"Are you really okay with this?" Murphy ask me, I was sitting on a rock outside camp sharpening my pocket knife.

"Why wouldn't I be?" I say still concentrating on my work.

"Well she's your girlfriend, don't you think it's weird that she wants to be a part of something she's not?" He ask totally unaware of my previous tone.

I look up at him with a death stare, sharp my knife one more time before I stand to my feet and place the bald against his neck.

"I love her and whatever path she chooses to walk! And if she wants to be a grounder then she is a grounder!" I scream at a scared Murphy before Clarke run up behind us to see what's going on. "He's fine, John and I were just having a little talk, isn't that right?" I say looking at Clarke then at the now released Murphy.

"Yeah, everything's good here" He mumble as he walk past Clarke and back into Arkadia.

"What happened?"

"Nothing" I say putting my knife back into the inner pocket of my jacket.

"He talked about Octavia, didn't he?"

"Yeah, doesn't matter, I think we're leaving soon anyways"

"Where will you go?" She walk up to me and squeezes my arm gently with a concerned look.

"We found a village, their willing to take us in" I say as I sit back on the rock and look into the forest on my left side then on Arkadia on my right.

"Do you wanna go?"

"Not really but I want her to be happy, and no one here understands what she's going through" I feel my eyes tearing up but I don't let it out. Clarke could see it and walked over to me and pressed my head against her body. But I wasn't going to cry not even in front of my best friend.

I walk through the gates of camp when my girlfriend runs up to hug me.

"(y/n) where have you been?!" She half scream and let's me go of her tight grip, still holding me by my hips.

"I was talking to Clarke"

"Did you tell her" The black haired girl ask and I nod. I felt a stomachache and I gently press my hand against the hurt. As my body tense Octavia look at me with concern.

"I'm fine O, it's just a stomachache" I assure but she still insists on taking me to bed. Since Octavia felt like a grounder we would more often then not sleep in the woods outside camp on a tiny mattress, so that's where she took me.

"Come on, lay down" My girl commands and I did so not having the energy to fight back. She put a blanket over me and kissed my forehead.

"Lay with me" I say a little over a whisper when I see that she starts walking back.

"As you plead my savior" She giggle and takes of her armor before carefully sliding under the blanket. I turn around and find my way up to her neck as she wraps her arms around my waist. "I love you (y/n), you know that right?" Octavia ask after a moment of silence.

"Babe what are you taking about?" I plead because of the fact that I was about to fall asleep in her arms.

"We don't have to leave, you don't have to do that for me" My body lifts up, my hands holding up my body over hers as I'm looking at her deep brown eyes without me even realizing I've moved.

"But I want too" I say and lean down to kiss her dry lips. She kiss me back and reach her hands up to my hair and start playing with it as our kiss deepens. "Plus what am I going to do without my gona" I smirk once the kiss broke.

"Ai hod yu in (y/n) (y/l/n)" I smile widely before leaning in and kissing Octavia again, this time with more passion.

"I love you Octavia Blake" I mumble in between our kisses and I smile at myself and at how incredibly in love I am.