I take a deep breath as I stand outside of the 21st district where a one night stand I had 3 months ago works. That exact one night stand is exactly how I ended up 12 weeks/3 months pregnant.
The one night stand wasn't with a stranger no. Jay and I had gone to high school together, and were best friends since we were kids, but lost touch when he went to the army, and then reconnected 3 months ago, we've talked since but just making sure the other is okay, nothing serious or nothing about that night.
I haven't had an ultrasound since the first one after I took the test and I'm due to go back tomorrow, but I need to talk to Jay.
I walk into the building and see a woman behind the front desk so I say. "Hi my name is Grace Johnson, is detective Jay Halstead here?" I ask politely.
"Yeah, he's upstairs, you can go up, they are just doing paperwork today." The woman that the name tag says sergeant Trudy Platt, says.
"Ok, thanks." I say as I walk up to the cage and she buzzs me in. I take each step carefully, thinking of what I'm going to say as I get to the top and see him there. At his desk working on paperwork, everything goes out the window. He's so gorgeous, too gorgeous.
"Hi, can I help you?" Another man asks me, and that's when Jay looks and sees me. "Grace?"He asks and I nod. "What's wrong?" He asks as he comes over to me.
"Can we talk?." I asked. "It's okay, Adam she's with me, just wait here Grace, I'll tell my sergeant I need some time. I'll be right back." he says and goes to the office at the back of the bullpen.
"So how long have you known Jay?" a man Jay called Adam, asks me after Jay out of sight.
"Oh uhh, I've known Jay for a long time." I told him.
"Hey, Gracie, I'm ready, sorry for the wait. Adam call me if there's a case, if not I'll see you guys either tonight at Mollys or tomorrow." Jay says and leads me back down the way I came up.
"What's up Gracie, you okay?" He asks me on the way down.
"Why don't we go grab food and we will talk?" I ask
"Yeh that sounds good." He says as we get into his GMC truck.
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We drive to a diner in silence, once there we get out, he takes my hand, it feels natural, I've missed this. I've missed being Jay's girl.
We sit and order, I just order a salad, and he orders a burger and fries. We ordered two chocolate milkshakes as well.
"So Gracie, how have you been?" He asks and I sigh.
"Stressed." I say honestly.
"How come?" He asks as he takes a sip of his milkshake. The waitress just brought us.
I tuck pieces of my auburn hair behind my ears and look into his blue eyes with my green ones.
"I'm pregnant Jay, and yes It's yours." I said, sighing, as he looked shocked.
"When did you find out?" He asks, still shocked that I can see the wheels turning in his head.
"6 weeks ago." I say.
"Why didn't you come to me then?" He asks and I can see the hurt on his face.
"Because I was scared Jay, we have barely talked since then and I was scared that that night had messed up our friendship." I explained.
"I get that, but that night made me realize I wanted to be with you Gracie, but I was undercover for a while and it messed with my head. I was just getting into a place where I could be with you. Actually I was gonna call you tonight, as I talked with my therapist this morning and I'm doing a lot better." Jay explains.
"Really?" I ask with tears in my eyes, that's all I want is for Jay and I to get back together. We were together throughout highschool and right up until he left for the army, then I was starting university and we both thought it be better to just be friends tell he got back, but when he got back I was just starting out as a nurse at med so I was busy and he was a mess with PTSD, I tried to be there but it was hard on both of us. So we lost touch until three months ago.
"Of course baby, you're my girl remember?" He says and asks.
"I remember, I still love you Jay, and I guess that's what made it so hard to tell you because I didn't know what your reaction was going to be and I don't think I could lose you again.'' I said with tears falling.
"Oh Gracie, I still love you too, that's why I needed to be in the right place for us to be back together again.'' Jay says, taking my hand and kissing my knuckles softly.
"I want that, I want us again, but are you ready for a child?" I ask
"Yes, I am ready for us and this baby." Jay says coming to sit by me and wrapping me in a warm embrace.
"So, what does this mean? We have so much to figure out, are we in this together?" I ask
"Yes, we are in this together, and yes we have a lot to figure out, but it'll all work out, I'm here for you two.'' Jay says, kissing me softly.
