MONOLOGUE TWO: LINNIE COSMA
LINNIE
Oh dear…right now is not the time for PMS cramps. I have enough stress going on as is. I just left the prison where Nora was staying and I've got to say, I didn't know it was possible to feel both stronger and weaker after leaving.
Everything she said hurt..I'm not sure why I expected any different. I had hoped that she maybe would step back and re-evaluate herself after nearly trying to kill me, but no. She's just stuck in her own was. Honestly, I'm still really confused. Why does she keep staying with me if she's unhappy? Why let herself suffer and then take it out on me? Am I a bad person, and she's teaching me a lesson? Why didn't she just get a lawyer and ask for a divorce? I would've signed the papers if I knew I was making her unhappy. But trying to kill me…I think that's just a step too far.
If I had to blame myself for anything I've done to Nora, possibly the fly incident is one thing. I do feel bad for what I did, and I've tried to apologize numerous times, telling her I would do better as a father, and promised never to leave her again, but it all just ends with one big punch in the face. I've gotten used to it physically, but emotionally, it still hurts. How could someone punch and hit their spouse? The person they promised to love and honor? It just..I'm sorry I'm getting so emotional. It might be because it's nearly my time of the month, but I still can't believe Nora, the first person I had fallen for, would do such a thing.
Maybe it's not necessarily her fault, maybe it's just me? As a man, I have a responsibility to help with birth and raise children, and while we live in a world where we're allowed to take jobs, there's still this gender role around Fairy World that males are responsible for domestic roles. Typically, a woman's duty is to work and protect their partner (though nowadays, some males are strong enough to take care of themselves. Believe me, just look at Jorgen and Miguel. I am definitely not a good example), but Nora's always made it clear that I was to protect her if she paid for everything I needed, and I didn't mind it, in all honesty, because I was still under the impression she loved me. So to be completely honest, I can't blame Nora too much for what she did. I probably would've gotten in the way anyways.
There is something rather amusing about Nora, her excuses. Many of them don't make any sense, but she doesn't realize that. She just spews out anything she can to put the blame on me. I think at one point she even yelled, "I gave birth to your children! The children YOU wanted!", Like…uhm….Nora really? How…w-what…since when did women….uh…yeah I don't know either. Her stomach wasn't the one that kept inflating for 3 months, I don't understand why she claimed herself pregnant, and anyone with common sense would be able to spot the lie immediately. Nora isn't exactly as smart as she claims. She'd rather tell a obvious lie instead of the truth if it keeps her out of prison.
Of course in trial, she didn't use any excuses that are as uneducated, actually, I think she came into the trial with some coal ash on her face and claimed that I gave her a black eye. That time, the court was smart enough to see through her nonsense, but a couple of times, I had almost gotten arrested because of Nora's lies. I really don't think I would survive in prison.
Whenever we head out of the house for a few moments as well, Nora goes around and parades out business out in the open. She claims that I constantly beat on her and tells people that I do nothing but insult and hit her all day, like she's some sort of pinata. I can do nothing but stand back and watch while my cheeks turn red, anything I say can and will be used against me.
Wow...I really didn't want to do this, and I'm not sure if I even have the money, but I really need to find a lawyer. I love Nora but all the energy is draining out of my body. I don't think I can physically take this anymore.