You decided that you would go work with Loki on your magic while Shuri was working with Bucky. Today was your first lesson, and you had to admit you were nervous. You weren't completely sure you could trust Loki, but Thor promised you that he would be on his best behavior.

After changing into your suit, you headed outside where Loki thought it would be best to train. You spotted him out on the field, also in his suit, minus the helmet. He bowed as you approached and you gave him a finger wave. You weren't sure if you were supposed to bow to him, but you didn't think he would mind.

"Welcome to your first lesson darling. First off, I really just want to see how you do in a fight with your powers, so I've invited Thor out to spar with you. Almost choking on your own spit, your mouth dropped open. "Uh, what? You want me to fight the God of Thunder?" You practically yelped. Thor came over from behind you and rested his hand on your shoulder. "Relax, Lady Allison, I will not use my full strength, nor my full powers on you, we really just want to see what you can do."

You nodded, suddenly very nervous, and you wish Bucky were here with you. But he needed to be where he was, and you needed to do this. Your powers were growing and it was scary. You didn't want to accidentally hurt anyone if you got out of control.

"Okay, let's do it." You told the Gods. Thor stood opposite you and you nodded, signaling him to come after you. He shot lightning out at you, which you blocked with an ice shield. Rolling out from behind it, you threw your hands out at his feet, trapping him in an ice block. It was only seconds before he was able to break free, damn his super strength.

"Again." Loki called from the side. You ran backwards, turning when he got close to you, throwing your hands behind you to make a patch of ice, causing Thor to slip and fall on his ass. You saw Loki smirk out of the corner of his eye.

"How many ice shards can you produce at one time?" Loki asked. You shrugged. "A few? I haven't tried more than that." He nodded and came over to you, placing his hands on your shoulders. "Relax Allison. Breathe. Let your magic take over." You closed your eyes and took a deep breath in. You felt a cold burst of air through your body, and you opened your eyes to see that your hands were white with frost. You could feel the cold in your eyes too. It was calmer, not like it had been before. Both when you had killed Graves, then Zemo, your power had taken you over and it had been angry. You were in control this time.

You could see your breath in front of you. Loki came around to the front of you and smiled. "Good girl." He praised. "Now, focus, and shoot out as many as you can."

Shuri had been working with Bucky for a few weeks now, and honestly you were seeing progress. He still had nightmares from time to time, but Shuri said that it could be because she'd been poking around in his head. He seemed happier, calmer. He was starting to become the Bucky you knew from the 40's more and more every day. What made you even happier was that he was remembering more about his friendship with Steve. The inside jokes he would make and then Steve would look so surprised that he remembered, then Steve would retort back and they would laugh. Bucky's new arm was working out so well, and damn, did it feel good all over your body, especially in between your legs. Bucky has been adamant about touching you whenever he could, since he had total feeling in the arm now.

It also led to him wanting you to constantly be holding his hand. You didn't mind of course, but when you asked him about it one night, he told you that he hadn't been able to feel really anything in that arm in over seventy years. That made you cry and that night you let him do whatever he wanted to you. Everything was going perfect.

Until it wasn't.

You never imagined it could go horribly wrong.

Until you woke up with Bucky's vibranium hand around your throat. He usually never got like this unless someone tried to wake him. And he had never done this to you before.

"B-Bucky…" You tried to get out, but you couldn't. You couldn't breathe. Your hands went to his face, trying to calm him down, trying to break through to Winter. It wasn't working. Why wasn't it working? Black spots started forming in your vision and you knew you were going to pass out soon. You ran your thumb over his lips and tried to speak one more time. "Winter." You barely whispered.

That did it. Something registered in Bucky and his eyes shifted to horrified as he let go of you, backing up off the bed and standing a few feet away from it while you rolled over and coughed.

"Oh God, Ally, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it. Oh God. Are you okay?" He said with a cracked voice. You nodded, finally getting your breathing under control. You grabbed the water bottle that was on the end table and took a drink, wincing at the pain. After a second, you stood and walked over to him, but he backed further away.

"Hey, it's okay." You whispered, not really able to use your voice. Bucky shook his head. "Not it's not. I could have killed Ally. I almost did kill you."

"But you didn't. Shuri said you were probably having nightmare because she was poking around in your head. That's all it is." You told him, taking another step toward him, thankful that he didn't step away this time. You laced your fingers with his, even his vibranium hand, which he tried to pull from you, but you didn't let him. "Hey. I am okay." You leaned in and placed a soft kiss to his lips. When you pulled away his eyes traveled down to your neck and widened.

"Oh my God. You're not okay. Look at what I did to you!" He almost yelled. You went into the bathroom and turned on the light, looking in the mirror. Sure enough there was a purple handprint already forming on your neck. You heard Bucky mumble something from the next room, so you went back in to find him pacing frantically.

"Buck?"

"You need to go." You froze. "What do you mean?"

"I mean, I think you should leave. I can't do this anymore."

"Bucky what are you talking about?" You asked, your heart dropping into your stomach. He wasn't about to do what you thought he was, was he?

"I can't keep hurting you like this Ally. It's not fair to you. This, us, was a mistake." He blurted out. You shook your head as the tears started falling down your face. "Bucky, please don't do this. I'm fine." You choked out.

"You're not fine!" He screamed. "Look at your neck! What if you hadn't stopped me!" He was shaking now, and all you wanted to do was hold him. You took a step toward him, but he backed away.

"No, don't touch me. I mean it Ally. You need to leave. Go back to New York. Find someone who won't try to strangle you in your sleep." You flinched at the last part as he brushed past you, going to the bathroom and slamming the door shut. You walked over to the door, full on sobbing now. You couldn't believe he was doing this. You were strong enough to handle this, if you weren't, you wouldn't have tried in the first place.

"I love you. I love you with everything I have in me." You told the door, placing your hand on it. You turned, grabbing your phone and packing a bag. You walked down the hall to Steve's room and knocked softly. A minute or so went by before he opened it, scratching the back of his head.

"Ally what are you-"He stopped when he saw the state you were in.

"Please take me home Steve. Please." You sobbed.