It was like Rosalie was pondering what to say from the awkward silence between us, so while I was waiting for her to start speaking, we walked outside. As we were heading toward the forest in the middle of the night, I stopped abruptly. Rosalie turned to me and asked, "What is the problem?"

Not knowing how to begin, I said hesitantly, "I have eye condition called Keratoconus (A/N: I am not speaking for everyone who have this eye condition, but I have it, so I am speaking from my own experience). Uhm, basically I see things double. Uh, I have extreme light sensitivity, chronic migraines, and my balance is off. I cannot see where I am going in the night.."

Rosalie's eye softened to a degree, and she hold out her arm to me and said, "Take my arm. I will guide you".

I muttered awkwardly, "Thanks".

It seems like it was a good starting point for Rosalie to start speaking, she then asked, "What is it like having that eye condition?"

I answered, "Honestly, it's not easy knowing that there is no cure for this disease, and thankfully I was able to get three eye surgeries to prevent the disease progressing even worse in my eyes. However, the eye surgeries couldn't reverse the damage that the disease had already caused to my eyesight. I grew up being able to see and this eye condition, it prevented me to do stuff like that I used to do. Not being able to do what I like to do is what took a very long time for me to accept. I love watching movies and shows and reading manga. I used to draw manga, and now if I draw for more than 15 minutes, I will start feeling fatigued. In worst situations, my eyes would start getting red and it would feel like my eyes are burning. I cannot be on the laptop or looking at any screen for long period of time, or else fatigue, the eye burning sensation or migraines would occur. I cannot be out in the sun for long period of time because my eyes would feel extremely fatigued and later in the night, I would have migraines. I cannot stay out late in the night neither because of the bright lights of the signs, buildings and cars would trigger a migraine. My migraines, if I don't catch them in time, there are times that it would last the whole day.."

I continued, "However, this experience has taught me to appreciate the simple things in life. Even though it took longer for me to accomplish tasks that any person can do easily, I am glad that ..I had the support system to help me go through with it.. and I am so thankful to them. I don't know where I would be..without..them". The last part I choked because I was remembering my close friends who were left behind in my old life before I got here. Now the gravity of this situation is really hitting me, I'm feeling sentimental and longing to see my closest friends again.

Rosalie took a moment to digest what I have said, and she asked, "Would you do anything to get your vision back? Like.. (I nodded knowingly what she is about to ask) becoming a vampire so you can see properly again?"

I responded, "It's a tempting offer, but no, I do not want to become a vampire even if I would be able to see properly again".

Rosalie abruptly stopped where she was walking, and looked at me confusingly, " Why?.. I thought all human girls in this age would like to become a vampire."

I told her, "Rosalie, I am not Bella. No offense to her, but I actually value my human life. I want to live, grow old, and die as a human. I..I don't think I would be able to handle seeing my loved ones die before me, and constantly moving around in order to avoid suspicion. Then, unable to make lasting friendship with others, or else their lives would be in danger or my life would be in danger with the laws of the Volturi breathing down my neck".

I continued, "Even though I understand where Bella is coming from, but no matter if my mate were a vampire, I would still want to die as a human. I know it would hurt my vampire mate, because vampire mate helps the other vampire to not loser their mind with loneliness and despair. Not saying I do have a vampire mate, but I think that my vampire mate may only temporarily keep me together. I would not know how long being satisfied with their company would last until I would start feeling tired living as a vampire. Maybe 300 years? 400 years? I understand you could use your vampire life to do other things to make your life have more meaning like giving out money to charity, saving lives as a doctor like Carlisle and etc. Even though as a vampire, I may have extra time to do all those amazing things to help mankind in comparison to my current life as a human, but I personally do not want that kind of lonely existence."

Rosalie questioned, "What do you mean that you understand where Bella is coming from?".

I glanced uneasily at Rosalie as we proceed to keep walking slowly in the forest, "Well, I do not know if anyone in your family actually thought deeply of why Bella is so desperate to become a vampire besides the obvious reason, to live forever with Edward as his mate. It has been discussed multiple times in my timeline with various individuals, so I may be speculating, but hear me out. Bella came from a broken home. Her parents were divorced early on in her life, so she never got to see what is really like to be married or have a loving relationship. She turns to books to find out what is love. I'm not saying that she is naïve. She is mature in some aspect since she had to grow up compared to others in her age with Renee who is flighty and a bit unreliable. I won't be surprised if Renee had been going in and out of relationships throughout her childhood before she met Phil and finally settled down with him. I am not saying Renee is a terrible person, just as a mother, she was a bit clumsy. So, Bella knows what not to become from Renee's example. Then, with Charlie.. Charlie is a great man, but he is very awkward with expressing his feelings, and he can be a bit passive. I think to some degree, Bella felt like she was abandoned by Charlie since he didn't fight enough for her to stay with him or to keep visiting him every summer. I think Bella knows to a degree that her parents love her, but they don't show it enough to her so I could see where she is so willingly to abandon them by the age of 18 before she even got to live her life. Even though I do not like it, but I can understand where she is coming from."

