LOST AND FOUND
Luna was coming back to town. Her reckless mother was coming to town. Lyra was barely able to imagine the amount of chaos that insane woman would drag her into. After four years out, she'd figure that her mother would want to throw her the biggest, wildest and most likely vandalizing party in her honor. Don't get her wrong she's happy to see her mother again, but the young woman was already building up a migraine over the indie rocker's arrival.
Then again, that wasn't the only reason for her head to start beating itself senseless anyway.
Lemy was still avoiding her.
It sucked. Sucked the life out of her to be even more precise. A sharp needle pierced her heart each time he looked away from her with ignorance and every time she thought about it. The burn was real, she needed to end it. If only he would stop and fucking talked to her. She laid in bed, hopelessly staring at the ceiling, unsure of it all. This sort of pain was not one she had expected to ever feel again. So much had occured, she was genuinely sick and tired of always being involved in all sorts of painful situations. What a miserable life hers has been up to this point. Lemy, the only person that she doesn't want to lose, she was scared of loosing.
Placing her hands behind her head she felt up her hair. Touching the edges were it now ended. A deep frown emerged as old memories were casted upon her. Memories she now deeply hated with a burning passion. If only they knew.
"Never." She harshly whispered.
Shutting her eyes, she banished said thoughts and cleared her mind whole. Being locked up in her room was another thing she couldn't stand. She really hated that too. Getting up, she opened her door and walked out to get some fresh air. Got to get an idea of how to prepare herself for her mother's juvenile antics.
Aunt Lucy's words have also been bothering her. Being gone for so no long, she seemingly forgot just how punctilious the older woman could be. Just how much had she read off of her? Lyra was certain to had put on a good mask that night, then again, a mask is all she's been wearing for the longest time.
"Maybe I do need a wild night." She reached the front door, "Mom can help me forget. Maybe...I can ask her..."
Opening the door wide open she got greeted by Lemy's startled face, both siblings looking back at each other in surprise. These awkward scenarios were starting to feel like a running gag. Lacy was not that far behind, standing by the mail box, checking the letters that had arrived. As for Lemy he stood frozen in place, his adam's apple gulping up as he looked her in the eyes and so did she. Both had no idea how to proceed forward right then and there. A whole week of denial and avoidance left him unsure of himself. Lyra herself was too unsure of what to say to him or better yet how to actually say it to him.
"I..." He trailed off as Lyra had the misfortune, on his behalf, to grant him a genuine concern expression. One hand on the opposite arm and her small tight purple shirt showing off her great figure and well develped chest was a serious mental shutdown for the young boy. To put it simple, Lyra was absolutely beautiful to him. Now aware of his feelings, everything about her was driving him nuts. He wasn't freaking out anymore, he was simply stunned by her glowing beauty.
"Lemy?" She asked, "...I, well I..."
Both were at loss for words.
"I need to..." He regained control of his body and quickly passed by her and up the stairs, never looking back.
Lyra's hand reached out for him, she herself unaware of her own body's action as she looked on at her brother disappearing up to the second floor. A deep longing look of sadness as she placed her other hand on her chest. Such aching emotions attacking her heart once more. She needed to find a way to speak to him again, this cannot continue on like this.
"Hey sis." Lacy caught Lyra's attention as the teenager smiled at her.
"Hey there." Lyra immediately flipped that frown upside down as Lacy stood by the door.
Lyra placed her hand on the brunette's hair and ruffled it, earning a joyful grin from the younger girl. Despite the four years that came and went, the youngest of the trio never forgot about her big sister. To her nothing has changed between them, Lyra is still caring and helpful as ever, older yes, but the same person as always when it came to looking after her. And now it was her turn to look after Lyra. Her and Lemy both, Lacy didn't want them to be separated again.
"Is he still acting out?" Lacy said.
"... It's complicated." Lyra sighed.
She walked outside and sat down by the wooden steps of the porch, "I don't know what went wrong. One day we're thick as thieves again, now... it's almost like he...he..."
She wanted to say "hate", but the word was hard to utter out. Lemy hating her would absolutely kill her. Now that she thought about it the more it was hurting her inside. Once again, she needed to fix this, one way or another they needed to discover a solution.
