My precious Chloe:
I don't know exactly how long it has passed since that day. A month, I think. But that doesn't really matter because for me, time, stopped running on that day. Life without you doesn't make sense. How could I let you do something so stupid? Maybe I'm being selfish, but all I wished right now was for you to be here with me. Why did you have to choose to die, so everyone could stay safe?! Every day I hate myself even more for having rewinded that week. And you. I'm mad at you. You promised that we would be always together yet, you abandoned me. I created the tornado from saving your ass over and over and, in the end, you volunteered to die instead of everyone else? I know neither of us knew. I would have never guessed, but still; you left me alone.
I guess I deserved it. For those 5 years that I didn't say a word. Now I know how you felt. Except that I can't have hope that you will come back one day. Because I let you die. I'm mad at myself too. I feel like it was my fault. Only if I kept in touch... Now you are gone. And don't remember a thing of that week. Those small, yet significant moments of ours. Because for you they did not exist. And I let you go, without meet you again, without kiss you properly, without saying that I loved you. Without saying goodbye... It may be late now, but I'm sorry. For everything...
Look at my miserable state: I can't even write this without burst into tears. But that's ok. It's all I've been doing since the funeral: Stay in my dorm and cry my eyes out. I've missed all classes. I think I spent a day with David and Joyce. They're so sad... Seeing them like that made me worst. I wanted so bad to shout at them that it was me. That I killed their daughter. But I didn't have the courage. Instead, your mother just held me like I was her own daugher. How can she keep like that when her world had just fallen apart?
The only thing not so bad, its that Kate's video was forgotten with all the confusion going around Blackwell. And this time she is the one saving me. I guess we both found our angels when the other left. You had Rachel, now I have Kate. She passes on my dorm every day, to check on me, to see if I'm ok, and bring me decent food, the only I have at all. I never thanked her properly, but that means a lot to me. More than she can imagine. But all the warm smiles, sweet words, and caring in the world, that she gives me, aren't enough to fix the hole in my heart.
I miss you more than you can imagine. I love you! My life seems meaningless without you. That's why Kate won't see me today when she stops at my dorm. Because, even if we are having switched papers, she won't be able to save me from the rooftop tonight.
Probably, you already guessed why I'm writing you this "letter". I wanted to say sorry, and say everything I can't put into words. I wanted to talk to you one last time.
With love, your Max