Before Derek made it to the end of the hall of Meredith's complex, back to the elevator, back to his car and back to his own apartment, he stopped himself.

He ran his hand through his hair and sighed. He couldn't help the frustration he felt, even with their rocky start to the date, he had an incredible time. It felt right being with her, laughing with her, dating her, hell even having this baby with her. He didn't want to leave her and he didn't want their date to end. He wanted nothing more than to take her outside of her apartment and remind her of how he got her pregnant in the first place. He couldn't help but think of their night together, him pulsating inside of her completely free. But it was even more than that, as much as he wanted her physically, he was attracted to her mind, her ambition, her soul. He craved her and it didn't feel right leaving with just a kiss goodbye.

He felt torn. As much as his feelings were growing for Meredith, he still had a girlfriend. A girlfriend that he'd spent the past two years with, one that was good to him and good for him. She didn't deserve this – any of it. He needed to talk to her to end it with her and to confess his unfaithfulness so that she could be free and find someone who deserved her. He wanted to do more than kiss Meredith and that made him feel guiltier than he thought possible.

He fought every urge in his body, but couldn't stop himself when he turned back and strode towards her door.

He knocked. Loudly. He sighed running his hand through his hair again dis-shaveling it. He raised his fist to knock again when Meredith answered the door.

As soon as he saw her, his mouth was on hers. She stepped backwards and tugged at his shirt pulling him inside of the house with her. He backed her against the wall of her living room and his hands explored her body. Ripping at her dress, desperately trying to tear it off.

"I'll buy you a new one" he mumbled as he tore open the fabric exposing her enlarged breasts. Instantly his mouth licked all over her boobs hidden by her bra as his hands moved to tear the rest of her dress off. He made his way back to her lips and kissed and sucked them until Meredith moaned. Meredith grabbed his dick, stroking it while she stood in nothing but her bra and panties in her and Christina's living room.

Derek moaned and pulled off his pants as his erection poked though his underwear giving Meredith a better grip.

Suddenly, Meredith pulled down his underwear and got down on her knees sucking his dick and causing Derek to release moans and "oh baby's" while he pulled her hair. When she felt he was close, she stopped and kissed him as he wrapped his arms around her back.

"Do you want to go to my bedroom?" Meredith whispered.

"No. I want you right here" he told her as his hands wondered back over to her breasts. Tearing off her bra and taking her tit into his mouth

"You look amazing" he breathed as he sucked

He then pulled off her panties and backed her against the couch where he entered her from behind, running his hands over her ass and tits as he did.

Meredith moaned as he pulsated into her. After about a minute, Derek released inside of her and tried to catch his breathe. After a second, Meredith pushed him onto the floor and got on top of him, riding him until her climax. After which, she rolled off of him and looked at his face.

He smiled and looked down at her body

"You look good and you felt amazing" he said with a smirk

Meredith rolled her eyes and he pulled her closer to him. Breathing in her hair and sighing at how comfortable it felt lying next to her on her living room floor.

After a few moments of silence, Derek heard Meredith say "I'm scared" quietly

Derek took her face in his hands "Me too" he told her honestly

"Maybe, we shouldn't do this" she told him

"Maybe, we shouldn't" he stated

"Do you want to?" she asked him

"I wouldn't be here if I didn't" Derek said kissing her face

"It's just, It's a baby" Meredith told him as she laid her hand gently along her abdomen

"It is" Derek said with a smile

"And it's very early. We could still…"

"If that's what you want Mer" he told her sincerely

"We just don't know each other"

"I thought that was the point of the date" Derek told her with a laugh

"I'm serious here. How are we going to do this? How are we actually going to do this? We're not a couple. We're not in love. We're not even friends."

"We're at least friends" Derek stated

"Derek" Meredith stated. Derek felt the breath leave his body just like every time she said his name

"Meredith- I don't know okay? My life is a mess right now but I don't even care. I don't know how we're going to do this or how I'm going to tell my family or how I'm going to admit to my girlfriend that I cheated on her but I don't care about any of that." He told her sincerely

"I don't either" she admitted

There was a pause "I told Mark" Derek admitted

"I haven't told anyone" Meredith replied

"I know" Derek stated

"How? How do you know that I haven't told anyone?" Meredith asked quizzically

"I just know."

"What did Mark say?" Meredith asked

"That we need a plan."

"He's not wrong" Meredith replied

"My plan is to lay here with you tonight for as long as you'll let me and the rest we'll just…. Figure out"

Meredith moved closer to him laying her head on his chest. He leaned down and kissed her forehead

The stayed where they were, neither speaking for hours, just enjoying the other

Weeks passed since their first official date. Derek was reeling from his conversation with Addison. It was intense, sad and difficult. He felt incredibly disappointed in himself from his lack of faithfulness. It didn't feel like him to just have unprotected sex with someone he didn't know meanwhile cheating on his girlfriend in the process.

What he felt for Meredith was strange to him. He didn't understand it, couldn't control it and wished more than anything that he could curb this funk he was in so that he could see her- but right now he just couldn't. He missed her and he wanted to see her. It had been 3 weeks but he needed time to think.