I can see that what I am saying had left Rosalie to see Bella in a different light because Rosalie was silently listening to me with a thoughtful expression on her face.

I continued, "Bella actually wants a life of stability and consistency, and she would have gotten that if she had stayed with Charlie because she is more like Charlie than her mother Renee. So naturally when she first moved to Forks, she lings onto Edward and your family. You guys represent something that she always wanted: stability, consistency, and ..love. That unconditional, never-changing love between Carlisle and Esme as mates and "parents" of the coven. A brother and a sister that she never had. Be taken care of like a daughter, shown so much love endlessly by Carlisle, Esme, Edward, Alice and the rest of the coven. "Parents" and a family who she can depend on. Never have to worry about money because Carlisle and Alice with her gift, can easily provide for the coven. She is insecure of how she looks, so (I said if than when because I do not know how much of an impact my presence is changing their timeline) if she becomes a vampire, she can look as beautiful as you guys and she would no longer have to worry about how she looks. This..is also another reason why Bella fell into deep depression when Edward and your family abruptly left her after that disastrous birthday party. Her feelings of abandonment got intensified. She had no one to turn to after that traumatic experience with James, the heavy burden of the only human carrying your family's secrets, and she does not have a strong sense of self, so she didn't know to cope with the abandonment. Then, she latched onto Jacob, but ..that's a whole another set of problems that I do not want to get into."

I asked, "Do you see what I mean?"

Rosalie then proceeds to keep walking, and now it looks like she wanted to converse more. She said, "I can see where you are coming from regarding Bella. I guess Bella is not that annoying like I thought of her to be. Nevertheless, I value life more beyond all those reasons that you have presented to me of why she wants to become a vampire."

I hurriedly said, "Oh no, Rosalie. Please do not misunderstand me. I am not here trying to change your mind regarding your view of life or get you to like Bella. You can like or dislike Bella all you want and avoid interaction with Bella to not look "nasty" to her. Just don't let it hurt your relationship with your family because no matter how much you try to deny it, I know you truly, deeply care about your family. I am just wanting to help you see things in a different perspective. You have the right to hold onto your beliefs, feelings and decisions all you want. I can't make you change your mind. I may disagree at times with you, but I will respect you."

She finally gave me a genuine smile. I can see that she appreciated what I have told her, and she chuckled (A/N: Did anyone saw that Tiktok of the numerous times that Stephanie Meyers used the word chuckle? I promise I won't use it excessively like her lol), "Well, at least you have common sense to not want to become a vampire unlike Bella. I may actually like you, Alexandria".

That was the first time that she actually addressed me by my name instead of addressing me as the "human". I smiled and said, "Call me Ale, okay?"

Rosalie said with a small smile, "Sure. I am glad that I stayed behind and talked to you. I just wanted to make sure that you are not having any ideas of becoming a vampire. It's already problematic to have one human wanting to become a vampire. I don't want to deal two of Bella."

She looked at the distance, and said "Well, I don't know how much time as passed, but at this rate, it may take us forever for us to get to the meadow with the others. Knowing those mangy mutts, they might be already arguing with the rest of the family. Grab onto me."

Suddenly, I was grabbing onto Rosalie as she quickly flew through the forest. She had her hand holding onto my head for protection and my legs wrapped around her waist. I screamed in fright from the sudden transition, and I cringed internally for sounding like a little girl. I heard her laughing loudly over the wind as my long thick curly dark brown hair was flowing at every direction.

I groan internally, Ugh. Now my hair is going to be puffy. Great, I would look like a rat nest in front of everyone including the wolves. What a nice way to introduce myself to them.

I closed my eyes tightly to avoid feeling the dizziness. Few minutes later, Rosalie slowly stopped as she helped me to get down. My head was slowly pounding, and I was already getting anxious that I may get another migraine until I felt a wave of calmness passed over me which indirectly took away the incoming pain of a migraine surprisingly. I thought to myself, I wonder to what extent Jasper's gift can do.

I said softly, "Thank you, Jasper."

I heard Jasper said from what I assume few feet away from me, "Not a problem, miss."

I knew the Quileute pack was behind me because I heard shuffling noises, the heavy breathing, and numerous low growling behind me. I turned around, and before I got a good look at Sam who was in his black wolf form standing few yards in front of me, Alice appeared in front of me. I noticed that she had an anxious expression on her face, and she said cautiously, " Ale..I can't see you anymore. What did you do?"

What?

Author's Note:

I am going to end the chapter here. This is my first fanfic ever, so I know I need to do better with my grammar, and to make the story flow a bit better. Please be patient with me.

Thank you BrookeWorm3, and Twin68 (Guest)! I did not expect to get a review and my story getting a "Favorite", so quickly. I will try my best to update more frequently.