Hey guys so sorry for the delay with this chapter. I had two different routes I was thinking about going with this story and decided on this one.
As always I appreciate the reviews and also all rights to Shonda Rhimes.
Hope you guys enjoy this plot twist of a chapter.
Song : One for the Road by Arctic Monkeys
The next several weeks proved to be hard for Derek. He felt so much guilt at the fact that he cheated on Addison with a girl he barely knew. He felt even more guilty that since his night with Meredith, he spent all his time fantasizing about her. He wasn't proud to say that he walked past the class she taught every week just to catch a glimpse of her. He wanted her badly. He thought of her as a goddess, as a dream. All he wanted at all times was to be inside of her, to feel her and to have her to himself. He was trying to forget it ever happened, he was trying to focus on his relationship with Addison, he was trying to keep himself focused. Ever since that night with Meredith he didn't feel like himself, he was changing into a different person and he couldn't say that it was for the better. It had been a month since his encounter with her, a month since he changed, and he knew Addison was grasping at an answer for his distant behavior and he knew she deserved more.
Derek was hanging out at his apartment on a rainy Friday night, Addison was out with some friends and he assumed Mark was at the bar drinking. His mind lingered to Meredith but he quickly shut the thoughts down. He was becoming miserable. When he heard a knock on his door the last person he thought he was going to see was standing infront of him.
Meredith was there with her long blonde hair soaking wet. She was dressed in a summer dress that clung to her body. She was perfect.
Derek gulped.
"I need to come in" she told him
He didn't say anything, he just opened the door more to let her inside.
Derek's eyes ran over her body quickly and his thoughts went to getting her naked.
"Let's go to my bedroom, my roommate might be in soon" Derek told her
Meredith followed him into the bedroom and she could feel the sexual tension electrify.
Derek made his way closer to her and before she knew it she was kissing him and he kissed back firmly.
His hands were quickly on her ass, squeezing. She was in blind mode, nothing was making sense, she wanted him. His erection was quick and her body was responding. He had her naked in a matter of seconds
"Is this what you came here for?" he whispered seductively as he bit her ear.
Meredith groaned.
"Hmmm?" he asked
"No" Meredith stated as his mouth made its way down her neck to her breasts.
"Stop" she choked. Derek backed away, his eyes full of lust.
"I came here to talk to you, not all of this" she told him and she quickly got dressed again.
"Okay" he responded as he got dressed himself
"This is hard, what I have to tell you is hard" she told him.
He offered her his hand and she took it.
"God we're just strangers" she said, her voice filled with panic
"We don't have to be just strangers Meredith" he heard himself say
"I can be your friend" he told her.
Her eyes were hopeful.
"I know that you don't know me, and I know that I don't know you, I know all that." Meredith stated
"And you have a say in this too, I wanted to ask your opinion, get your input, involve you" she rambled
He laughed a little
"What?" she asked
"You're rambling" he told her
She suddenly felt self conscious.
"Meredith whatever it is, you can tell me." He assured her.
"I'm pregnant" she whispered.
He visibly paled.
"The baby is yours, I know because Dean got a vasectomy way before he met me, and you and I didn't use a condom that night and it's yours. This baby is yours, and I wanted to talk to you, to see what you want to do because I don't know if I want to keep it, I don't know if I want to put it up for adoption, I just don't know and you're in this with me, you have to be in this with me, this is your baby" Meredith said as she placed her hand on her still flat stomach.
Derek was silent for what felt like hours
"Please say something" she pleaded
'Leave" Derek muttered
"What?" Meredith asked
"I need to think…I need you to leave." He told her firmly
Tears formed in her eyes. She quickly exited his room and his house and ran home.
A few days later she texted Dean to meet her early in the studio before class. When he arrived he handed her a coffee
"Thanks" she muttered
"So? Are you ending this?" Dean asked
Meredith looked at him with a million questions in her eyes
"I've noticed the distance lately and I'm too old to play games."
Meredith stared at him blankly.
"Honey, do you know how old I am?"
"No" Meredith answered honestly
"I'm 52. We've been doing this for two years, I'm not leaving my wife and you know that. Doesn't mean that I don't care about you, hell it doesn't even mean that I don't love you, I know when something isn't right."
"I'm pregnant." Meredith told him
Dean sighed "How far along?" he asked
"About a month"
"Did you tell the father?" he asked
"I did."
"And"
"And he told me to leave. He was just a one night stand and he has a girlfriend."
