I feel my heart sink. I look at Van Pelt she just has sympathy in her eyes. I don't want to assume anything, but I know. I pull up knowing I have to keep my cool I have to stay in the right mind. I get out the car keeping my head up and put my jacket on I feel people look at me as I walk past. I forgot about my change in figure. As we get nearer the door, I tell Van Pelt to go in and I that I will wait for Jane.
"Are you sure boss?" she asks I know I have to be sure. I nod and wait outside the door as I see his eggshell blue Citroën DS 21 Pallas pull up I feel a bit of hope knowing he is going to be there for me. He takes my hand and holds it a silent way of telling me it will be ok. I let go and start to walk in, that is when I see it Walter's head sitting atop a vase like a magic trick. I immediately rush to the bathroom to throw up, Jane is holding my hair back as the rest of the team gather around the door. I hear Rigsby asking if I am ok and Cho asking me if I need anything. It warms my heart to hear them all caring. I stand up and wash my hands restoring them I am ok. I leave the bathroom ready to get to work. Emotions pushed down I look around I see his limbs scattered around all with their connected hands and feet cut of and again scattered around with their prospective fingers and toes cut off and scattered around. They all seem to be like sanded down so they seem like they are coming out the ground. No blood no sign of a torso just the head and limbs I do not see but when I do I feel like puking again. As the ligaments spell out the word 'Baby' I pray that it does not mean what I think. I look at Jane who sees it as well. Because we already know a lot about our victim, so I do not worry about missing info we get everything to forensics and me and Jane go to talk to Yuri. I am thinking the whole ride about being a single mother. We enter the prison and get let though thanks to my badge. We call on Yuri and he sits down. I know that this is all going to be a negotiation. After talking with him it is clear he did not do it. I call Van Pelt and tell her to check out his finances and told her we were on are way and not to look at they will till then. I know it is stupid because I have not talked to him since that night so there is no way for him to know I am pregnant and he can't have any idea it is twins, but I still pray that somehow there is a bit of maybe money to help me out. I remember how I live in a 1-bedroom apartment that I still have not unpacked after 5 years. I spend the whole time worrying about money I know that I am not bad off and that I know people who have been in a lot worse situation. We arrive at the office and I come and talk to Van Pelt.
"I checked out his finances and I do not know what to think. He is taking out huge cash with draws left and right but then I track them back to big nights he liked to flash his money around. There is no pattern to his spending, it is going to take days to track every extreme withdraw. I have not looked at the will." She speaks.
"I think I will look at it alone" I say I know I need to. I enter my office and close the door I pull up the will and to nobody's surprise there is nothing. I don't know what I expected but I was still disappointed. I decide that we need to retrace his steps. Then I hear a knock at my door, and I open it. It is Hightower.
"Can we talk?" she says as she takes a seat. I she knows something is up.
"How can I help you Ma'am?" I ask I know she can suspect I am pregnant she has had 2 kids of her own she knows. I don't know what to tell her, I know she finds then she will pull me of anything but office work. This job is my life. My work is the only reason I can bare this. The thought of being a mother, I have peoples who's lives depend on me daily I put bad people away and save lives, but now I am going to be more than just someone who saves life's I am making them.
"Is there something you need to tell me?" she asks. She knows, god no.
"No ma'am" I deny it, I need this work.
"Well, I trust as long as you can do your job" she replies. I know she knows but there is nothing she can do without me saying something. I get back to work. I go to get a cup of coffee and then turn around when I remember that I can't have coffee.
"Boss I got something." I hear Van Pelt say. I turn around and signal her to continue, "I was looking more into Walters financials. I found that he recently purchased a building and turned it into a rehab center." What the hell. I walk to the bullpen and tell Jane.
"Walter liked a new experience it was a new game for him to play." Then it starts to add up.
"Someone did not like him thinking of their life as a game." I speak.
"Exactly, now we need to find who he upset."
"There has got to be at least a-mile-long list of people who he has upset."
"Yes, but we are looking for someone who has a problem with alcohol. A woman he probably slept with." Jane is on to something.
"Check out the females in the center." I tell Van Pelt and Cho "Me and Jane will go to the center." Me and Jane head that way. We get to the place and I walk up to the front desk there is a woman sitting there. She has long wavy hair curled into ringlets at the end. She has a mole on her left cheek, round glasses. I look to Jane.
"Hi how can I help you?" She asked. I flash my badge.
"We need the list of people in this center." She nods and gives it to me. Me and Jane go down the list and I walk to side of the room. "Any names stick out to you?" I ask Jane I need to know where to go next.
"Jowan." I have no idea why I trust him, but I do. We walk up to her room. I knock on the door and she answers.
"You cop?" I hate that greeting it is like I am not a person. I name myself and Jane and she lets us in. "You hear about Walters death." How the hell did she know about that it has barely been a day I know it can't be in the media yet. "I never liked him. Good lover though." I am tired and done with people thinking that this kind of thing is fun. I look at Jane I want to bring her in, I tell her to hold on he has plan, we walk to the hallway. He tells me to let her go. I don't want a fight. I don't bring her in. I decide to leave it after we finish talking to her. Me and Jane get in the van.
"I have to go to my 14-week appointment" I tell Jane. I don't know why I told him. I just did.
"I am coming with you" I don't protest I don't want to be alone. We drive to my doctor. We talk about everything and nothing. We get there I feel dread. In the doctor's office he tells me it is all looking good, but then tells me I will start showing fully in about a week or 2. I want scream.
The next morning, I am getting ready for work and I go to put on my belt on and it does not fit so I go for another belt after a few more I find one that fits.
I call Jane but he does not pick up, I go to HQ and I walk towards the building when my phone rings I pick it up and its Jane.
"Where are you?" I ask him.
"At the rehab center I want to show you something." God. This man makes my head hurt. I drive to the center. I find Jane with a smirk on his face.
"What the hell did you do now?" I know that he has done something.
"You will see." Somedays I hate this man. I lo- I hear gun shots. I have my gun out the holster before I hear another shot. I am running in to see what is happening. I run into see the receptionist with a gun in a soccer field and I dead rabbit in front of her. I lock her down and take her in. I leave her to Cho and watch it happen. She lays it out she is addicted to drugs she was high and she though he was baby, so she cut him up and spelled it out. I want to yell at her and tell her what she has done. Tell her that now I am a single mom, that now I have to do this thing alone. I go into Hightower office. I need to talk to her I need to tell her.
"Lisbon how can I help you?" she asked. I close the door behind me. I take a deep breath.
"I need to tell you something. But I have to know that it will not affect my work or anything like that" I pray that she will understand.
"I think I know what you're saying, it will not affect your work no one else even has to know, as long as you can stay safe then I don't see a problem. I do need you tell me officially." I breath
"I am not telling the team Jane knows of course, and Van Pelt was there when I took the test. I can't tell you officially." I am glad she knows but I will not tell her or anyone above me officially, I can't risk anything I will not. I go back to my office to work on paperwork. When my phone rings again.