I'm not crazy. Maybe not the best sentence to start with but it's true. People think I am, only because of the fact that their perception of me is supposedly true. The only one who doesn't think I'm crazy is my best friend, Anya. We've been friends ever since Anya started training as a natblida and my dad had to take me with him - due to working like a maniac - so I wouldn't cause any trouble. I usually did that in my youth, cause trouble, or even worse - get into trouble. Luckily for me Anya won her conclave and we became a couple, so I got away with way more then I had before, like stealing, setting things on fire and blah blah blah - you know the deal. That was until the war with skaikru. I didn't get reached by the gigantic fire they started but I saw everything. How the body's and faces of my friends and family turned into dust. That's when I went crazy - allegedly. The truth is, I think I might be broken. I can't stop seeing them as they die, it replays over and over in my head like a nightmare only this time it feels like I'm experiencing it all again. Clarke - one of the sky people - told me I had something called ptsd which makes you experience surten events that has taken place before, bad ones. Maybe I'm not crazy but that doesn't mean there's nothing wrong with me. I'm a freak.

"Hey (y/n) wait up!" Octavia - Lincoln's girlfriend and the most prominent one of the sky people - call from behind the stables as I walk past them. Octavia and I had recently became good friends. She's sweet to me and helps me through the ptsd rather then calling me crazy. In return I teach her how to fight (not that she needs it) and about the culture we've created. "I heard Gustus is of guard tonight, wanna make some trouble?"

"I'm always in the mood for trouble Blake" I smirk at the warrior before me. Whenever we could me and Octavia would make sure to not only survive but also enjoy life, and the easiest way to do that is to have fun, and creating trouble was our kind of fun.

"Meet me outside the gates after dinner" The younger Blake sibling nodded and gave me a small smirk before hoping on one of the horses. "(y/l/n)"

She said - nodding - before she rode away from the center of polis towards a more secluded area, probably to see her lover.

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The time had come, darkness had taken place over polis and people were leaving the life at the market to return to their home. Laughing was heard among the guards and kids were running lose, much to the annoyance of their guardians.

"Do you always spy on people?" I've felt the presence of the sky girl for quite a while now, I've been ignoring it, waiting for her to make the first move.

"Ai don't know chon you're talking about ba I'm surten ai haven't fallen kom the skai lately! (I don't know who you're talking about but I'm surten I haven't fallen from the sky lately!)" My instincts were wrong seeing as the person watching me wasn't my friend rather someone who sounded like an enemy.

"Chit do yu want asshat? (What do you want asshat?)" I stood still, on the same place I've been standing this whole time, I didn't even turn around to face the man which I could tell bothered him.

"Ai was assigned kom kill yu, a task I'm happily completing! (I was assigned to kill you, a task I'm happily completing!)" What I was about so say next wasn't my wisest move but it was a quite fun, according to me.

"Yu talk awfully a lot gon someone chon wants kom ge their job odon, don't yu think? (You talk awfully a lot for someone who wants to get their job done, don't you think?) I think the man got tired of my bullshit cause he span me around and pushed me against the tree he had been leaning towards seconds earlier.

"Yu think disha ste funny huh? (You think this is funny huh?)" The man was roughly built with scars and tattoos all over his face. I didn't bother answering him which angered him further and he pushed his hand against my throat. My face was unbothered but my mind was spinning. Less and less air got into my lungs until the point were it wouldn't get into my lungs at all. "Any last words, bitch?" He spit in my face before banging my head against the tree and making my vision fade even faster.

"Just... good luck" The man's brows furrowed in confusion at my words. What he hadn't notice was the thing taking place behind his back. My girlfriend - the commander was approaching us together with four other warriors and Octavia. Before the large man knew it he was down on his knees with his face in the mud. Two of the guards dragged him away forcefully, punching him in the process.

"(y/n)! Are you okey?" Anya ran to my side as I tried to catch my breath, my skin getting more and more color by the seconds. I tried to talk but my throat was sore so I settled with a nod.

"I found Anya as soon as I could when I saw what was happening, I'm sorry I couldn't help you earlier I was just too scared" Octavia was now by my side as well, explaining herself. She didn't have to but that made me realize that she really was my friend and that she did care about me.

"It's fine" I shortly said, motioning to my throat to tell them it was hurting.

"Let's get you to Nyko okey" Anya say as I straightened my back and start walking but I soon found myself leaning against my lover, feeling the safety in her arms.

"You'll catch me no matter what I do won't you?" I felt Anaya's lips on my forehead before I heard one simple word leave her mouth.

"Always"