Dean pulled her into a hug
"So what do you want, do you want to end things with me to be with that guy?"
"I don't want to be with him, I don't even know him" Meredith stated.
"Okay, so what's the problem?" he asked
"I'm pregnant." She told him
"There are options, and none of them involve losing me" he told her.
Meredith nodded.
"Class is starting honey, pull yourself together." Dean stated and kissed her head.
Meredith sighed and placed her hand on her stomach. Dean wanted to stay with her and she wasn't sure why that didn't make her happy.
The next few days Meredith thought long and hard about her baby and what it would mean for her life. She didn't want an abortion but she wasn't sure she wanted to keep him or her either. She could go the adoption route. Really she just didn't want to feel so alone in all of this. Dean couldn't help her and her friends couldn't help her and really the only other one that could help her didn't want her anywhere near him.
There was so much she wanted to accomplish. Maybe medschool. Maybe open a yoga studio. She knew her mother would kill over at the idea of Meredith becoming anything but a doctor and she only just recently started having a relationship with Thatcher and her half sibling Lexi. She didn't want to be judged for her uncarefulness and lack of good judgement so soon into getting to know them. Her options were limited however and at some point people were going to realize that she's pregnant. She curled up in her bed wearing only a light tank top that barely covered her midriff and a pair of underwear. She placed her hand on her stomach imaging it much bigger before she drifted off to sleep.
She awoke to knocking on her door. She figured Christina must have left her key at home and peered at the clock. It was only 8:00. This whole pregnant thing was already exhausting. She made her way out of bed and opened the door to see Derek.
"I thought you were my roommate" Meredith remarked looking down at her barely dressed body.
Derek followed her eyes and had to stop the tightness in his pants from forming. She had this effect on him like no other.
"Can I come in?" he asked.
"Sure" Meredith remarked an ice entering her tone.
She said nothing but made her way back to her bedroom. She covered up with her blanket.
Derek followed her and couldn't help but watch her ass in her tiny panties as she walked. He made a mental note to not look at her body when he talked to her.
Derek stood hovering by the doorway as Meredith wrapped up in her blanket in bed.
"Can you come in and close the door. No one knows" Meredith muttered.
Derek did as followed and looked around her room. She had multiple yoga mats. There was a few Buddha's placed around. She had a chakra poster and lavender bed sheets and comforter. The book Lolita was on the floor near her bed. There were also pictures of people on her walls, some he recognized as the people who were at the bar with her that night. There was also a half drank ginger-ale at the end of her bed.
He picked it up.
"Have you been feeling alright?" he asked her motioning to the ginger-ale.
"I've been exhausted" she admitted
"I read that about the first month of pregnancy. That there's a lot of fatigue. Amongst other things." He finished lamely.
"It's weird to think that there is a baby inside of me." Meredith admitted.
Derek nodded and took a seat on the bed beside her.
"I'm really sorry about the other day-" Derek started
"You were in shock" Meredith said cutting him off
"I was" Derek admitted
"But still, I could have been better about all of this. I've been thinking about it and I'm here for you, whatever you want to do, we'll do it." Derek told her.
Meredith's eyes filled with tears.
"It's the hormones" she told him
He smiled slightly.
"I'm here for those too."
"I think I want to keep the baby" Meredith told him.
For a second it looked like his heart skipped a beat or he lost his breath.
"Okay" is all he said though and he looked sincere.
"Okay." Meredith repeated.
"Can I uh talk to the baby?" Derek asked looking a bit embarrassed.
"Oh…uh sure." Meredith stated and moved the blanket so Derek had easy access to her still flat but slightly bloated stomach.
Derek scooted closer to her in the bed and surprised her when he lifted her tank top up until it was just under her breasts and placed his warm hand on her belly Meredith melted a bit at the contact. Derek smiled at her with his hand placed on her stomach and she responded by placing her hand on top of his so that they were both feeling their baby.
Derek scooted his face so that his mouth was right by her stomach. He was whispering so Meredith couldn't quite make out what he was saying but she knew it was sweet.
When Derek was done he pulled her shirt back down.
"I should get going." He told her.
She nodded and he brought his mouth to her lips for a gentle kiss and smiled at her.
He paused by her doorway
"Meredith"
He looked at her like he wanted to say something big. Instead he just broke out into a smile
"I'll see you soon." He said instead and then he was gone.
Meredith smiled for what felt like the first time in awhile.