June 19th-
My god, this place is literal hell. Like, I shouldn't be too surprised since this is fucking prison, but still, it sucks that fairies can't die by suicide. We have to be killed by something else in order to die (or just be really really fucking old). The beds are hard as hell to sleep on, and that's assuming I get any sleep at all. I've mentioned before that the people here don't fucking screaming and yelling. As much as I want to yell at them to shut up, to be honest, I can't really blame them. I'm slowly losing my mind as I await for my damn trial.
The food here sucks too, and the only decent thing is the cornbread the lunch staff serves on Fridays if the warden is in a good mood, and even then, it's very limited. Prisoners will literally stab each other just to get a piece of bread, even if that shits on the floor. Man, people here as so disgusting.
Speaking of disgusting, the hallways are a literal sewer. We're only allowed a shower twice a week, so of course all of us are sweaty and oily after working in the damn fields all day (and with it being June, everything's hot as ball right now), on top of the sweat he have while we are sleeping. Not to mention, sometimes the cell toilets don't work right, so these demented ass people will literally undress themselves in front of everyone and piss in the middle of the hallways. I dunno if it's out of desperation, insanity, or if they just wanted to spite the guards, but damn..I can hardly breathe.
How is any of this even remotely legal? How is it that it's ok to torment innocent people like me for making simple mistakes in life? We're deprived of our basic fairy rights just because we're not god's most precious people put on the planet. I didn't ask to be born, you know! I don't understand why my life is such a big load of shit!
Arthur, whom I was married to before I met Linnie, left me without much of an explanation, and I love him to death! He was my soulmate before he ran off with that pink haired slut, leaving me alone to die and be abused from Linnie's sadistic ass. Just remembering how he would always have something to complain about, and bitch just makes me want to grind my teeth. I never did love him, but I was foolish enough to lust after him; as if I needed a man in my life. HA! What an idiot I was! I can't believe I let myself become so vulnerable that I ended up with some dirty slut of a husband!
You know, now that I think about it, he's the one responsible for my tormet. If he hadn't left the house like I told him, he wouldn't have met that skank, Yolonda. He wouldn't have left home and have the audacity to curse me out after everything I've done with him. He'd probably still be in the kitchen, making me dinner, and fucking me afterwards, just how I like it. But no. I'm left here to suffer for a crime Linnie committed.
I don't understand the people around him either. Everyone looks at Linnie like he's this perfect little person, like he can do no wrong. It's quite amusing how good he is as masking his true self. What most people don't know is that after raping me and getting pregnant with the 3 assholes (all his fault since he didn't tell me about his ovulation), he left for 3 years after he was a fly. I don't know where he was between the time Cosmo was born and when he was 4, but all I know is that he shouldn't have come back. Despite being so angry with him, I still cared enough to at least provide the kids the basic necessities, though I didn't want a relationship with any of them. But once Linnie came back, I knew I was trapped. He had entangled me in his web of deceit and lies, and I resent him for it. He's forced me to have a life I didn't want, and I'm so tired of everyone seeing Linnie as this amazing, perfect person, when in reality, he's a piece of shit, good for nothing, free loader. I would've left his ass but you know..divorces are quite expensive these days.
I think once my case is ready to go to trial, I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure than man is guilty. I don't know how I'm gonna do it, especially with a court provided lawyer, but I believe if there's a will, there's a way. I'm a good person..temperamental, sure whatever..but deep down I know I'm a good person if people would just not upset me. I don't deserve to live through this hell Linnie had put me through.
If I'm still in prison, I'll update the situation. If not, hasta la vista!
-Nora