Hey everyone! As you all know I had been working on Divergent Gift Exchange 2020 on archiveofourown aka AO3. So here it is :D

For Corrina Lannister (AO3)

Inspired by Heart Attack by Demi Lovato. Please listen to it first to get a sense of what Tris will go through in this one-shot. I literally cry every time I hear the song. I wrote this short fic for my assignment for Divergent Gift Exchange 2020 (fic ex as I call it).
This short fic diverges from Tris's initiation party. No war obviously.
#Fix-It

The newly initiated members had a week off to choose a job of their choice and since she ranked first, Tris Prior could pick from the highest ranking job that's leader in training to the lowest ranking job which was scrubbing the toilets. Tris was happy that she had such a large number of opportunities.

"Miss Prior," someone called out, making her turn around to face them. It was Max, head leader of Dauntless himself.

"First off, I believe congratulations are in order," Max said with a smirk,causing her to blush. Tris knew she would never be able to accept compliments without turning red like a tomato. She inwardly cursed her Abnegation upbringing for refusing them praise, even when it was earned.

"You did very well, Miss Prior. Can I call you Tris?" he asked with a wink and laughing afterwards at Tris' expected Abnegation oriented response.

"Of course, Mr Walker. Can I call you Max?" she countered, feeling brave.

"Touche." He chuckled before continuing. "On to more important matters. I have a letter for you. Take some time to consider this," he said, putting an envelope in her hands that had the bold Dauntless leadership stamp on it.

Tris tried to keep her composure. After all who wanted to freak out in front of the head leader? But in reality she just wanted to squeal like Christina since she was well aware of what was inside. She rushed towards Four's apartment, where she had been living for the last two days.

He had asked her to move in. Tris knew they were moving at a very fast pace in their new found relationship, but agreed to live with him nonetheless. They had both been Abnegation, born and raised, so she knew he would respect her boundaries. So here she was, fishing the key from her bag. Tris was excited. It was a once in a lifetime opportunity. Leadership only directly approached those who showed potential.

"Tobias! Tobias, where are you?" she looked around the apartment. Rather than sticking with his smaller, single apartment they had moved into a large one for both of them.

"Tris! Tris, what's wrong, love?" Four approached her, a worried expression on his face. Tris stared in his deep blue eyes and decided to be bold for the second time in the same day.

Jumping up, she wrapped her arms around his neck and standing at her tiptoes, kissed him passionately. Without wasting a second, Tobias wrapped his arms around his girlfriend as he lifted her off the ground all the while kissing her passionately. He carried them backwards, towards their bedroom. Feeling her back hit the wall, Tris decided to slow down and softly ended the kiss. Smiling at her boyfriend, she kissed his nose, making him smile.

"You ok?" Tobias asked her and she smiled softly, her cheeks flushing at his smirk. Of course, his ego appreciated the sentiment. She smacked his arm jokingly.

"I was thinking that maybe I can choose my job." Tobias's smiling face changed to a blank expression. Tris added with a smile, "And I was thinking that maybe my amazing boyfriend will help me identify the pros and cons of what's available."

His answering smile was enough to make her melt.

So they sat on their bed and made the list of available jobs in and out of the Dauntless compound. From leadership to janitor and all.

"I got this letter too," she said cautiously. She knew how opposed he was to the leadership.

"Who gave this to you?" Tobias asked, his expression darkening.

"Uh, Max approached me when I was coming back home." Tris searched his face for any sort of hint that he was happy for her. She must not have found what she was looking for and Four saw her shoulders sag.

"Can you read it to me?" she whispered, afraid of upsetting him. He sighed and nodded, bringing a small smile on her face. Tris pulled his face to hers for a sweet kiss, expressing her gratitude for the small gesture. He cracked a smile and kissed her softly before pulling back.

