Chapter 38

Lisa

A jolt of pain shot through my neck as I lifted my head to look at my phone and check the time.

Who the hell is banging on my door at 7:15 in the morning?

I pushed myself off the couch and rubbed my eyes as I slowly walked toward the door.

"Open up, Lisa," Bambam bellowed from the other side.

I opened the door and almost fell back as he marched past me.

"Since when do you put your deadbolt on? I don't have a key for that," he accused.

"Sorry," I followed him into the living room and lay down on the couch, "my brain is a little fuzzy."

He sat back on the leather chair across from me. His face was tight and I could tell he was anxious. "Where have you been? I called you all day Sunday and yesterday. You never returned my calls."

I'd spent the last two days at the hospital with Jennie and barely even looked at my phone.

"I was up north. I got home late last night, really late." I yawned.

"Oh. I thought you were just dodging my calls." His tone relaxed slightly. "Up north? You two seeing each other again?"

"No, I don't know. It was a crazy weekend."

He frowned and blinked at me, waiting for me to elaborate.

"I went to the charity event with Shae on Saturday, then went up north Sunday to try and talk to Jennie. We barely started talking and there was an accident with one of her daughters."

His eyes grew wide. "What happened?"

"Some asshole in the lake was driving his WaveRunner around like a dick and came in too close, ran her over." My heart raced as I thought about that moment all over again … Jane on the ground with blood under her head, the pure fear splayed across Jennie's face as she stared at her daughter. Ruby curled up in my arms covering her face from the events unfolding around her. I would give anything to be in a room alone with that guy for ten minutes.

"Holy shit."

"Holy shit is right, it was intense. Beyond intense." I rubbed my eyes with my palms, trying to force the images out of my head.

"Is she okay?"

"She has a concussion and she looks pretty beat up, but she will be okay. She woke up yesterday and the first thing she asked for was ice cream." I chuckled. "She's going home this morning."

"You didn't stay up there to take her home?"

My stomach tightened. "I wanted to, but I didn't want to push Jennie. I'd already been there for two days and she thanked me over and over for it, but I'm trying to give her space, especially now with this stuff with Jane. As bad as I want to force her to talk to me, Jane needs her more."

Bambam sighed and locked his hands on top of his head, looking up at the ceiling. "Listen, about all this Jennie stuff … I just want you to know I don't blame you for going off on Blaire, or for firing me."

"I'm glad you understand about Blaire, she deserved it." I looked him straight in the eye. "And I'm sorry about the firing thing, but I can't have her interfering with my personal life because she thinks I need to concentrate on hockey. I won't let that happen."

"I know. I get it." He sighed. "I'm not worried about the money part, Lisa I just hope that we're okay."

"You and Blaire?"

He laughed. "I couldn't give two shits about how Blaire and I are at the moment. She has some major work to do on herself or I'm taking the kids and I'm gone. I told her that."

I raised my eyebrows in surprise. "You did?"

A sly smile spread across his face as he narrowed his eyes. "Yep, you would've loved the look on her face."

"Hmm, a shocked Blaire? I'd pay a lot of money to see that."

"That face wasn't nearly as good as the one she made when I told her we had to put the Vail house on the market to make up the difference in losing your contract." His head fell back on the chair as another laugh escaped him.

A twinge of guilt rolled around in my stomach. "About that … I know a couple young guys just graduating college who are looking for agents. I'll send them your way to make up for it."

"I'm not worried about it, really. I have money stashed that she doesn't know about. We're fine, financially." His eyes darted nervously around the room before settling on mine. "I just hope that we are okay."

"Bambam, my boy, we've been best friends for almost twenty years. It's going to take something bigger and badder than Blaire to scare me off."

Nodding and smiling contently, he looked at his watch. "Shit, I gotta get to work."

I stood and followed him to the door.

"Please tell Jennie I'm so sorry about what happened. Keep me posted, if you guys need anything."

"I will, buddy. Thanks."

He shook my hand and disappeared down the hall.

I worked out with Viper … checked my phone.

I took a shower … checked my phone.

I made myself dinner … checked my phone.

Jennie brought Jane home from the hospital at some point today and I was really hoping she'd call or text and let me know how it went. Was she all settled in? What were they doing right now? Did they need anything? Not knowing what was going on, and not being there to help out was killing me.

I thought about that morning out on the back deck with Sophia when she told me about Jennie's past and asked me to be patient with her. Patience wasn't my problem, I was in no rush to move on, there were no other women, nor would there ever be now that I knew Jennie was out there. Patience I could do, but how the hell could I win her over if she kept pushing me away?

Everything Sophia said that morning was rattling around in my head.

"Jennie was damaged."

"She blamed herself for her and her dad's failed relationship."

"She fought like hell to keep her family together with Kai, but ultimately it didn't matter."

"To protect herself now, she panics and she runs."

This was it, Jennie's defense mechanism rearing its ugly head. "Get them before they get me," like Sophia said. The feelings were becoming too real for her, and instead of dealing with them head on, it was easier for her to push me away and pretend they didn't exist. If she admitted that she loved me too, it meant leaving herself vulnerable to the possibility of more pain and that was something Jennie was clearly willing to go to great lengths to avoid.

What Jennie didn't know was that she may have met the one person on the planet more stubborn than her. When I set my sights on something, I get it one way or another. I'd never given up easily and I sure as hell wasn't starting now.