"He doesn't hate you." Lacy spoke behind her, "He's...very confused at the moment."
"About what?" Lyra faced Lacy, "What confusion is causing him to treat me this way?"
Lacy anxiously bit her lips, unsure on how to say the truth without actually saying said truth. Lemy had asked her not to tell Lyra anything and she swore to it. Still, seeing her big sister in such a pitiful state of confusion and misery made the teenager want to tell her anything, whatever to make her feel better about the whole situation. Taking a seat next to her, Lacy looked at her with interest as Lyra shifted her focus on the pavement below her feet. She really hated seeing family like this.
"He's being a moron, but it's because he cares too much." Lacy explained, "Something...is troubling him and... again you mean the world to him, so don't take it too hard. He'll come around. I talked to him about it. Dad has noticed it too, he'll probably want to speak about it too, father and son talk and such."
"Last I remember, you were more interested in chasing whatever kind of sports balls to actually hold done such meaningful conversations." Lyra weakly smiled back.
She wrapped her arm around the girl and pulled her closer for a warm embrace.
"I really missed you all. Yes, even Lupa." Lyra stated.
"Home wasn't much without you." Lacy happily laid her head on Lyra's shoulder.
"Yeah, I figured." Lyra gazed off into the distance, nothing in particular catching her eye. A thousand yard stare having developed on her young face, luckily Lacy had her eyes closed to notice it.
"You have no idea how much I regret those years I was gone."
Upstairs...
Lemy angrily paced around his room in endless circles. Once again he faced her and again he fucking ignored her. He had actually been rehearsing an apology for her during the walk back with Lacy. Tell her how sorry he was about his stupid, immature and uncalled for treatment of her this whole week. Ask her if they could hangout again soon and much more, but they ended up bumping heads out of nowhere and as expected he fucking froze. Call him a jackass cause he just can't get anything right, always fucking up and never getting a job done.
"For fucksake. For fucksake. For fucksake!" Lemy cursed out.
"Why can't I be normal around her? Why am I such a fucking idiot?" He fell flat on the floor.
He knew why, yet it didn't stop him from bitching about it. Now aware of his feelings, he was even more freaked out than before. Just like every single high school crush ever in history, he was now to damn shy around her. His heart beating like crazy when he got a good look at her. Was this his life now? Hiding from her out of romantic anxiety and too afraid to tell her the truth? Then again who knows how she will literally react if she ever found out. As he stated before he doesn't want to lose her again, maybe it's for the best that word never gets out about his crush on her.
"Wish Mom was here. Give me some pointers at least." Lemy said.
She's still in Nashville recoding the final touches for her latest which he will be the first person to get by the way, rock album. As far as he knows she'll still be gone for a few more weeks. He can ask Dad, but...yeah, talking about girls with him is beyond awkward, for both of them in fact. Guess he had Lacy to console with, but she can only offer so much, being a young teenager herself. Sure they sexually mess around, but this situation is in the more romantic side of the fence, which both of them are clearly not on. He will not tell Lupa that's a given. That goth will only mock him about it non-stop as well not approve of his crush. He didn't understand her strained relationship with Lyra, then again he has one of his own, but at least he wants to fix it.
"Lord, please. This is messed up to ask you, but help me out on this one. Amen?" Lemy remained on the floor now both arms behind his head to cushion it better.
He needs to man up and come clear with her. If only it were that easy. If only it was. For now he desperately needs to get his shit together around her.
"Only time will tell I suppose." He admits.
A knock on the door gains his attention and he stands up to go open it. Lupa greets him by walking in without permission. She plops down on his bed as Lemy eyes her with confusion.
"Can I help you?" He says.
Lupa who's wearing a pair of wireless airpods purposely ignores him, inciting his annoyance. After a few seconds she pauses her music on the phone and acknowledges his presence.
"Sorry...where you talking?" she sarcastically asks.
"Hmm." Lemy rolled his eyes at her.
"What are you doing all alone here anyway?" Lupa went back to her music, "Lyra is downstairs pouting that her sweet little brother isn't spending much time glossing over her."