"Miss Prior,

We are writing this letter to congratulate you on your amazing performance during initiation. We were happy to know that both of your instructors were happy with your hard work. Eric, who was the leader in charge of overseeing initiation, was thoroughly impressed with your achievements. He also put in a good word about your smart thinking during capture the flag. With that said, we would be ecstatic to welcome you to the leadership team. You showed great potential, stamina and leadership skills and are a true asset for the faction.

Looking forward to welcoming you to our team.

Regards,

The Dauntless Leadership Team."

Tobias looked at her and she was smiling so wide she looked like a cheshire cat. He frowned, wondering if she knew just how corrupt the Dauntless leaders really were. He didn't understand how she could want to join them.

"You're not considering this are you, Tris?" Tobias asked, warily.

"I was thinking this can be a great opportunity for making some good changes. I have many ideas to make Dauntless better, like going on more trips such as capture the flag to ensure the camaraderie among initiates-" But, Four cuts her off.

"Tris, if they find out that you are Divergent, you are as good as dead." Tobias hissed.

"But, I wasn't caught back there during initiation and Tori deleted my Aptitude test result. They have no evidence."

"They are working with Jeanine," he whisper yelled. "Jeanine is the smartest person in our city. Let's not forget she had been suspicious of you. They are corrupt people Tris!"

Frowning, Tris looked in his eyes for something that wasn't there. Acceptance.

Sighing sadly, she shook her head no. His smile that appeared when she did was so genuine that she felt herself melt. She would do this for him, the man who loved her. And she had made her decision.

"Let's look through the other jobs, Tobias. I still need one ya know," she finished, jokingly to which he let out a small laugh and pulled her in his lap.

"No leadership, check." Tris murmured.

"Next!" he called out, in jest.

"Faction Ambassador?" she asked, in hopes he would say yes. He wanted what was best for her right?

"Uh, Tris. Faction Ambassadors and leader's assistants are a part of the leadership team." Tobias reminded her, watching her shoulders sag a bit.

"Tattooist and piercer?"

"Are you kidding me, Tris? You can't refuse customers even if they are drunk and handsy men who might want something done for their dicks." Four shouted, her flinch gone unnoticed.

"What do you want me to be then Tobias? Fence guard, then?" She asked with a furious expression. "You can't decide my career for me!" Tris yelled, shocking him.

"It's not safe, baby. I don't wanna lose you." he said and Tris took a deep breath and nodded. This was a genuine reason and she knew it.

"Control room?"

"It's boring and requires too much computer skills."

"I had an aptitude for Erudite too you know," Tris shot back. "Tobias I know it can be boring, but you are there too. And I really love computers, if you didn't know that."

"Tris." he said warningly. Tris kew this was a thinly veiled threat. For what, she didn't quite know.

"Fine!" she said with an annoyed huff. "Infirmary?" Tris asked, praying he wouldnt make her scrub toilets. If he went too far, he knew she would snap and leave. Infirmary didn't sound too bright for she would have to be willing to put her hands on naked men too. The thought made him grit his teeth.

"Seriously, Tris? Naked men, remember?" Four replied and her shoulders sagged even more. But, then she looked up with a look that said 'don't mess with me.'

"Infirmary isn't a hub for naked men, Four," she spat angrily. "Injured and sick people come there. They need help and I know I can be one of those who save lives because I have been Abnegation for my whole life. What is your problem?" He just rolled his eyes at her behavior, though Tobias knew she was right. He just wanted what was the best and safest for her. Something that wouldn't require too many working hours. He needed his girlfriend for himself.

"Bartending? I don't have any options left now, Tobias. Training initiates is a seasonal job." she cried out.

Tobias glared at her before saying "Yes, bartending is a great option." her eyes lit up at the prospect of seeing her friends, knowing they always had drinks every few days, but Four squelched her small hopes. "Since there are horny and drunk men in bars, right?" he accused.

"What! No! I only love you Tobias. Only you, please try to understand me." she pleaded. What was wrong with him?