"We should go back to my place and talk and stuff." He says nuzzling my hair.
"Okay sounds good." I say.
"Do you wanna come to Molly's tonight?" he asks.
"Maybe." I say.
"Okay if you don't that's fine." he tells me and I nod as he pays for dinner.
"We will see how everything goes." I say as I take his hand and we head back out to his truck, he pushes me against the passenger side door gently and kisses me passionately.
"I've missed being able to kiss you." He says, as he kisses me again.
I moan into the kiss and say when we pull apart, "I've missed this too, I love you, and I've missed you."
"I have loved you since high school and I'll keep on loving you till I die Gracie, you're my soulmate." he tells me.
"You're my soulmate to babe." I tell him as we get into the truck. It always feels so natural with him. It's just like coming home with him.
"Good, I'm glad." he says as he starts to drive to his place.
"So have you gone for an ultrasound yet?" Jay asks.
"I went for one right after I took the test but haven't been for one since, I'm supposed to go tomorrow for one, you can come if you want, I'd like you too, but you don't have to if you don't want to or can't." I say rambling.
"Of course I wanna come, what time is it? I'll tell sarge I'll be late." He says, and that makes me smile.
"Okay, it's 11am." I told him.
"Okay, why don't you stay at mine tonight, and we can go together in the morning. I don't expect anything to happen though, I want you to know that." He tells me to make me smile again, he's so thoughtful and considerate.
"Okay yea, why don't you just stay at mine though, so i can get ready without being a bunch of stuff over to your place.'' I say and he nods.
"Okay sounds good, i have a bag in the backseat, so i'm all set." he says smiling at me as he turns towards my place instead of his.
We got to my place and I let him in, he's only been here once and it was the night that we conceived our baby.
"You have a nice place, its very you." He says as he walks in and drops his bag by the door.
"Thanks, it's not much but it's mine." i say
"So living arrangements is something we need to talk about." Jay says as he comes over and wraps his arms around my waist.
"I know, what do you suggest we do about it?" I asked him, as I led him to the sofa.
"We need to find a house." He says matter of factly.
"You want to live together?" I was a little shocked.
"Of course. He says, intertwining our fingers.
"So are we actually together again then?" I ask nervously, scared for the answer.
"Yeah, I thought we agreed on that back at the diner?" Jay asks, kissing my temple.
"Well we both said we missed each other and stuff, I just didn't know where we stand anymore ." I tell him picking at my nails, it's a nervous habit I've had since I was a kid.
"I want us to be a family, if you do Gracie, it's what kept me going in the Rangers, and it's what kept me going these last few months of hell." He tells me, sighing as he rubs a hand over his face.
"I want that too, Jay, more than you think." I tell him as I take his face in my head, I love this man so much, but I'm scared.
"I'm so scared to bear my whole heart to you though, we've been through this whole relationship thing before and I know we ended mostly because of the rangers but still I'm scared." I tell him as tears fall from my eyes.
"No need to be scared this time, Gracie, I'm not going anywhere, I will even try not to go undercover very much. I'm here and I'm staying, I'm not letting you go again, Gracie I love you." He tells me and I crumble into his arms, I need his love and support right now. Yes I'm scared but I want this so badly.
"Okay, I'm willing to give us another try." I say snuffling.
"Okay, I'm glad." He says as he wipes my tears.
"I got to call my Sargent and tell him I'll be late tomorrow, I'll have to tell him why if you don't mind?" He asks and I nod.
"Okay Do you want me to go into another room or stay here?" He asks and I say "stay here please.
Jays pov:
I pull Gracie into my side as I dial Hank's number, I still can't believe I'm gonna be a dad. I have always wanted this and I've wanted it with her, I can't lose her again.
I put the phone to my ear and I hear Hank say
"Voight"
"Hey sarge It's Halstead, I was hoping I could come in around 2ish tomorrow? My girlfriend is pregnant and I need to go to the appointment with her tomorrow." I say calmly.