His heart dropped at her mention. He didn't need Lupa to remind him of his internal conflicts too. Right now he needs to be alone and think, think of a way to smoothly drop such a massive bombshell on his older sister and hope that she isn't disgusted by him and flees again. Wow, just imagining her possible reaction to this revelation has him feeling lightheaded, he might just faint if he thinks about it any harder. While he attempts to maintain his balance, Lupa simply looks at him with mild interest. What's gotten him all worked up she wondered. Then again, they are all alone right now, might as well take advantage of the situation at hand.
"You feeling okay?" Lupa asked him.
"Yeah... I'm solid." Lemy responded with no enthusiasm.
Lupa gave back a mischievous smile at him, "Yeah, pretty solid. Especially in the pants, but we both know that don't we?"
Of course she came over for that, Lemy mentally noted. Not like his room is of no other useful needs other than that primary need. He rather spend time alone, but at that very moment Lupa was lowering her skirt down, allowing him to see her black panties. He won't lie, seeing that got him just a tiny bit aroused. Maybe he does need this. The perfect distraction for his troubled mind, not to mention he gets some sensual satisfaction out of it, both of them to be fair.
By the time Lemy sat down on his head Lupa's entire skirt was gone. Throwing it at his face she beckoned him over with her finger. Lemy crawled over to her and kissed her. Lupa grabbed ahold of his shirt and pulled him down towards her. Both now situated in a comfortable position, they continued on kissing each other. As Lupa hungrily devoured his lips, Lemy on the other hand wasn't feeling as enthusiastic as he'd hoped for. Each kiss was just not that meaningful.
"Hey...my other...give me a kiss down...there too." Lupa huffed with lust.
"Sure." Lemy replied.
Taking of her black panties, Lupa spread her legs wide open, allowing him a full view of her soaking vagina. Lemy's erection grew at the sight, but still he wasn't feeling it as he used to. Regardless he parted away from her and moved down between her thighs. Giving her clit a smooch, Lemy got to work. Lupa savored the feeling of his tongue and lips cleaning her out, a sexual expertise he was always great at. Initially she was seeing stars, but the extreme pleasure was suddenly nowhere to be found. Lemy was eating her out, but it appeared he himself wasn't fully into it at all. Almost like he'd rather be doing anything else, but yet he felt obligated to please her.
"Lem... what's going on?" Lupa couldn't even fake it, she felt nothing.
"Oh... sorry." Lemy wiped his mouth and got back to his knees.
"Sorry?" Lupa was bewildered by his lack of engagement, "Why...hey if you want me to ride you just say so, I don't mind that."
"No. I... I'm not feeling it." Lemy sighed, "Any of this, like at all."
Not feeling it? What was going on with him? Lupa couldn't understand this side of him, if one of them was feeling hot, then the other or others would jump in and literally fuck the itch away. Lemy not wanting to fuck around was a whole new discovery for the young goth. In fact he's been acting all loner and downer ever since Lyra returned back from her studies or as she preferred to call it: self imposed exile.
"Is something wrong? Is it school? Is it her?" Lupa added displeasure into that last question.
He flinched at that last one getting Lupa her answer. So Lyra had something to do with this change in attitude. That bad that he didn't even want to bother with a quickie? Does Lacy know about this, maybe she does, gotta talk to her or him right now.
"What's the problem with Lyra?" Lupa huffed, annoyed that the older girl was cockblocking and not even being in the room to do so.
"It's stupid." He said.
"Why?" She asked.
Lemy faced away from her and sat down on the mattress, looking at nothing in particular in the room. Lupa didn't like getting ignored and the fact that she was still horny and not getting any was only getting her madder.
"Dude what's the fucking problem?" She demanded.
"If its going to ruin your sex life then you better get it fixed pronto! I could care less about that damn woman, but it's fucking with my good time and I'm not having that." Lupa's anger increased with each word.
"I don't care about the stupid sex Lupa!" Lemy shouted, startling her, "Got get Lacy and ask her to tongue fuck you instead. Sixty-nine each other while at it, but let me figure out my own issues without you bitching about it!"
Lemy stood up and walked out his room, slamming the door behind her. To say that she was speechless about his little tirade right there was accurate. Sure they've gotten mad in the past, but this one felt different. Angrily grabbing her panties, she muttered about him and Lyra, pissed at them both.
