Chapter 11: Interlude Sweater Weather

Notes: Part of my PJO Serries on A03 and Wattpad, separate one shot for FFNet

Summary: My anger boiled in my blood and I desperately wished she wasn't alive… because then he might have loved me.

*One Shot*

NICO

I still remember the third of December

It's winter now and I have just started my last year of high school. My best friend Percy was beside me and he was my crush. When i came out as gay he supported me, and helped me wih the bullies. Percy was a chatter box, friendly as fuck and was invited to all the parties. I went and got to go along due to my status as best friend. And we had shared moments until in grade 10 Percy finally asked Annabeth out.

A blonde girl who I hated. And the reason why i hated her was because I loved Percy, and that was one of the secrets i never told a single soul too. Percy may be supporting my gayness but I knew he never felt that way about me.

His eyes were always on her.

He told me that it was her eyes that captured his attention, and I realized it was his eyes that captured my attention. Bright green and blue. The smile on his face was even kinder and when he spoke it sent chills down my spine. His voice was so calming, like the ocean; and he even smelled like the ocean; Professional surfer and all in the summer.

Percy Jackson had saved and ruined me.

He only had eyes on her and I could only watch as they fell in love.

And my favourite sweater I had let Percy wear once when he was cold, was now on Annabeth and I felt anger. It boiled in my veins and I wanted to rip it off her!

"Neeks," looking up into those mesmerizing green eyes I feel my anger slip away. "Wanna go swimming?" he asks.

"Sure Percy, let's go," I say and we walk side by side. My hand is still clenched onto that piece of paper I held and I was hesitant if I'd even use it.

Annabeth follows us and I feel so much anger, she wasn't as pretty as Percy explained, and how I wished he was mine.

Fuck! I sound like a stalker, but i wasn't, i just had a stupid crush on Percy and it wouldn't leave, no matter what i did. Even when i jerked off to hotter looking men on those porn websites, all my mental image came to with Percy fucking me deep into the mattress and me riding him…. All in my dreams and never in real life. That one time I had a sleepover with Percy, Jason and a few others I had a wet dream. I cried crocodile tears and explained that I had a nightmare that Percy had died. Percy had hugged me and held me the rest of the night in the king sized bed that Jason had. That had been a memory I cherished and sooner or later I would let it all go… was I even ready too?

Why would you ever kiss me?

I'm not even as half as pretty..

You gave her a sweater it's just polyester

And I wish I were Annabeth….

Just to feel your eyes on me and to hold me as close as you hold her close.

"Nico?" Looking up from the sand to those green eyes I close my own black ones and sigh. I was just his best friend and would never be anything more.

"I love you," I whisper and watch as ocean green eyes open wide in surprise before I'm running away. Away from my first love and crush, my best friend and when he calls my name I don't look back. The tickets in my pocket and that's all that matters.

My tears fell, but I had managed to do it, I told him and now I was leaving.

Why did love hurt so much?

I think and muffle my sobs on the air plane ride.

Once the plane is ready to take off a person slumps into my seat and I stare, I had thought I was gonna be alone for the ride… apparently not.

"Hey seat partner," a blonde blue eyed boy smiles and I close the walls around my heart. Love wasn't meant for me.

"Leave me alone." I mutter.

"My name's Will," Will said and when I glance into his kaleidoscope blue eyes I'm fucked.

~The End.

A/N: The lyrics came from Connan Gray's song Heather, and thought of this, lol i re read Percy Jackson Series and thought of a one sided relationship, so here it is.

ps. my last laptop broke due to power outage and the wrong outlet so i bought a new one last week and am trying to get over my writer's block!

~Jio

~Goodygoodi