MONOLOGUE 11- CHELSEA COSMA
CHELSEA
Man, finally out of that hell house. I kind of feel bad though for leaving Cosmo like that, but I'm not sure if I can take it much longer. It's too late for my to turn back anyways; Mom'll kill me..literally. I kind of wish that bitch would go to hell or something. Though, knowing her, she'll just get a pass because consequences don't fucking apply to her. Don't worry about me. I have a backup plan. I'm floating over to a bus stop near our grocery store. My boyfriend said he'll pick me up there and I can crash for a while. God, I hope he hurries soon. It's so cold out here. I wish I had brought a jacket.
Basically, what happened was that I applied to Harmony like I wanted, because at the time, I thought, "Well, mom hates everything I do anyways, I might as well do what I want", and I did some research on their school. She's hellbent on me becoming a business or law major at Wishbrooke, which was her college, and Wishbrook is all fine and dandy, if you're smart. Not someone like me. I don't know shit about law, and business bores the hell out of me. I really didn't wanna go, and despite being so scared of my mom, my gut told me that I needed to disobey for once. Harmony's considered #1 for music majors and I've always been passionate about starting my own band someday. Garret and I had our high school band sure, but it wasn't really well developed since we actually didn't know shit about writing professional music. We've decided to take a break on the whole rock band thing until we've both got our degrees.
Anyways, I was gonna keep my acceptance a secret until graduation, where I'd drop the bomb and bail before that bitch could ask any more questions but of course, it would be my luck. The mail arrived early and on a weekend, when I knew mom would be hitting the hard stuff. When dinner came around, I saw my envelope (that was addressed to me, mind you) ripped open and my mom, looking absolutely livid. It was like meeting one of those "Satin" demons you'd see in cartoons or something, but my god, I didn't think it was possible for her to get even uglier. She told me I was wasting my time and told me that I wasn't gonna go.
Hell, even dad was on it! Well kind of. He sort of excused mom's actions, shoving words into her mouth, claiming they both loved me and only wanted what was best. Pfft..yeah whatever. When have either of you done what was best? I understand dad tried his best, but honestly, it just wasn't enough. I resent both of them very much right now, and I know dad's blowing up my phone right now. I'm not answering him. He can eat my ass for all I care. "Oh, I'm sorry Chelsea. I-I just want you safe", Yeah no. Fuck you Linnie. Go to hell. You barely did anything in your goddamn life. (I sadly seriously doubt Linnie would go to hell, but you never know. Could be a sheep in wolf's clothing. Whatever. I'm too angry to even make sense. Guess I take after that bitch after all).
But as pissed off and alone dad made me feel, I might forgive him one day. I don't know. I don't think he deserves my forgiveness..yet. But at least he can earn it back. I don't think mom ever will. Hell, I don't think it would matter anyways. She's never apologized to anyone in her life. There's literally nothing she can do to redeem herself at this point. She screamed and threw glass bottles everywhere. She even flipped the kitchen table like a psychopath. At that point, I just decided enough is enough, and that I was no longer a part of this family.
My only regret is Cosmo. He's just a small kid and he doesn't deserve the shit mom and dad (especially mom) put him through. But he's not 18000 yet, so I'd technically be kidnapping if I took him with me. Besides, Garret and I can barely put together a meal for ourselves, let alone care for a child. Besides, dad would completely lose his shit if he found out another one of his "precious babies" left home. Serves them right though.
Oh, that's my ride. Finally, some AC! God, can my phone just die already or something?