all the damage he's done. It's funny really. He claims himself as a family man, yet bails on his own family for 3 fucking years. I'll admit, I'm guilty of the domestic violence charge, but let's be honest; Linnie completely deserves it.

You know, I don't understand why people like him so much? Everyone acts like he's the moral, perfect person when he's actually one of the most evil people I've met. So, why do I get shit for hitting him when he's absolutely evil and vile? Shouldn't I be a damn hero? Don't we have enough abusers in this world? No one is willing to look past the sweet little façade he uses, because this damn world basically caters to those that are overly sensitive. I'm an assertive person, so what I say comes off as harsh, but unlike him, I tell the goddamn truth! And the truth is, Linnie is just as abusive as I am. You know, just because he doesn't punch or hit me doesn't mean he's not abusive. I hate how everyone has that mentality. He backtalks me, just like he did the other day when he visited, telling me to go fuck myself, and that I deserved to be here! I don't deserve to be here! You do!

I said I wasn't gonna kill him, and I guess I'll stick with that, but you know what? He needs to learn that the fucking world doesn't revolve around him. I dunno exactly what I'm going to do, but I want to sue him for framing me! As if he's done no wrong when he fully well knows he's just as guilty! It's disgusting how the world puts him on this fucking pedestal, and allows me to suffer here. I don't understand why Linnie is so damn special. He abandons his children and his own wife! The woman that helped him give birth to the kids he just begged to have (which is hilarious since he barely did anything with them).

I plan on moving back home when I get released, so he better get himself prepared with that meal, like I told him. You know, I wouldn't think a little bit of gratitude would be hard, but I guess if you're Linnie, a simply thank you is way too much.