"I know!" Tobias exclaimed, "you can work in the Dauntless daycare. With your Abnegation upbringing, it would be the perfect job. And then you can train new initiates with me too."

Tris wanted to argue with Four, wanted to tell him that she only asked for help, not a full decision based on jealousy and petty excuses. But, instead, with a dejected nod and a sad sigh, Tris gave in to his wishes. After all, every relationship needed sacrifices.

The next day, Tris decided to pay Max a visit, bumping in Eric on the way.

"Hey, uh, Tris," Eric said. His ears were a noticeable pink. "Have you decided what you wanna do?"

"Eric, hey. Yes, I have decided what job I want," Tris replied with a fake smile. She moved to continue on her way to Max's office but Eric's hand on her shoulder made her pause again.

She wasn't quite being honest, that much Eric could tell. "What's wrong, Tris? Aren't you happy with your choice? You can take any job in the compound you know," he probed. Tris wanted to cringe. He had nailed it.

"It's nothin'. Just a bit tired," she lied and realized he didn't believe it. Heck, she didn't believe what she just said. She stepped again and Eric's hand fell from her. He didn't follow her at least. Her ears still burned as she made her way to Max's office. With a mental shake of her head, she tried to put Eric's inquiries behind her and knocked on his door. She knew that he was just being nice and sympathetic. It was normal. Except, it wasn't. Eric was never nice. He was a demanding, perfectionist and insensitive asshole. Why did he care?

"Come in," Tris heard a tired voice call out, so she went in.

"Ah Tris, have you decided?" Max asked, a little too hopefully and she felt bad for what she was about to do.

"Yes, I believe I decided on my jobs taking into account everything about me." Tris said, without any emotion in her voice. She wanted to say, Four decided on my jobs taking into account everything about me, or so he thought he did.

"Aaand?" Max drawled out.

"I want to work in the Dauntless daycare and training initiates," Tris said and watched as Max's eyes widened. She knew Max approached her because he had faith in her. But, Tobias knew her better or, she wanted to save her relationship. Max would have to accept that, but a small part of her wished he would talk to Four and persuade him someway. Tris wanted to be a leader.

"Tris! I can see this isn't your choice. Don't ruin your future for a boyfriend. Four isnt thinking clearly. Please reconsider your options even if you don't want leadership. There's so much a top ranked initiate like you can do."

"Four didn't say anything," she snapped and immediately regretted it when she saw the head leader's face change from concern to closed off.

"I think it's better for me, too, Max. With my Abnegation upbringing. Besides, I love kids," she tried to soften the blow. His face remained expressionless. Great, she had hurt his feelings too. Tris didn't mean to snap, but she was mad, not at Max or Eric. But, herself. She let Tobias get away with anything. But, she couldn't take it back, even if she tried.

"Thank you for your time," Tris said, trying to hold back her tears as she stood up and exited.

Since she had already closed the door, she didn't hear Max saying "You are ruining a promising future, kid."

A few days later she got word from Will who got accepted in leadership training.

Tris walked home unable to wrangle her face into anything but the sad downward curl of her lips. It was clear that even after two months in her new job in the daycare, she felt miserable. But, Tobias was happy, and that's all that mattered to her.

The spark of curiosity and mischief in her eyes had died and she became more and more depressed with each passing day. Even working with the spirited and endlessly-energetic Dauntless dependents hadn't managed to keep her own mood up.

As if she didn't have enough on her plate, when she opened the door to her shared apartment, a drunk Four stumbled towards her, looking her body up and down with a sick smile.

She didn't have enough time to react when he pulled her in his arms and kissed her hungrily. Tris didn't want to, but kissed him back nonetheless.

"Tobias!" she hissed. "No!"

"I missed you soooooo muuuuuuuuuch babyyyyy. I promise you will loooooooove it." he said, clearly hammered.

"You are drunk, so no." Tris shouted, but he ignored her protests.

