To Twin68 (Guest):
I am happy to hear back from you. I was getting worried when I haven't heard from you. I thought either you got busy, or you went on a vacation, but I didn't manage this. I am sorry to hear about your loss. I cannot imagine the grief twin sister and your family going through.
May God be with you during this difficult and sensitive time in your life. I know that there would be people who mean well but would do more harm than good by giving advice like "oh, he is in a better place now", "we should rejoice because he is with our Lord now", or "God needed him" and etc. Even though in theory, it sounds nice but for those who are left behind like you and us, it doesn't make us feel any better. I pray that you won't develop bitterness regarding that.
I appreciate your vulnerability and your eagerness to let me know what has happened to you. I pray that as much you have been kind to me and very supportive from the beginning when I first started this fanfiction, you would do the same to yourself . It's tempting to force ourselves to 'move on' due to societal pressure and our own pressure to ourselves. Take as much time you need to deal with your grief, friend. You yourself know when you need to time to grieve or when you are taking too much time. Everyone grieves differently and cope differently. There is time for everything. If you need to grieve, then grieve girl..or else, you'll regret it not taking the time to grieve and..that grief would manifest later on in ways that it'll affect you emotionally and your relationships with people.
So, I pray that you be able to find comfort in your friends, family even in your hobbies like reading fanfiction to help you get through this difficult time in your life.