Hello everyone. I believe you are wondering if I am dead or alive, if you are reading this story. I have many reasons for my silence.
1- I have lost my motivation and so many things I had planned for this book, I forgot it. I hadn't thought I would forget you know I hardly forget stuff but now that it has happened I don't like it one bit. That is why I was not updating.
2- I got a little depressed by a review I got on my one-shot. I know the reviewer didn't mean any harm but I still feel somewhat offended. Internet and was my haven when something went wrong but now I feel like it's just no matter what I do for what reason, someone is always being offended. I know a lot of people like smut and reading explicit content and we have lots of it on the website but being told to change the content of your book doesn't sit too well with a depressed being like me. I have a hard life and a terrible past so I wanted to just forget about everything. It seems like the world hates me. This also caused my confidence in writing a story waver.
3- I live in a part of the world where you don't get everything others do. I mostly have internet and electricity crisis so that is also a reason.
4- I got a visit from a very special guest who I was expecting. But that guest brought another guest who I do not like. So the unliked guest decided to do something about it. So right now, I am rolling around the room on the floor, trying to write while my guest piss my already cranky mood.
Guess what the expected guest is my monthly period cycle while the unliked one are the abdominal cramps which are so bad this time that I literally can't stop the tears and restless flailing around. Panadol is not much help either. So these guests are temporarily disabling my writing.
5- I have been told about my annoying English writing. Sorry to some very rude people but not everyone is a native English speaker. Despite not being my mother tongue, English has always been my favorite language so I try my best to learn it more and more everyday.
6- I have anxiety because my whole grade got promoted to the next grade while I had some problem as I moved here so I am waiting like an impatient human because lets be honest who would like to study Commercial Geography and also be well aware of the world's Geographical features in case you get an unseen question. Oh I so am not looking forward to exams especially when my whole grade got promoted. Who likes them anyways.
7- I am beyond pissed because of all the above reasons and well lets add another one to the mix. I literally cannot come up with any new ideas for my stories. Nothing. Zilch. Nada. My brain seems like someone used memory serum on me. I am also scared of people's opinions on my story because lets be honest I am a Pansycake and I don't want people hating me or being rude. I already am bullied a lot in my society and I do not have the best relations with my family either.
I know I am ranting here but I can't help it. I just wanted it all out in the open so you all can know what I am going through.
Despite all the reasons, I am preparing myself for a comeback. As I had promised, I won't be abandoning my story no matter how lame it turns out to be. Because lets face the truth, we all hate it when a story we are getting interested in is left incomplete.
So I will be updating soon I guess but spoiler alert, the story is nearing its end.
Thank you so much to all those who are reading this or who have been reading my book. It feels like I am not alone in God's universe. Your support no matter what way makes my day and I love you all.
P.S. I would be really happy if you would like to be friends with me cuz I certainly hardly ever have any friends.(I am a nerdy student with high scores that's why)
Love you all and Be Brave my lovelies :)