"Oh, Okay, I didn't even know you had a girlfriend. Anyways congratulations, and sure I'll see you then and you can explain everything to me." He says and I sigh then say. "Thanks sarge and sure thing." We hang up and I shove my phone into my pocket as I kiss Gracie's hair.
"We should tell everyone about us and the baby." Grace says out of the blue.
"Okay when do you want to?" I ask
"Tonight, let's go to Molly's, and I know your brother is going to be there tonight." She says and I nod.
"Okay if you're sure then let's go." I say as we get up and head for the door.
It's a cool spring night as we get into the truck.
"So do you know your due date? I ask as it's may already and we conceived in late February..
"November 25th." Gracie says.
"They are going to be a Thanksgiving baby." I say and she nods, smiling
"They will be." She says smiling as she runs her belly, now that I look I can see a little bump.
"Do you want to put your hand on my belly?" She asks and I nod, saying."I'd love that." So she takes my hand and rests it over her bump as I park outside of Molly's.
Once the truck is turned off I lean forward and whisper to the baby.
"Hey little one, daddy loves you so much already, and I love mommy, we are going to be such a happy family." I say kissing her bump.
I look up to see tears in her eyes.
"Why the tears, beautiful?" I ask as I wipe them away.
"They are happy tears, I just never thought you'd be this okay with everything." She tells me and that breaks my heart.
"Of course I'm okay, I love you and this baby, so much. You have given me reasons to fight now." I tell her and she nods.
"We have to tell mom and dad soon." She says sighing, she's never had. Good relationship with her parents.
"Maybe tomorrow we will meet them for breakfast?" I ask.
"Yea I'll text my mom." Gracie says
"Okay sounds good now let's get in there." I say as we get out of the truck and I take her hand as we walk into the bar.
We go over to the intelligence team first.
"Hey guys." I say as I sit at the table and pull Gracie into my side kissing her hair.
"Hey." They all say in unison but I know they want to know what's going on.
"This is Grace Johnson, my girlfriend." I tell everyone.
"Oh Hi." Everyone says. "Nice to meet you Grace."
"Hi. It's nice to meet you guys. I've heard a lot about you all." Gracie says which is truthful, the few times we've talked the last three months is always about the unit pretty much, or Med.
"So how long have you been together?" Kevin asks.
"Not long, we reconnected three months ago but I've known Gracie since we were kids." I tell the unit.
"Oh Okay." He says.
"So Gracie is pregnant, with my baby, and I'll be taking the morning off to go to an ultrasound with her tomorrow." I say and everyone gasps.
"You're gonna be a dad?" Adam asks and this makes Gracie chuckle in my arms.
"Yea Adam can't slip nothing past you man." I say sarcastically, making him roll his eyes at me.
Just then my brother comes over.
"Hey guys." Will says.
"Hey brother." I say.
"Hey will." Gracie says
"Hey I see you're not scheduled to work tomorrow, everything okay?" He asks worriedly he's always been protective of Grace.
"Yea we are going for an ultrasound on our baby." I say and his mouth drops in shock.
"You're pregnant?" He asks Grace.
"Yes, I'm three months along." She tells will.
"Wow well congratulations." Will says, clapping me on the back and hugging Gracie.
"Yea we are going to tell mom and dad in the morning before the appointment, then going for the ultrasound." She tells Him.
"Good luck, you're gonna need it with Jim and Karen." Will says and I sigh knowing he's right.
"Don't make her more nervous than she already is." I say.
"So you work at Med?" Kim asks
"Yea im a nurse over in the ED." Gracie says.
"Oh Okay." Kim says.
"So you've all known each other for a long time?" Hailey asks.
"Yeah we have, going on 30 years." Gracie says smiling at me.
"Anyways I'll let you two be I gotta get home but congratulations, happy for you two." Will says as he leaves.
"We should head home too, I'm really tired." Gracie says and I nod kissing her forehead. "We should head out, see you guys tomorrow." I say as we get up and leave.
"You okay babe?" I ask as we get into the truck.
"Just tired." She says. So I drove us back to her place.
We fall asleep after I sing to her belly and she has happy tears in her eyes.