Meredith pulled herself out of bed wearing just a sports bra and sweatpants. The first thing she did every morning was examine her stomach where her and Derek's baby was growing. She knew sooner rather than later she was going to start showing and she would have to tell people.

After their date, Meredith expected Derek to call. After a week she got frustrated, after two weeks she figured Derek was gone and out of the picture, by the third week she was questioning going through with the pregnancy.

She tried calling him a few times but he didn't answer and she figured maybe she was wrong about him. Maybe he was just a shitty guy who cheats on his girlfriend and never cared about her in the least and maybe she didn't want to have the shitty guys baby.

Christina was tired of her constant funk and her emotions felt all over the place. She had another check in with her doctor and everything seemed to be moving along perfectly with her pregnancy. She was now 10 weeks along and going through difficult rounds of morning sickness. It was tough hiding it from Christina and each day she felt like she was on the verge of just blurting it out.

Everyday felt the same, wake up, go to class, come home, do her homework and go to bed. Her friends kept encouraging her to come out and drink with them and she was running out of excuses as to why she couldn't. She couldn't help the tears brimming in her eyes as she thought of how much her life had already changed and how alone she felt.

Christina burst through her door and she quickly wiped her tears away.

"Okay, what's going on with you?" she asked plopping down on Meredith's bed

"I'm fine" Meredith told her

"You're so not fine"

"You've been all mopey and sick and now you're crying alone" Christina continued

Meredith sighed "I think it's over with Derek" Meredith told her

"With McDreamy? You guys went out like 2 times. Just come out to the bar with us tonight and we'll find you something else"

"I don't want anyone else" Meredith mumbled

"Okay- this is more than McDreamy problems"

"Christina" Meredith whined

"I'm your person. You can tell me"

Meredith wiped more tears that were falling

"If I tell you this really big thing, you can't tell anyone"

"Sure. Fine. I won't tell anyone."

Meredith paused

"Just tell me what's going on so we can dance it out and move on"

"We can't dance out this problem" Meredith replied

"Alright just spill"

"I'm pregnant"

"You're pregnant" Christina responded slowly

"That's what I just said" Meredith replied

"So when are you scheduling the… you know"

"I'm not…well I wasn't"

"Meredith, you're a junior in college. You can't seriously be considering keeping it"

"See this is why I didn't want to tell you. You get all judgy and think your way is the only way"

"Mer- my way is the only way on this one. You can't possibly think you can do this right now."

"I don't know" Meredith replied coldly after a few moments of silence

"Well I do. Meredith, this isn't a good idea"

Meredith moved past her friend with hot tears brimming slamming her apartment door behind her.

She skipped all her classes and spent the rest of her day sitting aimlessly outside under a tree at the park that Derek took her to on their first date. She knew she needed to toughen up. Whether Derek wanted to be in the picture or not, she made a decision to keep the baby and she had to figure things out. She needed to talk to her mom. She needed a job and she needed to figure out her plan for the rest of the school year and then her Senior year.

She figured that she could easily get through the year but she would be pretty far in her pregnancy by May when classes got out. She would have the baby in July and see if she could do her first semester of her Senior classes online and then decide if she could handle regular classes her last semester. Even though Christina wasn't on board she figured maybe her other friends would be and even Lexi might be able to help her with the baby when she needed to be in class. This would be okay. She would be okay.

When she got back home, Christina was sitting on her bed as if she never left Meredith's room that day after their conversation.

Meredith gave her an annoyed look as she dropped her backpack

"I'm sorry" Christina told her friend

"I know"

"If you want to keep it. I think it will be okay" Christina said

"It will be" Meredith agreed

"If it was me Mer- I wouldn't-"

"I know" Meredith replied "But I'm not you"

Christina nodded. "So I was thinking, maybe we should rent a house next semester."

"A house?" Meredith questioned

"Mer- you can't have a baby at a college apartment" Christina said with an eyeroll

"That's true"

"I found one. It's 4 bedrooms. I was thinking maybe Alex and Izzie could move in. More help than just me" Christina told her

"Wait, you would help me?"

"I'm your person" Christina told her sincerely

Meredith smiled and reached into her bag to pull out something. She found what she was looking for and handed it to Christina. It was her latest ultra sound picture

"I know it's not really anything right now"

"It's a cute fetus" Christina replied

"That's what I said" Meredith agreed

"So, it's a Mcbaby right? It's Derek's?" Christina asked

"Yeah, it's Mcbaby"

"So, you ready to go kick his ass?" Christina asked

"I don't even want to talk to him right now"

"Well I do" Christina told her friend as she exited Meredith's room and went searching for keys

"Christina where are you going?"

"To have a little chat with the McBastard"

"Christina no. I don't want you to talk to him"

"He's not just going to get away with this Mer"

"I should be the one yelling at him not you"

"I agree. So let's go yell at him"

Meredith followed Christina out of the house into the car and over to Derek's.

"You ready?" Christina asked

TBC