"Jenny you can sit down here", Dr. McCormack reclines the bed up so I boost myself up to sit down, as the subject in question at this appointment.

Nate sits in a regular chair across from me, and she sits beside me in an office like chair.

"So you've already confirmed you're pregnant?", she asks.

"Yes, I'm six weeks".

"Okay. So I'm just going to go over some basic questions with you. They might me a little tedious, so forgive me, but I just need it for your file and then we can get to the fun stuff", she smiles and me and Nate nod.

"Jenny, are you comfortable with Nate here, or we can just talk the two of us. It's totally up to you when answering the questions", She smiles at me. She has a friendly quality about her that puts me at ease slightly.

"No he can stay, he's the father and I want him here", I say, and look at Nate, who nods with a slight wink.

"Okay great, let's get started then!", She smiles. "The first appointment is often the longest just because of all the information we have to cover".

We nod.

"Okay Jenny when is your birthday?", She's holding a clipboard, filling out a sheet.

"March 31st 1993", I say.

"So you are….", She thinks about it for a bit.

"Sixteen", I say, full knowing the stigma.

"Okay, and any history of any health issues, physical or mental for yourself or any familial health issues?"

"Nope".

I think Dan might have Talks-Too-Much syndrome but that's about it.

"Okay so you are in good general health at the moment?", she questions.

"Yes, some nausea and vomiting, otherwise good", I smile.

"Okay great, and that's normal for the first trimester, it should elevate soon".

Thank god.

"And this is your first pregnancy?", she says like she knows that it definitely is.

Do people really get pregnant before 16?

And then again at 16?

"Yes", I nod.

"And what age did you get your first period?", she asks.

"13".

"Alright, and when was the first day of your last period?"

"July 15th", I answer.

"Okay and do you happen to know the conception date? It's okay if you don't", she asks, looking at me softly, probably knowing it's sort of a personal question.

"No it's okay, I do actually, July 29th", I confirm.

She writes it down.

"Okay! And I'm sorry, this may be personal, but when was the last time you were sexually active?"

I cringe slightly at the question, and my eyes unknowingly dart to Nate, who shares an awkward look with me.

"Um, July 29th", I say.

"Okay", Dr McCormack laughs slightly and then sees my face.

"Jenny, don't worry. Awkwardness, embarrassment, nervousness, it doesn't exist in here. I'm not here to judge you at all. I'm here to make sure we get you two a healthy baby… of course if that's your choice", She smiles.

I sigh of relief.

"Thanks", I say right away, and look at Nate. "And yeah it is our choice, I'm keeping the baby".

"Okay", She nods. "Then I'm going to be here every step of the way to make sure you and your baby are staying as healthy as possible… Now one last personal question".

Oh god.

"When were you first sexually active?", She asks.

I put my head in my hands slightly and just decide to make light of the situation.

"July 29th", I say, with a small laugh which is returned by Nate and Dr. McCormack.

"Okay", she laughs slightly. "Don't worry. I understand how scary this must be. Getting pregnant your first time isn't common but can happen. Everything you're feeling is totally normal".

I nod.

"Okay", Dr. McCormack shifts her chair slightly, looking at Nate. "Now some questions for Dad".

"Lay it on me", Nate laughs and we share a look.

"Okay, any health issues for you? Or any history of family health issues?"

"No", Nate replies. "Not that I know of".

"Great! Okay Jenny, this next part may be a bit awkward", Dr. McCormack says.

"I think I'm ready", I say joking. "I've already gotten the uncomfortable out of my system".

"Okay", Dr. McCormack laughs and hands me a blue gown and a small bag. "I'm going to have you change into this and do this urine sample. And then when I get back we're going to take blood and check your cervix".

My cervix?

"Okay", I nod. "Thank you".

"Of course, I'll be back in two minutes", She says closing the door behind her.

"Okay", I say getting up off the reclining chair.

"Here I'll take your purse", Nate offers and I thank him, handing him my purse so I can undress.

Nate gets up to go stand further away and not look at me changing.

"Nate", I say quietly. "You don't have to look away".

We look at each other.

"I mean if you don't want to like look away, I don't mind. You and me are going to obviously have to be comfortable with all of each other and I mean you've seen me before", I suggest.

He smiles slyly and comes back over and sits down back in his spot.

"Don't look at me like that", I laugh, taking my blouse off and handing it to Nate.

"Like what?", he jokes and I roll my eyes, shimmying out of my pants and handing them to Nate who folds them on his lap.

I'm in my bra and underwear now trying to figure out how to get the gown on.