He picked her up and stumbled towards their bedroom. Tris tried to stop him, but he was far too drunk to think clearly. She couldn't hurt him, even if she wanted to. He had taken everything from her and she wouldn't let him take her innocence. But, she couldn't hit him, he was drunk.

Four rid her of her clothes and then did the same for himself and climbed on top of her. He probed her slit with one of his fingers and began stroking her clit with another finger, making her gasp at the sudden intrusion.

When he decided she was wet enough, he slid his fingers out of her, making her whimper. Tris kept wishing this wasn't happening that way. She wasn't ready by any means, but she loved him enough to let it continue.

In his inebriated state, Tobias didn't remember that his girlfriend was a virgin nor did he remember her seventh fear as he thrust into her hard, causing her to cry out in pain, tears streaming down her face. But, Tris loved Tobias enough to forgive him and make up some story about their mind blowing lovemaking session that she enjoyed a lot.

It had been a month since that night and Tris had been very sick, throwing up frequently and craving different foods. She also had mood swings which were giving her friends whiplash.

She decided that it was enough. She had to stop being stubborn and get checked out.

Marlene greeted her at the infirmary reception and took her inside. The doctor was very understanding and let her explain her medical concerns as he took some blood. He also gave her two pregnancy tests to take.

Ten minutes and two positive tests later, the doctor approached her with the results. With a deep breath he spoke up, "It looks like you are pregnant Miss Prior. We can do an ultrasound to see how far along you are, that is if you wish to continue this pregnancy."

Abortion wasn't an option for Tris as she was a firm believer that no matter how they came into being, babies deserved a chance to live their lives. She was told to lay on an exam table and lift her top allowing the doctor to spread some cold gel on her stomach.

A picture popped up, one that Tris didn't understand what it was. But, the doctor did and smiled at her. "You are four weeks along Miss Prior. Congratulations!" he said genuinely.

Tris smiled, her first genuine smile since her initiation ceremony, and he handed her the printout of her baby's first ultrasound. Tris knew that Tobias never had an ideal family; his father was abusive and hid his tracks well, which was why no one discovered the truth behind his wife's death. Four was alone and marred and she knew it would take her time to calm his apprehension about being a wonderful father.

He would be a good father. She tucked the printout under her arm and made her way towards the control room where Tobias had his shift.

Tris walked in the control room and immediately felt the thick, tension filled atmosphere. She walked over to Four's seat but found it empty. She thought that he might've gone to check the problems in the Factionless sector. They had been creating uprisings and Tobias used to go to check and somehow always managed to appease them.

"Zeke, have you seen where Four went?" Tris asked, knowing how close Zeke and Tobias were.

Zeke gave her a sympathetic look and pulled her in his seat to give her better access to his computer. Tris was comfortable since she knew that Zeke's feelings for her were platonic and brotherly. She looked at the screen and noticed Tobias standing near the train tracks, a few bags were slung on his shoulder.

He wasn't standing alone. There was a woman beside him who had curly, chocolate brown hair just like his. The woman turned and smiled, directly at the camera and Tris gasped as she noticed her familiar hooked nose and sun kissed skin. Evelyn Eaton stood beside her son, grinning mockingly at the camera

Tris couldn't believe her eyes. She clearly remembered attending Evelyn's funeral when she was six. How was it possible that she was alive, albeit apparently Factionless, and how could Tobias hide something this big from her. Wasn't the whole basis of their relationship communication and honesty?

He knew and he kept this from her. She dashed out of the control room and towards their apartment. She looked through everything. He had taken everything he owned except the blue sculpture. The same glass decoration he left as a last act of rebellion for Marcus to see when he chose Dauntless, he had told her after he took her to his fear landscape.

Tris broke down, her legs giving away beneath her as sobs wrecked through her body.

He had left her and the only reminder of her broken heart were the words ringing in her ears.

The feelings got lost in my lungs

They're burning, I'd rather be numb

And there's no one else to blame