JJ sat across from Ben (formally known was Ash) for a long time, both of them taking comfort in the others presence. JJ knew it would take a long time before either of them talked to each other about anything that had happened, and she was okay with that, it was all to fresh.
"Hey, I'm gonna go talk to my team. Let me know if you need anything" JJ said standing to go face her team for the first time since the whole thing had gone down.
JJ walked past the curtain to where the rest of the team was, each doing what they normally did, Rossi and spencer were in the middle of a game of chess, Hotch was going over case files, Emily was sitting reading a book, and Morgan was sitting with his headphones in.
All eyes turned to JJ, but she just sat down, specifically choosing the seat next to Hotch, she could tell the boys had been avoiding her worried she would be scared of them. But as bad as it was, getting raped was nothing new for JJ, it had been happening since she was 10 years old, and she had come to trust her team more then anything.
"So, I know you all have things to say, just get it over with" JJ said plainly, no one said a thing, even though JJ was right. "Ok then, I would much rather do this now so Rossi you go first"
"Um I's not sure this is a good idea" Rossi said looking around for someone to back him up.
"Just do it" JJ was getting annoyed.
"Ok fine" Rossi gave in. "What you have gone through, not just recently but all your life has been very traumatic, and I think you should see someone about it"
JJ knew that was coming, she had been expecting it ever since she told Hotch everything in the Hotel room. "Ok. Spence you next"
"Oh, um well, I was just going to day I called Garcia and she's working on getting any stuff Ash might need right away"
"Ash would like to go by Ben now, and thank you spencer, I was hoping I wouldn't have to go to the store when we get back" JJ said, the team was growing more concerned by the moment, JJ shouldn't be acting this normal after everything. "What about you Morgan"
Morgan who had been silently watching the whole thing play out was still a little concerned that JJ would be scared of him so he kept whatever said short. "I just wish you would have told us earlier; we could have done more"
JJ nodded; he was right. "Emily"
"Oh, we can talk later" she said, it would be easier to talk if it was just her and JJ- and maybe Ben.
"Yeah, JJ I would like to speak to you when we land before you go home, you're not in trouble or anything, we just have a few things to discuss" Hotch said before JJ even asked.
JJ didn't want to talk to Hotch, she just wanted to go home, but she knew it was necessary, plus she would be able to see Penelope. "Okay, thank you all for actually speaking to me" and with that she stood up grabbing her Go-bag and walking back into the section with Ben.
She once again sat down across from him, he was staring out the window just like when she left. Setting her bag at her feet she pulled out two books.
"Would you like to read one of my books?" JJ offered; she knew he wouldn't want to sleep in fear of nightmares.
Ben head snapped towards JJ looking a little startled, he had been zoned out. "Oh yeah, sure thanks" JJ handed him one of the books, and he took it happily immediately started reading.
Several hours later the jet had landed and JJ was hit with the fact she was now respoable not only for herself but also for Ben. Ben was out of the jet first, With JJ being last, the whole team was juts kinda standing outside waiting on JJ, Rossi offering her a hand as she walked down the stairs, her ribs made it painful since she her painkillers had worn off.
Ben was standing a short distance away from the team, arms crossed and looking at the ground, she understood, his instincts told him everyone was a threat. JJ walked up to hi getaly grabbing his hand, guiding him into the building, followed by Hotch and Emily everyone else going straight to their cars.
JJ didn't let go of Bens hand as they rode the elevator up to the BAUs floor, when the elevator opened Penelope was standing waiting on them, normally she would have attacked JJ with a hug, but she stopped herself for several reasons, JJ was injured and a hug would not feel good, she might scare her, and that Ben was there and had pushed himself into JJs side.
"Oh my god, your okay" Penelope breathed out like she didn't believe it without seeing it.
"Yeah Pen I'm okay" JJ said walking out of the elevator and they all made their way through the bullpen and into JJ's office, Hotch Emily right along with them. JJ didn't like there being so many people in her office but she kept her mouth closed.
She motioned for Ben to sit down in her couch. "I need to go talk to Hotch before we can go back to the house. are you gonna be okay in here with Penelope and Emily?"
Seeing the panic on Ben's face she realized that he was probably scared of Women, just like how she would be scared of men. "They are safe, I promise, and they can stand on the other side of the room if you want"
Ben nodded that and Penelope and Emily moved to stand towards the back of the office.
"You wanna talk now?" JJ asked Hotch
"I think is now is the best time to do it," He responded and the two made their way to hotch's office.
Hotch sat down at his desk JJ sitting across from him. Hotch studied JJ for a while, no doubt profiling her. She had gone through so much in the past few days, and the act of acting like she was fine was concerning, she was allowed too not be fine.
"JJ you know you have to take time off" Hotch knew JJ hated taking time off, but it was necessary.
"How Long?" as much as JJ didn't want to take time off, she needed it, to grieve, recover, get Ben settled.
"As long as you need, I'm serious. Its policy to pay you in full during that time so don't worry about that. And I will not allow you to come back to work for at least a month, maybe a month and a half"
"I really should be fine for work in a week or two" JJ argued but she knew Hotch wouldn't give in.
"You are not coming back to work in two weeks. I know Emily is coming to stay with you, I will ask her when you ready.
"I'm an adult I think I'm able to know when I'm ready for work"
"JJ I'm saying this as your friend not your boss, no matter how much you might deny it you are hurt, you have PTSD not only from the past few days but also your childhood, you just lost your best friend, and witnessed two other deaths, and is going to start taking care of your little brother, who you thought was dead. You're not okay. I can't tell you to but I want you to see a therapist.
Hearing Hotch list everything pushed all those feelings she had hidden away back, there was a weight on her chest she couldn't seem to get ready, and she needed to get home before she had a full breakdown, but she couldn't bring herself to stand up and walk to her office.
Hotch must have noticed this so he pulled out his phone sending Emily a quick text, while JJ stared blankly behind him, he let her sit for a few moments to compose herself before standing up and walking over to the chair JJ was sitting on.
"Come on, let me walk you to your car, Emily Ben and your stuff is already in there" Hotch said placing a hand on JJs shoulder breaking her out of her zoned-out state. She just nodded and let Hotch help her stand up and she walked with him all the way down to the parking lot.
Emily was sitting on the driver's seat of JJs car with Ben in the backseat behind her. JJ signed and climbed into the passenger's seat; she really didn't think Emily needed to come back to the house with her.
Emily and Hotch whispered to each other for a moment before Emily started driving towards JJs house.
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A/N: im sorry the chapter have been shorter I'll try to make the next one longer life has just been hectic
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