Nate whistles.

"My girlfriend is hot", he says, with that smirk plastered across his face.

I smile at him, tying the back on my gown.

"Behave mister", I say and hop back up on the chair.

I hear a knock, and say to come in, and now Dr. McCormack has returned.

"Okay great, I'm just going to take your blood Jenny".

I nod and Dr. McCormack gets 3 little containers of blood from me.

"Great, we will send those off to just make sure you're healthy. Now this might be the uncomfortable part… especially if you've only had sex once, it might be difficult to get there, but we're going to do a pap smear, and then check your cervix okay?"

"Okay", I nod.

Gosh, what did I get myself into?

I look at Nate with a slight look of panic.

Dr. McCormack takes out something that looks like a long Q Tip.

"Okay Jenny, I'm just going to have you take your underwear off", Dr. McCormack instructs so I do as she says.

"And now we're just going to recline the chair back", She says adjusting the chair with me on it. "And then just scoot your butt up to here… perfect".

I'm in probably the most awkward position of my life.

"Okay Jenny, now feet in the stirrups", She says. "I know this is awkward, but you have to part your legs".

Luckily Nate's by my face, giving me an encouraging nod.

"Okay", I say with an awkward laugh and do as she says.

"Perfect, don't be embarrassed at all, all women have to do this at some point in their lives whether they're pregnant or not", Dr. McCormack assures me. "Now I'm going to put something in to open up your cervix here, so you may feel pressure and some pain, but don't worry, it's totally normal and not harmful at all".

"Okay", I nod, laying down.

Nate scoots his chair over slightly so he's closer to me.

"Okay deep breath in, just try and relax", she says and I take a huge breath, feeling something slightly.

"Okay keep breathing deep breaths", she says and Nate grabs my hand as it starts to hurt slightly and I wince a bit.

"Sorry Jenny, it'll be over soon", Dr. McCormack gives me a nod. "Now I'm going to stick the scope in and it'll be over as soon as you know it".

I move my legs as my muscles tighten in a bit of pain.

"Okay! Got it. Now I'm going to take the device out", Dr. McCormack details what she's doing. "Okay perfect, good job Jenny. Now one more uncomfortable thing and then you're done. I'm just going to feel around your cervix".

"Okay", I nod and before I know it she's trying to get her whole hand up there and I move away slightly as a bodily reaction.

Dr. McCormack laughs slightly.

"I'm sorry honey, I know this is uncomfortable, I'm just trying to check around for any low placenta or anything uncommon", Dr. McCormack strokes my leg slightly by my ankle to try to calm me down a bit.

"Sorry", I say. "I'm just not used to it".

"It's okay, now deep breath in", She feels around more in there. "You're very tight down here so it's quite hard to get up there at all, but from what I can see everything is normal. Okay we're done now, aren't you relieved?"

"Yes", I laugh a bit, as does Nate, closing my legs and sitting up on the bed, as she throws her rubber gloves in the trash.

"Perfect, now I'm just going to do a short physical, will only take about ten minutes", Dr. McCormack assures.

She takes my temperature, checks my blood pressure, my eyesight, and lastly asks me to step on the scale to measure my weight.

"Okay you're only about a hundred and nine pounds, so that worries me slightly", Dr. McCormack nods in thought.

"Really?", I'm a bit worried now and I look over to Nate. "Why?"

"Most women giving birth are at least 125, so it may be slightly more difficult, being that you're very tiny. But we commonly see that in teens, it just means we may have to induce you earlier than your due date", Dr. McCormack says calmly, as she sees the worry on my face. "Nothing to worry about, we'll just want to keep it in mind as we go forward".

"Okay", me and Nate nod.

"But all in all, a perfect checkup! You're in great health Jenny, and you'll come to see me every 3 weeks or so, I'll have you come in more towards the end of your pregnancy so we can monitor how it's going and if we need to induce early, or some smaller women we find it's easier to do c-sections, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it", Dr. McCormack smiles and I nod.

"Thanks Doctor", I really do feel like I found a great person to help me.

"Of course, now do you guys want to get to the part you've probably been waiting for?", Dr. McCormack's face lights up slightly. "Want to take a look and see if we can spot your baby?"

I look at Nate.

"Yeah, you do too right?", I ask him.

He squeezes my hand.

"Of course, let's try and take a look at the little guy", Nate smiles.

"Or girl", I point out and Dr. McCormack smiles at us.

"Great, Jenny I'm going to leave you to get dressed again, and I'll be back with the fetal doppler", She smiles and leaves the room again.