Outside of the room Lemy walked towards the end of the hallway, reaching the last door. His father's old room, now a small storage room and the only place where he could hide and not be disturbed by anyone else. Entering the room he wiggled his way to the very back and sat down on the one office chair that was there for any need. Close enough to the only window he relaxed his body and looked at the many clouds passing by in the sky.
He should apologise to Lupa, but knowing that girl, he's in the doghouse for the time being. Guess sex isn't always the answer to all problems, what a funny thought huh? Regardless of his lack of sexual energy, he really didn't feel like doing anything overall. All he could really think about was him and Lyra. How to make this work and the fear of it not becoming true. She can't possibly feel the same for him too? Then again she did leave without explanation, their relationship had soured badly those last months. It all just came out of nowhere. The more he thought about it the more his brain was actually getting to work.
"Why did you start ignoring me all of a sudden?" Lemy wondered out loud.
They had always been thick as thieves, always cared for, looked after and helped each other without question. The love they had for each other was unquestionable, so much that Lacy and Lupa would get jealous from time to time. Now really thinking hard about it, Lyra had always been very attached to him, more than anyone else in the family.
"Wait..." Lemy began to recollect every possible memory of them two together, "Wait a damn minute."
Old memories began to resurface all at once. Lyra always grabbing ahold of him, lovingly hugging him without warning. Lyra asking Lemy if he wanted to bunk beds together for the night. Giving him unexpected kisses on the forehead and cheeks for no particular reasons. Always calling him cute and adorable, not to mention bragging about him to her friends when they came over. Becoming his own personal nurse every time he got sick and bed ridden. A few times actually entered the bathroom while he was showering and acting all surprised when he noticed her presence.
"You know I love you right?" Lyra would tell him while soothing him to sleep in her laps.
"Love you more than anyone else in this world, Lemy. You are my special someone, always will be. My heart is all yours."
Lemy stood up from his chair. Wide eyed at this revelation, now understanding her. She left because the shame of loving him was too great for her to bear. Took off for fear of allowing her feelings to fully manifest. She never hated him, she loved him so much she chose to flee and not make a horrible mistake, not fall to this sin of theirs. His heart beats were, rapid as it all made sense now. His body weak and lightheaded. Lyra loves him and he loves her. They had always loved each other.
"Holy fuck?!" Lemy shouted.
Lacy's room...
"And the fucking asshole just fucks off! Like what the fuck? If you don't want to fuck around say it from the beginning, don't fucking ruin it with a half ass attempt." Lupa vented.
Lacy sat on the floor listening to her sister. Funny how she's is always having to be the mediator between those two, a job that once belonged to Lyra. But hey, anything to help out, she may not be as wise or have all the answers for each problem, but at least lending her ear is enough in her mind to satisfy those that need someone to talk to. She would talk to Lemy afterwards, right now Lupa is in a foul mood and staying by her side is the smart choice to do. Leave her be and someone or something is definitely getting broken.
"Yeah...maybe you shouldn't have mentioned Lyra." Lacy added.
"Why the fuck not?" Lupa questioned her.
"Because... it's... personal?" Lacy failed to find a good reason.
"What is he scared that Lyra will throw a fit if she learned that all three of us have been fucking like rabbits for the past four years now?" Lupa got up from her spot on the floor, "Fuck her opinion about us. Let her find out maybe she'll fuck off again, fine by me."
"Oh come on, Lupa." Lacy responded back, "Why so hostile towards her? He just has too much on his mind."
"It's just...fuck, she shows up after so long, never once checking up on any of us and now she's living rent free on that moron's head!" Lupa said.
"Well..." Lacy was at loss for words, not sure to whether tell her or stay silent, Lemy trusted her to keep this secret after all.
Luckily for her Lemy barged in without warning into her room.
"Lyra loves me! Lacy, I have a chance! We can actually be toget-" He stopped talking, taking notice of Lupa eyeing him with pure confusion.
"You what?" Lupa asked.
"Me...what?" Lemy replied, dumbfounded.