"Thank god that's over", I say to Nate, getting off the bed. "I did not expect it to hurt that much".

"I'm sorry", Nate says handing me my pants.

"It's okay, I'm going to have to get used to it, I think she's going to have to check it like every appointment", I say, putting my shirt on. "But it's okay… gosh I'm so excited to actually see something. A couple days ago I couldn't even wrap my mind around it but…"

"I know me too", Nate smiles, putting his hands on my hips.

Dr. McCormack comes back in.

"Oh hope I'm not interrupting", she says with a smile, holding her equipment.

I quickly pull away from Nate.

"No it's no problem, we're just excited and nervous to maybe see the baby", I smile, and sit back down on the recliner.

"I know the first appointment is very exciting, it's the first in a journey of getting to know your baby", she smiles. "Okay, now if you can just pull your pants down a bit and your top up… okay perfect".

My belly is out now, still very very flat.

"Gosh you would never know you're pregnant at all", Dr. McCormack laughs a bit sarcastically. "I'm just kidding, you probably will start showing sooner than other women though just because you're tiny to begin with".

I nod and look at Nate, who's also taking in this info. I'm happy he's here because I feel like I'd forget things.

"Okay now this may be a bit cold", Dr. McCormack spreads the ultrasound jelly across my belly with the doppler now, looking around for a bit.

Finally, her eyes widen.

"Oh! Here we go, I found something", She smiles. "Can you guys see that?"

Me and Nate both sit up honing in on the screen.

"Here's your uterus Jenny", Dr. McCormack points it out to me. "And see this little tiny pea?"

I nod. I actually see it.

"That's your baby, Jenny".

"Oh my god", I say.

Its really there. I know it's stupid but I didn't fully even take it in until now, it's like I'm being told by those pregnancy tests all over again.

"It's so small", Nate says, enveloping my hand in the two of his. "Wow".

"It's really there?", I somehow get out, tears springing to my eyes.

Dr. McCormack laughs slightly.

"I know, it's a little crazy isn't it?", She puts her hand on my leg.

I nod, tears coming out of my eyes now.

"Yeah… sorry, I don't know why it's hitting me like this", I say, and Nate passes me a tissue from his pocket.

"It's okay", Nate laughs a bit, but I can see the emotion in his face as well as he rubs my arm back and forth.

"You wanna do something even crazier? We may be able to hear the heartbeat", Dr. McCormack gets out another device. "I can't promise anything, but sometimes we can".

"Okay", I nod, wiping my eyes again.

She feels around my belly for what felt like the longest time, until we finally heard the tiniest of noises.

"Oh my gosh, there it is!", She beams looking at me.

Boom. Boom. Boom. Over and over again.

I'm crying more now.

"Wow, it's heart is already beating?", I ask.

"Yes! And it'll only become stronger over the months".

"Wow, I can't believe it's really there", Nate says and I look back into his eyes. I want to kiss him right now, but feel awkward in front of the doctor.

There was this thing, this mini person, sorry mass of cells still, in there with a heart. A heart that will love like Nate does.

I can't seem to stop the tears, and Nate tries to wipe my eyes with his thumb as he laughs slightly, his eyes also forming with tears slightly.

"So you are right, you are six weeks along, and everything seems to be on course. And considering your conception date I can tell you your due date is April 21st", Dr. McCormack smiles.

That's just after mine and Nate's birthdays. It just dons on me that by my next birthday I'm going to be super pregnant. Unless the baby comes early.

God, this feels surreal.

Dr. McCormack prints off a sheet of photos for us, handing it it me.

"I'll give you two a moment", Dr. McCormack smiles at us. "Then you can clean up Jenny, and I will see you in three weeks. Clara will book you in at the front. I wish you guys the best and I'll see you soon".

"Thanks Doctor", Nate says.

"Yes, thank you", I chime in,

"No problem at all", she smiles and then shuts the door behind her.

Nate leans over to kiss me, I swear, as soon as we hear the door shut.

"I can't believe this", he says between our lips, but I just pull him in to deepen the kiss.

"I know, me neither", I giggle like a little kid, looking at the ultrasound photos.

"I'm gonna have one framed", Nate looks at them in awe.

"I can't wait to show Dan and my dad and Lily", I smile, as Nate hugs me tight.

"Yeah we can show everyone", Nate kisses my forehead and I wipe the jelly off my stomach with the towel they had left me, getting off the chair now, holding the photos like they were a sacred winning lottery ticket.

This was real, and for once I didn't feel bad about it.