Lupa looked at him intensively, searching for any cracks on the boy. Yeah, he was dodging her question and she wasn't stupid or deaf, she clearly heard what that fool had just babbled with excitement. Turning around to look at her sister, Lacy too lowered her head and averted her eyes from her. The awkwardness with these two very strong in this room. Lupa wasn't an idiot, she never showed it, but she was probably the smartest one of the three, her lack of attention and care towards her studies were just a front, she always had all the answers. Right now Lemy and Lacy were trying to hide the fact that Lemy had inadvertently confessed about him and Lyra being a possible item. She wasn't mad as before, but she sure was not going to stay quiet about it at all.
"You actually believe that Lyra likes you like that?" Lupa spoke up to him, "The same chick that turned her back on you and completely disregard your existence for the last four fucking years?"
"Lupa." Lemy tired to speak up, but she cut him off.
"Lemy, I get that you missed her. More than I could ever feel, but you're just confused. Very confused because the girl that is your sister came back much more different than before. This is just your mind and body acting up bro. Lyra would be the last person to ever want to be with you." Lupa said.
"Shut up." Lemy sternly replied.
Both Lupa and Lacy reeled back in surprise. Such tone from him greatly unexpected.
"Shut up Lupa." He added, "You are wrong. What I feel for her is real, I know it's real! It's not just the urge for a one night stand with her or even have her join this little sex club of our. I know what my feelings are, and please forgive me for saying this, both of you please forgive me, but...I... I have..."
It was hard for him to let out the words, fearing that he may hurt them deeply, "...I have never... felt this way for either of you two, only her."
Both girls were silent, so was Lemy, letting it out had left him stressed out. He wasn't lying, with Lacy and Lupa there were no strings attached, just an understanding for each other's needs and wants. It was eating him away to tell them that, even though they all were in agreement about their stance in their three-way relationship. Regardless, he loves them both, thus why it stung to tell them that anyhow. Now he awaited their response back, Lupa may scoff and keep on derailing his confession, Lacy is much more humble and a real sweetheart, saddened may be the best reaction from her.
"For fucks sake." Lupa gave herself a facepalm
"Lemy..." Lacy stood up and approached him, "It's okay, we still love you. It... may not be the same kind of love, but you're still our brother and we'll never forsake you because of it."
Lacy engulfed him into a warm hug. She had always been the most caring one, he didn't expect less from her. Happily returning her hug he was glad that at least one of them understood his emotional plight. God was he so lucky to have her in his life.
"Thank you. For understanding." Lemy hugged her tighter, caressing her hair with love.
Letting go of her, Lacy moved aside as Lupa walked up to him. Unimpressed as usual she looked him up and down, taking in all that has been said for the past few minutes among them three. Lemy said nothing back, waiting for her to speak first.
"Ah...what the fuck, " She shook her head, "Lem, I still think this is a dumb idea. Even if Lyra felt something for you, that was four years ago. People change."
"I know, but still..." He said.
"Bro, I'm being a dickhead because I don't wan to see you get hurt again. Hurt by her again." Lupa placed a hand on his shoulder.
"You were a fucking mess, Lacy and I did everything we could to cure that depression out of you. It took some time, but it worked. Now hearing this... I worry about you." Lemy remained surprised to hear such words from her, yet graciously acknowledged them.
"I have to try." He grabbed her hand and squeezed it.
"Look, I'm not going to snitch and I'm not going to intervene. If you really want to do this then I wish you the best of luck. I hope you prove me wrong and succeed, but...Lemy, if you take this risk and it blows up in your face." Lupa used her other hand to caress his face.
"Don't forget that Lacy and I will always be here for you."
Lacy tackled them but th into a colossal bear hug. Lemy and Lupa taken by surprise, but not complaining about it. Lemy hugged them back, Lupa being the only one to not partake, but just give a small smile for them both. Now that his two sisters were aware of the situation in hand, he felt more confident to pursue and win Lyra's heart. First thing to do now was to apologise to her and mend the bad behavior he's been giving her. Hopefully his mom and dad could give him some advice, without revealing the actual person in question of course. One step at a time is how he needs to solve this. Now the hardest part of this mission was to commence, to get Lyra to open up to him. Both have hidden feelings and in need to desperately admit them to each other. All it takes is a simple push for gravity to do its job.